The press trampled on my privacy. Here's how I took back my story | Kate Stone

Translator: Polona Ramšak Reviewer: Nika Kotnik

Five years ago, I stood on the TED stage, and I spoke about my work.

Pred petimi leti sem stala na TED odru in govorila o svojem delu.

But one year later,

A eno leto kasneje

I had a terrible accident as I left a pub one dark night with friends,

sem imela strašno nesrečo, ko sem neke noči s prijatelji zapuščala gostilno

in Scotland.

na Škotskem.

As we followed the path through a forest, I suddenly felt a massive thud,

Ko smo hodili po poti skozi gozd, sem nenadoma začutila močan udarec,

then a second thud,

potem še enega

and I fell to the ground.

in padla sem na tla.

I had no idea what had hit me.

Pojma nisem imela, kaj me je zadelo.

I later found out that when the gate was opened on a garden,

Kasneje sem izvedela, da je, ko so se odprla vrata na vrt,

a wild stag stampeded along the path and ran straight into me.

divji jelen zdirjal po poti in se zaletel točno vame.

Its antler penetrated my trachea and my esophagus

Njegovi rogovi so prebodli moj sapnik in požiralnik,

and stopped at my spinal cord and fractured my neck.

se ustavili pri moji hrbtenici ter mi zlomili vrat.

My best friend found me lying on the floor,

Najboljša prijateljica me je našla na tleh,

gurgling for help through a hole in my neck.

ko sem hropela na pomoč skozi luknjo v vratu.

And we locked eyes, and although I couldn't speak,

Spogledali sva se in čeprav nisem mogla govoriti,

she could understand what I was thinking.

me je lahko razumela, kaj mislim.

And she told me, "Just breathe."

Rekla mi je: "Samo dihaj."

And so, whilst focusing on my breath, I had a strong sense of calmness,

Tako sem, medtem ko sem se koncentrirala na dihanje, imela močan občutek miru,

but I was certain that I was going to die.

a bila sem prepričana, da bom umrla.

Somehow, I was content with this,

Nekako sem se sprijaznila s tem,

because I've always tried to do my best in life whenever I can.

ker sem vedno v življenju poskušala narediti najbolje, kar zmorem.

So I just continued to enjoy each breath as one more moment --

Tako sem še naprej uživala v vsakem vdihu kot v še enem trenutku -

one breath in and one breath out.

en vdih in en izdih.

An ambulance came, I was still fully conscious,

Rešilec je prišel, še vedno sem bila pri zavesti

and I analyzed everything on the journey, because I'm a scientist:

in analizirala vse na poti, ker sem znanstvenica:

the sound of the tires on the road, the frequency of the street lights

zvoke gum na cesti, pogostnost semaforjev

and eventually, the city street lights.

in nazadnje mestne ulične svetilke.

And I thought, "Maybe I will survive."

In pomislila sem: "Mogoče bom preživela."

And then I passed out.

Potem sem omedlela.

I was stabilized at a local hospital and then airlifted to Glasgow,

V lokalni bolnici so me stabilizirali in potem z letalom prepeljali v Glasgow,

where they reconstructed my throat and put me in a coma.

kjer so rekonstruirali moje grlo in me dali v komo.

And while I was in the coma, I had many alternate realities.

Medtem ko sem bila v komi, sem imela mnoge različne resničnosti.

It was like a crazy mix of "Westworld" and "Black Mirror."

Bilo je kot nora mešanica nadaljevank Westworld in Black Mirror.

But that's a whole other story.

A to je druga zgodba.

My local TV station reported live from outside the hospital

Moja lokalna televizijska hiša je poročala v živo izpred bolnice

of a Cambridge scientist who was in a coma,

o znanstvenici iz Cambridgea, ki je v komi

and they didn't know if she would live or die or walk or talk.

in niso vedeli, ali bo sploh preživela in ali bo še kdaj hodila ali govorila.

And a week later, I woke up from that coma.

Teden kasneje sem se prebudila iz kome.

And that was the first gift.

To je bil prvi dar.

Then I had the gift to think, the gift to move,

Potem sem dobila dar mišljenja, dar premikanja,

the gift to breathe

dar dihanja

and the gift to eat and to drink.

in dar prehranjevanja in pitja.

That took three and a half months.

To je trajalo tri mesece in pol.

But there was one thing that I never got back, though,

Ene stvari pa nisem nikoli dobila nazaj,

and that was my privacy.

in sicer svoje zasebnosti.

The tabloid press made the story about gender.

Tabloidi so ustvarili zgodbo o spolu.

Look -- I'm transgender, it's not that big a deal.

Poglejte, sem transseksualka, kar ni nič posebnega.

Like, my hair color or my shoe size is way more interesting.

Moja barva las ali velikost čevljev sta mnogo bolj zanimivi.

When I last spoke here --

Ko sem tu nazadnje govorila ...

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When I last spoke here --

Ko sem nazadnje govorila ...

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at TED, I didn't talk about it, because it's boring.

na TED-u, nisem govorila o tem, ker je dolgočasno.

And one Scottish newspaper ran with the headline:

Eden od škotskih časopisov je objavil naslov:

"Sex Swap Scientist Gored by Stag."

"Znanstvenico, ki je spremenila spol, nabodel jelen."

And five others did similar things.

Pet drugih je naredilo podobno.

And for a minute, I was angry.

Za trenutek sem bila jezna.

But then I found my calm place.

Potem pa sem našla svoj mir.

And what ran through my head was, "They've crossed the wrong woman,

Kar mi je hodilo po glavi, je bilo: razjezili so napačno žensko

and they're not going to know what's hit them."

in sanja se jim ne, kaj jih bo doletelo.

(Laughter)

(smeh)

I'm a kindness ninja.

Sem nindža prijaznosti.

I don't really know what a ninja does,

Ne vem točno, kaj nindža počne,

but to me, they slip through the shadows, crawl through the sewers,

a po mojem drsi skozi sence, se plazi po kanalizaciji,

skip across the rooftops,

skače po vrhovih streh

and before you know it, they're behind you.

in preden se zaveš, je za tabo.

They don't turn up with an army or complain,

Ne pojavi se z vojsko, ne pritožuje se

and they're laser-focused on a plan.

in ostro se fokusira na svoj načrt.

So when I lay in my hospital bed,

Ko sem ležala v bolnišnični postelji,

I thought of my plan to help reduce the chances

sem naredila načrt, kako pomagati zmanjšati možnosti,

of them doing this to somebody else,

da bi to storili še komu drugemu,

by using the system as is, and paying the price of sacrificing my privacy.

z uporabo sistema, kakršen je, in za ceno moje zasebnosti.

What they told one million people, I will tell 10 million people.

Kar so povedali milijonu ljudi, bom povedala desetim milijonom.

Because when you're angry, people defend themselves.

Ker ko si jezen, se ljudje branijo.

So I didn't attack them,

Zato jih nisem napadla

and they were defenseless.

in bili so brez moči.

I wrote kind and calm letters to these newspapers.

Pisala sem prijazna in mirna pisma tem časopisom.

And The Sun newspaper, the kind of "Fox News" of the UK,

Časopis The Sun, britanska verzija Fox News programa,

thanked me for my "reasoned approach."

se mi je zahvalil za moj utemeljen pristop.

I asked for no apology, no retraction, no money,

Nisem prosila ne za opravičilo ne za preklic in ne za denar,

just an acknowledgment that they broke their own rules,

samo priznanje, da so prekršili svoja lastna pravila

and what they did was just wrong.

in da je bilo to narobe.

And on this journey, I started to learn who they are,

Na tem potovanju sem se začela učiti, kdo so oni,

and they began to learn who I am.

in oni so se začeli učiti, kdo sem jaz.

And we actually became friends.

Pravzaprav smo postali prijatelji.

I've even had a few glasses of wine with Philippa from The Sun since then.

Popila sem celo nekaj kozarcev vina s Philippo iz The Sun-a.

And after three months, they all agreed,

Po treh mesecih so se strinjali

and the statements were published on a Friday,

in izjave so objavili nekega petka.

and that was the end of that.

in potem je bilo tega konec.

Or so they thought.

Tako so vsaj mislili.

On the Saturday, I went on the evening news,

V soboto sem šla na večerna poročila

with the headline "Six National Newspapers Admit They Were Wrong."

z naslovom "Šest nacionalnih časopisov priznava, da niso ravnali prav."

And the anchor said to me,

Voditelj mi je rekel:

"But don't you think it's our job as journalists

"Ali ne mislite, da je služba nas novinarjev,

to sensationalize a story?"

da naredimo zgodbo senzacionalno?"

And I said, "I was laying on a forest floor, gored by a stag.

In rekla sem: "Ležala sem na gozdnih tleh, ker me je zabodel jelen.

Is that not sensational enough?"

Ali to ni dovolj senzacionalno?"

(Laughter)

(smeh)

And I was now writing the headlines.

Zdaj pa o meni pišejo časopisi.

My favorite one was,

Moj najljubši naslov je bil:

"The stag trampled on my throat, and the press trampled on my privacy."

"Jelen je pohodil moje grlo, novinarji pa mojo zasebnost."

It was the most read piece of BBC News online that day.

To je bil najbolj brani članek na spletni strani BBC News tistega dne

And I was kind of having fun.

in malo sem se zabavala.

And by the end of my week of media,

Do konca svojega medijskega tedna

I started to use my newfound voice and platform

sem začela uporabljati svoj na novo najdeni glas in platformo

to spread a message of love and kindness.

za širjenje sporočila ljubezni in prijaznosti.

And when I had the minute of anger and hatred

In ko sem za hipec začutila jezo in sovraštvo

towards those press and journalists,

do tistih časopisov in novinarjev,

I had to identify my inner bigotry towards them.

sem morala identificirati svojo lastno fanatičnost proti njim.

And I had to meet and speak with these people

Morala sem se srečati in govoriti s tistimi ljudmi

without judgment.

brez obsojanja.

I had to let myself understand them,

Morala sem se pripraviti, razumeti jih,

and in return, they began to understand me.

in v zameno so oni začeli razumeti mene.

Well, six months later, they asked me to join the committee

Šest mesecev kasneje so me prosili, naj se pridružim odboru,

that regulates the press.

ki nadzoruje tisk.

And a few times a year, I sip tea and dip biscuits

Tako nekajkrat letno srkam čaj in namakam piškote

with the likes of Daily Mail editor Paul Dacre, who says to me,

z ljudmi, kot je urednik Daily Mail-a, Paul Dacre, ki mi pravi:

"So, Kate, how have your last few months been?"

"Torej, Kate, kako si se imela zadnjih nekaj mesecev?"

And I respect them.

Spoštujem jih.

And I'm now one of three members of the public

Zdaj sem eden od treh članov javnosti,

who has a seat at the table --

ki ima sedež za mizo -

not because I'm different,

ne zato, ker sem drugačna,

but because my voice counts, just like anybody else.

ampak zato, ker moj glas šteje prav tako kot vsak drug.

And the irony is,

Ironija je,

every now and again, I'm asked to visit those printing presses

da me tu in tam prosijo, naj obiščem tiskarne

of this declining industry,

te zamirajoče industrije,

because some people think

ker nekateri mislijo,

that the technology I spoke about here, last time at TED, my interactive print,

da bi jim lahko tehnologija, o kateri sem govorila prejšnjič, moj interaktivni tisk,

might actually help save them.

dejansko lahko pomagala, da se rešijo.

So beware of your inner bigot,

Zato se bojte svojega notranjega fanatika

and make friends from your enemies.

in se spoprijateljite s sovražniki.

Thank you.

Hvala.

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