Eve Ensler: Security and insecurity

Prevoditelj: Kristina Gottwald Recezent: Mislav Ante Omazić - EFZG

I think it'll be a relief to some people and a disappointment to others

Mislim da će neki odahnuti, a drugi će se razočarati

that I'm not going to talk about vaginas today.

kad čuju da danas neću pričati o vaginama.

I began "The Vagina Monologues" because I was worried about vaginas.

Napisala sam "Vaginine monologe" jer sam bila zabrinuta za vagine.

I'm very worried today about this notion, this world,

Danas sam jako zabrinuta tom mišlju, ovim svijetom,

this prevailing kind of force of security.

ovom prevladavajućom nasilnom sigurnošću.

I see this word, hear this word, feel this word everywhere.

Vidim tu riječ, čujem ju, osjećam ju posvuda.

Real security, security checks, security watch, security clearance.

Prava sigurnost, sigurnosne provjere, sigurnosna straža, sigurnosna dozvola.

Why has all this focus on security made me feel so much more insecure?

Zašto me ovaj fokus na sigurnost čini još nesigurnijom?

What does anyone mean when they talk about real security?

O čemu ljudi pričaju kad pričaju o pravoj sigurnosti?

And why have we, as Americans particularly,

I zašto smo, prvenstveno Amerikanci,

become a nation that strives for security above all else?

postali nacija koja stremi sigurnosti iznad svega drugog?

In fact, I think that security is elusive. It's impossible.

Zapravo, mislim kako je sigurnost nedostižna. Nemoguća je.

We all die. We all get old. We all get sick. People leave us.

Svi umiremo. Svi starimo. Svi se razboljevamo. Ljudi nas napuštaju.

People change us. Nothing is secure.

Ljudi nas mijenjaju. Ništa nije sigurno.

And that's actually the good news.

I to je zapravo dobra vijest.

This is, of course, unless your whole life is about being secure.

Naravno, jedino ako vam se život ne vrti oko sigurnosti.

I think that when that is the focus of your life,

Mislim da kada je ona u centru vašeg života

these are the things that happen.

događa se jedna od ovih stvari.

You can't travel very far or venture too far outside a certain circle.

Ne možete putovati predaleko od vaše sigurnosne zone.

You can't allow too many conflicting ideas into your mind at one time,

Ne možete si dopustiti previše sukobljenih ideja u isto vrijeme,

as they might confuse you or challenge you.

jer bi vas mogle zbuniti ili izazvati.

You can't open yourself to new experiences, new people,

Ne možete se otvoriti novim iskustvima, novim ljudima,

new ways of doing things -- they might take you off course.

novim načinima bavljenja stvarima jer bi vas mogle odvesti u krivom smjeru.

You can't not know who you are, so you cling to hard-matter identity.

Ne možete znati tko ste, pa se držite određenog identiteta.

You become a Christian, Muslim, Jew.

Postajete kršćanin, musliman, židov.

You're an Indian, Egyptian, Italian, American.

Indijac ste, Egipćanin, Talijan, Amerikanac.

You're a heterosexual or a homosexual, or you never have sex.

Heteroseksualni ste, homoseksualni ili se nikad niste seksali.

Or at least, that's what you say when you identify yourself.

Barem to kažete kad se identificirate.

You become part of an "us."

Postajete dio "nas".

In order to be secure, you defend against "them."

Kako bi bili sigurni, štitite se od "njih".

You cling to your land because it is your secure place.

Držite se svojeg teritorija jer je to vaša sigurna zona.

You must fight anyone who encroaches upon it.

Borite se protiv bilo koga tko pokuša prodrijeti.

You become your nation. You become your religion.

Postajete vaša nacija. Postajete vaša religija.

You become whatever it is that will freeze you, numb you

Postaje štogod će vas zamrznuti, otupiti

and protect you from doubt or change.

i zaštititi od vaše sumnje ili promjene.

But all this does, actually, is shut down your mind.

Ali jedino što zapravo čini jest zatvaranje vašeg uma.

In reality, it does not really make you safer.

U stvarnosti, ne čini vas sigurnijim.

I was in Sri Lanka, for example, three days after the tsunami,

Bila sam u Šri Lanki tri dana nakon tsunamija

and I was standing on the beaches

i stajala sam na plažama

and it was absolutely clear that, in a matter of five minutes,

i bilo je potpuno jasno kako bi se, u roku pet minuta,

a 30-foot wave could rise up

val visok devet metara mogao dići

and desecrate a people, a population and lives.

i uništiti ljude, populaciju i živote.

All this striving for security, in fact,

Samo stremljenje sigurnosti nas zapravo

has made you much more insecure

čini puno nesigurnijima

because now you have to watch out all the time.

jer sad uvijek morate biti na oprezu.

There are people not like you -- people who you now call enemies.

Postoje ljudi koji vam nisu slični, koje sada zovete neprijateljima.

You have places you cannot go, thoughts you cannot think,

Postoje mjesta na koja ne možete otići, misli o kojima ne možete razmišljati,

worlds that you can no longer inhabit.

svjetovi koje ne možete više nastaniti.

And so you spend your days fighting things off, defending your territory

I tako provodite dane odbijajući stvari, braneći svoj teritorij

and becoming more entrenched in your fundamental thinking.

i postajući još čvršći u svom osnovnom razmišljanju.

Your days become devoted to protecting yourself.

Dani vam postanu posvećeni samozaštiti.

This becomes your mission. That is all you do.

To vam postane misija. Sve što radite.

Ideas get shorter. They become sound bytes.

Ideje postaju jednostavnije. Postaju zvučni isječci.

There are evildoers and saints, criminals and victims.

Postoje zlikovci i sveci, kriminalci i žrtve.

There are those who, if they're not with us, are against us.

Postoje oni koji, ako nisu s nama, protiv nas su.

It gets easier to hurt people because you do not feel what's inside them.

Postaje lakše povrijediti ljude jer ih ne osjećamo.

It gets easier to lock them up, force them to be naked, humiliate them,

Postaje ih lakše zatvoriti, natjerati na golotinju, ponižavati,

occupy them, invade them and kill them,

okupirati, napasti i ubiti,

because they are only obstacles now to your security.

jer su oni jedina prepreka vašoj sigurnosti.

In six years, I've had the extraordinary privilege through V-Day,

Tijekom šest godina imala sam izvanrednu privilegiju da uz V-Day,

a global movement against [violence against] women,

globalni pokret protiv nasilja nad ženama,

to travel probably to 60 countries,

proputujem kroz šezdesetak zemalja

and spend a great deal of time in different portions.

i da provedem dosta vremena u različitim dijelovima svijeta.

I've met women and men all over this planet,

Upoznala sam žene i muškarce po cijelom planetu,

who through various circumstances --

koji radi raznih okolnosti kao što su

war, poverty, racism, multiple forms of violence --

rat, siromaštvo, rasizam, mnogostruke oblike nasilja,

have never known security,

nisu nikad poznavali sigurnost

or have had their illusion of security forever devastated.

ili im je iluzija sigurnosti nepovratno uništena.

I've spent time with women in Afghanistan under the Taliban,

Provela sam neko vrijeme sa ženama u Afganistanu pod vlašću talibana,

who were essentially brutalized and censored.

prema kojima su bili okrutni i koje su bile osuđivane.

I've been in Bosnian refugee camps.

Bila sam u bosanskim izbjegličkim kampovima.

I was with women in Pakistan

Bila sam sa ženama u Pakistanu

who have had their faces melted off with acid.

čija su lica otopljena kiselinom.

I've been with girls all across America who were date-raped,

Bila sam sa djevojkama diljem Amerike koje su silovane na spoju

or raped by their best friends when they were drugged one night.

ili su ih silovali najbolji prijatelji kada su bili nadrogirani.

One of the amazing things that I've discovered in my travels

Jedna od zanimljivih stvari koje sam shvatila u svojim putovanjima

is that there is this emerging species.

je da se rađaju nove vrste.

I loved when he was talking about this other world that's right next to this world.

Uživala sam dok je pričao o drugom susjednom svijetu koji je odmah pored ovog svijeta.

I've discovered these people, who, in V-Day world,

Pronašla sam ljude koje u V-Day svijetu

we call Vagina Warriors.

nazivamo 'vaginini ratnici'.

These particular people, rather than getting AK-47s,

Ovi ljudi, umjesto da su nabavili kalašnjikove,

or weapons of mass destruction, or machetes,

oružja za masovno uništenje ili mačete,

in the spirit of the warrior, have gone into the center, the heart of pain, of loss.

već u duhu ratništva, ušli su u središte, srce boli, gubitka.

They have grieved it, they have died into it,

Tugovali su, umirali,

and allowed and encouraged poison to turn into medicine.

te dopustili i potaknuli otrove koji su se pretvorili u lijekove.

They have used the fuel of their pain to begin to redirect that energy

Iskoristili su svoju patnju i usmjerili njezinu energiju

towards another mission and another trajectory.

prema drugoj misiji i prema drugim ciljevima.

These warriors now devote themselves and their lives

Ovi su ratnici posvetili sebe i svoje živote

to making sure what happened to them doesn't happen to anyone else.

drugima, kako im se ne bi dogodilo ono što se njima dogodilo.

There are thousands if not millions of them on the planet.

Na tisuće ih je, ako ne i milijune.

I venture there are many in this room.

Usudila bih se reći kako su i u ovoj sobi.

They have a fierceness and a freedom

Vjerujem kako su njihova snaga i sloboda

that I believe is the bedrock of a new paradigm.

temelji nove paradigme.

They have broken out of the existing frame of victim and perpetrator.

Izašli su iz postojećeg okvira žrtvi i izvršitelja.

Their own personal security is not their end goal,

Njihov krajnji cilj nije samo njihova sigurnost

and because of that, because, rather than worrying about security,

i radi toga, umjesto brige i sigurnosti,

because the transformation of suffering is their end goal,

njihov krajnji cilj je transformacija patnje

I actually believe they are creating real safety

i vjerujem da tako stvaraju pravu sigurnost

and a whole new idea of security.

i potpuno novu ideju sigurnosti.

I want to talk about a few of these people that I've met.

Htjela bih reći nešto o ljudima koje sam upoznala.

Tomorrow, I am going to Cairo,

Sutra putujem u Kairo

and I'm so moved that I will be with women in Cairo

i veselim se susretu sa ženama u Kairu

who are V-Day women, who are opening the first safe house

koje su članice V-Daya, koje otvaraju prvu sigurnu kuću

for battered women in the Middle East.

za zlostavljane žene na Bliskom Istoku.

That will happen because women in Cairo made a decision to stand up

To će se dogoditi jer su te žene u Kairu odlučile usprotiviti se

and put themselves on the line,

i riskirati

and talk about the degree of violence that is happening in Egypt,

i otvoreno razgovarati o razini nasilja u Egiptu,

and were willing to be attacked and criticized.

spremne na napade i kritike.

And through their work over the last years,

Radi njihovog rada zadnjih godina,

this is not only happening that this house is opening,

ne samo da se otvara sigurna kuća,

but it's being supported by many factions of the society

već ju podržavaju mnogi dijelovi društva

who never would have supported it.

koji ih inače ne bi podržavali.

Women in Uganda this year,

Ove godine su žene u Ugandi,

who put on "The Vagina Monologues" during V-Day,

koje su odglumile "Vaginine monologe" tijekom V-Daya,

actually evoked the wrath of the government.

razbjesnile vladu.

And, I love this story so much.

I, jako volim ovu priču.

There was a cabinet meeting and a meeting of the presidents

Održan je sastanak kabineta i sastanak predsjednika

to talk about whether "Vaginas" could come to Uganda.

koji su raspravljali jesu li "Vaginini monolozi" prihvatljivi Ugandi.

And in this meeting -- it went on for weeks in the press,

Na tom sastanku, koji je kroz medije trajao tjednima,

two weeks where there was huge discussion.

dva tjedna se žučno raspravljalo.

The government finally made a decision

Vlada je napokon donijela svoju odluku

that "The Vagina Monologues" could not be performed in Uganda.

te su zabranili izvođenje "Vagininih monologa" u Ugandi.

But the amazing news was that because they had stood up, these women,

Ali najljepša vijest je bila da radi žena koje su se pobunile

and because they had been willing to risk their security,

i koje su bile dovoljno hrabre riskirajući svoju sigurnost,

it began a discussion that not only happened in Uganda,

rasprave su započele, ne samo u Ugandi,

but all of Africa.

već po cijeloj Africi.

As a result, this production, which had already sold out,

Ova produkcija, koja je već bila rasprodana,

every single person in that 800-seat audience, except for 10 people,

i svih 800 gledatelja, osim desetoro ljudi,

made a decision to keep the money.

su odlučili zadržati novce.

They raised 10,000 dollars on a production that never occurred.

Skupili su 10.000 dolara predstavom koja se nikad nije izvela.

There's a young woman named Carrie Rethlefsen in Minnesota.

Postoji jedna mlada žena, Carrie Rethlefsen iz Minnesote.

She's a high school student.

Ide u srednju školu.

She had seen "The Vagina Monologues" and she was really moved. And as a result,

Gledala je "Vaginine monologe" i ganulo ju je. I kao rezultat

she wore an "I heart my vagina" button to her high school in Minnesota.

u školu je počela nositi bedž na kojem je pisalo "Volim svoju vaginu".

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

She was basically threatened to be expelled from school.

Zaprijetili su joj izbacivanjem iz škole.

They told her she couldn't love her vagina in high school,

Rekli su joj kako ne može voljeti svoju vaginu u školi,

that it was not a legal thing, that it was not a moral thing,

da nije legalno, da nije moralno,

that it was not a good thing.

da nije dobro.

So she really struggled with this, what to do,

Borila se sama sa sobom što učiniti

because she was a senior and she was doing well in her school

jer je skoro bila gotova sa školom, bila je odlična učenica

and she was threatened expulsion. So what she did is she got all her friends together --

i prijetili su joj isključenjem. Odlučila je skupiti sve svoje prijatelje,

I believe it was 100, 150 students

oko 100 do 150 učenika,

all wore "I love my vagina" T-shirts,

koji su u školi nosili majice sa natpisom "Volim svoju vaginu",

and the boys wore "I love her vagina" T-shirts to school.

a dečki su nosili majice sa natpisom "Volim njezinu vaginu".

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Now this seems like a fairly, you know, frivolous,

To se možda čini neozbiljno

but what happened as a result of that, is that that school now

ali uspjeli su u svom naumu, jer je škola

is forming a sex education class. It's beginning to talk about sex,

osnovala nastavu seksualnog odgoja. Počeli su razgovarati o seksu,

it's beginning to look at why it would be wrong

počeli su gledati zašto bi bilo loše

for a young high school girl to talk about her vagina publicly

da mlada djevojka priča otvoreno o svojoj vagini

or to say that she loved her vagina publicly.

ili da otvoreno kaže kako ju voli.

I know I've talked about Agnes here before,

Znam da sam već pričala o Agnes,

but I want to give you an update on Agnes.

ali bih htjela nadodati još nešto.

I met Agnes three years ago in the Rift Valley.

Upoznala sam ju prije tri godine u dolini Rift.

When she was a young girl, she had been mutilated against her will.

Kad je bila djevojčica, osakatili su ju protiv njezine volje.

That mutilation of her clitoris

To sakaćenje njezinog klitorisa

had actually obviously impacted her life

je imalo veliki utjecaj na njezin život

and changed it in a way that was devastating.

i razorilo ga.

She made a decision not to go and get a razor or a glass shard,

Odlučila je ne otići i uzet britvu ili krhotine stakla,

but to devote her life to stopping that happening to other girls.

posvetiti život sprečavanju da se to dogodi drugima.

For eight years, she walked through the Rift Valley.

Tijekom osam godina, hodala je kroz dolinu Rift.

She had this amazing box that she carried and it had a

Uz sebe je nosila kutiju u kojoj je bio

torso of a woman's body in it, a half a torso,

ženski torzo i pola torza

and she would teach people, everywhere she went,

i poučavala je ljude, kamo god je išla,

what a healthy vagina looked like and what a mutilated vagina looked like.

kako izgleda zdrava vagina, a kako osakaćena.

In the years that she walked, she educated parents, mothers, fathers.

Kroz sve te godine, poučavala je roditelje, majke, očeve.

She saved 1,500 girls from being cut.

Spasila je 1.500 djevojčica.

When V-Day met her, we asked her how we could support her

Kad je stupila u kontakt s V-Dayom, pitali smo ju kako joj možemo pomoći

and she said, "Well, if you got me a Jeep,

i rekla je: "Pa, ako mi nabavite džip,

I could get around a lot faster." So, we bought her a Jeep.

bit ću brža." I tako smo joj kupili džip.

In the year she had the Jeep, she saved 4,500 girls from being cut.

Godinu dana je imala džip i spasila je 4.500 djevojčica.

So, we said, what else could we do?

Opet smo ju pitali: "Što još možemo učiniti?"

She said, "If you help me get money, I could open a house."

Rekla je: "Ako mi pomognete skupiti novce, mogu otvoriti sigurnu kuću."

Three years ago, Agnes opened a safe house in Africa to stop mutilation.

Prije tri godine, Agnes je otvorila sigurnu kuću u Africi kako bi spriječila sakaćenje.

When she began her mission eight years ago, she was reviled,

Kad je započela svoju misiju prije osam godina, grdili su ju,

she was detested, she was completely slandered in her community.

prezirali, ogovarali u zajednici.

I am proud to tell you that six months ago,

Ponosna sam što vam mogu reći kako je prije šest mjeseci

she was elected the deputy mayor of Narok.

izabrana za zamjenicu gradonačelnika Naroka.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

I think what I'm trying to say here

Želim reći da

is that if your end goal is security,

ako vam je krajnji cilj sigurnost

and if that's all you're focusing on, what ends up happening

i ako se samo na to fokusirate, dobit ćete kontraefekt,

is that you create not only more insecurity in other people,

ne samo da će ljudi biti nesigurniji

but you make yourself far more insecure.

već ćete i sami biti nesigurni.

Real security is contemplating death, not pretending it doesn't exist.

Prava sigurnost je razmišljanje o smrti, ne ignoriranje iste.

Not running from loss, but entering grief, surrendering to sorrow.

Nije bijeg od gubitka, već prihvaćanje tuge, predaja boli.

Real security is not knowing something, when you don't know it.

Prava sigurnost nije znati nešto što zapravo ne znate.

Real security is hungering for connection rather than power.

Prava sigurnost je glad za povezanošću, umjesto moći.

It cannot be bought or arranged or made with bombs.

To se ne može kupiti, dogovoriti ili siliti bombama.

It is deeper, it is a process, it is acute awareness

Dublje je od toga, proces je, čista svijest

that we are all utterly inter-bended,

da smo svi međusobno povezani

and one action by one being in one tiny town

i da jedna akcija jedne osobe u jednom malenom gradu

has consequences everywhere.

ima posljedice posvuda.

Real security is not only being able

Prava sigurnost nije mogućnost

to tolerate mystery, complexity, ambiguity, but hungering for them

toleriranja misterije, kompleksnosti, dvosmislenosti, već glad za njima

and only trusting a situation when they are present.

i vjera u trenutne situacije.

Something happened when I began traveling in V-Day, eight years ago. I got lost.

Prije osam godina, kad sam započela svoja putovanja, izgubila sam se.

I remember being on a plane going from Kenya to South Africa,

Sjećam se kako sam bila u avionu koji je letio iz Kenije u Južnoafričku Republiku

and I had no idea where I was.

i nisam znala gdje sam.

I didn't know where I was going, where I'd come from,

Nisam znala kamo idem, otkud sam došla

and I panicked. I had a total anxiety attack.

i počela sam paničariti. Imala sam napadaj panike.

And then I suddenly realized that it absolutely didn't matter

Odjednom sam shvatila da uopće nije važno

where I was going, or where I had come from

kamo idem ili otkud sam došla

because we are all essentially permanently displaced people.

jer smo svi u biti vječno raseljeni ljudi.

All of us are refugees.

Svi smo izbjeglice.

We come from somewhere and we are hopefully traveling all the time,

Dolazimo odnekud i cijelo vrijeme putujemo

moving towards a new place.

prema nečemu novom.

Freedom means I may not be identified as any one group,

Sloboda ne znači identificiranje s jednom grupom,

but that I can visit and find myself in every group.

već posjet i pronalazak sebe u svakoj.

It does not mean that I don't have values or beliefs,

To ne znači kako nemam mjerila ili vjerovanja,

but it does mean I am not hardened around them.

već da ona nisu nedodirljiva.

I do not use them as weapons.

Ne koristim ih kao oružje.

In the shared future, it will be just that, shared.

U našoj budućnosti sve ćemo dijeliti.

The end goal will [be] becoming vulnerable,

Krajnji cilj će biti postajanje ranjivim,

realizing the place of our connection to one another,

shvaćanje međusobne povezanosti,

rather than becoming secure, in control and alone.

a ne sigurnost, kontrola i samoća.

Thank you very much.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Chris Anderson: And how are you doing? Are you exhausted?

Chris Anderson: "Kako ste? Jeste li iscrpljeni?

On a typical day, do you wake up with hope or gloom?

Kako se budite inače, puni nade ili sjete?"

Eve Ensler: You know, I think Carl Jung once said

Eve Ensler: "Znate, mislim kako je Carl Jung jednom rekao

that in order to survive the twentieth century,

da, ako želimo preživjeti dvadeseto stoljeće,

we have to live with two existing thoughts, opposite thoughts, at the same time.

moramo živjeti s dvije oprečne misli u isto vrijeme.

And I think part of what I'm learning in this process

Smatram kako u ovom procesu učim

is that one must allow oneself to feel grief.

da si moramo dopustiti tugu.

And I think as long as I keep grieving, and weeping,

I dokle god si dopustimo tugovanje i plakanje,

and then moving on, I'm fine.

a onda krenemo dalje, bit ćemo u redu.

When I start to pretend that what I'm seeing isn't impacting me,

Kad se počnem pretvarati da me ono što vidim ne dira

and isn't changing my heart, then I get in trouble.

i ne mijenja, znam da sam u nevolji.

Because when you spend a lot of time going from place to place,

Kad provedete puno vremena putujući s mjesta na mjesto,

country to country, and city to city,

iz zemlje u zemlju, iz grad u grad,

the degree to which women, for example, are violated,

stupanj prekršenih ženskih prava,

and the epidemic of it, and the kind of ordinariness of it,

epidemija istog te vrsta uobičajenosti

is so devastating to one's soul that you have to take the time,

je toliko pogubna za dušu da moram uzeti trenutak predaha

or I have to take the time now, to process that.

ili iskoristiti vrijeme ovdje kako bih to procesuirala.

CA: There are a lot of causes out there in the world that have been talked about,

CA: "Postoji puno stvari na svijetu za koje se potrebno zalagati,

you know, poverty, sickness and so on. You spent eight years on this one.

npr. siromaštvo, bolest itd. Vi se bavite ovom temom već osam godina.

Why this one?

Zašto baš ta tema?"

EE: I think that if you think about women,

EE: "Ako razmislite o ženama,

women are the primary resource of the planet. They give birth,

one su primarni izvor planeta. Rađaju,

we come from them, they are mothers, they are visionaries,

dolazimo iz njih, majke su, vizionari,

they are the future. If you think that the U.N. now says

one su budućnost. U.N. nam danas govori

that one out of three women on the planet

kako će jedna od tri žene na planetu

will be raped or beaten in their lifetime,

biti silovana ili pretučena jednom u svom životu,

we're talking about the desecration of the primary resource of the planet,

što znači da govorimo o skrnavljenju primarnog izvora planeta,

we're talking about the place where we come from, we're talking about parenting.

o našoj polaznoj točki, o našem odgoju.

Imagine that you've been raped and you're bringing up a boy child.

Zamislite da ste bili silovani i da odgajate dječaka.

How does it impact your ability to work, or envision a future,

Kako to utječe na vašu sposobnost rada ili viziju budućnosti?

or thrive, as opposed to just survive? What I believe is

Ili napretka umjesto samo preživljavanja? Smatram da bi, ako uspijemo

if we could figure out how to make women safe and honor women,

shvatiti kako učiniti žene sigurnijima i odati im počast,

it would be parallel or equal to honoring life itself.

to bilo jednako odlikovanju samog života.