The press trampled on my privacy. Here's how I took back my story | Kate Stone

Prevoditelj: Nikolina Daka Recezent: Sanda L

Five years ago, I stood on the TED stage, and I spoke about my work.

Prije pet godina, stajala sam na TED pozornici i pričala o svom radu.

But one year later,

Ali godinu dana kasnije,

I had a terrible accident as I left a pub one dark night with friends,

imala sam groznu nesreću izlazeći iz puba s prijateljima jedne tamne noći,

in Scotland.

u Škotskoj.

As we followed the path through a forest, I suddenly felt a massive thud,

Kako smo pratili put kroz šumu, odjednom sam osjetila jak udarac,

then a second thud,

onda još jedan udarac

and I fell to the ground.

i pala sam na tlo.

I had no idea what had hit me.

Nisam imala pojma što me udarilo.

I later found out that when the gate was opened on a garden,

Nakon toga sam saznala da kad su se vrata vrta otvorila,

a wild stag stampeded along the path and ran straight into me.

divlji jelen je pretrčao put i naletio na mene.

Its antler penetrated my trachea and my esophagus

Njegov rog mi je probio dušnik i jednjak,

and stopped at my spinal cord and fractured my neck.

zaustavio se na mojoj leđnoj moždini i uzrokovao prijelom vrata.

My best friend found me lying on the floor,

Moja najbolja prijateljica me pronašla kako ležim na tlu,

gurgling for help through a hole in my neck.

grgljajući za pomoć kroz rupu na mom vratu.

And we locked eyes, and although I couldn't speak,

Pogledi su nam se susreli i iako nisam mogla pričati,

she could understand what I was thinking.

mogla je razumjeti što sam mislila.

And she told me, "Just breathe."

I rekla mi je: "Samo diši."

And so, whilst focusing on my breath, I had a strong sense of calmness,

I tako, dok sam se koncentrirala na dah, imala sam snažan osjećaj mira,

but I was certain that I was going to die.

ali bila sam sigurna da ću umrijeti.

Somehow, I was content with this,

Nekako, bila sam pomirena s tim,

because I've always tried to do my best in life whenever I can.

jer sam uvijek probala činiti najbolje u životu kadgod sam mogla.

So I just continued to enjoy each breath as one more moment --

Tako sam samo nastavila uživati u svakom dahu kao svakom sljedećem trenutku,

one breath in and one breath out.

jedan udisaj i jedan izdisaj.

An ambulance came, I was still fully conscious,

Došlo je vozilo hitne pomoći i još uvijek sam bila svjesna

and I analyzed everything on the journey, because I'm a scientist:

i analizirala sam sve putem jer sam znanstvenica:

the sound of the tires on the road, the frequency of the street lights

zvuk guma na cesti, učestalost uličnih svjetala

and eventually, the city street lights.

i, napokon, svjetla gradskih ulica.

And I thought, "Maybe I will survive."

I mislila sam:" Možda ću preživjeti."

And then I passed out.

I onda sam se onesvijestila.

I was stabilized at a local hospital and then airlifted to Glasgow,

Stabilizirali su me u bolnici i onda zračno prevezli u Glasgow,

where they reconstructed my throat and put me in a coma.

gdje su mi rekonstruirali grlo i stavili me u komu.

And while I was in the coma, I had many alternate realities.

I dok sam bila u komi, imala sam puno naizmjeničnih stvarnosti.

It was like a crazy mix of "Westworld" and "Black Mirror."

To je bio ludi miks "Westworld"-a i "Black Mirror"-a.

But that's a whole other story.

Ali, to je sasvim druga priča.

My local TV station reported live from outside the hospital

Moja lokalna TV postaja je izvještavala uživo ispred bolnice

of a Cambridge scientist who was in a coma,

o znanstvenici s Cambridgea koja je u komi

and they didn't know if she would live or die or walk or talk.

i nisu znali hoće li preživjeti, umrijeti, hodati ili pričati.

And a week later, I woke up from that coma.

Tjedan dana kasnije probudila sam se iz kome.

And that was the first gift.

I to je bio prvi dar.

Then I had the gift to think, the gift to move,

Onda sam dobila dar razmišljanja, dar kretanja,

the gift to breathe

dar disanja

and the gift to eat and to drink.

i dar da mogu jesti i piti.

That took three and a half months.

Za to mi je trebalo tri i pol mjeseca.

But there was one thing that I never got back, though,

Ali ima jedna stvar koja mi se nikada nije vratila,

and that was my privacy.

a to je moja privatnost.

The tabloid press made the story about gender.

Tabloidi su cijelu priču pretvorili u priču o spolu.

Look -- I'm transgender, it's not that big a deal.

Gledajte -- ja sam transeksualna i to nije neka velika stvar.

Like, my hair color or my shoe size is way more interesting.

Boja moje kose ili veličina stopala je daleko zanimljivija.

When I last spoke here --

Kad sam zadnji puta ovdje pričala --

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Kada sam zadnji puta ovdje pričala --

When I last spoke here --

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

at TED, I didn't talk about it, because it's boring.

na TED-u, nisam pričala o tome jer je to dosadno.

And one Scottish newspaper ran with the headline:

A jedne škotske novine su odabrale naslov:

"Sex Swap Scientist Gored by Stag."

"Znanstvenicu kojoj je promjenjen spol jelen ranjava u grlo."

And five others did similar things.

I još pet drugih je napravilo sličnu stvar.

And for a minute, I was angry.

Na minutu, bila sam ljuta.

But then I found my calm place.

Ali onda sam našla svoje mirno mjesto.

And what ran through my head was, "They've crossed the wrong woman,

I kroz glavu mi je prolazilo, "Razljutili su krivu ženu

and they're not going to know what's hit them."

i neće znati što ih je snašlo"

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

I'm a kindness ninja.

Ja sam ninja nježnosti.

I don't really know what a ninja does,

Ne znam baš što ninja radi,

but to me, they slip through the shadows, crawl through the sewers,

ali po meni, kreću se među sjenama, pužu kroz kanalizaciju,

skip across the rooftops,

preskaču krovove

and before you know it, they're behind you.

i prije nego to shvatite, već su iza vas.

They don't turn up with an army or complain,

Ne pojavljuju se s vojskom ili žalbom

and they're laser-focused on a plan.

i potpuno su fokusirani na plan.

So when I lay in my hospital bed,

Dok sam ležala u bolničkom krevetu,

I thought of my plan to help reduce the chances

smišljala sam plan kako smanjiti šanse

of them doing this to somebody else,

da to naprave nekom drugom,

by using the system as is, and paying the price of sacrificing my privacy.

koristeći sustav kakav jest i plaćajući cijenu žrtvovanja svoje privatnosti.

What they told one million people, I will tell 10 million people.

Što su oni rekli milijun ljudi, ja ću reći 10 milijuna.

Because when you're angry, people defend themselves.

Zato što kad su ljuti, ljudi se brane.

So I didn't attack them,

Tako ih nisam napala

and they were defenseless.

i bili su bez obrane.

I wrote kind and calm letters to these newspapers.

Pisala sam ljubazna i mirna pisma tim novinama.

And The Sun newspaper, the kind of "Fox News" of the UK,

I novine "The Sun", nešto kao "Fox News" u UK,

thanked me for my "reasoned approach."

zahvalile su mi na mom "razumnom pristupu".

I asked for no apology, no retraction, no money,

Nisam tražila ispriku, povlačenje teksta, novac,

just an acknowledgment that they broke their own rules,

samo priznanje da su prekršili svoja vlastita pravila

and what they did was just wrong.

i da je to što su učinili krivo.

And on this journey, I started to learn who they are,

Na ovom putovanju počela sam učiti tko su oni,

and they began to learn who I am.

a oni su počeli učiti tko sam ja.

And we actually became friends.

I stvarno smo postali prijatelji.

I've even had a few glasses of wine with Philippa from The Sun since then.

Čak sam od tada popila par čaša vina s Philippom iz "The Sun"-a.

And after three months, they all agreed,

Nakon tri mjeseca, svi su se složili

and the statements were published on a Friday,

i izjave su objavljene u petak

and that was the end of that.

i to je bio kraj toga.

Or so they thought.

Ili su bar oni tako mislili.

On the Saturday, I went on the evening news,

U subotu sam bila na večernjim vijestima

with the headline "Six National Newspapers Admit They Were Wrong."

s naslovom "Šest državnih novina priznaje da su bili u krivu".

And the anchor said to me,

Voditelj mi je rekao,

"But don't you think it's our job as journalists

"ne mislite li da je naš posao kao novinara

to sensationalize a story?"

napraviti senzaciju od priče?"

And I said, "I was laying on a forest floor, gored by a stag.

A ja sam rekla "Ležala sam na tlu šume, jelen mi je probio grlo.

Is that not sensational enough?"

Zar to nije dovoljna senzacija?"

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

And I was now writing the headlines.

I sad sam ja pisala naslovnice.

My favorite one was,

Moja omiljena je bila,

"The stag trampled on my throat, and the press trampled on my privacy."

"Jelen mi je pregazio grlo, novinari su pregazili moju privatnost."

It was the most read piece of BBC News online that day.

Bio je to najčitaniji članak na BBC News online tog dana.

And I was kind of having fun.

Zabavljala sam se na puno načina.

And by the end of my week of media,

Do kraja mog tjedna u medijima,

I started to use my newfound voice and platform

počela sam koristiti svoj novostečeni glas i platformu

to spread a message of love and kindness.

da proširimo poruku ljubavi i dobrote.

And when I had the minute of anger and hatred

I kad sam imala minutu bijesa i mržnje

towards those press and journalists,

prema tim novinarima i tisku,

I had to identify my inner bigotry towards them.

morala sam prepoznati svoju unutrašnju netrpeljivost prema njima.

And I had to meet and speak with these people

I morala sam se susresti i pričati s tim ljudima

without judgment.

bez osude.

I had to let myself understand them,

Morala sam dopustiti sebi da ih razumijem,

and in return, they began to understand me.

a zauzvrat, počeli su i oni mene shvaćati.

Well, six months later, they asked me to join the committee

Pa, šest mjeseci kasnije, pitali su me da se pridružim odboru

that regulates the press.

koji uređuje novinarstvo.

And a few times a year, I sip tea and dip biscuits

Par puta godišnje, pijem čaj i umačem keksiće

with the likes of Daily Mail editor Paul Dacre, who says to me,

s ljudima poput urednika Daily Maila, Paula Dacrea, koji mi kaže,

"So, Kate, how have your last few months been?"

"Kate, kako je prošlo tvojih zadnjih par mjeseci?"

And I respect them.

I poštujem ih.

And I'm now one of three members of the public

I ja sam sad jedan od tri člana iz javnosti

who has a seat at the table --

koja ima svoje mjesto za stolom,

not because I'm different,

ne zato jer sam drugačija,

but because my voice counts, just like anybody else.

nego jer se moj glas računa, kao i bilo čiji drugi.

And the irony is,

Ironija je

every now and again, I'm asked to visit those printing presses

što me svako malo zovu da posjetim te tiskarske strojeve

of this declining industry,

ove industrije koja je u padu,

because some people think

jer neki ljudi misle

that the technology I spoke about here, last time at TED, my interactive print,

da tehnologija o kojoj sam pričala zadnji put na TED-u, moj interaktivni print,

might actually help save them.

bi mogla pomoći spasiti ih.

So beware of your inner bigot,

Pazite se svojih unutarnjih predrasuda

and make friends from your enemies.

i od svojih neprijatelja stvorite prijatelje.

Thank you.

Hvala Vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)