Stop being a bystander in your own life | Tracy Edwards

Prevoditelj: Gordan Prakiš Recezent: Sanda L

Being able to navigate is an extraordinary gift,

Biti u mogućnosti navigirati je poseban dar

and there is nothing like it in the world.

i ne postoji ništa slično.

I get no more sense of satisfaction greater than leaving a port

Ne postoji veća satisfakcija nego napustiti luku

and knowing that I can get my team and my boat

znajući da mogu odvesti svoju ekipu i svoj brod

safely from that port to another port,

sigurno iz te luke u drugu

maybe three, four, five, six thousand miles away.

udaljenu možda i pet, šest, osam ili deset tisuća kilometara.

Being at sea, for me, is ...

Biti na moru za mene je...

it's total freedom,

totalna sloboda

and it is the ultimate opportunity to be you,

i to je ultimativna prilika biti svoj,

because you can't be anything else.

jer ne možeš biti ništa drugo.

You are naked in front of your peers on a boat.

Pred svojim kolegama na brodu si ogoljen.

It is a small area.

To je mali prostor.

Maiden is 58 feet long.

Maiden je jedrilica dugačka 18 metara.

There's 12 women in a 58-foot boat.

12 žena se nalazi na tom brodu od 18 metara.

I mean, you are literally up against each other,

Doslovce ste jedna uz drugu,

and so you have to be you.

tako da morate biti svoji.

The greatest moment for me when I'm sailing

Najveći trenutak za mene kada jedrim

is the moment that the land disappears.

je trenutak kada kopno nestane.

It's an indescribable moment of --

To je neopisiv trenutak...

(Gasps)

(uzdah)

adventure and no turning back,

avanture i bez okretanja,

and just you and the boat and the elements.

samo ti i tvoj brod i elementi.

I wish everyone could experience this at least once in their lives.

Želim svima da to iskuse barem jednom u životu.

The further you get away from land,

Što se više odmičeš od kopna,

the more you kind of fit into yourself.

to se više približavaš samom sebi.

It is you,

To si ti,

how do we get to the next place,

kako doći do sljedećeg odredišta,

how do we stay alive,

kako preživjeti,

how do we look after each other

kako brinuti jedni o drugima

and what do we do to get to the other side.

i što učiniti kako bismo prešli na drugi kraj.

So the question I get asked the most when I go and do talks

Najčešće pitanje koje mi postavljaju kada održavam govore

is "How do you become an ocean-racing sailor?"

je: "Kako postati mornar koji se utrkuje oceanom?"

And that's a really good question.

I to je zbilja dobro pitanje.

And I've always wanted to say "I had a vision,

I oduvijek sam htjela odgovoriti: "Imala sam viziju

which became a dream,

koja je postala san,

which became an obsession,"

koji je postao opsesija."

but, of course, life's not like that,

Ali, naravno, život nije uvijek takav,

and one thing I'm really anxious for people to know about me

i jedna stvar koju bih stvarno voljela da ljudi znaju o meni

is that my life hasn't gone from A to B --

je ta da moj život nije išao od točke A do točke B,

because how many people can say their lives just go from A to B;

jer koliko ljudi može reći da njihov život ide od točke A do točke B

they think, "I'm going to do this," and they go and do it?

i pomisle: "Napravit ću ovo." i onda to uistinu naprave?

So I tell the truth.

Zato kažem istinu.

And the truth is that I was expelled from school when I was 15 years old,

A istina je da sam izbačena iz škole u dobi od 15 godina

and my long-suffering headmaster sent a long-suffering note

i da je pateći ravnatelj poslao pateću notu

to my long-suffering mother,

mojoj patećoj majci

basically saying that if Tracy darkens these doors of the school again,

u kojoj je pisalo da ako se Tracy pojavi ponovno na vratima ove škole,

then we will call the police.

pozvat će policiju.

And my mum took me and she said,

Moja mama me posjela i rekla:

"Darling, education is not for everyone."

"Draga, obrazovanje nije za svakoga."

And then she gave me the best piece of advice anyone has ever given me.

I tada mi je dala najbolji savjet koji mi je ikad itko dao.

She said, "Every single one of us is good at something,

Rekla je: "Svatko od nas je dobar u nečemu,

you just have to go and find what that is."

samo moraš potražiti što je to."

And at the age of 16, she let me go backpacking off to Greece.

I kad sam imala 16 godina, dozvolila mi je otputovati u Grčku samo s ruksakom.

I ended up working on boats, which was OK --

Završila sam radeći na brodovima, što je bilo OK,

17 years old, didn't really know what I wanted to do,

sa 17 godina nisam zaista znala što želim raditi,

kind of going with the flow.

više sam išla niz vjetar.

And then on my second transatlantic,

I tada, na mom drugom transatlantskom putovanju,

my skipper said to me, "Can you navigate?"

moj skiper mi je rekao: "Možeš li navigirati?"

And I said, "Of course I can't navigate,

I, naravno, rekla sam: "Naravno da ne mogu navigirati,

I was expelled before long division."

izbačena sam iz škole prije nego sam naučila dijeliti."

And he said, "Don't you think you should be able to navigate?

Rekao je: "Ne misliš li da bi trebala moći navigirati?

What happens if I fall over the side?

Što ako padnem preko broda?

Stop being a bystander in your own life,

Prestani biti promatrač vlastitog života,

stop looking at what you're doing

prestani gledati ono što radiš

and start taking part."

i počni sudjelovati."

This day, for me, was the day that my whole life started.

Taj dan je za mene ustvari dan kada je moj cijeli život započeo.

I learned to navigate in two days --

Naučila sam navigirati u dva dana...

and this is someone who hates numbers

A ja sam netko tko mrzi brojeve

and sees them as hieroglyphics.

i gleda na njih kao na hijeroglife.

It opened up avenues and opportunities to me that I could never have imagined.

To mi je otvorilo prostor i prilike kakve nikad nisam mogla zamisliti.

I actually managed to get a ride on a Whitbread Round the World Race boat.

Uspjela sam dobiti mjesto na utrkama Whitbread Round i World Race.

It was with 17 South African men and me.

Bili smo 17 Južnoafrikanaca i ja.

I was 21 years old,

Bila mi je 21 godina

and it was the longest nine months of my life.

i to je bilo najduljih devet mjeseci u mom životu.

But I went as a cook,

Bila sam kuharica

I managed to survive until the end,

i uspjela preživjeti do kraja,

and when I got to end of this race,

i kada sam došla do cilja

I realized that there were 230 crew in this race,

shvatila sam da se natjecalo 230 posada

and three women,

i tri žene,

and I was one of them.

a ja sam bila jedna od njih.

And I'm a lousy cook.

A ja sam loša kuharica.

I'm a really good navigator.

Ali sam zbilja dobar navigator.

I think the second most profound thought in my entire life was:

Mislim da je sljedeća najdublja misao mog cijelog života bila:

"No man is ever going to allow me to be a navigator on their boat, ever."

"Nijedan muškarac mi nikada neće dozvoliti da budem navigator na njegovom brodu."

And that is still the case today.

I to je i danas slučaj.

In 35 years of the Whitbread,

U 35 godina utrke Whitbread

there's only been two female navigators that haven't been on an all-female cruise,

bila su samo dva ženska navigatora koja su bila u cjelovito ženskim posadama

i tako se rodio Maiden.

and that's how Maiden was born.

That was the moment I thought, "I've got something to fight for."

Tog trenutka sam pomislila: "Imam nešto za što se borim."

And I had no idea that I wanted to have this fight,

I nisam imala zamisao da se želim boriti,

and it was something that I took to like a duck to water.

to je nešto što sam prihvatila vrlo prirodno.

I discovered things about myself that I had no idea existed.

Otkrila sam stvari o sebi za koje nisam znala da postoje.

I discovered I had a fighting spirit,

Otkrila sam da imam borbeni duh,

I discovered I was competitive --

otkrila sam da sam kompetitivna -

never knew that before --

nikad to prije nisam znala -

and I discovered my second passion,

i otkrila sam svoju drugu strast,

which was equality.

a to je jednakost.

I couldn't let this one lie.

Nisam mogla to propustiti.

And it became not just about me wanting to navigate on a boat

I nije se radilo samo o meni, da želim navigirati brodom

and having to put my own crew together

i moram sastaviti svoju posadu

and my own team,

i svoju ekipu,

raise my own money, find my own boat,

prikupiti novac, pronaći brod

so that I could be navigator.

kako bih mogla biti navigator.

This was about women everywhere.

Radilo se o svim ženama posvuda.

And this was when I realized

I tada sam shvatila

that this was probably what I was going to spend the rest of my life doing.

da ću provesti ostatak svog života radeći ovo.

It took ages for us to find the money

Bilo je potrebno mnogo vremena kako bismo prikupile novac

to do the 1989 Whitbread Round the World Race.

za utrke Whitbread Round i World Race 1989. godine.

And as we looked at all the big,

I dok smo pretraživali sve te velike

multimillion pound, all-male projects around us,

multimilijunske muške projekte oko nas,

with their brand-new shiny boats designed for the race,

skupa sa svojim novoulaštenim brodovima dizajniranima za utrke,

we realized this was not going to be us.

shvatili smo da to nismo mi.

We had to make this up as we went along.

Morali smo osmisliti sve novo i krenuli smo.

No one had enough faith in us to give us this kind of money.

Nitko nije imao dovoljno vjere u nas kako bi nam dao toliki novac.

So I mortgaged my house,

Tako da sam stavila hipoteku na kuću

and we found an old wreck with a pedigree,

i našli smo staru ragu s pedigreom -

an old Whitbread boat --

stari Whitbread brod...

it had already been around the world twice --

koji je već dva puta plovio oko svijeta

in South Africa.

u Južnoj Africi.

We somehow persuaded some guy to put it on a ship

Nekako smo nagovorili nekakvog tipa da ga stavi na svoj brod

and bring it back to the UK for us.

i dovuče ga nama natrag u Ujedinjeno Kraljevstvo.

The girls were horrified at the state of the boat.

Cure su bile prestravljene stanjem broda.

We got a free place in a yard.

Dobile smo besplatno mjesto u brodogradilištu.

We got her up on the hard and we redesigned her,

Postavile smo ga i redizajnirale,

we ripped her apart,

cijelog smo ga rastavile

we did all the work ourselves.

i to sve samostalno.

It was the first time that anyone had ever seen women in a shipyard,

To je bilo prvi puta da je netko vidio žene u brodogradilištu,

so that was quite entertaining.

tako da je to bilo zabavno.

Every morning when we would walk in,

Svako jutro kada smo dolazile

everyone would just gawk at us.

svi su zurili u nas.

But it also had its advantages, because everyone was so helpful.

Ali to je imalo i svoje prednosti jer su svi bili susretljivi.

We were such a novelty.

Bili smo takva novina.

You know, we got given a generator, an engine --

Znate, dobili smo generator, motor...

"Do you want this old rope?"

"Želite li ovo staro uže?"

"Yep."

"Može."

"Stara jedra?"

"Old sails?"

"Može, uzet ćemo ih."

"Yep, we'll have those."

Tako da smo putem sve izmišljali.

So we really made it up as we went along.

And I think, actually, one of the huge advantages we had was,

I zapravo mislim da je jedna od velikih prednosti koje smo imali bila,

you know, there was no preconceived idea

znate, da nije unaprijed postojala zamisao

about how an all-female crew would sail around the world.

o tome kako će cjelovito ženska posada oploviti svijet.

So whatever we did was OK.

Tako da je sve što smo učinile bilo OK.

And what it also did was it drew people to it.

I uz sve to, privuklo je i ljude.

Not just women --

Ne samo žene -

men, anyone who'd ever been told,

muškarce, svakoga kome je ikada bilo rečeno:

"You can't do something because you're not good enough" --

"Ne možeš to napraviti jer nisi dovoljno dobar",

nisi pravog spola, prave rase, boje kože ili štogod.

the right gender or right race or right color, or whatever.

Maiden became a passion.

Maiden je postao strast.

And it was hard to raise the money --

I bilo je teško prikupiti novac ...

hundreds of companies wouldn't sponsor us.

Stotine nas kompanija nije htjelo sponzorirati.

They told us that we couldn't do it,

Rekli su nam da to ne možemo učiniti,

people thought we were going to die ...

ljudi su mislili da ćemo poginuti ...

You know, guys would literally come up to me and say,

Znate, ljudi su mi doslovno znali prići i reći:

"Poginut ćeš."

"You're going to die."

Pomislila bih: "OK, to je moja stvar, a ne tvoja."

I'd think, "Well, OK, that's my business, it's not yours."

In the end, King Hussein of Jordan sponsored Maiden,

Na kraju je jordanski kralj Hussein sponzorirao Maiden

and that was an amazing thing --

i to je bila fantastična stvar,

way ahead of his time, all about equality.

jako puno ispred svog vremena, sve zbog jednakosti.

We sailed around the world with a message of peace and equality.

Oplovili smo svijet s porukom mira i jednakosti.

We were the only boat in the race with a message of any kind.

Bili smo jedini brod u utrci s bilo kakvom porukom.

We won two legs of the Whitbread --

Osvojili smo dvije postaje Whitbread utrke,

two of the most difficult legs --

dvije najteže postaje,

and we came second overall.

i završili smo kao drugi ukupno.

And that is still the best result for a British boat since 1977.

I to je i dalje najbolji rezultat jednog britanskog broda od 1977. godine.

It annoyed a lot of people.

To je zasmetalo mnogim ljudima.

And I think what it did at the time --

I mislim da to što smo tada napravili

we didn't realize.

nismo zapravo shvatili.

You know, we crossed the finishing line, this incredible finish --

Znate, prešli smo ciljnu liniju, nevjerojatan ulaz u cilj,

600 brodova koje je jedrilo uz nas tjesnacem Solent;

600 boats sailing up the Solent with us;

50,000 people in Ocean Village chanting "Maiden, Maiden" as we sailed in.

50 000 ljudi u Ocean Villageu skandiralo je "Maiden, Maiden" dok smo prilazili.

And so we knew we'd done something that we wanted to do

I tako smo znali da smo napravili nešto što smo stvarno htjeli

and we hoped we'd achieved something good,

i nadali se da smo postigli nešto dobro,

but we had no idea at the time how many women's lives we changed.

ali tada nismo pojma imali koliko smo ženskih života promijenili.

The Southern Ocean is my favorite ocean.

Južni ocean je moj najdraži ocean.

Each ocean has a character.

Svaki ocean ima karakter.

So the North Atlantic is a yomping ocean.

Tako je Sjeverni Atlantik za "propješačiti".

It's a jolly, go-for-it, heave-ho type of --

To je veseli, "samo naprijed", "slobodno prođi",

have-fun type of ocean.

"zabavi se" tip oceana.

The Southern Ocean is a deadly serious ocean.

Južni ocean je mrtvo ozbiljni ocean.

And you know the moment when you cross into the Southern Ocean --

I čim prijeđeš u Južni ocean, odmah znaš,

the latitude and longitude --

njegova duljina i širina,

you know when you're there,

znaš da si tamo,

the waves have been building,

valovi se dižu,

they start getting big whitecaps on the top,

počinju dobivati bijele vrhove,

it becomes really gray,

postaje zbilja sivo,

you start to get sensory deprivation.

počinješ imati osjećaj lišenosti.

It is very focused on who you are and what you are

Veliki je fokus na tome tko si i što si

with this massive wilderness around you.

u toj svoj masivnoj divljini koja te okružuje.

It is empty.

Prazan je.

It is so big and so empty.

Toliko velik i prazan.

You see albatrosses swirling around the boat.

Vidiš albatrose kako se kovitlaju oko broda.

It takes about four days to sail through their territory,

Potrebno je četiri dana kako bi prešao kroz njihov teritorij,

so you have the same albatross for four days.

tako da se isti albatrosi pojavljuju kroz ta četiri dana.

And they find us quite a novelty,

I njima smo poprilična novost

so they literally windsurf off the wind that comes off the mainsail

tako da doslovno surfaju uz vjetar s našeg glavnog jedra

and they hang behind the boat,

i vise iza broda,

and you feel this presence behind you,

tako da osjećate njihovu prisutnost iza vas,

and you turn around,

okrenete se

and it's this albatross just looking at you.

i tamo su ti albatrosi koji vas gledaju.

We sold Maiden at the end of the race --

Prodali smo Maiden na kraju utrke,

we still had no money.

još uvijek nismo imali novaca.

And five years ago, we found her,

Prije pet godina smo brod pronašli

at the same time as a film director decided

baš u vrijeme kada je filmski redatelj odlučio

he wanted to make a documentary about Maiden.

da želi napraviti dokumentarac o Maidenu.

We found Maiden,

Pronašli smo Maiden

she burst back into my life

i vratio se u moj život

and reminded me a lot of things I had forgotten, actually,

te me podsjetio na mnoge stvari koje sam zapravo zaboravila

over the years,

kroz godine,

about following my heart and my gut

o tome kako pratiti svoje srce i instinkt

and really being part of the universe.

i zbilja biti dio svemira.

And everything I find important in life,

I sve što smatram važnim u životu,

Maiden has given back to me.

Maiden mi je vratio.

Again, we rescued her --

Dakle, spasili smo ga,

we did a Crowdfunder --

potražili grupno financiranje,

we rescued her from the Seychelles.

spasili smo ga sa Sejšela.

Princess Haya, King Hussein's daughter,

Princeza Haya, kći kralja Husseina,

funded the shipping back to the UK and then the restoration.

financirala je povratak broda u Ujedinjeno Kraljevstvo i zatim restauraciju.

All the original crew were involved.

Cijela originalna postava je bila prisutna.

We put the original team back together.

Okupili smo originalni tim.

And then we decided, what are we going to do with Maiden?

I tada smo se upitali: što ćemo učiniti s Maidenom?

And this, for me, really was the moment of my life

I to je, za mene, bio trenutak u životu

where I looked back on every single thing that I'd done --

kada sam pogledala unatrag svaku sitnicu koju sam napravila,

every project, every feeling,

svaki projekt, svaki osjećaj,

every passion, every battle, every fight --

svaku strast, svaku bitku, svaku borbu,

and I decided that I wanted Maiden to continue that fight

i odlučila kako želim da Maiden nastavi tu borbu

for the next generation.

za sljedeću generaciju.

Maiden is sailing around the world on a five-year world tour.

Maiden plovi oko svijeta na petogodišnjoj turneji.

We are engaging with thousands of girls all over the world.

Angažirani smo oko tisuća djevojčica iz cijelog svijeta.

We are supporting community programs that get girls into education.

Podupiremo društvene programe kako bi obrazovali djevojčice.

Education doesn't just mean sitting in a classroom.

Obrazovanje ne znači samo sjedenje u učionici.

This, for me, is about teaching girls you don't have to look a certain way,

Za mene je to učenje djevojčica o tome kako ne moraju izgledati na određeni način,

you don't have to feel a certain way,

ne moraju se osjećati na određeni način,

you don't have to behave a certain way.

ne moraju se ponašati na određeni način.

You can be successful,

Možeš biti uspješan,

you can follow your dreams

možeš slijediti svoje snove

and you can fight for them.

i možeš se boriti za njih.

Life doesn't go from A to B.

Život ne ide od točke A do točke B.

It's messy.

Zamršen je.

My life has been a mess from beginning to end,

Moj život je bio zamršen od početka do kraja,

but somehow I've got to where we're going.

ali nekako sam dospjela tamo gdje smo krenuli.

The future for us and Maiden looks amazing.

Budućnost za nas i Maiden izgleda fantastično.

And for me,

I za mene,

it is all about closing the circle.

sve je u zatvaranju kruga.

It's about closing the circle with Maiden

O zatvaranju kruga s Maidenom

and using her to tell girls

i njegovom korištenju kako bih poručila djevojčicama

that if just one person believes in you,

da ukoliko samo jedna osoba ima povjerenja u vas,

you can do anything.

možete učiniti bilo što.