Stop being a bystander in your own life | Tracy Edwards

譯者: 審譯者: Helen Chang

能夠駕船導航，是種不凡的天賦，

是無可比擬的。

最能讓我有滿足感的，

Being able to navigate is an extraordinary gift,

就是駛離一個港口，

and there is nothing like it in the world.

且知道我能把我的團隊、

I get no more sense of satisfaction greater than leaving a port

我的船平安地從那個港口 帶到另一個港口，

可能遠在三、四、五、六千哩之外。

and knowing that I can get my team and my boat

對我來說，在海上是… 是完全的自由，

safely from that port to another port,

maybe three, four, five, six thousand miles away.

是能夠做自己的最佳機會，

Being at sea, for me, is ...

因為你不會成為其他任何人。

it's total freedom,

在船上，你和同儕們坦誠相對。

and it is the ultimate opportunity to be you,

船的空間很小。

女神船只有五十八呎長。

有十二名女子在五十八呎的船上。

because you can't be anything else.

You are naked in front of your peers on a boat.

其實大家真的是挨肩擦背的，

It is a small area.

所以你得做你自己。

Maiden is 58 feet long.

航海時，對我而言最棒的時刻，

There's 12 women in a 58-foot boat.

I mean, you are literally up against each other,

就是陸地消失的那一刻。

and so you have to be you.

那是個無法用言語形容的時刻——

The greatest moment for me when I'm sailing

（倒抽一口氣）是冒險的時刻，且

is the moment that the land disappears.

沒有回頭路，

只有你、船，以及天氣。

It's an indescribable moment of --

(Gasps)

我希望大家一生能有 至少一次的航海經驗。

adventure and no turning back,

and just you and the boat and the elements.

你離陸地越遠，

就會越像自己。

I wish everyone could experience this at least once in their lives.

這就是你，我們要如何 到下一個目的地，

The further you get away from land,

我們要如何活下去， 我們要如何照顧彼此，

the more you kind of fit into yourself.

以及我們要如何抵達對岸。

It is you,

how do we get to the next place,

我去演說時最常被問到的問題

how do we stay alive,

how do we look after each other

就是「你怎麼會成為 遠洋帆船賽選手？」

and what do we do to get to the other side.

那是一個非常好的問題。

So the question I get asked the most when I go and do talks

我總是想說：

「我有個遠景，遠景變成了夢想，

is "How do you become an ocean-racing sailor?"

夢想變成了著迷。」

And that's a really good question.

但，當然，人生並非如此，

And I've always wanted to say "I had a vision,

關於我，我很希望大家能了解的

which became a dream,

which became an obsession,"

就是我的人生並沒有 直接從甲點到乙點——

but, of course, life's not like that,

畢竟，有多少人能說他們的人生 是直接從甲點到乙點；

and one thing I'm really anxious for people to know about me

心想「我要做這件事」 然後就去做了？

is that my life hasn't gone from A to B --

所以，我會說實話。

because how many people can say their lives just go from A to B;

實話是，我十五歲時被學校退學，

they think, "I'm going to do this," and they go and do it?

一直飽受我折磨的校長寄了

So I tell the truth.

一封訴苦信給飽受我折磨的母親，

And the truth is that I was expelled from school when I was 15 years old,

基本上，內容是說 如果特拉西再回去上學，

and my long-suffering headmaster sent a long-suffering note

他們就會報警。

我媽媽看著我，說：

to my long-suffering mother,

basically saying that if Tracy darkens these doors of the school again,

「親愛的，並非人人 都適合學校的教育。」

then we will call the police.

接著，她給了我 我所聽過最好的建議。

And my mum took me and she said,

她說：「每個人都有自己的長處，

"Darling, education is not for everyone."

你只是需要去找出 你的長處是什麼。」

And then she gave me the best piece of advice anyone has ever given me.

我十六歲時，她讓我 當背包客去希臘旅行。

She said, "Every single one of us is good at something,

最後我在船上工作，這不是問題——

you just have to go and find what that is."

我當時十七歲， 不知道我想要做什麼，

And at the age of 16, she let me go backpacking off to Greece.

有點隨波逐流。

I ended up working on boats, which was OK --

接著，在我第二次橫渡大西洋時，

17 years old, didn't really know what I wanted to do,

船長對我說：「你能駕船嗎？」

我說：「當然不能， 我還沒學到長除法就被退學了。」

kind of going with the flow.

And then on my second transatlantic,

他說：「你不覺得 你應該要會駕船嗎？

my skipper said to me, "Can you navigate?"

如果我落海怎麼辦？

別再繼續當你人生中的旁觀者了，

And I said, "Of course I can't navigate,

別再繼續旁觀你該做的事，

I was expelled before long division."

And he said, "Don't you think you should be able to navigate?

開始參與其中。」

What happens if I fall over the side?

對我來說，我的人生從這一天開始。

Stop being a bystander in your own life,

我花了兩天就學會了駕船——

stop looking at what you're doing

更何況我還很痛恨數字， 認為它們是象形文字呢。

and start taking part."

This day, for me, was the day that my whole life started.

我從來無法想像的大道 和機會就此敞開。

I learned to navigate in two days --

and this is someone who hates numbers

我真的想辦法搭上了 懷特·布萊德環球帆船賽的船。

and sees them as hieroglyphics.

It opened up avenues and opportunities to me that I could never have imagined.

除了我，船上還有十七名南非男子。

我當時二十一歲，

I actually managed to get a ride on a Whitbread Round the World Race boat.

這是我人生中最漫長的九個月。

但我的身份是廚師， 我想辦法存活到了最後，

It was with 17 South African men and me.

I was 21 years old,

到比賽要結束時，

我才知道這場比賽 有兩百三十名船員參加，

and it was the longest nine months of my life.

But I went as a cook,

只有三名女性，我是其一。

I managed to survive until the end,

且我是個很糟糕的廚師。 我是個很好的領航員。

and when I got to end of this race,

I realized that there were 230 crew in this race,

我想，我整個人生中 深刻程度排名第二的想法是：

and three women,

and I was one of them.

And I'm a lousy cook.

「永遠不會有男人讓我

I'm a really good navigator.

在他們的船上擔任領航員。」

I think the second most profound thought in my entire life was:

現今的情況仍然是如此。

在懷特布萊德的三十五年歷史中，

"No man is ever going to allow me to be a navigator on their boat, ever."

在非全女性的航程中， 只出現過兩名女性領航員，

這就是女神船誕生的背景。

And that is still the case today.

那一刻，我心想： 「我有個奮鬥的目標。」

In 35 years of the Whitbread,

there's only been two female navigators that haven't been on an all-female cruise,

我完全不知道我想要打這場仗，

and that's how Maiden was born.

我喜歡做這件事，就如 鴨子喜歡水一樣自然，

That was the moment I thought, "I've got something to fight for."

And I had no idea that I wanted to have this fight,

我發現了自己的一些並未察覺的特質，

and it was something that I took to like a duck to water.

我發現我有戰鬥魂，

我發現我很愛競爭——

I discovered things about myself that I had no idea existed.

我以前都不知道——

我發現了我的第二個熱情，

I discovered I had a fighting spirit,

那就是平等。

I discovered I was competitive --

這方面我無法坐視。

never knew that before --

and I discovered my second passion,

漸漸的，重點不僅是我想要駕船航行

which was equality.

並組成我自己的船員 和我自己的團隊、

I couldn't let this one lie.

募集我自己的資金、 找到我自己的船，

And it became not just about me wanting to navigate on a boat

讓我能扮演領航員。

重點是各地的女性。

and having to put my own crew together

那時，我了解到，

and my own team,

我的下半輩子可能都會投身於此。

raise my own money, find my own boat,

so that I could be navigator.

我們花了好長的時間才籌到錢

This was about women everywhere.

And this was when I realized

參加 1989 懷特布萊德環球帆船賽。

我們看著現場所有巨大、

that this was probably what I was going to spend the rest of my life doing.

耗資數百萬磅的全男性計畫，

It took ages for us to find the money

to do the 1989 Whitbread Round the World Race.

配備全新閃亮且為了比賽設計的船，

And as we looked at all the big,

我們意識到自己不可能有這樣的待遇。

multimillion pound, all-male projects around us,

我們得邊做邊想辦法補足資金。

with their brand-new shiny boats designed for the race,

沒有人對我們有信心 到會給我們那麼多錢。

所以我拿我的房子去抵押貸款，

we realized this was not going to be us.

我們找到了一艘老舊破爛 但純種的懷特布萊德比賽船——

We had to make this up as we went along.

No one had enough faith in us to give us this kind of money.

它已經環遊世界兩次——

船在南非。

So I mortgaged my house,

and we found an old wreck with a pedigree,

我們想辦法說服了 一個人把它放上貨船，

運回英國給我們。

an old Whitbread boat --

it had already been around the world twice --

船的狀況把大家嚇壞了。

in South Africa.

We somehow persuaded some guy to put it on a ship

我們在船塢裡找了個免費的地盤， 把船放到硬地上，

and bring it back to the UK for us.

把它重新設計，把它拆開，

The girls were horrified at the state of the boat.

所有的工作都是我們自己完成的。

We got a free place in a yard.

這是頭一次有女性出現在船塢裡，

We got her up on the hard and we redesigned her,

所以還挺有趣的。

we ripped her apart,

每天早上我們進去時，

we did all the work ourselves.

大家總是張口瞠目看著我們。

It was the first time that anyone had ever seen women in a shipyard,

但也有好處，因為大家都願意幫忙。

so that was quite entertaining.

我們太奇葩了。

Every morning when we would walk in,

我們還收穫了一台發電機 和一個引擎——

everyone would just gawk at us.

But it also had its advantages, because everyone was so helpful.

「你們要這條舊繩子嗎？」「要。」 「舊帆呢？」「要，我們也要。」

We were such a novelty.

我們真的是邊走邊拼湊。

You know, we got given a generator, an engine --

我想，我們的一大優勢在於

"Do you want this old rope?"

"Yep."

"Old sails?"

對於要駕船環遊世界的全女性船員，

"Yep, we'll have those."

So we really made it up as we went along.

大家都沒有先入為主。

And I think, actually, one of the huge advantages we had was,

所以不論我們做啥都沒關係。

you know, there was no preconceived idea

還有一個好處，就是可以吸納人。

about how an all-female crew would sail around the world.

不只吸引女性——還有男性， 任何曾經被這樣說過的人：

So whatever we did was OK.

「你不夠好，不能做某件事」——

And what it also did was it drew people to it.

你的性別、種族、膚色等條件不對。

Not just women --

men, anyone who'd ever been told,

女神船變成了一種熱情。

"You can't do something because you're not good enough" --

要募款很難——

the right gender or right race or right color, or whatever.

數百間公司都不願贊助我們。

Maiden became a passion.

他們告訴我們，我們做不到，

大家認為我們會送命……

And it was hard to raise the money --

真的有人會來跟我說： 「你會送命的。」

hundreds of companies wouldn't sponsor us.

They told us that we couldn't do it,

我心想：「好吧， 這是我的事，不用你管。」

people thought we were going to die ...

最後，約旦國王 胡笙一世贊助了女神船，

You know, guys would literally come up to me and say,

真的很不可思議——

"You're going to die."

I'd think, "Well, OK, that's my business, it's not yours."

此舉遠遠超前了他的時代， 全是為了平等。

In the end, King Hussein of Jordan sponsored Maiden,

我們帶著和平與平等的 訊息繞航全世界。

除了我們，其他的參賽隊伍 並沒有去傳達任何訊息。

and that was an amazing thing --

way ahead of his time, all about equality.

我們贏了懷特布萊德的兩項賽程——

We sailed around the world with a message of peace and equality.

兩項最困難的賽程——

我們的總排名是第二名。

We were the only boat in the race with a message of any kind.

而這也是自1977 年以來 英國船隊的最好成績了。

We won two legs of the Whitbread --

這惹惱了許多人。

two of the most difficult legs --

我想，對當時的影響——

and we came second overall.

And that is still the best result for a British boat since 1977.

我們那時並不明白。

我們越過了終點線， 這偉大的結束——

六百艘船和我們一起 航行索倫特海峽；

It annoyed a lot of people.

And I think what it did at the time --

我們駛入海洋村時，有五萬人

we didn't realize.

You know, we crossed the finishing line, this incredible finish --

讚頌著「女神船，女神船」。

600 boats sailing up the Solent with us;

我們知道我們做到了 自己想要做到的事，

50,000 people in Ocean Village chanting "Maiden, Maiden" as we sailed in.

我們希望我們做成了一件好事，

但當時我們渾然不知

And so we knew we'd done something that we wanted to do

我們改變了多少女性的人生。

and we hoped we'd achieved something good,

我最愛的海洋是南冰洋。 每片海洋都有各自的性格。

but we had no idea at the time how many women's lives we changed.

北大西洋是片活力十足的海洋。

它是快活、大膽一試、 喲吼（水手拔錨時的叫聲）式的——

The Southern Ocean is my favorite ocean.

Each ocean has a character.

盡情享樂式的海洋。

So the North Atlantic is a yomping ocean.

南冰洋是片超嚴肅的海洋。

It's a jolly, go-for-it, heave-ho type of --

進入到南冰洋的那一刻 你就會知道這一點——

have-fun type of ocean.

那緯度和經度——

The Southern Ocean is a deadly serious ocean.

到了那裡你就會知道， 海浪在不斷增長，

And you know the moment when you cross into the Southern Ocean --

波峰開始出現白色碎浪，

顏色變得很灰，

the latitude and longitude --

你開始失去感覺。

you know when you're there,

the waves have been building,

在當被這麼廣闊的荒涼包圍時，

they start getting big whitecaps on the top,

it becomes really gray,

你的注意力會高度集中在 你是誰、你是什麼樣的人。

you start to get sensory deprivation.

It is very focused on who you are and what you are

一切都是空曠的。

既巨大又空曠。

with this massive wilderness around you.

你會看到信天翁在船附近打旋。

要花大約四天才能飛躍牠們的領地，

It is empty.

It is so big and so empty.

所以四天內你都會看到同樣的信天翁。

You see albatrosses swirling around the boat.

牠們覺得我們很新奇，

所以牠們真的會利用主帆 形成的風流來做風帆衝浪，

It takes about four days to sail through their territory,

so you have the same albatross for four days.

牠們會掛在船的後面，

And they find us quite a novelty,

so they literally windsurf off the wind that comes off the mainsail

你會感覺到背後有東西，

你轉過身，就看到 一隻信天翁盯著你看。

比賽結束後，我們把女神船賣掉了—— 我們還是沒有錢。

and they hang behind the boat,

and you feel this presence behind you,

五年前，我們找回了她，

and you turn around,

就在那時，一位電影導演決定

and it's this albatross just looking at you.

We sold Maiden at the end of the race --

他想要為女神船拍攝一支紀錄片。

we still had no money.

我們找到了女神船， 她又闖入了我的人生，

And five years ago, we found her,

提醒我許多這些年來 其實已經忘卻的事，

at the same time as a film director decided

he wanted to make a documentary about Maiden.

關於忠於自我與勇氣，

We found Maiden,

she burst back into my life

以及真正成為宇宙一部分的事。

and reminded me a lot of things I had forgotten, actually,

我在人生中發現很重要的一切，

over the years,

about following my heart and my gut

女神船都帶回給我了。

and really being part of the universe.

我們再一次拯救了她——

我們進行了群眾募資—— 從塞席爾把她救出來。

And everything I find important in life,

胡笙國王的女兒哈雅

Maiden has given back to me.

Again, we rescued her --

出資將她運回英國， 也資助了她的修復。

we did a Crowdfunder --

所有原班人馬都參與了。

we rescued her from the Seychelles.

我們把原本的團隊重組起來。

Princess Haya, King Hussein's daughter,

funded the shipping back to the UK and then the restoration.

接著，我們決定， 我們要拿女神船做什麼？

對我來說，這就是 我人生中的重要時刻，

All the original crew were involved.

我回顧了我所做過的每一件事——

We put the original team back together.

And then we decided, what are we going to do with Maiden?

每一個計畫、每一種感受、

And this, for me, really was the moment of my life

每一個熱情、每一場戰役、 每一次戰鬥——

where I looked back on every single thing that I'd done --

我決定，我希望女神船 能為了下一代繼續奮戰。

every project, every feeling,

女神船踏上了五年的世界巡迴航程。

every passion, every battle, every fight --

and I decided that I wanted Maiden to continue that fight

我們和全世界數千名女孩連結。

for the next generation.

我們支持協助女孩們 接受教育的社區計畫。

Maiden is sailing around the world on a five-year world tour.

We are engaging with thousands of girls all over the world.

教育指的不僅是坐在教室裡。

對我來說，重點是在於教導女孩

We are supporting community programs that get girls into education.

看事情的觀點不要受限，

Education doesn't just mean sitting in a classroom.

感受不要受限，

行為不要受限。

This, for me, is about teaching girls you don't have to look a certain way,

你也能成功，你也能追夢，

你也能為夢想而戰。

you don't have to feel a certain way,

人生不是從甲點直接到乙點。

是一團亂麻。

you don't have to behave a certain way.

我的人生從開始到結束都是一團亂麻，

You can be successful,

you can follow your dreams

但我還是以某種方式 走到今天這一步。

and you can fight for them.

Life doesn't go from A to B.

我們及女神船的未來看起來棒極了。

It's messy.

My life has been a mess from beginning to end,

對我而言，

but somehow I've got to where we're going.

重點是要把圓的頭尾連起來。

重點是要用女神船 把圓的頭尾連起來，

The future for us and Maiden looks amazing.

並通過她來告訴女孩們，

And for me,

就算只有一個人相信你，

it is all about closing the circle.

你也無所不能。

It's about closing the circle with Maiden

and using her to tell girls

that if just one person believes in you,

you can do anything.