The press trampled on my privacy. Here's how I took back my story | Kate Stone

Prevodilac: Dragana Savanovic Lektor: Ivana Korom

Five years ago, I stood on the TED stage, and I spoke about my work.

Pre pet godina sam stajala na bini TED-a i govorila o svom poslu.

But one year later,

Ali godinu dana kasnije,

I had a terrible accident as I left a pub one dark night with friends,

imala sam užasnu nesreću dok sam išla iz paba jedne mračne noći sa prijateljima,

in Scotland.

u Škotskoj.

As we followed the path through a forest, I suddenly felt a massive thud,

Dok smo išli putem kroz šumu, odjednom sam osetila snažan udarac,

then a second thud,

a onda i drugi,

and I fell to the ground.

i pala sam na zemlju.

I had no idea what had hit me.

Nisam imala pojma šta me je snašlo.

I later found out that when the gate was opened on a garden,

Kasnije sam saznala da je kapija neke bašte bila otvorena,

a wild stag stampeded along the path and ran straight into me.

pa je divlji jelen protutnjao stazom i naleteo pravo na mene.

Its antler penetrated my trachea and my esophagus

Njegovi rogovi su mi proboli dušnik i jednjak,

and stopped at my spinal cord and fractured my neck.

stali kod kičmene moždine i slomili mi vrat.

My best friend found me lying on the floor,

Najbolja prijateljica me je našla kako ležim na podu,

gurgling for help through a hole in my neck.

grgoćući u pomoć kroz rupu na vratu.

And we locked eyes, and although I couldn't speak,

Fiksirala sam je pogledom, i iako nisam mogla da govorim,

she could understand what I was thinking.

ona je znala o čemu sam razmišljala.

And she told me, "Just breathe."

Rekla mi je: „Samo diši.“

And so, whilst focusing on my breath, I had a strong sense of calmness,

I tako, dok sam se fokusirala na disanje, obuzeo me je snažan osećaj mira,

but I was certain that I was going to die.

ali sam bila sigurna da ću umreti.

Somehow, I was content with this,

Nekako, to me je činilo zadovoljnom,

because I've always tried to do my best in life whenever I can.

jer sam se u životu uvek trudila da budem najbolja, kad god sam mogla.

So I just continued to enjoy each breath as one more moment --

Pa sam samo nastavila da uživam u svakom dahu kao u još jednom trenutku -

one breath in and one breath out.

jedan udah i jedan izdah.

An ambulance came, I was still fully conscious,

Hitna pomoć je stigla, bila sam potpuno svesna,

and I analyzed everything on the journey, because I'm a scientist:

i analizirala sam sve tokom puta, jer ja sam naučnik:

the sound of the tires on the road, the frequency of the street lights

zvuk guma na drumu, učestalost uličnih svetiljki,

and eventually, the city street lights.

i na kraju, gradska ulična svetla.

And I thought, "Maybe I will survive."

Pomislila sam: „Možda ću preživeti.“

And then I passed out.

A onda sam se onesvestila.

I was stabilized at a local hospital and then airlifted to Glasgow,

Stabilizovali su me u lokalnoj bolnici a zatim vazdušno transportovali u Glazgov,

where they reconstructed my throat and put me in a coma.

gde su mi rekonstruisali dušnik i stavili me u komu.

And while I was in the coma, I had many alternate realities.

Dok sam bila u komi, doživela sam mnoge alternativne stvarnosti.

It was like a crazy mix of "Westworld" and "Black Mirror."

Bio je to ludi spoj „Zapadnog sveta“ i „Crnog ogledala.“

But that's a whole other story.

Ali to je neka druga priča.

My local TV station reported live from outside the hospital

Lokalna TV stanica je uživo izveštavala ispred bolnice

of a Cambridge scientist who was in a coma,

o naučnici sa Kembridža koja je bila u komi,

and they didn't know if she would live or die or walk or talk.

i za koju se nije znalo hoće li živeti ili umreti, hodati ili pričati.

And a week later, I woke up from that coma.

Nedelju dana kasnije, probudila sam se iz kome.

And that was the first gift.

I to je bio prvi dar.

Then I had the gift to think, the gift to move,

Onda sam dobila dar da mislim, dar da se pomeram,

the gift to breathe

da dišem

and the gift to eat and to drink.

i dar da jedem i pijem.

That took three and a half months.

To je trajalo tri i po meseca.

But there was one thing that I never got back, though,

Ipak, ima jedna stvar koju mi nikada nisu vratili,

and that was my privacy.

a to je moja privatnost.

The tabloid press made the story about gender.

Tabloidi su napisali priču o rodu.

Look -- I'm transgender, it's not that big a deal.

Vidite - ja sam transrodna osoba, nije to ništa strašno.

Like, my hair color or my shoe size is way more interesting.

Pa i moja boja kose ili veličina cipela su mnogo zanimljiviji.

When I last spoke here --

Kada sam poslednji put govorila ovde -

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When I last spoke here --

Kada sam poslednji put govorila ovde -

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at TED, I didn't talk about it, because it's boring.

na TED-u, nisam govorila o tome, jer je dosadno.

And one Scottish newspaper ran with the headline:

Jedan škotski list je izašao sa naslovom:

"Sex Swap Scientist Gored by Stag."

„Transrodnu naučnicu probo jelen.“

And five others did similar things.

I pet drugih listova uradilo je slično.

And for a minute, I was angry.

Na minut, bila sam ljuta.

But then I found my calm place.

Ali onda sam pronašla mir.

And what ran through my head was, "They've crossed the wrong woman,

Evo šta mi je prošlo kroz glavu: „Igraju se sa pogrešnom ženom,

and they're not going to know what's hit them."

i neće znati šta ih je snašlo.“

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I'm a kindness ninja.

Ja sam nindža ljubaznosti.

I don't really know what a ninja does,

Zapravo i ne znam šta nindža radi,

but to me, they slip through the shadows, crawl through the sewers,

ali za mene, oni se kreću tiho, puzaju kroz kanalizaciju,

skip across the rooftops,

preskaču krovove,

and before you know it, they're behind you.

i pre nego što shvatite, iza vas su.

They don't turn up with an army or complain,

Oni se ne pojavljuju sa vojskom, niti se žale,

and they're laser-focused on a plan.

i laserski su fokusirani na plan.

So when I lay in my hospital bed,

Dok sam ležala u bolničkom krevetu,

I thought of my plan to help reduce the chances

smislila sam plan kako da smanjim šanse

of them doing this to somebody else,

da to urade nekom drugom,

by using the system as is, and paying the price of sacrificing my privacy.

koristeći sistem kakav jeste, a po cenu žrtvovanja svoje privatnosti.

What they told one million people, I will tell 10 million people.

Ono što su oni rekli milionu ljudi, ja ću reći 10 miliona ljudi.

Because when you're angry, people defend themselves.

Jer kad su besni, ljudi se brane.

So I didn't attack them,

Ja ih nisam napadala,

and they were defenseless.

pa su bili bespomoćni.

I wrote kind and calm letters to these newspapers.

Pisala sam ljubazna i smirena pisma ovim novinama.

And The Sun newspaper, the kind of "Fox News" of the UK,

Novine „The Sun“, pandan novinama „Fox News“ u UK,

thanked me for my "reasoned approach."

su mi zahvalile na „razumnom pristupu.“

I asked for no apology, no retraction, no money,

Nisam tražila ni izvinjenje, ni povlačenje vesti, ni novac,

just an acknowledgment that they broke their own rules,

samo priznanje da su prekršili sopstvena pravila,

and what they did was just wrong.

i da je to što su uradili pogrešno.

And on this journey, I started to learn who they are,

I na ovom putu, saznala sam ko su oni,

and they began to learn who I am.

a oni ko sam ja.

And we actually became friends.

I zapravo smo se sprijateljili.

I've even had a few glasses of wine with Philippa from The Sun since then.

Od tada sam čak popila par čaša vina sa Filipom iz lista „The Sun.“

And after three months, they all agreed,

Tri meseca kasnije, svi su se složili,

and the statements were published on a Friday,

izjave su objavljene jednog petka,

and that was the end of that.

i to je bilo to.

Or so they thought.

Bar su oni tako mislili.

On the Saturday, I went on the evening news,

U subotu sam bila u večernjim vestima,

with the headline "Six National Newspapers Admit They Were Wrong."

sa naslovom „Šest nacionalnih listova priznaju da su pogrešili.“

And the anchor said to me,

Voditelj me je pitao:

"But don't you think it's our job as journalists

„Zar ne misliš da je posao novinara

to sensationalize a story?"

da senzacionalizujemo priču?“

And I said, "I was laying on a forest floor, gored by a stag.

Rekla sam mu: „Ja sam ležala na šumskom putu, jelen me je probo.

Is that not sensational enough?"

Zar to nije dovoljno senzacionalno?“

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

And I was now writing the headlines.

Sada sam ja ispisivala naslove.

My favorite one was,

Omiljeni mi je bio:

"The stag trampled on my throat, and the press trampled on my privacy."

„Jelen mi je zgazio dušnik, a štampa privatnost.“

It was the most read piece of BBC News online that day.

Bio je to najčitaniji članak na onlajn vestima BBC-ja tog dana.

And I was kind of having fun.

A ja sam se zabavljala.

And by the end of my week of media,

Do kraja moje nedelje u medijima,

I started to use my newfound voice and platform

počela sam da koristim svoj novootkriveni glas i platformu

to spread a message of love and kindness.

za širenje poruka ljubavi i dobrote.

And when I had the minute of anger and hatred

Kada sam osetila tu ljutnju i mržnju

towards those press and journalists,

prema štampi i novinarima,

I had to identify my inner bigotry towards them.

morala sam da prepoznam svoju unutrašnju netrpeljivost prema njima.

And I had to meet and speak with these people

Morala sam da se sastanem i popričam sa tim ljudima

without judgment.

bez predrasuda.

I had to let myself understand them,

Morala sam da probam da ih razumem,

and in return, they began to understand me.

a za uzvrat, oni su počeli da razumeju mene.

Well, six months later, they asked me to join the committee

Šest meseci kasnije, pozvali su me da se pridružim odboru

that regulates the press.

koji reguliše štampu.

And a few times a year, I sip tea and dip biscuits

Nekoliko puta godišnje, pijem čaj i grickam keks

with the likes of Daily Mail editor Paul Dacre, who says to me,

sa ljudima kao što je urednik lista „Daily Mail“ Pol Dejkr, koji me pita,

"So, Kate, how have your last few months been?"

„Pa, Kejt, kakvi su ti bili prethodni meseci?“

And I respect them.

Poštujem ih.

And I'm now one of three members of the public

Sada sam jedan od tri člana javnosti

who has a seat at the table --

koji sede za stolom -

not because I'm different,

ne zato što sam drugačija,

but because my voice counts, just like anybody else.

već zato što se moj glas računa, baš kao i bilo čiji.

And the irony is,

Ironija je što me,

every now and again, I'm asked to visit those printing presses

s vremena na vreme, pozovu u posetu štamparijama

of this declining industry,

ove industrije koja propada,

because some people think

jer neki ljudi misle

that the technology I spoke about here, last time at TED, my interactive print,

da tehnologija o kojoj sam ovde govorila, prošli put na TED-u, interaktivna štampa,

might actually help save them.

može zapravo da ih spase.

So beware of your inner bigot,

Čuvajte se svoje unutrašnje netrpeljivosti,

and make friends from your enemies.

i napravite prijatelje od svojih neprijatelja.

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

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