Why I speak up about living with epilepsy | Sitawa Wafula

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์•„๋ž˜ ์˜๋ฌธ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ”ํด๋ฆญํ•˜์‹œ๋ฉด ์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.

๋ฒˆ์—ญ: Yousun Kang ๊ฒ€ํ† : Jihyeon J. Kim
00:12
I have a confession.
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์ €์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” ๊ณ ๋ฐฑํ•  ๊ฒƒ์ด ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:16
I have been in an affair
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17์„ธ๋ถ€ํ„ฐ
00:19
since I was 17 years old.
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์ €์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” ๋ฌธ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:22
I wish I could talk about butterflies in my stomach
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์‰ฝ๊ฒŒ ๊ธด์žฅํ•˜๋Š” ํŽธ์ธ ์ €์˜ ์„ฑ๊ฒฉ์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ๋ฌธ์ œ๋ผ๋“ ๊ฐ€
00:26
or maps I drew on the ground
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๋•…์— ์ง์ ‘ ๊ทธ๋ ธ๋˜ ์ง€๋„์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด
00:29
when I think about this affair,
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์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ์ข‹์„๊นŒ์š”.
00:31
but I cannot.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹™๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:33
I wish I could talk about sweet words spoken
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด ๋ฌธ์ œ๋ฅผ ๊ฒช์œผ๋ฉด์„œ ๋“ฃ๊ฒŒ๋œ ๋‹ฌ์ฝคํ•œ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘๊ณ ๋ฐฑ์ด๋ผ๋“ ๊ฐ€
00:37
or gifts that I received
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์•„๋‹ˆ๋ฉด ๋ฐ›์•˜๋˜ ์„ ๋ฌผ์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ
00:39
from this affair,
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์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ผ๋ฉด ์ข‹์„ํ…๋ฐ
00:41
but I cannot.
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์—ญ์‹œ ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋„ ์•„๋‹™๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:43
All I can tell you about is the aftermath,
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์˜ค๋Š˜ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋“ค๋ ค๋“œ๋ฆด ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋Š”
00:47
about days I spent constantly asking:
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๋Š์ž„์—†์ด ์งˆ๋ฌธํ•˜๋ฉฐ ๋ณด๋ƒˆ๋˜ ์‹œ๊ฐ„๋“ค์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:51
Why, why, why me?
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์–ด์งธ์„œ, ์–ด์งธ์„œ ๋‚˜์—ฌ์•ผ ํ•˜๋Š”๊ฐ€.
00:57
I remember how it all began.
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์ œ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋Š” ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์‹œ์ž‘๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:00
I was in my final year of high school,
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์ €๋Š” ๊ณ ๋“ฑํ•™๊ต ์กธ์—…๋ฐ˜์ด์—ˆ๊ณ 
01:02
and my class had just won in sports,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋ฐ˜์ด ์ฒด์œก ์‹œํ•ฉ์—์„œ ์ด๊ฒจ์„œ
01:06
so we were singing and dancing and hugging each other.
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ํ•™๊ธ‰ ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์–ผ์‹ธ์•ˆ๊ณ  ๋…ธ๋ž˜๋ฅผ ๋ถ€๋ฅด๋ฉฐ ์ถค์„ ์ถ”์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:10
I went and took a shower.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๊ณ ๋Š” ์ƒค์›Œ๋ฅผ ํ•˜๋Ÿฌ ๊ฐ”์ง€์š”.
01:12
Then I went for dinner.
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์ €๋…์„ ๋จน์œผ๋Ÿฌ ๊ฐ”์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:15
And when I sat down to eat,
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๋ฐฅ์„ ๋จน์œผ๋ ค๊ณ  ์•‰์•˜๋Š”๋ฐ
01:17
my teeth started chattering,
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์ œ ์น˜์•„๊ฐ€ ๋”ฑ๋”ฑ ๋ถ€๋”ชํžˆ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:19
and so I couldn't put the spoon in my mouth.
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์ˆŸ๊ฐ€๋ฝ์„ ์ž…์— ๋„ฃ์„ ์ˆ˜๋„ ์—†์—ˆ์ฃ .
01:22
I rushed to the nurse's office,
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๋ณด๊ฑด์‹ค๋กœ ๊ธ‰ํžˆ ๊ฐ”์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:25
and because I couldn't talk, I just pointed at my mouth.
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์ €๋Š” ๋ง์„ ํ•  ์ˆ˜๊ฐ€ ์—†์—ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์— ์†๊ฐ€๋ฝ์œผ๋กœ ์ž…์„ ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์ผฐ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:28
She didn't know what was happening,
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๋ณด๊ฑด ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜์€ ๋ฌด์Šจ ๋ฌธ์ œ์ธ์ง€ ์ž˜ ๋ชจ๋ฅด์…จ๊ณ 
01:30
so she told me to lie down,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ผ๋‹จ ์ €๋ฅผ ๋ˆ•ํ˜”์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:32
and it worked --
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ์ž ์ข€ ๋‚˜์•„์กŒ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:34
after a few minutes, the chattering stopped.
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๋ช‡ ๋ถ„ ํ›„ ์น˜์•„๊ฐ€ ๋ถ€๋”ชํžˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ๋ฉˆ์ท„์ง€์š”.
01:36
I was about to dash out, and she told me --
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์ €๋Š” ์„œ๋‘˜๋Ÿฌ ๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋ ค๋Š”๋ฐ ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜์€ ์•ˆ๋œ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ•˜์‹œ๋ฉฐ
01:41
no, she insisted -- that I go up to the dormitories to sleep.
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๊ธฐ์ˆ™์‚ฌ๋กœ ๊ฐ€์„œ ์ž์•ผํ•œ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ•˜์…จ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:46
Here I was in my final year of high school,
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๋‹น์‹œ์— ์ €๋Š” ๊ณ ๋“ฑํ•™๊ต ์กธ์—…๋ฐ˜์ด์—ˆ๊ณ 
01:49
just a few months from doing my end of high school exams
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๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ์‹œํ—˜์„ ๋ช‡ ๋‹ฌ ์•ž๋‘๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:53
and a few days from doing a set of exams we call here in Kenya "mocks,"
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๋ฉฐ์น  ๋’ค์—๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์‚ฌ๋Š” ์ผ€๋ƒ์˜ '๋ชฉ์Šค'๋ผ๋Š” ์‹œํ—˜ ๋ด์•ผํ–ˆ์ฃ .
01:58
which are somehow meant to gauge how prepared one is for the final exams.
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๊ทธ ์‹œํ—˜์€ ๊ณ ๋“ฑํ•™๊ต ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ์‹œํ—˜์— ๋Œ€๋น„ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ชจ์˜๊ณ ์‚ฌ ๊ฐ™์€ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:04
There is no way I was going to sleep
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์ €๋Š” ์ž๋Ÿฌ ๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ€ ์—†์—ˆ์ฃ .
02:06
and let a set of exams mock me.
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๋‚จ์€ ์‹œํ—˜๋“ค์ด ์ €๋ฅผ ์˜ฅ์ฃ„๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์•˜๊ฑฐ๋“ ์š”.
02:09
I went to class, sat down,
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์ €๋Š” ๊ต์‹ค์— ๋“ค์–ด๊ฐ€์„œ ์ž๋ฆฌ์— ์•‰์•˜๊ณ 
02:12
took my Kenyan history notes,
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์ผ€๋ƒ ์—ญ์‚ฌ ๊ณต์ฑ…์„ ํˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:14
and there I was, down Kenyan coastal town,
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์ผ€๋ƒ์˜ ํ•ด์•ˆ๊ฐ€ ๋งˆ์„์ธ ๊ธฐ๋ฆฌ์•„๋งˆ์—์„œ
02:18
with the great Mekatilili wa Menza,
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์˜๊ตญ ์‹๋ฏผ ํ†ต์น˜์— ๋Œ€ํ•ญํ•˜๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์„ ์ด๋Œ์—ˆ๋˜
02:20
the Giriama woman who led her people against British colonial rule.
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์œ„๋Œ€ํ•œ '๋ฉ”์นดํ‹ธ๋ฆด๋ฆฌ ์™€ ๋ฉ˜์ž'์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋ฐฐ์šฐ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:27
Then, without any notice,
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๋ฐ”๋กœ ๊ทธ๋•Œ, ์–ด๋–ค ์˜ˆ๊ณ ๋„ ์—†์ด
02:30
my left hand started jerking,
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์ €์˜ ์™ผ์ชฝ ์†์ด ๊ผฌ์ด๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:34
and it was as if I was marking imaginary papers.
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์ œ ์†์€ ๋งˆ์น˜ ์‹œํ—˜์ง€์— ๋‹ต์„ ํ‘œ์‹œํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์€ ๋ชจ์–‘์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
02:37
In and out it went,
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์ˆ˜์‹œ๋กœ ๋ฐ˜๋ณต๋˜์—ˆ๊ณ 
02:40
and with every stroke, one by one,
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ํ•œ ๋ฒˆ์”ฉ ํœ˜๋‘๋ฅผ ๋•Œ๋งˆ๋‹ค
02:44
my classmates stopped concentrating on their reading
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๋ฐ˜ ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค์€ ๊ณต๋ถ€์— ์ง‘์ค‘์„ ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ชปํ•˜๊ณ 
02:47
and started looking at me.
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์ €๋ฅผ ์ณ๋‹ค๋ณด๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:50
And I tried really hard to stop it,
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์ €๋Š” ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ๋“  ๋ฉˆ์ถฐ๋ณด๋ ค๊ณ  ๋…ธ๋ ฅํ–ˆ์ง€๋งŒ
02:53
but I couldn't,
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๊ทธ๋Ÿด ์ˆ˜ ์—†์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:54
because it had a life of its own.
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ํ•œ ๋ฒˆ ๋ฐœ์ƒํ•  ๋•Œ๋งˆ๋‹ค ๋๋‚˜๋Š” ์ฃผ๊ธฐ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์—ˆ๊ฑฐ๋“ ์š”.
02:58
And then, when it was sure everybody was looking at us,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋ชจ๋‘๊ฐ€ ์ณ๋‹ค๋ณด๋Š” ๊ฐ€์šด๋ฐ
03:02
in its final show and official introduction,
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์ด๊ฒƒ์ด ๊ฐ„์งˆ ์ฆ์ƒ์ด๋ผ๋Š”
03:06
I had my first full-blown seizure,
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๋ณธ๊ฒฉ์ ์ธ ๊ฐ„์งˆ ๋ฐœ์ž‘์„ ์ผ์œผ์ผฐ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:09
which was the beginning of what has been a 15-year-long affair.
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15๋…„ ๋™์•ˆ ์ €๋ฅผ ๊ดด๋กญํ˜”๋˜ ์ œ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋Š” ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์‹œ์ž‘๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:17
Seizures are the trademark characteristic for most types of epilepsy,
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๋ฐœ์ž‘์€ ๊ฐ„์งˆ์˜ ๋Œ€ํ‘œ์  ์ฆ์ƒ์ด๊ณ 
03:23
and every first-ever seizure needs to be assessed by a doctor
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๋ฐœ์ž‘์ด ์ฒ˜์Œ ๋ฐœ์ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ์ด๊ฒƒ์ด ๊ฐ„์งˆ๋กœ ์ธํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ธ์ง€
03:28
to determine if one has epilepsy
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ํ˜น์€ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๋ณ‘์œผ๋กœ ์ธํ•œ ์ฆ์ƒ์ธ์ง€
03:30
or if it's a symptom of something else.
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์˜์‚ฌ์˜ ์ง„๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์•„์•ผ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:33
In my case, it was confirmed that I had epilepsy.
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์ œ ๊ฒฝ์šฐ์—๋Š” ๊ฐ„์งˆ๋กœ ํ™•์ง„์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:38
I spent a large chunk of my time in hospital and at home,
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์ €๋Š” ์ฃผ๋กœ ์ง‘์ด๋‚˜ ๋ณ‘์›์— ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:43
and only went back to do my final exams.
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๊ธฐ๋ง๊ณ ์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ๋ณด๋Ÿฌ ํ•™๊ต์— ๊ฐ„ ๊ฒŒ ์ „๋ถ€์˜€์ง€์š”.
03:47
I had seizures in between papers,
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์‹œํ—˜ ์ค‘์—๋„ ๋ฐœ์ž‘์ด ๋ฐœ์ƒํ–ˆ๊ณ ์š”.
03:51
but managed to get good enough grades
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ฐ€๊นŒ์Šค๋กœ ์ข‹์€ ์„ฑ์ ์„ ๋ฐ›์•„
03:53
to be admitted for an actuarial science degree
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๋‚˜์ด๋กœ๋น„ ๋Œ€ํ•™์˜ ๋ณดํ—˜ ํ†ต๊ณ„ํ•™๊ณผ์— ํ•ฉ๊ฒฉํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:56
at the University of Nairobi.
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03:58
(Applause)
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(๋ฐ•์ˆ˜)
04:04
Unfortunately, I had to drop out in my second year.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋ถˆํ–‰ํ•˜๊ฒŒ๋„ ์ „ 2ํ•™๋…„ ๋•Œ ์žํ‡ด๋ฅผ ํ•ด์•ผํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:09
I didn't have good enough coping skills
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์ €์˜ ๋ฌธ์ œ ํ•ด๊ฒฐ ๋Šฅ๋ ฅ์€ ๋ถ€์กฑํ–ˆ๊ณ 
04:11
and a support community around me.
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์ €๋ฅผ ๋„์™€์ค„ ๊ธฐ๊ด€์€ ์—†์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:14
I was lucky enough to get a job,
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๋‹คํ–‰ํžˆ๋„ ์ผ์ž๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์–ป๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์ง€๋งŒ
04:17
but I was fired from that job when I had a seizure in the workplace.
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์ง์žฅ์—์„œ ๋ฐœ์ž‘์„ ํ•œ ๋ฒˆ ์ผ์œผํ‚ค์ž ๊ณง ํ•ด๊ณ ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:22
So I found myself in a space
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ด๋Ÿฐ ์ผ์„
04:26
where I was constantly asking myself
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์™œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฒช์–ด์•ผ๋งŒ ํ•˜๋Š”์ง€
04:30
why this had to happen to me.
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๋Š์ž„์—†์ด ์ € ์ž์‹ ์—๊ฒŒ ๋ฌผ์—ˆ์ง€์š”.
04:33
I lived in denial for a long time,
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์˜ค๋žœ ๊ธฐ๊ฐ„ ๋ถ€์ •ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:37
and the denial was maybe because of the things that had happened,
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์žํ‡ด๋‚˜ ํ•ด๊ณ  ๋“ฑ ์ผ๋ จ์˜ ์‚ฌ๊ฑด๋“ค์„ ๊ฒช์œผ๋ฉด์„œ
04:44
dropping out of school and being fired from my job.
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ํ˜„์‹ค์„ ๋ฐ›์•„๋“ค์ด์ง€ ๋ชปํ•œ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:47
Or maybe it was because of the things I had heard about epilepsy
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์•„๋‹ˆ๋ฉด ๊ฐ„์งˆ์— ๊ด€ํ•ด์„œ ๋“ค์€ ์ •๋ณด๋‚˜
04:51
and about people living with epilepsy:
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๊ฐ„์งˆ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์˜ ์‚ถ์„ ๋“ฃ๊ฒŒ๋œ ํ›„๋ถ€ํ„ฐ ๊ทธ๋žฌ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™๊ธฐ๋„ ํ•˜๊ณ ์š”.
04:54
that they would never live on their own;
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๊ฐ„์งˆ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์€ ์Šค์Šค๋กœ ์‚ด์•„๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜๋„ ์—†์—ˆ๊ณ 
04:56
that they would never travel on their own
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ํ˜ผ์ž์„œ๋Š” ์—ฌํ–‰๋„ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์—ˆ์œผ๋ฉฐ
04:58
or even get work;
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์ผ๋„ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ•˜๋”๊ตฐ์š”.
05:01
that they were outcasts,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ๋Š˜ ๋ˆ„๊ตฐ๊ฐ€์—๊ฒŒ ์˜์ง€ํ•ด์•ผ๋งŒ ์‚ด์•„๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”
05:03
with a spirit in them that they needed to be delivered from.
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๋‚™์˜ค์ž๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:08
And so the more I thought about these things,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด๋Ÿฐ ์ƒ๊ฐ์— ์‚ฌ๋กœ์žกํ˜€ ์žˆ์„์ˆ˜๋ก
05:12
the more my seizures became,
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๋ฐœ์ž‘์€ ๋” ์‹ฌํ•ด์กŒ๊ณ 
05:15
and I spent days with my legs locked,
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๋‹ค๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ฌถ์ธ ์ฑ„๋กœ ์ง€๋‚ด์•ผ ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:18
my speech became blurred
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๋ฐœ์Œ ์—ญ์‹œ ๋ถˆ๋ช…ํ™•ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
05:22
and on days on end, this is how I'd be.
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์ˆ˜์ผ ๋™์•ˆ ์ €๋Š” ์ด๋Ÿฐ ๋ชจ์Šต์œผ๋กœ ์ง€๋‚ด์•ผ ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:26
Two or three days after a seizure,
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๊ฐ„์งˆ ๋ฐœ์ž‘์„ ๊ฒช๊ณ  ์ด์‚ผ์ผ ํ›„์—๋„
05:28
my head and my hand would still be twitching.
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๋จธ๋ฆฌ์™€ ์†์— ๊ฒฝ๋ จ ์ฆ์ƒ์ด ๋‚จ์•„์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:34
I felt lost,
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์ „ ๋งˆ์น˜ ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒƒ์„ ์žƒ์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ
05:36
like I'd lost everything,
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๋ฐฉํ™ฉํ–ˆ๊ณ 
05:39
and sometimes,
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๋•Œ๋กœ๋Š”
05:42
even the will to live.
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์‚ด ์˜์ง€๋งˆ์ € ์žƒ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:53
(Sigh)
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06:00
I had so much frustration in me.
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์ขŒ์ ˆ๊ฐ์œผ๋กœ ๊ณ ํ†ต์Šค๋Ÿฌ์› ์ฃ .
06:03
And so I started writing,
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‹ค๊ฐ€ ๊ธ€์„ ์“ฐ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:05
because the people around me didn't have answers
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์ œ ์ฃผ๋ณ€์— ์žˆ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐ€์ง„ ์งˆ๋ฌธ์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ
06:08
to the questions that I had.
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๋‹ต์„ ๋ชฐ๋ž๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:10
And so I wrote my fears
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋Š๋ผ๋Š” ๊ณ ํ†ต๊ณผ ์˜๋ฌธ์— ๋Œ€ํ•˜์—ฌ
06:13
and my doubts.
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๊ธ€์„ ์ผ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:15
I wrote about my good days and my bad days and my really ugly days,
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์ €์˜ ์ข‹์•˜๋˜ ๋‚ ๋“ค, ๋‚˜๋นด๋˜ ๋‚ ๋“ค๊ณผ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฒช์€ ๋งค์šฐ ํ—˜ํ•œ ๋‚ ๋“ค
06:20
and I shared them on a blog.
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์ด ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฑธ ๋ธ”๋กœ๊ทธ์— ๊ธฐ๋กํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:22
And before long,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ณง
06:25
I began to be seen and heard by people who had epilepsy
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๊ฐ„์งˆ์„ ๊ฒช๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค๊ณผ ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๊ฐ€์กฑ๋“ค๊ณผ
06:28
and their families,
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์†Œํ†ตํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:30
and even those who did not have the diagnosis.
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๊ฐ„์งˆ ํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹Œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค๊ณผ๋„์š”.
06:33
And I moved from that girl who constantly asked why me
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๋Š์ž„์—†์ด "์™œ ์ €์ธ๊ฐ€์š”?"๋ฅผ ๋ฌป๋˜ ์†Œ๋…€์˜€๋Š”๋ฐ
06:37
to one who not only self-advocates,
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'์ž์‹ ์„ ์Šค์Šค๋กœ ์ง€ํ‚ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ'์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ”๋€Œ๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:40
but does it for those who are yet to find their voices.
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๋˜ํ•œ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ๋ชฉ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์ฐพ์ง€ ๋ชปํ•œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์„ ๋„์šธ ์ˆ˜๋„ ์žˆ๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:47
(Applause)
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06:54
My seizures are greatly reduced, from two to three times a day,
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ํ•˜๋ฃจ์— ๋‘ ์„ธ ๋ฒˆ ๊ผด๋กœ ๋ฐœ์ƒํ–ˆ๋˜ ๊ฐ„์งˆ ๋ฐœ์ž‘์€
06:58
to sometimes two to three times in one year.
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1๋…„์— ๋‘ ์„ธ ๋ฒˆ์œผ๋กœ ํšŸ์ˆ˜๊ฐ€ ์ค„์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:02
I went on --
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ 
07:03
(Applause)
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07:09
I went on to employ five people,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋” ๋‚˜์•„๊ฐ€ 5๋ช…์˜ ์ง์›์„ ๊ณ ์šฉํ•ด์„œ
07:11
when I began what was Kenya's first
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์ผ€๋ƒ ์ตœ์ดˆ์˜ ๋ฌด๋ฃŒ ์ •์‹ ๊ฑด๊ฐ•๊ณผ
07:14
free mental health and epilepsy support line.
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๊ฐ„์งˆ ํ™˜์ž ๋„์šฐ๋ฏธ ์„ผํ„ฐ๋ฅผ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ•˜์˜€์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:17
And I travel --
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €๋Š”
07:19
(Applause)
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07:21
And I travel to speak about my affair,
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์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ ์žฅ์†Œ๋ฅผ ๋Œ์•„๋‹ค๋‹ˆ๋ฉฐ ์ œ ๋ฌธ์ œ์— ๋Œ€ํ•˜์—ฌ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐํ•˜๊ณ 
07:25
all these things that I had been told
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๊ฐ„์งˆ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์€ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ์ผ์ด๋ผ๊ณ 
07:28
people like me living with epilepsy could never be able to do.
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์—ฌ๊ฒจ์กŒ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•˜์—ฌ ์ „ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:33
Every year, a population as big as 80 percent of Nairobi
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๋งค๋…„ ์ „ ์„ธ๊ณ„์—์„œ ๋‚˜์ด๋กœ๋น„ ์ธ๊ตฌ์˜ 80% ์ •๋„ ๋˜๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด
07:38
gets diagnosed with epilepsy
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๊ฐ„์งˆ๋กœ ์ง„๋‹จ์„ ๋ฐ›์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:41
across the globe.
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07:43
And they, like me,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๊ทธ๋“ค๋„
07:44
go through the emotions of stigma and exclusion.
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๋‚™์˜ค์ž๋‚˜ ์™ธํ†จ์ด๊ฐ€ ๋œ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์€ ๊ฐ์ •๋“ค๋กœ ๊ณ ํ†ต์„ ๊ฒช์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:50
And so I have made it my life journey
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ํ‰์ƒ ๊ณ„์†
07:53
to keep these conversations going,
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๋Œ€ํ™”๋ฅผ ์ด์–ด๋‚˜๊ฐˆ ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:56
and I keep confessing about my affair
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ ๋ฌธ์ œ๋ฅผ ๊ณ„์† ๊ณ ๋ฐฑํ•  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:59
so that those people who do not have the diagnosis
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๊ฐ„์งˆ ํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹Œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค๋„ ์ด ๋ฌธ์ œ๋ฅผ ์•Œ๊ฒŒ ๋˜๊ฒ ์ง€์š”.
08:03
might know and might have a constant reminder
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ณ„์† ์ผ๊นจ์›Œ์ฃผ๊ณ  ์‹ถ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:07
that it is alright to engage with people like us,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์™€ ๊ฐ™์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์ง€๋‚ด๋„ ๊ดœ์ฐฎ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„์š”.
08:10
that as long as they pull down the walls of stigma and exclusion,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ฐ„์งˆ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค ์Šค์Šค๋กœ๊ฐ€ ๋‚™์˜ค์ž ํ˜น์€ ์™ธํ†จ์ด๊ฐ€ ๋˜์—ˆ๋‹ค๋Š”
08:15
that we, just like them,
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๋งˆ์Œ์˜ ๋ฒฝ์„ ์—†์•ค๋‹ค๋ฉด ์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์—ญ์‹œ
08:18
can be able to take anything life throws at us.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์•ž์— ๋†“์ธ ์‚ถ์˜ ์–ด๋–ค ์ผ๋“ค๋„ ํ•ด๋‚ผ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ „ํ•˜๊ณ  ์‹ถ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:21
Thank you.
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๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:23
(Applause)
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์ด ์›น์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ ์ •๋ณด

์ด ์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์˜์–ด ํ•™์Šต์— ์œ ์šฉํ•œ YouTube ๋™์˜์ƒ์„ ์†Œ๊ฐœํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์ „ ์„ธ๊ณ„ ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์น˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ˆ˜์—…์„ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๊ฐ ๋™์˜์ƒ ํŽ˜์ด์ง€์— ํ‘œ์‹œ๋˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ” ํด๋ฆญํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๊ณณ์—์„œ ๋™์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋น„๋””์˜ค ์žฌ์ƒ์— ๋งž์ถฐ ์ž๋ง‰์ด ์Šคํฌ๋กค๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์˜๊ฒฌ์ด๋‚˜ ์š”์ฒญ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒฝ์šฐ ์ด ๋ฌธ์˜ ์–‘์‹์„ ์‚ฌ์šฉํ•˜์—ฌ ๋ฌธ์˜ํ•˜์‹ญ์‹œ์˜ค.

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