My identity is a superpower -- not an obstacle | America Ferrera | TED
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譯者: Lilian Chiu
審譯者: Tina Liang
00:12
On the red tiles in my family's den
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在我家書齋的紅地磚上,
00:16
I would dance and sing
to the made-for-TV movie "Gypsy,"
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我會在那裡邊播放電視電影
《星夢不了情》邊跟著唱跳起來,
00:20
starring Bette Midler.
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這部片是由貝蒂蜜勒主演。
00:22
(Singing) "I had a dream.
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(唱歌)「我有一個夢想。
00:25
A wonderful dream, papa."
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一個美好的夢想,爸爸。」
00:28
I would sing it with the urgency
and the burning desire of a nine-year-old
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我唱這首歌時,還懷著
九歲孩子的急迫和熱切欲望,
00:33
who did, in fact, have a dream.
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那時,我的確有一個夢想。
00:36
My dream was to be an actress.
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我的夢想是要成為演員。
00:40
And it's true that I never saw
anyone who looked like me
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的確,我從來沒有在電視或電影上
00:43
in television or in films,
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看到任何長得像我這樣的人,
00:45
and sure, my family and friends
and teachers all constantly warned me
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而且,當然,我的家人、
朋友、老師都經常告誡我,
00:50
that people like me
didn't make it in Hollywood.
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像我這樣的人在好萊塢
是混不下去的。
00:56
But I was an American.
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但我是美國人。
00:58
I had been taught to believe
that anyone could achieve anything,
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我被教導的是:要相信
任何人都可以成就任何事,
01:03
regardless of the color of their skin,
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不論他們的皮膚是什麼顏色,
01:06
the fact that my parents
immigrated from Honduras,
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無論我的父母是宏都拉斯移民,
01:09
the fact that I had no money.
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無論我沒有錢。
01:12
I didn't need my dream to be easy,
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我並不要求我的夢想
要很容易實現,
01:15
I just needed it to be possible.
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我只需要它有實現的可能性。
01:19
And when I was 15,
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我十五歲時,
01:23
I got my first professional audition.
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得到了我人生的
第一個專業試鏡機會。
01:26
It was a commercial
for cable subscriptions
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那是一支電視廣告,
內容是關於申請有線電視,
01:29
or bail bonds, I don't really remember.
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或保釋保證書,我不太記得了。
01:31
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
01:33
What I do remember
is that the casting director asked me,
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我還記得的是,選角導演問我:
01:38
"Could you do that again,
but just this time, sound more Latina."
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「妳能不能再做一次剛才的表演,
只是這次要聽起來
更拉丁裔女性一點?」
01:44
"Um, OK.
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「喔,好。
01:47
So you want me
to do it in Spanish?" I asked.
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所以你是希望我說
西班牙語嗎?」我問。
01:49
"No, no, do it in English,
just sound Latina."
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「不,不。說英文,
但要聽起來更像拉丁裔女性一點。」
01:56
"Well, I am a Latina,
so isn't this what a Latina sounds like?"
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「嗯,我是拉丁裔女性,
我聽起來不像拉丁裔女性嗎?」
02:03
There was a long and awkward silence,
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接著是一段又長又尷尬的沉默,
02:05
and then finally,
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接著,終於:
02:07
"OK, sweetie, never mind,
thank you for coming in, bye!"
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「好,親愛的,無所謂,
謝謝妳來,掰!」
02:11
It took me most of the car ride home
to realize that by "sound more Latina"
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我開車回家時,幾乎一路
都在想,終於明白了
她說「聽起來更拉丁裔女性」
其實意思是要我說爛英文。
02:15
she was asking me
to speak in broken English.
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02:19
And I couldn't figure out why the fact
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而我不能理解為什麼
02:21
that I was an actual,
real-life, authentic Latina
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我明明就是貨真價實的
拉丁裔女性,
02:26
didn't really seem to matter.
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這點卻似乎不重要。
02:28
Anyway, I didn't get the job.
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總之,我沒拿到那個角色。
02:30
I didn't get a lot of the jobs
people were willing to see me for:
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很多人希望我扮演的角色,
我都沒有拿到:
02:34
the gang-banger's girlfriend,
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少年幫派份子的女友、
02:36
the sassy shoplifter,
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蠻橫的商店扒手、
02:39
pregnant chola number two.
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拉美混血孕婦二號。
02:41
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
02:43
These were the kinds of roles
that existed for someone like me.
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這些角色就是
為我這種人而存在的。
02:47
Someone they looked at
and saw as too brown, too fat,
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被他們視為是太褐色、太肥胖、
02:51
too poor, too unsophisticated.
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太貧窮、太不精明的人。
02:55
These roles were stereotypes
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這些角色都是刻板印象,
02:57
and couldn't have been further
from my own reality
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跟我自己的現實相差十萬八千里,
03:01
or from the roles I dreamt of playing.
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也和我夢想飾演的角色
相差十萬八千里。
03:03
I wanted to play people
who were complex and multidimensional,
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我想要演出複雜、多層次的人,
03:07
people who existed in the center
of their own lives.
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有屬於自己生活的人,
03:11
Not cardboard cutouts that stood
in the background of someone else's.
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而不是在別人生活裡
當背景中的人型立牌。
03:16
But when I dared to say that
to my manager --
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但,當我敢這樣
跟我的經紀人說時——
03:19
that's the person I pay
to help me find opportunity --
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我的經紀人就是拿我的錢
協助我找到機會的那個人——
03:23
his response was,
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他的回應是:
03:26
"Someone has to tell that girl
she has unrealistic expectations."
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「得要有人告訴這個女孩,
她的期望很不切實際。」
03:33
And he wasn't wrong.
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他並沒有說錯。
03:35
I mean, I fired him, but he wasn't wrong.
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我還是開除了他,
但他並沒有說錯。
03:38
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
03:40
(Applause)
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(掌聲)
03:44
Because whenever I did try to get a role
that wasn't a poorly written stereotype,
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因為,每當我試著爭取不是
刻板印象又寫得很差的角色時,
03:50
I would hear,
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我都會聽到:
03:51
"We're not looking
to cast this role diversely."
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「我們並沒有打算為這個角色
做多樣性的選角。」
03:54
Or, "We love her,
but she's too specifically ethnic."
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或「我們很喜歡她,
但她的種族太明顯了。」
03:59
Or, "Unfortunately, we already have
one Latino in this movie."
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或「不幸的是,我們這部電影中
已經有一個拉丁美洲裔的人了。」
04:05
I kept receiving the same message
again and again and again.
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我一而再再而三地
接收到同樣的訊息。
04:11
That my identity was an obstacle
I had to overcome.
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這個訊息就是:我的身分
是我必須要克服的障礙。
04:18
And so I thought,
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所以,我心想:
04:20
"Come at me, obstacle.
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「放馬過來吧,障礙。
04:22
I'm an American. My name is America.
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我是美國人。我的名字
叫艾美莉卡(美國)。
04:26
I trained my whole life for this,
I'll just follow the playbook,
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我一生都在為此做準備,
我要照著遊戲規則來玩,
04:31
I'll work harder."
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我會加倍努力。」
04:32
And so I did, I worked my hardest
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所以,我的確這麼做了,
我盡了最大努力
04:35
to overcome all the things
that people said were wrong with me.
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去克服所有別人認為
我有問題的地方。
04:39
I stayed out of the sun
so that my skin wouldn't get too brown,
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我不曬太陽,以免
我的皮膚變得太褐色,
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I straightened my curls into submission.
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我把我的捲髮弄直。
04:46
I constantly tried to lose weight,
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我經常試圖減重,
04:48
I bought fancier
and more expensive clothes.
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我買了更炫、更貴的衣服。
04:51
All so that when people looked at me,
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都是為了當別人看著我時,
04:53
they wouldn't see a too fat,
too brown, too poor Latina.
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他們看到的不是個太肥胖、
太褐色、太貧窮的拉丁裔女性。
04:59
They would see what I was capable of.
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希望這樣他們會看到我的能力。
05:02
And maybe they would give me a chance.
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也許這樣他們就會給我一個機會。
05:07
And in an ironic twist of fate,
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在一次很諷刺的命運轉折中,
05:11
when I finally did get a role
that would make all my dreams come true,
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我終於得到了能讓
我所有夢想實現的角色,
05:18
it was a role that required me
to be exactly who I was.
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這個角色需要我
扮演的正是我自己。
05:23
Ana in "Real Women Have Curves"
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在《曲線窈窕非夢事》的安娜
05:26
was a brown, poor, fat Latina.
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是個褐色皮膚、貧窮、
肥胖的拉丁裔女性。
05:32
I had never seen anyone
like her, anyone like me,
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我從沒看過像她這樣的人,
或像我這樣的人,
05:36
existing in the center
of her own life story.
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擁有自己的人生故事。
05:40
I traveled throughout the US
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配合這部片子,我行遍
美國各地,以及許多國家,
05:42
and to multiple countries with this film
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05:45
where people, regardless of their age,
ethnicity, body type,
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在那裡,不論他們的年紀、
種族、身形的人,
05:50
saw themselves in Ana.
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都在安娜身上看見他們自己。
05:53
A 17-year-old chubby Mexican American girl
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安娜是位豐滿的十七歲
墨西哥裔美國女孩,
05:57
struggling against cultural norms
to fulfill her unlikely dream.
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努力對抗文化規範,
想要實現不太可能實現的夢想。
06:02
In spite of what
I had been told my whole life,
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不論我跟大家
都是怎麼說我人生的,
06:06
I saw firsthand that people actually did
want to see stories about people like me.
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我親眼所見,
大家真的想要看我這種人的故事。
06:12
And that my unrealistic expectations
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而我不切實際的期望是:
06:15
to see myself authentically
represented in the culture
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希望在文化中看到我真實的
自己被呈現出來,
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were other people’s expectations, too.
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這期望竟然也是其他人的期望。
06:23
"Real Women Have Curves"
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《曲線窈窕非夢事》
06:24
was a critical, cultural
and financial success.
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在評論上、文化上,
和財務上都很成功。
06:29
"Great," I thought, "We did it!
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「好極了,」我心想:
「我們辦到了!
06:33
We proved our stories have value.
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我們證明了我們的故事有價值。
06:36
Things are going to change now."
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現在一切都會改變了。」
06:42
But I watched as very little happened.
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但我看到的卻是,
沒有什麼改變發生。
06:45
There was no watershed.
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沒有分水嶺。
06:47
No one in the industry
was rushing to tell more stories
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這個產業中沒有人急著
要說出更多這種故事,
06:50
about the audience that was hungry
and willing to pay to see them.
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那種觀眾渴望看到
且願意花錢去看的故事。
06:58
Four years later,
when I got to play Ugly Betty,
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四年後,我在
《醜女貝蒂》中演出,
07:03
I saw the same phenomenon play out.
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我看到同樣的現象上演。
07:06
"Ugly Betty" premiered in the US
to 16 million viewers
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《醜女貝蒂》在美國初次上演時,
有一千六百萬觀影人次,
07:11
and was nominated
for 11 Emmys in its first year.
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且第一年就得到了
十一項艾美獎提名。
07:16
(Applause)
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(掌聲)
07:21
But in spite of "Ugly Betty's" success,
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但,儘管《醜女貝蒂》很成功,
07:25
there would not be another television show
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後來一直都沒有
另一部由拉丁裔女演員
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led by a Latina actress
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主演的電視影集
07:31
on American television for eight years.
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出現在美國電視台上,
足足八年之久。
07:36
It's been 12 years
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這十二年來,
07:38
since I became the first and only Latina
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我是第一個也是
唯一一個拉丁裔女演員
07:42
to ever win an Emmy in a lead category.
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在艾美獎贏得主角的獎項。
07:46
That is not a point of pride.
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那並不讓我感到驕傲,
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That is a point of deep frustration.
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我感到的是挫折。
07:51
Not because awards prove our worth,
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並不是因為獎項能證明
我們是值得的,
07:54
but because who we see
thriving in the world
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而是因為我們認定
在這個世界上成功的人,
07:57
teaches us how to see ourselves,
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教導我們如何看待我們自己、
08:00
how to think about our own value,
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如何思考我們自己的價值,
08:03
how to dream about our futures.
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如何夢想我們的未來。
08:05
And anytime I begin to doubt that,
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每當我開始質疑那些時,
08:07
I remember that there was a little girl,
living in the Swat Valley of Pakistan.
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我就會回想有個小女孩
住在巴基斯坦斯瓦特山谷。
08:13
And somehow, she got
her hands on some DVDs
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因為某些原因,她拿到了
08:15
of an American television show
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一些美國電視節目的 DVD,
08:17
in which she saw her own dream
of becoming a writer reflected.
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在這些節目中,她看見自己
成為作家的夢想被反映出來。
08:23
In her autobiography, Malala wrote,
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在馬拉拉的自傳中,她寫道:
08:26
"I had become interested in journalism
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「我之所以會對新聞感興趣,
08:28
after seeing how my own words
could make a difference
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是因為看到我自己的
文字能造成不同,
08:32
and also from watching
the "Ugly Betty" DVDs
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以及看了《醜女貝蒂》DVD
08:36
about life at an American magazine."
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裡面講到在美國雜誌社的生活。
08:39
(Applause)
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(掌聲)
08:46
For 17 years of my career,
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在我十七年的職涯中,
08:49
I have witnessed the power our voices have
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我見證過,當我們的聲音
能夠進入到文化中時,
08:55
when they can access
presence in the culture.
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會有多強大的力量。
08:59
I've seen it.
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我見識過。
09:00
I've lived it, we've all seen it.
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我經歷過,我們都見識過。
09:03
In entertainment, in politics,
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在娛樂中、在政治中、
09:06
in business, in social change.
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在商業中、在社會改變中。
09:10
We cannot deny it --
presence creates possibility.
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我們無法否認——
存在就會創造出可能性。
09:16
But for the last 17 years,
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但,在過去十七年間,
09:18
I've also heard the same excuses
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我也聽到了同樣的藉口,
09:21
for why some of us can access
presence in the culture
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解釋為什麼我們有些人
能夠進入文化中,
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and some of us can't.
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有些人則不能。
09:29
Our stories don't have an audience,
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我們的故事沒有觀眾,
09:30
our experiences won't resonate
in the mainstream,
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我們的經歷在主流中得不到共鳴,
09:34
our voices are too big a financial risk.
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我們的聲音是太高的財務風險。
09:39
Just a few years ago, my agent called
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幾年前,我的經紀人打電話給我,
09:42
to explain to me why
I wasn't getting a role in a movie.
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向我解釋我為什麼沒有
拿到一部電影的角色。
09:45
He said, "They loved you
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他說:「他們很喜歡妳,
09:47
and they really, really do want
to cast diversely,
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他們真的真的希望
能做多樣化的選角,
09:50
but the movie isn't financeable
until they cast the white role first."
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但在他們要先幫白人角色找到人選
之後,才會有錢拍這部片。」
09:58
He delivered the message
with a broken heart
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他傳達這個訊息時,心都碎了,
10:01
and with a tone that communicated,
"I understand how messed up this is."
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他的調語彷彿在說
「我知道這有多鳥」。
10:06
But nonetheless, just like
hundreds of times before,
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但,仍然,就像過去的
數百次經歷一樣,
10:12
I felt the tears roll down my face.
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我感覺到眼淚沿著臉頰滑落。
10:15
And the pang of rejection rise up in me
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我內心受到被拒絕的痛苦煎熬,
10:19
and then the voice of shame scolding me,
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接著,羞恥的聲音開始責罵我:
10:22
"You are a grown woman,
stop crying over a job."
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「妳是成年女子了,
別再為一份工作哭泣。」
10:27
I went through this process for years
of accepting the failure as my own
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我花了數年才走過這個過程:
接受我自己的失敗,
10:31
and then feeling deep shame
that I couldn't overcome the obstacles.
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接著因為我無法克服障礙
而感到很深的羞恥。
10:36
But this time, I heard a new voice.
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但這一次,我聽見了新聲音。
10:39
A voice that said, "I'm tired.
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這個聲音說:「我累了。
10:43
I've had enough."
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我受夠了。」
10:45
A voice that understood
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這個聲音了解
10:47
my tears and my pain
were not about losing a job.
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我會流淚、我會痛苦
都不是因為失掉了工作。
10:52
They were about what
was actually being said about me.
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真正的原因是別人說的
那些話,關於我的話,
10:56
What had been said about me my whole life
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我一生中聽到那些關於我的話。
11:00
by executives and producers
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這些話來自監製、製片、
11:03
and directors and writers
and agents and managers
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導演、編劇、經紀人、經理、
11:06
and teachers and friends and family.
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老師、朋友、家人。
11:09
That I was a person of less value.
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他們說我這個人的價值比較低。
11:12
I thought sunscreen
and straightening irons
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我以為防曬乳和燙直頭髮
11:16
would bring about change
in this deeply entrenched value system.
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能夠為這個根深蒂固的
價值系統帶來改變。
11:22
But what I realized in that moment
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但在那一刻,我領悟到,
11:25
was that I was never actually asking
the system to change.
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我從來就不是在
要求這個系統改變。
11:31
I was asking it to let me in,
and those aren't the same thing.
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我是在要求它讓我進入,
這是不一樣的。
11:38
I couldn't change
what a system believed about me,
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我無法改變系統相信
我是什麼樣子,
11:41
while I believed what
the system believed about me.
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倘若我相信我就是
系統相信的那個樣子。
11:45
And I did.
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我確實這樣。
11:46
I, like everyone around me,
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我和我身邊的所有人一樣,
11:48
believed that it wasn't possible
for me to exist in my dream as I was.
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相信我不可能用我真實的樣貌
去實現我的夢想。
11:55
And I went about
trying to make myself invisible.
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而我試著讓我自己隱形。
12:02
What this revealed to me
was that it is possible
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這讓我了解到的是,的確有可能
12:06
to be the person
who genuinely wants to see change
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成為一個真正想要看見改變的人,
12:11
while also being the person whose actions
keep things the way they are.
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同時行為上卻仍然讓一切照舊。
12:20
And what it's led me to believe
is that change isn't going to come
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它讓我相信,找出誰是好人、
誰是壞人並不會帶來改變。
12:24
by identifying the good guys
and the bad guys.
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12:27
That conversation
lets us all off the hook.
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那樣的談話是讓我們所有人脫身。
12:29
Because most of us
are neither one of those.
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因為我們大部分人
既不是好人也不是壞人。
12:33
Change will come
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改變會到來,
12:35
when each of us has the courage
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當我們每個人都有勇氣
12:37
to question our own fundamental
values and beliefs.
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去質疑我們自己的
基礎價值和信念。
12:41
And then see to it that our actions
lead to our best intentions.
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接著確保我們的行為
會導致我們最好的意圖。
12:48
I am just one of millions of people
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我只是一個人,還有數百萬人
12:51
who have been told
that in order to fulfill my dreams,
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也曾經被告知過,
如果要實現夢想,
12:55
in order to contribute
my talents to the world
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如果要將自己的才華貢獻給世界,
12:57
I have to resist the truth of who I am.
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就必須要抗拒真實的自己。
13:02
I for one, am ready to stop resisting
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我就已經準備好要停止抗拒,
13:05
and to start existing
as my full and authentic self.
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開始扮演最完整、最真實的自我。
13:12
If I could go back and say anything
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如果我能夠回到過去,
13:15
to that nine-year-old,
dancing in the den, dreaming her dreams,
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對那位在書齋跳舞、
懷抱自己夢想的九歲孩子說話,
13:19
I would say,
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我會說:
13:21
my identity is not my obstacle.
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我的身分不是我的障礙。
13:24
My identity is my superpower.
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我的身分是我的超能力。
13:27
Because the truth is,
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因為,真相是,
13:29
I am what the world looks like.
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我就是世界看起來的樣子。
13:32
You are what the world looks like.
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你就是世界看起來的樣子。
13:35
Collectively, we are
what the world actually looks like.
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我們大家就是世界看起來的樣子。
13:40
And in order for our systems
to reflect that,
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要讓我們的系統能反映出這一點,
13:43
they don't have to create a new reality.
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它們不需要創造出新的現實。
13:47
They just have to stop
resisting the one we already live in.
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它們必須要停止抗拒我們
已經身在其中的那個現實。
13:52
Thank you.
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謝謝。
13:53
(Applause)
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