A sci-fi vision of love from a 318-year-old hologram | Monica Byrne

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Do I look real to you?

Da li vam izgledam stvarno?

Hope so.

Nadam se.

I have no idea if you're seeing this,

Pojma nemam da li vidite ovo,

but I'm just going to look ahead and trust that you're there.

ali prosto ću da gledam ispred sebe i da verujem da ste tu.

I've drawn a semicircle in the sand in front of me

Iscrtala sam polukrug na pesku preda mnom

so I don't walk past it and look like I'm floating in midair.

kako ne bih iskoračila iz njega i izgledala kao da lebdim u vazduhu.

Right now I'm standing

Trenutno stojim

in the open air,

na otvorenom vazduhu,

on a beach under a palm tree,

na plaži ispod palminog drveta,

in the exact spot where your stage used to be.

tačno na mestu gde je nekad bila vaša scena.

I have 12 minutes with you.

Imamo 12 minuta.

I set a limit.

Ja sam postavila ograničenje.

My wife Navid once said

Moja supruga Navida je rekla

that infinite possibility is a creator's worst enemy.

da su beskrajne mogućnosti najveći neprijatelj stvaraocu.

For example, this dress: I'd asked her to design something

Na primer, ova haljina; zatražila sam joj da dizajnira nešto

that a priest might have worn in 23rd-century Cairo.

što je sveštenik iz Kaira u 23. veku mogao da nosi.

But we only had three days to make it,

Ali smo imali samo tri dana da je napravimo,

and the only fabric we had

a jedina tkanina koju smo imale

was an old duvet cover that another resident left behind.

je bila navlaka za jorgan koju je drugi stanar ostavio.

But she did it, and it's perfect.

Ali ona ju je napravila i savršena je.

And she looked at it and said,

I pogledala je i rekla:

"Proof of concept -- creation needs constraint."

"Dokaz koncepta - stvaranju su potrebna ograničenja."

So with these 12 minutes,

Pa ću tokom ovih 12 minuta

I'm going to tell you about my greatest discovery.

da vam govorim o mom najvećem otkriću.

For my whole life, my obsession has been eternal life,

Čitavog mog života sam bila opsednuta večnim životom,

as I know it is so many of yours.

kao što znam da su i mnogi od vas.

You may be happy to know that your research will pay off.

Možda vas usreći saznanje da će se vaša istraživanja isplatiti.

I am 318 years old.

Imam 318 godina.

The average human lifespan is now 432 years,

Prosečni životni vek je trenutno 432 godine,

and my work has been to extend the human lifespan indefinitely.

a ja sam radila na produžavanju ljudskog veka do beskonačnosti.

And I've never questioned that someday,

I nikad nisam sumnjala u to da ćemo jednog dana

we'll reach a point where we'll be content.

doći do tačke u kojoj ćemo biti zadovoljni.

But the opposite keeps happening:

Ali suprotno se i dalje dešava:

the longer we live, the longer we want to live,

što duže živimo, to duže želimo da živimo,

the less we want to die.

sve manje želimo da umremo.

Who can blame us?

Ko bi nas krivio?

The universe is so big.

Univerzum je toliko velik.

There won't ever not be more to see.

Nikad neće nestati novih horizonata.

Just yesterday,

Baš sam juče

I was reading about how you can take out a boat on Europa

čitala o tome kako možete da plovite čamcem po Evropi

and sail from island to island all over the planet,

i da jedrite od ostrva do ostrva širom planete,

and some of the islands have villages that you can stay and visit

a na nekim ostrvima su sela gde možete da odsednete

and sleep under the shadow of Jupiter.

i da prespavate pod senkom Jupitera.

And then there's this other island where there's just one songwriter

A onda imamo jedno drugo ostrvo na kom je samo jedan kantautor

who sits and plays mandolin for the ocean.

koji sedi i okeanu svira mandolinu.

And then there are others where there's no one

A potom imamo i druga na kojima nema bilo koga

and there never has been,

i nikad nije ni bilo,

and so you go just for the pleasure of touching your foot to sand

pa tamo idete iz pukog zadovoljstva dodirivanja stopalom peska

that no foot has ever touched before.

koji nijedno stopalo pre nije dotaklo.

You could spend 400 years doing just that.

Mogli biste provesti 400 godina radeći samo to.

Right now the Moon is rising in the Northeast.

Upravo sad Mesec izlazi na severoistoku.

I can see the cities on it with my naked eye.

Golim okom mogu da vidim gradove na njemu.

They're connected like nerve clusters:

Povezani su kao grupe nerava:

Mariapolis on the South Pole, and Ramachandran on the Equator.

Marijapolis na Južnom polu i Ramačandran na Ekvatoru.

And New Tehran in the Sea of Tranquility.

I Novi Teheran u Moru Spokoja.

That's where Navid and I met.

Tu smo se Navida i ja upoznale.

We were both artists downtown.

Obe smo bile umetnice iz centra grada.

The day we met, we were passing each other in Azadi Square,

Na dan kad smo se upoznale, mimoilazile smo se na trgu Azadi

and we bumped shoulders.

i sudarile smo se ramenima.

And I turned to apologize

I ja sam se okrenula da se izvinim,

and she, without saying hello or introducing herself or anything,

a ona, bez pozdrava ili predstavljanja ili bilo čega,

said, "Well, why do you think we didn't just pass through each other?"

rekla je: "Pa, šta misliš zašto nismo prosto prošle jedna kroz drugu?"

And first of all, I thought, "Who the hell are you?"

I, pre svega sam mislila: "Ko si, dovraga, ti?"

But second, the question annoyed me,

Ali, zatim, pitanje me je nerviralo

because the answer is so simple.

jer je odgovor tako jednostavan.

I said, "We didn't pass through each other

Rekla sam: "Nismo prošle jedna kroz drugu

because elementary particles have mass

jer elementarne čestice imaju masu

and because the space between elementary particles

i jer je prostor između elementarnih čestica

is filled with the binding energy that also has the properties of mass,

ispunjen vezivnom energijom koja takođe ima svojstvo mase,

and we've known that for 800 years."

a to nam je poznato već 800 godina."

She must have been in one of those moods

Mora da je bila u jednom od raspoloženja

where she likes to mess with strangers.

kad voli da zeza strance.

Or maybe she was just flirting with me,

Ili je pak, prosto flertovala sa mnom

because she looked at me and said, "I thought you'd say that.

jer me je pogledala i rekla: "Pomislila sam da ćeš to reći.

Think deeper."

Razmisli podrobnije."

And then she took off her belt,

A potom je skinula pojas,

this belt that I'm wearing now,

ovaj pojas koji sad nosim,

and she said,

i rekla:

"Our universe is built so that particles have mass.

"Naš univerzum je napravljen kako bi čestice imale masu.

Without that basic constraint,

Bez tog osnovnog ograničenja,

we'd have just passed right through each other at the speed of light

prosto bismo prolazili direktno jedni kroz druge brzinom svetlosti

and never even known."

i ne bismo bili svesni toga."

And that's how our romance began.

I tako je počela naša romansa.

Navid and I

Navidi i meni

never ran out of things to talk about.

nikad nije ponestalo tema za razgovor.

Never.

Nikad.

It was incredible.

Bilo je neverovatno.

It was like we were both heroes climbing up into a mountain range together

Kao da smo obe bile heroine koje se penju na planinske vence zajedno

and we kept arriving at new vistas,

i stalno smo stizale do novih vidika,

and these new, perfect constellations of words

a ta nova, savršena sazvežđa reči

would come out of us to describe them.

bi izlazila iz nas da bismo ih opisale.

And we'd forget them as soon as we made them,

I zaboravljale smo ih čim bismo ih izmislile,

and throw them over our shoulder and go on to the next thing, on and up.

bacale smo ih preko ramena i prelazile na nove stvari, napred i više.

Or one time, Navid said that our talk was like we were always making bread,

Ili jedanput, Navida je rekla da naš razgovor izgleda kao da uvek mesimo hleb,

and that we were always adding in a little more flour

i da uvek dodajemo još malo brašna

and a little more water,

i još malo vode,

and folding it in and turning it over

i presavijamo ga i okrećemo

and never getting around to baking it.

i nikad se ne skanjujemo da ga ispeknemo.

If my obsession was eternal life, Navid's obsession was touch.

Ako je moja opsesija bila večni život, Navidina opsesija je bio dodir.

She had a genius for it.

Bila je genijalna u tome.

All of her work revolved around it.

Čitav njen rad se vrteo oko toga.

My body was like a canvas for her,

Moje telo je bilo za nju poput platna,

and she would draw her fingertip down over my face so slowly

i prevlačila bi vrhom svog prsta po mom licu polako

that I couldn't feel it moving.

kako ne bih osetila njegovo pomeranje.

And she was obsessed with the exact moment

I bila je opsednuta baš onim trenom

when I would stop being able to tell the difference between her body and mine.

kad bih prestala da budem u stanju da razlikujem njeno telo od mog.

Or she would just lie across me and dig her shoulder into mine

Ili bi prosto legla preko mene i zabila bi svoje rame u moje

and say, "Pilar, why does this feel so good?"

i pitala: "Pilar, zašto ovo toliko prija?"

I'd say, "I don't know!"

Rekla bih: "Ne znam!"

And she always had a facetious answer for her facetious question,

A ona je uvek imala šaljiv odgovor na njeno šaljivo pitanje,

but the answer I remember today is,

ali danas se sećam odgovora:

"It feels good

"Prija

because the universe chose its constraints,

jer je univerzum odabrao svoja ograničenja,

and we are its art."

a mi smo njegova umetnost."

It's always funny what you think the future is going to be like

Uvek je smešno kako zamišljate da će budućnost da izgleda,

versus what it turns out to be.

nasuprot onome kakva ispadne.

In your time, scientists thought humans could freeze themselves

U vaše vreme su naučnici mislili da se ljudi mogu zamrznuti

and wake up in the future.

i probuditi u budućnosti.

And they did -- but then they died.

I uradili su to - ali bi potom umirali.

In your time, scientists thought humans could replace organs

U vaše vreme, naučnici su mislili da ljudi mogu da zamene organe

and extend life for hundreds of years.

i da produže život stotinama godina.

And they did,

I uradili su to,

but eventually, they died anyway.

ali su kad-tad svejedno umirali.

In your time, Earth is the only place people live.

U vaše vreme, Zemlja je jedino mesto na kom ljudi žive.

In my time, Earth is the place people come to die.

U moje vreme, Zemlja je mesto na koje ljudi dolaze da umru.

So when Navid started to show the signs,

Pa, kad je Navida počela da pokazuje znakove,

our friends assumed I would do what everyone does,

naši prijatelji su pretpostavili da ću uraditi što i svi,

which is say goodbye and send her to Earth,

to jest reći zbogom i poslati je na Zemlju,

so that none of us would have to look at her

kako niko od nas ne bi morao da je gleda

or be around her or think about her and her ...

ili da bude u njenoj blizini ili da misli na nju i njen...

failure to keep living.

neuspeh da se održi u životu.

More than anything,

Više od bilo čega

they didn't want to be around her actual physical body.

nisu želeli da budu u blizini njenog stvarnog fizičkog tela.

They kept referring to it as "declining,"

Sve vreme su govorili da "propada",

even though she herself was fascinated by it,

iako je ona sama bila očarana njime,

the changes it was going through,

promenama kroz koje je prolazilo,

following the rules of its nature day by day, independent of her will.

prateći pravila svoje prirode dan za danom, nezavisno od njene volje.

I did send Navid to Earth.

Poslala sam Navidu na Zemlju.

But I came with her.

Ali sam pošla s njom.

I remember a friend of ours, just before we left, said,

Sećam se da je jedan naš prijatelj baš pred naš polazak rekao:

"I just think it's arrogant,

"Prosto to smatram ohološću,

like the rules don't apply to you, like you think your love is that special."

kao da pravila ne važe za tebe, kao da misliš da je vaša ljubav toliko posebna."

But I did.

Ali mislila sam to.

So, even here on Earth,

Pa sam čak i ovde na Zemlji

I kept working on how to extend life.

nastavila da radim na produžavanju života.

It didn't occur to me

Nije mi palo na pamet

that there could be any other response.

da postoji bilo kakvo drugo rešenje.

I kept going back to that thing that Navid said to me

Stalno sam se vraćala na ono što mi je Navida rekla

that day in Azadi Square,

tog dana na trgu Azadi,

that without that basic constraint --

da bez tog osnovnog ograničenja -

a universe that granted mass to matter --

univerzuma koji je podario masu materiji -

we would not exist.

ne bismo postojali.

That's one rule.

To je jedan zakon.

Another rule is that all mass is subject to entropy.

Druga zakonitost je da je sva masa podložna entropiji.

And there is no way to be in this universe without mass.

I bez mase nema postojanja u ovom univerzumu.

I know. I tried everything.

Znam. Isprobala sam sve.

I tried creating a photon box where the Higgs field was altered.

Pokušala sam da stvorim fotonsku kutiju gde bi Higsovo polje bilo izmenjeno.

I tried recording all subatomic movements in my body

Pokušala sam da zabeležim sva subatomska kretanja u mom telu

and replaying them on closed loop.

i puštala bih ih u zatvorenoj petlji.

Nothing worked.

Ništa nije funkcionisalo.

But my final innovation was to create a coil dimension

Ali moj poslednji izum je bio stvaranje nakalemljene dimenzije

with the boundaries of a body in which time moved infinitely slower,

s telesnim ograničenjima u kojoj je vreme prolazilo beskrajno sporije,

but whose projection would appear to move in normal time.

ali čija bi brojekcija izgledala kao da se kreće u normalnom vremenu.

That body would then appear in our universe as a hologram --

To telo bi se onda pojavljivalo u našem univerzumu kao hologram -

here but not here.

ovde, ali nije ovde.

When I realized I'd done it,

Shvativši da sam to postigla,

I ran to her room,

otrčala sam u njenu sobu,

so happy to tell her I'd done it,

tako srećna što ću joj reći da sam uspela,

moving through space almost normally to all eyes,

krećući se kroz prostor svima naočigled skoro normalno,

even to my own,

čak i samoj sebi,

and went to lie down next to her,

i pošla sam da legnem pored nje

and forgot, and fell right through her.

i zaboravila sam i propala kroz nju.

I'd found a way to eternal life,

Otkrila sam vid večnog života,

at the expense of the one thing Navid loved most,

po ceni onoga što je Navida najviše volela,

which was to touch and be touched.

a to je da dodiruje i bude dodirnuta.

And she threw me out.

I izbacila me je napolje.

I still got to watch, though.

I dalje sam, pak, mogla da posmatram.

Humans live 400 years now,

Ljudi sad žive 400 godina,

and we still die.

a i dalje umiremo.

And when death comes,

A kad smrt dođe,

the dying still pick at their bedsheets,

umiranje ih i dalje zatiče u posteljama,

and their arms break out in blue and violet blooms on the insides,

i ruke im se iznutra rascvetaju modrim i ljubičastim pupoljcima,

and their breaths get further and further apart,

i disanje im je sve sporije i sporije,

like they're falling asleep.

kao da tonu u san.

I've always thought that

Oduvek sam mislila

what gives a life meaning is adventure.

da je avantura smisao života.

And death is just a problem

A da je smrt samo problem

we haven't discovered the solution to yet.

za koji još uvek nismo otkrili rešenje.

But maybe a life has meaning only because it ends.

Ali možda život jedino ima smisla jer se završava.

Maybe that's the paradox:

Možda je to paradoks:

constraints don't constrain, they allow perfect freedom.

ograničenja ne ograničavaju, ona omogućuju savršenu slobodu.

(Sighs)

(Uzdah)

There was a thunderstorm here this morning.

Jutros je ovde bila ouja.

There is another forecast for tonight,

Prognozirali su još jednu večeras,

but for now the sky is clear.

ali zasad je nebo vedro.

I can't feel the wind here,

Ne osećam vetar ovde,

but I just asked one of the caretakers who passed by what it felt like,

no naprosto sam u prolazu pitala jednu negovateljicu kako joj se čini vreme

and she said it felt warm, like melted butter.

i rekla je da izgleda toplo, poput istopljenog maslaca.

An answer worthy of my wife.

Odgovor dostojan moje supruge.

I have to find my way back to the flesh.

Moram da pronađem put nazad do svog tela.

Until then, I take up no space but the space you give me.

Do tad, ne zauzimam više prostora od onog koji mi date.