Islamophobia killed my brother. Let's end the hate | Suzanne Barakat

翻译人员: Conway Ye 校对人员: jonathan oleg

去年，

Last year,

three of my family members were gruesomely murdered

我的三个家人在一次复仇的犯罪中，

in a hate crime.

被残忍的杀害了。

现在我站在这里，

It goes without saying that it's really difficult

for me to be here today,

不用说是很困难的，

but my brother Deah,

但是我的弟弟迪亚，

his wife Yusor,

他的妻子尤瑟，

and her sister Razan

和他的妹妹拉赞

don't give me much of a choice.

没有给我很多选择。

I'm hopeful that by the end of this talk you will make a choice,

我希望这个演讲结束， 你们会给我一个选择，

and join me in standing up against hate.

加入我，抵抗仇恨。

It's December 27, 2014:

2014年12月17号，

the morning of my brother's wedding day.

我弟弟婚礼那天的早晨，

他要我到他那儿，帮他整理头发，

He asks me to come over and comb his hair

为婚礼的拍摄做准备。

in preparation for his wedding photo shoot.

A 23-year-old, six-foot-three basketball, particularly Steph Curry, fanatic --

一个23岁，1米9， 喜欢斯蒂芬库里的篮球爱好者，

(Laughter)

（笑声）

An American kid in dental school ready to take on the world.

一个准备走入社会的美国牙科学生。

When Deah and Yusor have their first dance,

当迪亚和尤瑟跳了第一支舞。

I see the love in his eyes,

我从他的眼睛和她的欢乐里

her reciprocated joy,

看到了爱情。

and my emotions begin to overwhelm me.

我开始抑制不住自己的情绪。

我走到了大厅后面，泪水夺眶而出。

I move to the back of the hall and burst into tears.

And the second the song finishes playing,

第二首歌结束了，

he beelines towards me,

他冲向我，

buries me into his arms

把我埋入他的怀里，

前后摇晃着我，

and rocks me back and forth.

Even in that moment,

即使在那个时候，

一切都很吵杂，

when everything was so distracting,

他跟我还是很协调。

he was attuned to me.

He cups my face and says,

他搂着我的脸，说

"Suzanne,

“苏赞，

I am who I am because of you.

我到现在这样都是因为你。

谢谢你所做的一切。

Thank you for everything.

I love you."

我爱你。”

About a month later, I'm back home in North Carolina for a short visit,

大约一个月后， 我从北加州短暂回到家乡，

and on the last evening, I run upstairs to Deah's room,

最后一个晚上， 我跑上楼到迪亚的房间，

eager to find out how he's feeling being a newly married man.

渴望想知道他结婚后的感觉，

With a big boyish smile he says,

他带着男孩般的笑容说，

“我非常开心，我爱她。 她是一个很棒的女孩。”

"I'm so happy. I love her. She's an amazing girl."

And she is.

她是这样的。

At just 21, she'd recently been accepted to join Deah

21岁的她刚刚被迪亚就读

at UNC dental school.

的UNC牙科学校录取。

She shared his love for basketball, and at her urging,

他们都很喜欢篮球，

她希望以他们最喜欢队伍的 一场NBA比赛开始他们的蜜月。

they started their honeymoon off attending their favorite team of the NBA,

the LA Lakers.

洛杉矶湖人。

I mean, check out that form.

看看这个动作。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

I'll never forget that moment sitting there with him --

我永远不会 忘记那个时刻，坐在他旁边，

他沉浸在欢乐之中。

how free he was in his happiness.

My littler brother, a basketball-obsessed kid,

我的弟弟，一个热爱篮球的孩子，

变成了一个颇有成就的年轻人。

had become and transformed into an accomplished young man.

He was at the top of his dental school class,

他在牙科学校名列前茅，

and alongside Yusor and Razan,

和尤瑟、拉赞

was involved in local and international community service projects

参与了一个当地 和国际的社区服务项目

dedicated to the homeless and refugees,

为了无家可归的人和难民，

including a dental relief trip they were planning

包括一个他们计划的牙科学术旅行，

为了土耳其的叙利亚难民。

for Syrian refugees in Turkey.

Razan, at just 19,

拉赞只有19岁，

used her creativity as an architectural engineering student

作为一个建筑工程系学生， 用她的创造力

to serve those around her,

服务于身边的人，

making care packages for the local homeless,

给当地无家可归的 人们制作关怀包裹，

among other projects.

和其他项目。

That is who they were.

他们是这样的。

Standing there that night,

那个晚上，我站在那里，

I take a deep breath and look at Deah and tell him,

我深呼吸，看着迪亚说：

"I have never been more proud of you than I am in this moment."

“我从来没有比 现在更为你感到骄傲。”

He pulls me into his tall frame,

他把我搂入怀抱，

hugs me goodnight,

拥抱我并道晚安，

and I leave the next morning without waking him

第二个早上我没有叫醒他就动身

to go back to San Francisco.

返回旧金山了。

That is the last time I ever hug him.

这是我最后一次拥抱他。

Ten days later, I'm on call at San Francisco General Hospital

十天后，我在旧金山医院值班，

when I receive a barrage of vague text messages expressing condolences.

我收到了很多吊唁的短信。

Confused, I call my father, who calmly intones,

疑惑中，我给父亲打了电话， 他平静地说，

"There's been a shooting in Deah's neighborhood in Chapel Hill.

“在教堂山迪亚的社区 发生了一起枪击案，

It's on lock-down. That's all we know."

现在被封锁了，这是我知道的全部。”

I hang up and quickly Google, "shooting in Chapel Hill."

我挂断电话， 迅速上网搜索了”教堂山枪击“，

One hit comes up.

出现了一条新闻，

Quote:

是这样的：

"Three people were shot in the back of the head

“三人被从身后击中，

and confirmed dead on the scene."

被确定死亡。”

Something in me just knows.

冥冥之中我知道。

I fling out of my chair and faint onto the gritty hospital floor,

我摔下椅子， 晕倒在冰冷的医院地板上，

wailing.

哭泣着。

I take the first red-eye out of San Francisco,

我带着哭红的眼睛到了洛杉矶，

numb and disoriented.

盲目和迷茫。

I walk into my childhood home and faint into my parents' arms,

我走进儿时的家， 晕倒在父母的怀抱里，

sobbing.

抽泣着。

我跑进迪亚的房间，像我往常一样，

I then run up to Deah's room as I did so many times before,

寻找他，

just looking for him,

only to find a void that will never be filled.

却只找到了一个 永远不会被填满的空洞。

Investigation and autopsy reports eventually revealed

调查和尸检终于揭示

事情的经过。

the sequence of events.

迪亚刚刚下了从学校的巴士。

Deah had just gotten off the bus from class,

Razan was visiting for dinner,

拉赞拜访他家，

already at home with Yusor.

和尤瑟在他家吃晚饭，

As they began to eat, they heard a knock on the door.

当他们开始吃晚饭的时候， 他们听到敲门声，

When Deah opened it,

当迪亚开门的时候，

their neighbor proceeded to fire multiple shots at him.

那个邻居开始朝他连开数枪，

According to 911 calls,

根据911的电话记录，

the girls were heard screaming.

有人听到女孩尖叫。

The man turned towards the kitchen and fired a single shot into Yusor's hip,

那个男人走向厨房， 向尤瑟的臀部开了一枪，

immobilizing her.

使她无法动弹。

He then approached her from behind,

他从后面接近她，

把枪口对着她的头，

pressed the barrel of his gun against her head,

and with a single bullet, lacerated her midbrain.

一颗子弹撕裂了她的脑部。

He then turned towards Razan, who was screaming for her life,

他又转向尖叫的拉赞，

and, execution-style, with a single bullet

像死刑似的，一颗子弹

to the back of the head,

射入了她的脑后，

killed her.

杀了她。

On his way out,

在他出去的路上，

he shot Deah one last time -- a bullet in the mouth --

他朝迪亚嘴里射了最后一枪，

for a total of eight bullets:

总共八颗子弹，

两颗在头部，

two lodged in the head,

two in his chest

两颗在他胸部，

and the rest in his extremities.

剩下的再他的四肢。

Deah, Yusor and Razan were executed

迪亚，尤瑟和拉赞

在一个本应该安全 的地方——他们的家被杀害，

in a place that was meant to be safe: their home.

For months, this man had been harassing them:

几个月来， 这个男人一直在骚扰他们，

knocking on their door,

敲他们家的门，

brandishing his gun on a couple of occasions.

有时炫耀他的枪。

His Facebook was cluttered with anti-religion posts.

他的脸书充满了反宗教的推文。

Yusor felt particularly threatened by him.

尤瑟尤其感觉被他威胁，

As she was moving in,

在她搬进去的时候，

he told Yusor and her mom that he didn't like the way they looked.

他告诉尤瑟和她的母亲 他不喜欢她们的长相。

In response, Yusor's mom told her to be kind to her neighbor,

尤瑟的母亲告诉她善待她的邻居，

that as he got to know them,

当他熟悉她们后，

he'd see them for who they were.

他会知道她们是怎样的人。

I guess we've all become so numb to the hatred

我想我们都对仇恨如此麻木，

that we couldn't have ever imagined it turning into fatal violence.

以至于我们想象 不到会有致命的报复。

The man who murdered my brother turned himself in to the police

那个谋杀我弟弟的男人在谋杀后

shortly after the murders,

投案自首，

saying he killed three kids,

说他杀死了三个孩子，

execution-style,

死刑般的，

over a parking dispute.

因为一个停车位的争执。

The police issued a premature public statement that morning,

那个早上警察公布了 一个未完善的声明，

echoing his claims without bothering to question it

没有质疑

or further investigate.

或者进一步的调查。

It turns out there was no parking dispute.

结果并不是停车位争执，

There was no argument.

根本没有争吵，

No violation.

没有侵犯。

But the damage was already done.

但是伤害已经完成。

In a 24-hour media cycle,

24小时的媒体宣传，

the words "parking dispute" had already become the go-to sound bite.

“停车位争执”这个词已经广泛流传。

I sit on my brother's bed and remember his words,

我坐在我弟弟的床上， 回忆他说的话，

the words he gave me so freely and with so much love,

他对我说过的话带着那么多的爱，

“我到现在这样都是因为你。”

"I am who I am because of you."

That's what it takes for me to climb through my crippling grief

就是这句话使我战胜悲伤，

and speak out.

并表明我的意见。

我不能让我家人的死贬低到

I cannot let my family's deaths be diminished to a segment

that is barely discussed on local news.

几乎不在本地新闻讨论的类别。

They were murdered by their neighbor because of their faith,

他们被他们的邻居所谋杀， 因为他们的信仰，

because of a piece of cloth they chose to don on their heads,

因为一件他们用来遮蔽他们头发的衣服，

because they were visibly Muslim.

因为他们明显是穆斯林。

Some of the rage I felt at the time

那时候我感觉到的愤怒，

was that if roles were reversed,

是如果角色反转，

and an Arab, Muslim or Muslim-appearing person

一个阿拉伯穆斯林 或者穆斯林长相的人

had killed three white American college students execution-style,

死刑似的在他们家杀害了

三个白人美国大学生，

in their home,

what would we have called it?

我们会怎么称这件事？

恐怖袭击。

A terrorist attack.

When white men commit acts of violence in the US,

当白人在美国犯罪，

they're lone wolves,

他们是独行侠，

mentally ill

精神异常，

or driven by a parking dispute.

或者因停车位争吵。

I know that I have to give my family voice,

我知道我一定要为我家人发声，

and I do the only thing I know how:

我做了我唯一知道的事情：

我向我在社交媒体里认识 的所有人发了一条脸书消息。

I send a Facebook message to everyone I know in media.

A couple of hours later,

几个小时后，

in the midst of a chaotic house overflowing with friends and family,

混乱的家中充满了朋友和家人，

our neighbor Neal comes over, sits down next to my parents

我们的邻居尼尔来了， 坐在我父母的身边，

and asks, "What can I do?"

并问：“我能做什么？”

Neal had over two decades of experience in journalism,

尼尔在新闻界有超过二十年的经验，

but he makes it clear that he's not there in his capacity as journalist,

但是他表示他没有能力担任一个记者，

but as a neighbor who wants to help.

但是作为一个希望帮助的邻居，

I ask him what he thinks we should do,

我问他他觉我们该做什么，

given the bombardment of local media interview requests.

来面对当地媒体访谈请求的炮击。

He offers to set up a press conference at a local community center.

他提出在当地社区中心 开一个媒体发布会，

Even now I don't have the words to thank him.

到现在我都不知道怎么感谢他。

"Just tell me when, and I'll have all the news channels present," he said.

“就告诉我什么时候， 我会让所有新闻频道出席，”他说。

He did for us what we could not do for ourselves

他为我们做了我们做不到的事情，

在极度悲伤之中。

in a moment of devastation.

I delivered the press statement,

我做了发布会，

still wearing scrubs from the previous night.

穿着前个晚上的手术服。

And in under 24 hours from the murders,

谋杀发生后的24小时内，

I'm on CNN being interviewed by Anderson Cooper.

我在CNN上被安德森库伯采访。

第二天，主要的报纸

The following day, major newspapers --

including the New York Times, Chicago Tribune --

包括纽约时报、芝加哥论坛报

published stories about Deah, Yusor and Razan,

发布了关于迪亚，尤瑟和拉赞的事情，

allowing us to reclaim the narrative

让我们能够说出实情真相，

and call attention the mainstreaming of anti-Muslim hatred.

并向主流媒体呼吁对 反穆斯林仇恨的关注。

These days,

这几天，

it feels like Islamophobia is a socially acceptable form of bigotry.

感觉像是伊斯兰恐惧症 是一个可以接受的偏执行为。

We just have to put up with it and smile.

我们只能带着微笑接受。

The nasty stares,

令人讨厌的注视，

the palpable fear when boarding a plane,

当登上一架飞机时明显的恐惧，

the random pat downs at airports that happen 99 percent of the time.

99%在机场会发生的任意的搜身。

还不止这样。

It doesn't stop there.

我们还有政客削弱 我们的政治和经济利益。

We have politicians reaping political and financial gains off our backs.

Here in the US,

在美国，

we have presidential candidates like Donald Trump,

我们有像唐纳德特朗普 这样的总统候选人，

casually calling to register American Muslims,

呼吁登记美国穆斯林，

and ban Muslim immigrants and refugees from entering this country.

禁止穆斯林移民和难民进入国家。

It is no coincidence that hate crimes rise

这并不奇怪，仇恨犯罪随

选举而发生。

in parallel with election cycles.

Just a couple months ago, Khalid Jabara,

几个月前，哈立德贾巴拉，

一个黎巴嫩裔美国基督教徒，

a Lebanese-American Christian,

was murdered in Oklahoma by his neighbor --

在俄克拉荷马被他的邻居谋杀，

a man who called him a "filthy Arab."

一个称他为“肮脏的阿拉伯人”的男人。

This man was previously jailed for a mere 8 months,

这个男人在尝试 开车撞哈立德母亲后，

after attempting run over Khalid's mother with his car.

只被囚禁了8个月。

Chances are you haven't heard Khalid's story,

可能你不知道哈立德的事情，

because it didn't make it to national news.

因为他没上国家新闻。

The least we can do is call it what it is:

至少我们能做的，就是称其为

仇恨犯罪。

a hate crime.

The least we can do is talk about it,

至少我们能做的，就是谈论它，

because violence and hatred doesn't just happen in a vacuum.

因为暴力和仇恨不会凭空发生。

Not long after coming back to work,

回到工作后不久，

I'm the senior on rounds in the hospital,

我在医院照顾老人，

when one of my patients looks over at my colleague,

当我的病人之一看着我的同事，

在她身边打手势， 并说：“圣博娜迪诺。”

gestures around her face and says, "San Bernardino,"

referencing a recent terrorist attack.

暗指最近的恐怖袭击。

Here I am having just lost three family members to Islamophobia,

我刚刚因为 伊斯兰恐惧症失去了三位家人，

having been a vocal advocate within my program

刚刚在活动中倡导了

on how to deal with such microaggressions,

如何面对这种微小挑衅，

and yet --

但是，

silence.

沉默。

I was disheartened.

我感到沮丧，

Humiliated.

屈辱。

Days later rounding on the same patient,

几天后，我照顾同一个病人，

she looks at me and says,

她看着我，并说：

"Your people are killing people in Los Angeles."

“你的人正在洛杉矶杀人。”

I look around expectantly.

我期待地望向身边，

Again:

再一次，

silence.

沉默。

I realize that yet again,

我意识到，

I have to speak up for myself.

我需要再为自己发声，

I sit on her bed and gently ask her,

我坐在她的床上温柔地问她，

"Have I ever done anything but treat you with respect and kindness?

“我是不是一直 以尊重和友好对待你？

Have I done anything but give you compassionate care?"

我是不是一直细心地照顾你？”

她低下头，意识到她说的是错的，

She looks down and realizes what she said was wrong,

and in front of the entire team,

在整个团队前，

she apologizes and says,

她道歉并说，

"I should know better. I'm Mexican-American.

“我应该考虑的更周到一点， 我是一个墨西哥裔美国人，

I receive this kind of treatment all the time."

我也经常受到这种对待。”

Many of us experience microaggressions on a daily basis.

我们中的很多人 每天都会受到微小的挑衅，

可能你经历过微小的挑衅，

Odds are you may have experienced it,

whether for your race,

因为你的种族，

gender,

性别，

性取向，

sexuality

or religious beliefs.

或者宗教信仰。

We've all been in situations where we've witnessed something wrong

我们都曾经处在一种情况中， 就是我们目击了一些错误的事情，

and didn't speak up.

却不说出来。

我们可能在那个时候不知道如何回答，

Maybe we weren't equipped with the tools to respond in the moment.

Maybe we weren't even aware of our own implicit biases.

我们可能甚至不知道我们的潜在歧视，

We can all agree that bigotry is unacceptable,

我们都可以同意暴力是无法接受的，

but when we see it,

但当我们看到它的时候，

we're silent,

我们却是沉默的，

因为这让我们不舒服。

because it makes us uncomfortable.

But stepping right into that discomfort

但是直面这种不舒服

意味着你加入了团队。

means you are also stepping into the ally zone.

There may be over three million Muslims in America.

在美国可能有超过三百万的穆斯林。

That's still just one percent of the total population.

但是这只是1%的人口。

Martin Luther King once said,

马丁路德金曾说过，

"In the end,

“最后，

we will remember not the words of our enemies,

我们不会记得我们敌人所说的话，

只会记得朋友的沉默。”

but the silence of our friends."

So what made my neighbor Neal's allyship so profound?

所以是什么使邻居 尼尔的团队关系那么深刻？

A couple of things.

几件事情。

他作为一个关心的邻居，

He was there as a neighbor who cared,

but he was also bringing in his professional expertise and resources

他也带来了他的专业知识和资源

when the moment called for it.

当情况需要的时候。

Others have done the same.

其他人也做了一样的事情。

拉丽莎霍金，

Larycia Hawkins drew on her platform

as the first tenured African-American professor at Wheaton College

作为在惠顿学院的 第一个非裔美国人终身教授，

戴着面纱，为了团结

to wear a hijab in solidarity

with Muslim women who face discrimination every day.

每天面对歧视的穆斯林女性。

结果，她失去了工作。

As a result, she lost her job.

Within a month,

一个月内，

she joined the faculty at the University of Virginia,

她成为了弗吉尼亚大学的员工，

where she now works on pluralism, race, faith and culture.

她现在工作于多元化、 种族、信仰和文化领域。

Reddit cofounder, Alexis Ohanian,

Reddit的合伙创始人， 亚历克西斯厄西尼亚，

demonstrated that not all active allyship needs to be so serious.

展示了不是所有的 活跃团队都要很严肃。

他参与支持一个 15岁穆斯林女孩的任务

He stepped up to support a 15-year-old Muslim girl's mission

to introduce a hijab emoji.

在emoji中加入一个面纱。

（笑声）

(Laughter)

一个简单的姿势，

It's a simple gesture,

but it has a significant subconscious impact

但却有着重要的潜意识的影响

on normalizing and humanizing Muslims,

在平常化和人道主义化穆斯林，

including the community as a part of an "us"

包括把其列为我们，

而不是其他。

instead of an "other."

The editor in chief of Women's Running magazine

女性主导杂志的主编，

just put the first hijabi to ever be on the cover of a US fitness magazine.

刚刚第一次把穆斯林面纱放在封面。

这些都是很不同的例子

These are all very different examples

of people who drew upon their platforms and resources

关于人们使用他们的平台和资源

in academia, tech and media,

在学术，科技和媒体，

积极表达他们的团队精神。

to actively express their allyship.

What resources and expertise do you bring to the table?

你能带来什么资源和技能？

Are you willing to step into your discomfort

你愿意直面不舒服

and speak up when you witness hateful bigotry?

在你目击可恶的偏执行为时， 说出你的意见？

Will you be Neal?

你会像尼尔那样吗？

Many neighbors appeared in this story.

许多邻居在这个故事出现。

And you, in your respective communities, all have a Muslim neighbor,

你，在你的社区，有一个穆斯林邻居，

colleague

同事，

or friend your child plays with at school.

或者你的孩子在学校的玩伴。

Reach out to them.

帮助他们。

Let them know you stand with them in solidarity.

让他们知道你在他们身边。

It may feel really small,

这可能感觉很小，

but I promise you it makes a difference.

但是我向你保证会有所改变。

Nothing will ever bring back Deah, Yusor and Razan.

没有事情会带回迪亚、尤瑟和拉赞。

But when we raise our collective voices,

但当我们一起说出我们的心声

这就是仇恨停止的时候。

that is when we stop the hate.

Thank you.

谢谢。

(Applause)

（鼓掌）