My 5 lives as an artist | Raghava KK

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I think it was in my second grade that I was caught

Mislim kako je to bilo u drugom razredu kada sam uhvaćen

drawing the bust of a nude by Michelangelo.

kako crtam poprsje golog tijela od Michelangela.

I was sent straight away to my school principal,

Odmah sam poslan ravno k ravnateljici škole,

and my school principal, a sweet nun,

a moja ravnateljica škole, dražesna časna sestra,

looked at my book with disgust,

je gledala u moju knjigu s gnušanjem,

flipped through the pages, saw all the nudes --

listala je kroz stranice, vidjela sve aktove --

you know, I'd been seeing my mother draw nudes and I'd copy her --

znate, promatrao sam moju majku kako crta aktove i kopirao sam je --

and the nun slapped me on my face and said,

a časna sestra me udarila po licu i rekla,

"Sweet Jesus, this kid has already begun."

"Isuse mili, ovo dijete je već počelo."

I had no clue what she was talking about,

Nisam imao pojma o čemu priča,

but it was convincing enough for me never to draw again

ali bilo je dovoljno uvjerljivo da prestanem crtati

until the ninth grade.

sve do devetog razreda.

Thanks to a really boring lecture,

Zahvaljujući uistinu dosadnom predavanju,

I started caricaturing my teachers in school.

počeo sam crtati karikature svojih učitelja u školi.

And, you know, I got a lot of popularity.

I, znate, dobio sam mnogo na popularnosti.

I don't play sports. I'm really bad at sports.

Ne bavim se sportovima. Doista sam loš u sportovima.

I don't have the fanciest gadgets at home.

Nemam kod kuće najelegantnije uređaje.

I'm not on top of the class.

Nisam među najboljima u razredu.

So for me, cartooning gave me a sense of identity.

Dakle, za mene, crtanje mi je dalo smisao identiteta.

I got popular, but I was scared I'd get caught again.

Postao sam popularan, ali bojao sam se da me ponovno ne uhvate.

So what I did was I quickly put together

Ono što sam učinio jest da sam brzo sastavio

a collage of all the teachers I had drawn,

kolaž svih učitelja koje sam nacrtao,

glorified my school principal, put him right on top,

proslavio mog školskog ravnatelja, stavljajući ga na sam vrh,

and gifted it to him.

i darujući mu taj kolaž.

He had a good laugh at the other teachers

Dobro se nasmijao drugim učiteljima

and put it up on the notice board.

i stavio je to gore na oglasnu ploču.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

This is a part of that.

Ovo je dio toga.

And I became a school hero.

I postao sam junak škole.

All my seniors knew me. I felt really special.

Svi maturanti su me znali. Osjećao sam se doista posebno.

I have to tell you a little bit about my family.

Moram vam reći malo o svojoj obitelji.

That's my mother. I love her to bits.

Ovo je moja majka. Volim je do beskrajnosti.

She's the one who taught me how to draw and, more importantly, how to love.

Ona me naučila kako crtati, i još važnije, kako voljeti.

She's a bit of a hippie.

Ona je pomalo hippie.

She said, "Don't say that," but I'm saying it anyway.

Rekla je, "Nemoj to reći," ali ja ipak to kažem.

The rest of my family are boring academics,

Ostatak moje obitelji su dosadni znanstvenici,

busy collecting Ivy League decals for our classic Ambassador car.

koji su zaposleni skupljajući naljepnice s najboljih sveučilišta za naš klasični Ambassador auto.

My father's a little different.

Moj otac je pomalo drugačiji.

My father believed in a holistic approach to living,

Moj otac je vjerovao u holistički pristup življenju,

and, you know, every time he taught us,

i, znate, svaku put kad bi nas učio,

he'd say, "I hate these books,

rekao bi, "Mrzim te knjige,

because these books are hijacked by Industrial Revolution."

jer te knjige je otela Industrijska revolucija."

While he still held that worldview, I was 16,

Dok je još uvijek imao taj pogled na svijet, ja sam imao 16 godina,

I got the best lawyer in town,

dobio sam najboljeg odvjetnika u gradu,

my older brother Karthik,

svog starijeg brata Karthika,

and I sat him down, and I said, "Pa,

i posjeo sam ga i rekao, "Tata,

from today onwards I've decided

od danas pa nadalje odlučio sam

I'm going to be disciplined,

da ću biti discipliniran,

I'm going to be curious,

da ću biti znatiželjan,

I'm going to learn something new every day,

da ću naučiti nešto novo svaki dan,

I'm going to be very hard working,

da ću biti jako marljiv,

and I'm not going to depend on you

i da se neću oslanjati na tebe

emotionally or financially."

emocionalno ili financijski."

And he was very impressed. He was all tearing up. Ready to hug me.

I on je bio veoma impresioniran. Sav je bio u suzama. Spreman da me zagrli.

And I said, "Hold that thought."

I rekao sam, "Zadrži tu misao."

I said, "Can I quit school then?"

Rekao sam, "Mogu li onda prekinuti školovanje?"

But, to cut a long story short,

Ali, da skratim tu dugačku priču,

I quit school to pursue a career as a cartoonist.

napustio sam školu kako bih slijedio karijeru karikaturiste.

I must have done about 30,000 caricatures.

Mora da sam napravio 30.000 karikatura.

I would do birthday parties, weddings, divorces,

Crtao bih na rođendanskim proslavama, vjenčanjima, razvodima,

anything for anyone who wanted to use my services.

na bilo čemu za bilo koga tko je htio moje usluge.

But, most importantly, while I was traveling,

Ali, najvažnije, dok sam putovao,

I taught children cartooning,

naučio sam djecu crtati,

and in exchange, I learned how to be spontaneous.

a u zamjenu, naučio sam biti spontan.

And mad and crazy and fun.

I lud i šašav i zabavan.

When I started teaching them, I said let me start doing this professionally.

Kada sam ih počeo podučavati, rekao sam dopustite mi da počnem to profesionalno raditi.

When I was 18 I started my own school.

S 18, osnovao sam vlastitu školu.

However, an 18 year-old trying to start a school

Međutim, biti 18-ogodišnjak koji pokušava osnovati svoju školu

is not easy unless you have a big patron

nije lako osim ako imate velikog sponzora

or a big supporter.

ili velikog pobornika.

So I was flipping through the pages of the Times of India

Stoga sam listao kroz stranice Times of India

when I saw that the Prime Minister of India

kada sam ugledao da je Indijski premijer

was visiting my home town, Bangalore.

u posjeti mom rodnom gradu, Bangaloreu.

And, you know, just like how

I, znate, kao što

every cartoonist knows Bush here,

ovdje svaki karikaturist zna Busha,

and if you had to meet Bush,

i kad biste trebali upoznati Busha,

it would be the funnest thing because

bila bi to najsmješnija stvar jer

his face was a cartoonist's delight.

njegovo lice je užitak svakom karikaturistu.

I had to meet my Prime Minister.

Morao sam upoznati svog premijera.

I went to the place where

Otišao sam do mjesta gdje

his helicopter was about to land.

je njegov helikopter trebao sletjeti.

I saw layers of security.

Vidio sam slojeve osiguranja.

I caricatured my way through three layers

Iskarikirao sam put kroz te slojeve

by just impressing the guards,

jednostavno impresionirajući stražare,

but I got stuck. I got stuck at the third.

ali zaglavio sam. Zaglavio sam kod trećeg.

And what happened was, to my luck,

I što se dogodilo, na moju sreću,

I saw a nuclear scientist

ugledao sam nuklearnog znanstvenika

at whose party I had done cartoons.

na čijoj sam proslavi radio crteže.

I ran up to him, and said, "Hello, sir. How do you do?"

Dotrčao sam do njega i rekao, "Dobar dan, gospodine. Kako ste?"

He said, "What are you doing here, Raghava?"

On je rekao, "Što radiš ovdje Raghava?"

I said, "I'm here to meet the Prime Minister."

Rekao sam, "Došao sam se upoznati s premijerom."

He said, "Oh, so am I."

On kaže, "Oh, ja također."

I hopped into his car, and off we went

Uskočio sam u njegov auto, i tako smo prošli

through the remaining layers of security.

kroz ostatak slojeva osiguranja.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

I sat him down, I caricatured him,

Posjeo sam ga, nacrtao ga,

and since then I've caricatured hundreds of celebrities.

i od tada sam crtao stotine slavnih.

This is one I remember fondly.

Ovog se sjećam sa nježnošću.

Salman Rushdie was pissed-off I think

Salman Rushdie se naljutio, mislim,

because I altered the map of New York, if you notice.

jer sam promijenio kartu New Yorka, ako primjećujete.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Anyway, the next slide I'm about to show you --

No, sljedeći slajd koji ću vam prikazati --

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Should I just turn that off?

A da ja to jednostavno ugasim?

The next slide I'm about to show you,

Idući slajd koji ću vam pokazati,

is a little more serious.

je malo ozbiljniji.

I was hesitant to include this in my presentation

Dvoumio sam se da li da stavim ovo u svoju prezentaciju

because this cartoon was published

jer ovaj crtež je objavljen

soon after 9/11.

nedugo nakon 11. rujna.

What was, for me, a very naive observation,

Ono što je za mene bilo, vrlo naivno opažanje,

turned out to be a disaster.

pretvorilo se u katastrofu.

That evening, I came home to hundreds of hate mails,

Te večeri, vratio sam se doma stotinama mailova mržnje.

hundreds of people telling me how they

Stotine ljudi govorilo mi je kako

could have lived another day without seeing this.

su mogli živjeti još jedan dan bez da to vide.

I was also asked to leave the organization,

Ujedno su me zamolili da napustim organizaciju,

a cartoonists' organization in America,

crtačku organizaciju u Americi,

that for me was my lifeline.

koja je za mene bila linija života.

That's when I realized, you know, cartoons are really powerful,

Tada sam shvatio, znate, da su crteži jako moćni,

art comes with responsibility.

umjetnost dolazi s odgovornošću.

Anyway, what I did was I decided

Ono što sam odlučio jest

that I need to take a break.

da trebam uzeti odmor.

I quit my job at the papers, I closed my school,

Ostavio sam svoj posao u novinama, zatvorio sam svoju školu,

and I wrapped up my pencils and my brushes and inks,

i zamotao sam svoje olovke i kistove i tinte,

and I decided to go traveling.

i odlučio sam putovati.

When I went traveling, I remember,

Za vrijeme putovanja, sjećam se,

I met this fabulous old man,

sreo sam tog izvanrednog starca,

who I met when I was caricaturing,

kojeg sam upoznao dok sam crtao,

who turned out to be an artist, in Italy.

a za kojeg se ispostavilo da je umjetnik u Italiji.

He invited me to his studio. He said, "Come and visit."

Pozvao me u svoj studio. Rekao je, "Dođi i posjeti me."

When I went, I saw the ghastliest thing ever.

Kada sam došao, vidio sam najužasniju stvar ikad.

I saw this dead, naked effigy of himself

Ugledao sam tu mrtvu sliku njega

hanging from the ceiling.

kako visi sa stropa.

I said, "Oh, my God. What is that?"

Rekao sam, "O, moj Bože. Što je to?"

And I asked him, and he said,

I pitao sam ga, a on je rekao,

"Oh, that thing? In the night, I die.

"O, ta stvar? Tijekom noći, umrem.

In the morning, I am born again."

Ujutro, ponovno se rodim."

I thought he was koo koo,

Pomislio sam kako je poludio,

but something about that really stuck.

ali nešto kod toga mi je doista ostalo u pamćenju.

I loved it. I thought there was something really beautiful about that.

Volio sam to. Mislio sam kako ima nešto veoma lijepo u tome.

So I said, "I am dead, so I need to be born again."

Pa sam rekao, "Mrtav sam, i trebam biti ponovno rođen."

So, I wanted to be a painter like him,

Želio sam biti slikar poput njega,

except, I don't know how to paint.

osim što ne znam slikati.

So, I tried going to the art store.

Stoga sam pokušao otići do umjetničke trgovine.

You know, there are a hundred types of brushes.

Znate, postoji stotine vrsta kistova.

Forget it, they will confuse you

Zaboravite ih, zbunit će vas

even if you know how to draw.

čak i ako znate crtati.

So I decided, I'm going to learn to paint by myself.

Stoga sam odlučio, naučiti ću sam kako slikati.

I'm going to show you a very quick clip

Pokazat ću vam vrlo kratak isječak

to show you how I painted and a little bit

da vam pokažem kako sam slikao i pomalo

about my city, Bangalore.

o svom gradu, Bangalore-u.

(Music)

(Glazba)

They had to be larger than life.

Morale su biti veće od života.

Everything had to be larger. The next painting was even bigger.

Sve je trebalo biti veće. Iduća slika je bila još veća.

And even bigger.

I još veća.

And for me it was, I had to dance while I painted.

A za mene je bilo, morao sam plesati dok sam slikao.

It was so exciting.

Bilo je tako uzbudljivo.

Except, I even started painting dancers.

Osim, počeo sam slikati plesače.

Here for example is a Flamenco dancer,

Ovdje je, na primjer, plesačica Flamenca,

except there was one problem.

osim što postoji jedan problem.

I didn't know the dance form, so I started following them,

Nisam poznavao plesnu formu, stoga sam ih počeo slijediti,

and I made some money,

i zaradio sam nešto novaca,

sold my paintings and would rush off

prodao svoje slike i odjurio

to France or Spain and work with them.

u Francusku ili Španjolsku kako bih radio s njima.

That's Pepe Linares, the renowned Flamenco singer.

Ovo je Pepe Linares, prestižan Flamenco pjevač.

But I had one problem, my paintings never danced.

Ali imao sam jedan problem, moje slike nikad nisu plesale.

As much energy as I put into them

Koliko god sam energije ulagao u njih

while making them, they never danced.

dok sam ih slikao, one nikad nisu plesale.

So I decided -- I had this crazy epiphany at two in the morning.

Stoga sam odlučio -- imao sam to ludo Bogojavljanje u dva ujutro.

I called my friends, painted on their bodies,

Nazvao sam svoje prijatelje, slikao po njihovim tijelima

and had them dance in front of a painting.

i postavio ih da plešu ispred slike.

And, all of a sudden, my paintings came alive.

I, odjednom, moje slike su oživjele.

And then I was fortunate enough

I zatim sam bio dovoljno sretan

to actually perform this in California with Velocity Circus.

da zapravo nastupim u Velocity cirkusu u Kaliforniji.

And I sat like you guys there in the audience.

I sjedio sam poput vas ovdje u publici.

And I saw my work come alive.

I gledao kako moj rad oživljava.

You know, normally you work in isolation,

Znate, normalno radite u izolaciji,

and you show at a gallery,

i izlažete u galeriji,

but here, the work was coming alive,

ali ovdje, rad je oživio,

and it had some other artists working with me.

i neki drugi umjetnici su radili samnom.

The collaborative effort was fabulous.

Zajednički trud je bio prekrasan.

I said, I'm going to collaborate with anybody and everybody I meet.

Rekao sam, surađivat ću s bilo kime i svima koje upoznam.

I started doing fashion.

Počeo sam raditi u modi.

This is a fashion show we held in London.

Ovo je modni show koji smo održali u Londonu.

The best collaboration, of course, is with children.

Najbolja suradnja, je naravno, s djecom.

They are ruthless, they are honest,

Ona su nemilosrdna, ona su iskrena,

but they're full of energy and fun.

ali ona su puna energije i zabavna.

This is a work, a library I designed for the Robin Hood Foundation.

Ovo je rad, knjižnica koju sam dizajnirao za Robin Hood fondaciju.

And I must say, I spent time in the Bronx

I moram reći, proveo sam vrijeme u Bronksu

working with these kids.

radeći s tom djecom.

And, in exchange for me working with them,

A u zamjenu za to što sam radio s njima,

they taught me how to be cool.

oni su me naučili kako biti frajer.

I don't think I've succeeded, but they've taught me.

Ne mislim kako sam uspio, ali naučili su me.

They said, "Stop saying sorry. Say, my bad."

Rekli su, "Prestani govoriti oprosti. Reci, moja greška."

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Then I said, all this is good,

Tada sam rekao, sve ovo je dobro,

but I want to paint like a real painter.

ali želim slikati poput pravog slikara.

American education is so expensive.

Američko obrazovanje je tako skupo.

I was in India, and I was walking down the streets,

Bio sam u Indiji, i hodao sam niz ulice,

and I saw a billboard painter.

i vidio sam slikara panoa.

And these guys paint humongous paintings,

I ti momci slikaju ogromne slike,

and they look really good.

koje izgledaju zaista dobro.

And I wondered how they did it from so close.

I pitao sam se kako su to radili tako izbliza.

So, one day I had the opportunity to meet one of these guys,

Jedan dan sam imao priliku upoznati jednog od tih momaka,

and I said, "How do you paint like that? Who taught you?"

i rekao sam, "Kako možete ovako slikati? Tko vas je naučio?"

And he said, "Oh, it's very easy. I can teach you,

A on je rekao, "O, vrlo je jednostavno. Mogu vas naučiti,

but we're leaving the city,

ali odlazimo iz grada,

because billboard painters are a dying,

jer slikari panoa su umirajuća,

extinct bunch of artists,

izumrla hrpa umjetnika,

because digital printing has totally replaced them and hijacked them."

jer ih je digitalni print totalno zamijenio i oteo."

I said, in exchange for education in how to paint,

Rekao sam, u zamjenu za podučavanje kako slikati,

I will support them, and I started a company.

podupirat ću ih, i osnovao sam poduzeće.

And since then, I've been painting all over the place.

I od tada, slikam posvuda.

This is a painting I did of my wife in my apartment.

Ovo je slika moje žene u našem stanu.

This is another painting.

Ovo je druga slika.

And, in fact, I started painting on anything,

I, zapravo, počeo sam slikati na bilo čemu,

and started sending them around town.

i počeo sam ih slati po gradu.

Since I mentioned my wife, the most important collaboration

Kako sam spomenuo svoju ženu, najvažnija suradnja

has been with her, Netra.

je bila s njom, Netrom.

Netra and I met when she was 18.

Netra i ja smo se upoznali kada je njoj bilo 18.

I must have been 19 and a half then,

Ja sam imao 19 i pol tada,

and it was love at first sight.

i bila je to ljubav na prvi pogled.

I lived in India. She lived in America.

Ja sam živio u Indiji. Ona je živjela u Americi.

She'd come every two months to visit me,

Ona bi došla svaka dva mjeseca meni u posjetu,

and then I said I'm the man,

i tada sam rekao ja sam muško,

I'm the man, and I have to reciprocate.

ja sam muško, i moram uzvratiti.

I have to travel seven oceans, and I have to come and see you.

Moram putovati preko sedam mora, i moram doći i vidjeti te.

I did that twice, and I went broke.

Učinio sam to i bankrotirao.

So then I said, "Nets, what do I do?"

Tada sam rekao, "Nets, što da radim?"

She said, "Why don't you send me your paintings?

Ona je rekla, "Zašto mi ne pošalješ svoje slike?

My dad knows a bunch of rich guys.

Moj tata poznaje hrpu bogatih ljudi.

We'll try and con them into buying it,

Pokušat ćemo ih navesti da ih kupe,

and then..."

i tada..."

But it turned out, after I sent the works to her,

Ali ispostavilo se da, nakon što sam joj poslao radove,

that her dad's friends,

da su prijatelji njezinog tate,

like most of you, are geeks.

kao i većina vas, šmokljani.

I'm joking.

Šalim se.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

No, they were really big geeks,

Ne, doista su bili veliki šmokljani,

and they didn't know much about art.

i nisu znali mnogo o umjetnosti.

So Netra was stuck with 30 paintings of mine.

Tako je Netra imala mojih 30 slika.

So what we did was we rented a little van

Ono što smo napravili jest da smo unajmili mali kombi

and we drove all over the east coast trying to sell it.

i vozili smo se cijelom istočnom obalom pokušavajući ih prodati.

She contacted anyone and everyone

Ona je kontaktirala bilo koga

who was willing to buy my work.

tko bi mogao kupiti moje radove.

She made enough money, she sold off the whole collection

Zaradila je dovoljno novaca, prodala je cijelu kolekciju

and made enough money to move me for four years

i zaradila dovoljno novaca da me preseli na četiri godine

with lawyers, a company, everything,

s odvjetnicima, poduzećem, svime,

and she became my manager.

i postala je moj menadžer.

That's us in New York.

Ovo smo mi u New Yorku.

Notice one thing,

Primjetite jednu stvar,

we're equal here.

ovdje smo jednaki.

Something happened along the line.

Nešto se dogodilo u međuvremenu.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

But this brought me -- with Netra managing my career --

Ali to mi je donijelo -- Netra upravljajući mojom karijerom --

it brought me a lot of success.

donijelo mi je mnogo uspjeha.

I was really happy. I thought of myself as a bit of a rockstar.

Bio sam doista sretan. Razmišljao sam pomalo o sebi poput rock zvijezde.

I loved the attention.

Sviđala mi se pažnja.

This is all the press we got, and we said,

Ovo je cijela štampa u kojoj smo bili, i rekli smo,

it's time to celebrate.

sada je vrijeme da proslavimo.

And I said that the best way to celebrate is to marry Netra.

I rekao sam kako je najbolji način proslave da udam Netru.

I said, "Let's get married."

Rekao sam, "Udajmo se."

And I said, "Not just married. Let's invite everyone who's helped us,

I rekao sam, "Ne samo udati se. Pozovimo sve koji su nam pomogli,

all the people who bought our work."

sve ljude koji su kupili naše radove."

And you won't believe it, we put together a list of 7,000 people,

I nećete vjerovati, sastavili smo popis od 7.000 ljudi,

who had made a difference -- a ridiculous list,

koji su napravili promjenu -- luda lista,

but I was determined to bring them to India, so --

ali bio sam odlučan da ih dovedem u Indiju, pa --

a lot of them were in India.

mnogo njih je bilo u Indiji.

150 artists volunteered to help me with my wedding.

150 umjetnika je volontiralo kako bi mi pomoglo s vjenčanjem.

We had fashion designers, installation artists,

Imali smo modne dizajnere, umjetnike instalacija,

models, we had makeup artists, jewelry designers,

modele, imali smo vizažiste, dizajnere nakita,

all kinds of people working with me

sve vrste ljudi koji su radili sa mnom

to make my wedding an art installation.

kako bi pretvorili moje vjenčanje u umjetničku instalaciju.

And I had a special installation in tribute to my in-laws.

A u počast ženinim roditeljima napravio sam posebnu instalaciju.

I had the vegetable carvers work on that for me.

Rezbači povrća su napravili ovo za mene.

But all this excitement led

Ali svo to uzbuđenje je vodilo

to the press writing about us.

do pisanja u medijima o nama.

We were in the papers, we're still in the news three years later,

Bili smo u novinama, još uvijek smo u vijestima tri godine kasnije,

but, unfortunately, something tragic happened right after.

ali, nažalost, nešto tragično se dogodilo odmah nakon toga.

My mother fell very ill.

Moja majka se jako razboljela.

I love my mother

Volim svoju majku

and I was told all of a sudden that she was going to die.

i rečeno mi je odjednom da će umrijeti.

And they said you have to say bye to her,

I rekli su mi da se moram pozdraviti s njom,

you have to do what you have to do.

moram učiniti ono što moram učiniti.

And I was devastated.

I bio sam devastiran.

I had shows booked up for another year.

Imao sam izložbe bukirane godinu dana unaprijed.

I was on a high.

Išlo mi je odlično.

And I couldn't. I could not.

I nisam mogao. Nisam mogao.

My life was not exuberant.

Moj život nije bio veseo.

I could not live this larger than life person.

Nisam mogao živjeti životom osobe veće od života.

I started exploring the darker abscesses of the human mind.

Počeo sam istraživati tamnije abscese ljudskog uma.

Of course, my work turned ugly,

Naravno, moji radovi su postali ružni,

but another thing happened.

ali još se nešto dogodilo.

I lost all my audiences.

Izgubio sam svu svoju publiku.

The Bollywood stars who I would party with

Zvijezde Bollywooda s kojima bih odlazio na tulume

and buy my work disappeared.

i koje bi kupovale moje radove, su nestale.

The collectors, the friends, the press,

Kolekcionari, prijatelji, mediji,

everyone said, "Nice, but thank you."

svi su rekli, "Lijepo, ali hvala vam."

"No thank you," was more like it.

Više je bilo nalik na, "Ne, hvala."

But I wanted people to actually

Ali želio sam da ljudi zapravo

feel my work from their gut,

osjete moje radove u njihovoj srži,

because I was painting it from my gut.

jer ja sam slikao iz svoje srži.

If they wanted beauty,

Ukoliko su željeli ljepotu,

I said, this is the beauty I'm willing to give you. It's politicized.

rekao sam, ovo je ljepota koju sam vam spreman dati. Politizirana je.

Of course, none of them liked it.

Naravno, nikome se nije sviđala.

My works also turned autobiographical.

Moji radovi su postali autobiografski.

At this point, something else happened.

U tom periodu, još nešto se dogodilo.

A very, very dear friend of mine

Moj jako, jako dragi prijatelj

came out of the closet,

je izašao "iz ormara",

and in India at that time, it was illegal to be gay,

a u Indiji u to vrijeme, je bilo ilegalno biti homoseksualac,

and it's disgusting to see how people respond to a gay person.

i odvratno je vidjeti kako ljudi reagiraju na homoseksualce.

I was very upset.

Bio sam jako uznemiren.

I remember the time when my mother used to dress me up

Sjećam se vremena kada me majka znala odijevati

as a little girl -- that's me there --

kao malu djevojčicu -- to sam ja tamo --

because she wanted a girl, and she has only boys.

jer je htjela djevojčicu, a ima samo dječake.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Anyway, I don't know what my friends are going to say after this talk.

Kakogod, ne znam što će moji prijatelji reći nakon ovog govora.

It's a secret.

To je tajna.

So, after this, my works turned a little violent.

Dakle, nakon toga, moj rad je postao pomalo nasilan.

I talked about this masculinity that one need not perform.

Pričao sam o toj muškosti koju pojedinac ne mora izvesti.

And I talked about the weakness of male sexuality.

I pričao sam o slabostima muške spolnosti.

This time, not only did my collectors disappear,

Ovaj put, ne samo da su kolekcionari nestali,

the political activists decided to ban me

politički aktivisti su me odlučili prognati

and to threaten me

i prijetiti mi

and to forbid me from showing.

i zabraniti moje prikazivanje.

It turned nasty, and I'm a bit of a chicken.

Postalo je gadno, a ja sam pomalo kukavica.

I can't deal with any threat. This was a big threat.

Ne mogu se nositi ni sa kakvom prijetnjom. Ovo je bila velika prijetnja.

So, I decided it was time

Stoga sam odlučio da je vrijeme

to end and go back home.

da okončam to i odem natrag doma.

This time I said let's try something different.

Ovaj puta sam rekao da moramo probati nešto drugačije.

I need to be reborn again.

Moram ponovno biti rođen.

And I thought the best way, as most of you know who have children,

I razmišljao sam o najboljem načinu, kao što većina vas koji imate djecu zna,

the best way to have a new lease on life,

najbolji način da dobijete novi najam na život,

is to have a child.

je imati dijete.

I decided to have a child,

Odlučio sam imati dijete.

and before I did that, I quickly studied what can go wrong.

I prije nego sam to učinio, proučio sam što može poći po zlu.

How can a family get dysfunctional?

Kako obitelj može postati disfunkcionalna?

And Rudra was born.

I Rudra je rođen.

That's my little son.

Ovo je moj mali sin.

And two magical things happened after he was born.

I dvije magične stvari su se dogodile nakon njegovog rođenja.

My mother miraculously recovered

Moja majka se čudesno oporavila

after a serious operation,

nakon ozbiljne operacije,

and this man was elected president of this country.

a ovaj čovjek je izabran za predsjednika ove zemlje.

You know I sat at home and I watched.

Znate, sjedio sam kod kuće i gledao.

I teared up and I said that's where I want to be.

Plakao sam i rekao da tu želim biti.

So Netra and I wound up our life,

Netra i ja smo ranili naš život,

closed up everything we had,

zatvorili smo sve što smo imali,

and we decided to move to New York.

i odlučili smo se preseliti u New York.

And this was just eight months ago.

A to je bilo prije samo osam mjeseci.

I moved back to New York, my work has changed.

Doselio sam se natrag u New York, moj rad se promijenio.

Everything about my work has become more whimsical.

Sve u mom poslu je postalo kapriciozno.

This one is called "What the Fuck Was I Thinking?"

Ovo se zove, "O čemu sam, jebemu, razmišljao?"

It talks about mental incest.

Govori o mentalnom incestu.

You know, I may appear to be a very nice, clean, sweet boy.

Znate, možda vam se čini kao da sam vrlo drag, čist, ljubazan dečko.

But I'm not. I'm capable of thinking anything.

Ali nisam. Sposoban sam misliti o bilo čemu.

But I'm very civil in my action, I assure you.

Ali, uvjeravam vas, vrlo sam civiliziran u svojim djelima.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

These are just different cartoons.

Ovo su samo različiti crteži.

And, before I go, I want to tell you a little story.

I prije nego odem, želim vam ispričati kratku priču.

I was talking to mother and father this morning,

Pričao sam s majkom i ocem jutros,

and my dad said, "I know you have so much you want to say,

i moj tata je rekao, "Znam da imaš toliko toga što bi želio reći,

but you have to talk about your work with children."

ali moraš pričati o svom radu s djecom."

So I said, okay.

Pa sam rekao, u redu.

I work with children all over the world,

Radim s djecom po cijelom svijetu,

and that's an entirely different talk,

i to je potpuno drugi govor,

but I want to leave you with one story

ali želim vas ostaviti s jednom pričom

that really, really inspired me.

koja me uistinu, uistinu inspirirala.

I met Belinda when she was 16.

Sreo sam Belindu kada joj je bilo 16 godina.

I was 17.

Meni je bilo 17.

I was in Australia,

Bio sam u Australiji,

and Belinda had cancer,

i Belinda je imala rak,

and I was told she's not going to live very long.

i rečeno mi je kako neće živjeti još dugo.

They, in fact, told me three weeks.

Rekli su mi, zapravo, tri tjedna.

I walk into her room, and there was a shy girl,

Uđem u sobu, i tamo je sramežljiva djevojka,

and she was bald, and she was trying to hide her baldness.

i bila je ćelava, i pokušala je sakriti svoju ćelavost.

I whipped out my pen, and I started drawing on her head

Izvadio sam svoju kemijsku olovku i počeo crtati po njezinoj glavi

and I drew a crown for her.

i nacrtao sam joj krunu.

And then, we started talking, and we spent a lovely time --

I zatim, počeli smo pričati, i divno smo se proveli --

I told her how I ended up in Australia,

ispričao sam joj kako sam završio u Australiji,

how I backpacked and who I conned, and how I got a ticket,

kako sam putovao s ruksakom i koga sam prevario, te kako sam došao do karte,

and all the stories.

i sve te priče.

And I drew it out for her.

I to sam joj nacrtao.

And then I left.

I zatim sa otišao.

Belinda died

Belinda je umrla,

and within a few days of her death,

i nekoliko dana nakon njezine smrti,

they published a book for her,

objavili su njezinu knjigu,

and she used my cartoon on the cover.

i stavila je moj crtež na naslovnicu.

And she wrote a little note, she said,

I napisala je malu bilješku, rekla je,

"Hey Rags, thank you for the magic carpet ride around the world."

"Hej Rags, hvala ti na magičnom putovanju na letećem sagu oko svijeta."

For me, my art is my magic carpet ride.

Za mene, moja umjetnost je moje putovanje magičnim letećim sagom.

I hope you will join me in this magic carpet ride,

Nadam se da ćete mi se pridružiti u tom putovanju magičnim letećim sagom,

and touch children and be honest.

i da ćete dirnuti djecu i biti iskreni.

Thank you so much.

Puno vam hvala.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)