Stop being a bystander in your own life | Tracy Edwards

Translator: Anna Suana Reviewer: Anna Comas-Quinn

Being able to navigate is an extraordinary gift,

Saber navegar és un regal extraordinari,

and there is nothing like it in the world.

i no hi ha res semblant al món.

I get no more sense of satisfaction greater than leaving a port

No trobo millor satisfacció que marxar d'un port

and knowing that I can get my team and my boat

i saber que jo puc portar el meu equip i el meu vaixell

safely from that port to another port,

de manera segura d'un port a un altre,

maybe three, four, five, six thousand miles away.

que potser són a sis, set, vuit o nou mil kilomètres.

Being at sea, for me, is ...

Ser al mar, per a mi,

it's total freedom,

és una llibertat total,

and it is the ultimate opportunity to be you,

i és l'oportunitat definitiva de ser tu,

because you can't be anything else.

perquè no pots ser res més.

You are naked in front of your peers on a boat.

Estàs despullada davant les teves companyes en un vaixell.

It is a small area.

És un lloc petit.

Maiden is 58 feet long.

Un maiden té 17 metres i mig.

There's 12 women in a 58-foot boat.

Hi ha 12 dones en aquests 17 metres i mig.

I mean, you are literally up against each other,

Vull dir que estàs, literalment, a tocar,

and so you have to be you.

i has de ser tu mateixa.

The greatest moment for me when I'm sailing

El millor moment quan estic navegant

is the moment that the land disappears.

és el moment en què la terra desapareix.

It's an indescribable moment of --

És indescriptible...

(respira)

(Gasps)

adventure and no turning back,

un moment d'aventura que no té marxa enrera,

and just you and the boat and the elements.

i estàs tu sola, el vaixell, i els elements.

I wish everyone could experience this at least once in their lives.

Tant de bo tothom ho pogués experimentar.

The further you get away from land,

Com més t'allunyes,

the more you kind of fit into yourself.

més et sents tu.

It is you,

Ets tu qui decideix

how do we get to the next place,

com arrribem al següent port,

how do we stay alive,

com sobrevivim,

how do we look after each other

and what do we do to get to the other side.

com tenim cura les unes de les altres

i què fem per arribar a l'atra punta.

So the question I get asked the most when I go and do talks

El que em pregunten més quan vaig a xerrades és:

is "How do you become an ocean-racing sailor?"

"Com vaig entrar en aquest món?"

And that's a really good question.

I és una bona pregunta.

And I've always wanted to say "I had a vision,

Sempre he volgut dir:

which became a dream,

"Vaig tenir una visió, que es va fer un somni,

which became an obsession,"

que es va convertir en una obsessió,"

but, of course, life's not like that,

però, és clar, la vida no és així,

and one thing I'm really anxious for people to know about me

i una cosa que realment vull que la gent sàpiga de mi

is that my life hasn't gone from A to B --

és que la meva vida no ha anat de l'A a la B

because how many people can say their lives just go from A to B;

...quanta gent pot dir-ho això? Pensen:

they think, "I'm going to do this," and they go and do it?

"Faré això", i van i ho fan?

So I tell the truth.

Per tant, dic la veritat.

And the truth is that I was expelled from school when I was 15 years old,

I la veritat és que em van expulsar de l'escola als 15 anys,

and my long-suffering headmaster sent a long-suffering note

i el meu turmentat director

to my long-suffering mother,

va enviar una carta a la meva turmentada mare,

basically saying that if Tracy darkens these doors of the school again,

que bàsicament deia que

then we will call the police.

si tornava a l'escola trucarien a la policia.

And my mum took me and she said,

La meva mare em va agafar i em va dir:

"Darling, education is not for everyone."

"Bonica, l'ensenyament no és per a tothom."

And then she gave me the best piece of advice anyone has ever given me.

I llavors em va donar el millor consell que mai hagi sentit.

She said, "Every single one of us is good at something,

Em va dir: "Tothom és bo en alguna cosa,

you just have to go and find what that is."

només cal que ho trobis."

And at the age of 16, she let me go backpacking off to Greece.

Als 16 anys, em va deixar marxar amb la motxilla a Grècia.

I ended up working on boats, which was OK --

Vaig acabar treballant en vaixells, que estava bé.

17 years old, didn't really know what I wanted to do,

Als 17, encara no sabia què volia fer,

simplement em deixava portar pel corrent.

kind of going with the flow.

And then on my second transatlantic,

Llavors, en el segon transatlàntic,

my skipper said to me, "Can you navigate?"

el capità em va dir: "Saps navegar?"

i vaig dir: "Clar que no sé navegar,

And I said, "Of course I can't navigate,

em van expulsa abans d'aprendre a dividir."

I was expelled before long division."

And he said, "Don't you think you should be able to navigate?

I em va dir: "No n'hauries de saber?

What happens if I fall over the side?

I si jo caigués per la borda?

Stop being a bystander in your own life,

Deixa de ser observadora,

stop looking at what you're doing

deixa de mirar el que fas

and start taking part."

i comença a participar-hi."

This day, for me, was the day that my whole life started.

Per mi, aquell dia va començar la meva vida.

I learned to navigate in two days --

Vaig aprendre a navegar en dos dies...

and this is someone who hates numbers

i això que odio els números

and sees them as hieroglyphics.

i els veig com a jeroglífics.

It opened up avenues and opportunities to me that I could never have imagined.

Em va obrir possibilitats i oportunitats que mai no m'hauria imaginat.

I actually managed to get a ride on a Whitbread Round the World Race boat.

Vaig aconseguir participar a la Whitebread Round the World Race.

It was with 17 South African men and me.

Estava amb 17 homes de Sudàfrica.

I was 21 years old,

Jo tenia 21 anys,

and it was the longest nine months of my life.

i van ser nou mesos llarguíssims

Però hi vaig anar com a cuinera,

But I went as a cook,

I managed to survive until the end,

vaig aconseguir sobreviure,

and when I got to end of this race,

i quan vam arribar al final de la cursa,

I realized that there were 230 crew in this race,

vaig saber que només

hi havia 3 dones de 230

and three women,

i jo era una d'elles.

and I was one of them.

Sóc una cuinera terrible.

And I'm a lousy cook.

Però sóc bona tripulant.

I'm a really good navigator.

I think the second most profound thought in my entire life was:

Crec que el segon pensament més profund de la meva vida va ser:

"No man is ever going to allow me to be a navigator on their boat, ever."

"Cap home no em tornarà a dir mai més

si puc navegar en el seu vaixell."

And that is still the case today.

I encara és així en el present. En els 35 anys del Whitbread,

In 35 years of the Whitbread,

there's only been two female navigators that haven't been on an all-female cruise,

només hi ha hagut dues dones

que no han estat en una tripulació només de dones. Així va néixer Maiden.

and that's how Maiden was born.

That was the moment I thought, "I've got something to fight for."

En aquell moment vaig pensar: "Tinc alguna cosa per què lluitar".

And I had no idea that I wanted to have this fight,

No tenia ni idea que volia aquesta lluita,

and it was something that I took to like a duck to water.

i m'hi vaig aferrar.

I discovered things about myself that I had no idea existed.

Vaig descobrir coses de mi que no en tenia ni idea.

I discovered I had a fighting spirit,

Que sóc lluitadora,

vaig descobrir que sóc competitiva,

I discovered I was competitive --

trets que desconeixia.

never knew that before --

and I discovered my second passion,

I vaig descobrir la segona passió,

which was equality.

que és la igualtat.

I couldn't let this one lie.

No podia ignorar-la.

And it became not just about me wanting to navigate on a boat

No era només voler navegar

and having to put my own crew together

i haver de buscar la meva tripulació

and my own team,

i el meu equip,

raise my own money, find my own boat,

aconseguir diners

i un vaixell per poder tripular.

so that I could be navigator.

This was about women everywhere.

And this was when I realized

Era sobre les dones a tot arreu.

Llavors em vaig adonar

that this was probably what I was going to spend the rest of my life doing.

que probablement m'hi dedicaria tota la vida.

It took ages for us to find the money

Vam trigar molts anys a aconseguir els diners

to do the 1989 Whitbread Round the World Race.

per la Whitbread Race del 1989.

And as we looked at all the big,

Mentre vèiem tots els grans projectes multimilionaris

multimillion pound, all-male projects around us,

i només d'homes al nostre voltant,

with their brand-new shiny boats designed for the race,

amb els seus vaixells nous de trinca dissenyats per la cursa,

we realized this was not going to be us.

ens vam adonar que això no ens passaria.

We had to make this up as we went along.

Vam haver d'anar improvisant sobre la marxa.

No one had enough faith in us to give us this kind of money.

Ningú creia en nosaltres per donar-nos tants diners.

So I mortgaged my house,

Vaig hipotecar casa meva,

and we found an old wreck with a pedigree,

i vam trobar un trasto vell

an old Whitbread boat --

a Sudàfrica, un antic vaixell de la Whitbread,

it had already been around the world twice --

que havia fet la volta al món dues vegades.

in South Africa.

We somehow persuaded some guy to put it on a ship

Vam convèncer al paio

de posar-lo en un vaixell i portar-lo a la G.B.

and bring it back to the UK for us.

The girls were horrified at the state of the boat.

Les noies es van horroritzar en veure el seu estat.

We got a free place in a yard.

Ens van deixar un espai en un drassana.

We got her up on the hard and we redesigned her,

El vam redissenyar,

we ripped her apart,

el vam desmuntar,

we did all the work ourselves.

ho vam fer tot nosaltres.

It was the first time that anyone had ever seen women in a shipyard,

Era el primer cop que es veien dones en unes drassanes,

so that was quite entertaining.

i era molt divertit.

Every morning when we would walk in,

Cada matí, quan hi entràvem,

everyone would just gawk at us.

tothom ens mirava bocabadat.

But it also had its advantages, because everyone was so helpful.

Però també era bo, tothom ens ajudava.

We were such a novelty.

Perquè érem la novetat.

You know, we got given a generator, an engine --

Ens van donar un generador, un motor...

"Do you want this old rope?"

"Voleu aquesta corda vella?"

"Yep."

"Sí!"

"Old sails?"

"Veles velles?"

"Sí, nostres!"

"Yep, we'll have those."

So we really made it up as we went along.

Vam anar improvisant.

And I think, actually, one of the huge advantages we had was,

De fet, un dels avantatges que vam tenir

you know, there was no preconceived idea

és que no hi havia cap idea preconcebuda

about how an all-female crew would sail around the world.

sobre com faria la volta al món un tripulació només de dones.

So whatever we did was OK.

Per tant, tot el que vam fer estava bé.

And what it also did was it drew people to it.

I també va atraure gent.

Not just women --

No només dones... homes

men, anyone who'd ever been told,

"You can't do something because you're not good enough" --

i qualsevol que hagués sentit:

"No pots fer coses perquè no ets prou bona

the right gender or right race or right color, or whatever.

pel gènere, la raça, el color o el que sigui.

Maiden became a passion.

El Maiden va esdevenir una passió.

And it was hard to raise the money --

Va ser molt dur trobar els diners...

hundreds of companies wouldn't sponsor us.

centenars d'empreses no ens van voler fer d'esponsors.

They told us that we couldn't do it,

Ens van dir que no ho aconseguiríem,

people thought we were going to die ...

que ens moriríem...

You know, guys would literally come up to me and say,

Així mateix, gent que se m'apropava i em deia:

"You're going to die."

"Morireu."

I'd think, "Well, OK, that's my business, it's not yours."

"Bé, és el meu problema."

In the end, King Hussein of Jordan sponsored Maiden,

Al final, el rei Hussein de Jordània ens va esponsoritzar,

and that was an amazing thing --

i va ser increïble...

way ahead of his time, all about equality.

molt avançat al seu temps, sobre la igualtat.

We sailed around the world with a message of peace and equality.

Vam voltar el món amb un missatge de pau i d'igualtat.

We were the only boat in the race with a message of any kind.

Érem l'unic vaixell de la cursa amb algun tipus de missatge.

We won two legs of the Whitbread --

Vam guanyar dues etapes de la Whitbread...

two of the most difficult legs --

dues de les més difícils...

and we came second overall.

And that is still the best result for a British boat since 1977.

vam quedar segones.

El millor resultat

d'un vaixell anglès des de 1977.

It annoyed a lot of people.

Va molestar a molta gent.

And I think what it did at the time --

No ens vam adonar del que representava

we didn't realize.

You know, we crossed the finishing line, this incredible finish --

en aquell moment.

Vam creuar la línia de meta, increïble...

600 boats sailing up the Solent with us;

600 vaixells navegant pel Solent amb nosaltres,

50,000 people in Ocean Village chanting "Maiden, Maiden" as we sailed in.

50.000 persones a Ocean Village cridant "Maiden" quan arribàvem.

And so we knew we'd done something that we wanted to do

Vam saber que havíem fet una cosa que volíem fer

and we hoped we'd achieved something good,

i esperàvem haver aconseguit alguna cosa bona,

but we had no idea at the time how many women's lives we changed.

però no sabíem en aquell moment quantes vides de dones havíem canviat.

The Southern Ocean is my favorite ocean.

L'oceà antàrtic és el meu preferit.

Each ocean has a character.

Cada oceà té el seu caràcter.

So the North Atlantic is a yomping ocean.

L'Atlàntic Nord és un oceà dur,

It's a jolly, go-for-it, heave-ho type of --

però és alegre, del tipus, vinga, hissa..

have-fun type of ocean.

un oceà per passar-t'ho bé.

The Southern Ocean is a deadly serious ocean.

L'oceà antàrtic pot ser mortal.

And you know the moment when you cross into the Southern Ocean --

Quan creues l'oceà antàrtic

the latitude and longitude --

la latitud i la longitud...

you know when you're there,

ho saps quan hi ets,

the waves have been building,

les ones han anat creixent,

they start getting big whitecaps on the top,

comences a veure les crestes blanques damunt seu,

it becomes really gray,

tot es torna gris,

you start to get sensory deprivation.

i els sentits comencen a fallar.

It is very focused on who you are and what you are

T'has de centrar en qui ets i què ets

with this massive wilderness around you.

amb aquesta natura salvatge al teu voltant.

It is empty.

Hi ha buidor.

It is so big and so empty.

És tan gran i buit.

You see albatrosses swirling around the boat.

Veus albatros volant al voltant del vaixell.

It takes about four days to sail through their territory,

Trigues uns quatre dies a navegar pel seu territori,

so you have the same albatross for four days.

i tens els mateixos albatros durant quatre dies.

And they find us quite a novelty,

Per ells som una novetat,

so they literally windsurf off the wind that comes off the mainsail

i literalment fan surf al vent que fa la vela major

and they hang behind the boat,

i es queden darrera el vaixell,

and you feel this presence behind you,

i sents la seva presència darrera teu,

and you turn around,

and it's this albatross just looking at you.

et gires

i tens la gavina mirant-te als ulls.

We sold Maiden at the end of the race --

Vam vendre el Maiden en acabar la cursa...

we still had no money.

continuàvem sense diners.

And five years ago, we found her,

I fa cinc anys, el vam trobar,

at the same time as a film director decided

en el mateix moment en què un director de cinema

he wanted to make a documentary about Maiden.

va decidir que volia fer un documental sobre el Maiden.

We found Maiden,

she burst back into my life

Vam trobar-lo,

va tornar a aparèixer a la meva vida

and reminded me a lot of things I had forgotten, actually,

i em va recordar moltes coses que havia oblidat

over the years,

amb els anys,

sobre seguir el meu cor i el meu instint

about following my heart and my gut

and really being part of the universe.

i ser part de l'univers.

And everything I find important in life,

El Maiden m'ha tornat

tot el que trobo important a la vida

Maiden has given back to me.

Again, we rescued her --

El vam tornar a rescatar

we did a Crowdfunder --

vam fer un crowdfunding

we rescued her from the Seychelles.

i el vam rescatar de les Seychelles.

Princess Haya, King Hussein's daughter,

La princessa Haya, la filla del rei Hussein

funded the shipping back to the UK and then the restoration.

va finançar la tornada del vaixell a GB i la seva restauració.

All the original crew were involved.

L'equip original s'hi va implicar.

We put the original team back together.

Vam refer la tripulació original.

And then we decided, what are we going to do with Maiden?

I vam pensar: "Què farem amb el Maiden"?

And this, for me, really was the moment of my life

Va ser el moment

where I looked back on every single thing that I'd done --

en què vaig mirar enrera a tot el que havia fet

every project, every feeling,

cada projecte, cada sensació

every passion, every battle, every fight --

cada passió, cada batalla, cada lluita...

and I decided that I wanted Maiden to continue that fight

i vaig decidir que volia que el Maiden continués aquesta lluita

for the next generation.

per a la propera generació.

Maiden is sailing around the world on a five-year world tour.

El Maiden encara navega pel món en una gira de cinc anys.

We are engaging with thousands of girls all over the world.

Estem compromeses amb milers de noies de tot el món.

We are supporting community programs that get girls into education.

Donem suport a programes comunitaris per donar educació a les noies.

Education doesn't just mean sitting in a classroom.

L'educació no només vol dir seure en una classe.

This, for me, is about teaching girls you don't have to look a certain way,

Per mi, és ensenyar a les noies que no has de ser d'una certa manera,

you don't have to feel a certain way,

no has de sentir d'una certa manera,

you don't have to behave a certain way.

no t'has de comportar d'una manera.

You can be successful,

Pots tenir èxit,

you can follow your dreams

pots perseguir els somnis

and you can fight for them.

i pots lluitar per ells.

Life doesn't go from A to B.

La vida no va de l'A a la B.

It's messy.

És desordenada.

My life has been a mess from beginning to end,

La meva vida ha estat un desordre d'inici a fi,

but somehow I've got to where we're going.

però d'alguna manera, hi he arribat.

The future for us and Maiden looks amazing.

El futur per a nosaltres i pel Maiden sembla increïble.

And for me,

I per a mi,

it is all about closing the circle.

és com tancar el cercle.

It's about closing the circle with Maiden

És tancar el cercle amb el Maiden

and using her to tell girls

i utilitzar-lo per dir a les noies

that if just one person believes in you,

que només que una persona confiï en tu,

you can do anything.

pots fer el que sigui.