My failed mission to find God -- and what I found instead | Anjali Kumar

Translator: Leo Pratama Reviewer: Lanny Yunita

A few years ago,

Beberapa tahun yang lalu,

I set out on a mission to find God.

saya mempunyai misi untuk menemukan Tuhan.

Now, I'm going to tell you right up front that I failed,

Saya akan mengakui kegagalan saya di hadapan Anda,

which, as a lawyer,

yaitu, sebagai pengacara,

is a really hard thing for me to admit.

merupakan hal yang sulit diakui.

But on that failed journey,

Tapi, dalam misi yang gagal tersebut,

a lot of what I found was enlightening.

saya menemukan banyak pencerahan.

And one thing in particular gave me a lot of hope.

Satu hal spesifik memberikan harapan yang besar bagi saya.

It has to do with the magnitude and significance of our differences.

Hal itu berhubungan dengan betapa besar, dan pentingnya perbedaan kita.

So, I was raised in America by Indian parents -- culturally Hindu,

Saya dibesarkan di Amerika oleh keluarga India -- secara adat Hindu,

but practicing a strict and relatively unknown religion outside of India

tapi menjalankan sebuah agama yang ketat, dan relatif tidak dikenal di luar India,

called Jainism.

yang disebut Jainisme.

To give you an idea of just how minority that makes me:

Sebagai gambaran seberapa minoritasnya saya:

people from India represent roughly one percent of the US population;

orang dari India di Amerika kira-kira adalah satu persen dari populasi AS;

Hindus, about 0.7 percent;

orang Hindu, kira-kira 0,7 persen;

Jains, at most .00046 percent.

orang Jain, paling banyak 0,00046 persen.

To put that in context:

Untuk membandingkannya;

more people visit the Vermont Teddy Bear Factory each year

lebih banyak yang pergi ke pabrik Teddy Bear di Vermont tiap tahun

than are followers of the Jain religion in America.

daripada pengikut agama Jain di Amerika.

To add to my minority mix, my parents then decided,

Untuk memperparah keminoritasan, keluarga saya memutuskan,

"What a great idea! Let's send her to Catholic school" --

"Ide yang bagus! Masukkan dia ke sekolah Katolik" --

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

where my sister and I were the only non-white,

di sekolah itu, cuma adik saya, dan saya,

non-Catholic students in the entire school.

siswa yang tak berkulit putih, dan bukan Katolik.

At the Infant Jesus of Prague School in Flossmoor, Illinois --

Di Sekolah Bayi Yesus dari Prague di Flossmoor, Illinois --

yes, that's really what it was called --

begitulah sebutannya waktu itu --

we were taught to believe that there is a single Supreme Being

kami diajarkan untuk percaya bahwa hanya ada satu Makhluk Berkuasa

who is responsible for everything,

yang bertanggung jawab atas semuanya,

the whole shebang,

semua peristiwa,

from the creation of the Universe to moral shepherding to eternal life.

dari penciptaan alam semesta hingga penggembalaan moral, dan kehidupan abadi.

But at home,

Tapi di rumah,

I was being taught something entirely different.

saya diajarkan sesuatu yang sangat berbeda.

Followers of the Jain religion

Pengikut agama Jain

don't believe in a single Supreme Being

tidak percaya adanya satu Makhluk Berkuasa,

or even a team of Supreme Beings.

maupun kumpulan Makhluk Berkuasa.

Instead, we're taught that God manifests

Namun, kami diajarkan bahwa Tuhan menjelma

as the perfection of each of us as individuals,

sebagai kesempurnaan dari setiap individu,

and that we're actually spending our entire lives

dan sebenarnya sepanjang kehidupan,

striving to remove the bad karmas

kita berusaha menghapus karma jahat

that stand in the way of us becoming our own godlike, perfect selves.

yang menghalangi kita menjadi Tuhan kita sendiri, diri yang sempurna.

On top of that, one of the core principles of Jainism

Bukan hanya itu, salah satu prinsip Jainisme

is something called "non-absolutism."

yang disebut "non-absolutis."

Non-absolutists believe that no single person

Non-absolutis percaya bahwa tak satu orang pun

can hold ownership or knowledge of absolute truth,

dapat mempunyai, atau mengetahui kebenaran yang pasti,

even when it comes to religious beliefs.

termasuk pengetahuan tentang agama.

Good luck testing that concept out

Semoga para pendeta, dan biarawati

on the priests and nuns in your Catholic school.

di sekolah Katolik bisa membuktikan konsep itu.

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

No wonder I was confused

Karena itu saya bingung,

and hyperaware of how different I was from my peers.

dan sangat menyadari betapa berbedanya saya dengan teman-teman.

Cut to 20-something years later,

Singkat cerita, 20 tahun kemudian,

and I found myself to be a highly spiritual person,

saya menyadari bahwa diri saya sangat spiritual,

but I was floundering.

tapi saya kebingungan.

I was spiritually homeless.

Secara rohani saya merasa hampa.

I came to learn that I was a "None,"

Saya menyadari bahwa saya adalah seorang "Non,"

which isn't an acronym or a clever play on words,

itu bukanlah sebuah akronim, atau permainan kata,

nor is it one of these.

bukan pula seorang biarawati.

It's simply the painfully uninspired name

Itu hanyalah sebutan biasa

given to everyone who checks off the box "none"

yang diberikan kepada setiap orang yang mencentang kotak "Non,"

when Pew Research asks them about their religious affiliation.

ketika peneliti Pew menanyakan tentang agama mereka.

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

Now, a couple of interesting things about Nones are:

Beberapa hal menarik tentang para Non adalah:

there are a lot of us,

jumlah kami banyak,

and we skew young.

dan kami cenderung muda.

In 2014, there were over 56 million religiously unaffiliated Nones

Pada tahun 2014, lebih dari 56 juta orang Non yang tak tergabung agama apa pun

in the United States.

di Amerika Serikat.

And Nones account for over one-third of adults

Dan sepertiga dari orang dewasa merupakan Non

between the ages of 18 to 33.

yang berumur antara 18 hingga 33.

But the most interesting thing to me about Nones

Tapi hal yang paling menarik tentang para Non adalah

is that we're often spiritual.

sebagian besar dari kami adalah spiritual.

In fact, 68 percent of us believe, with some degree of certainty,

Faktanya, 68 persen dari kami percaya, dengan tingkat keyakinan tertentu,

that there is a God.

bahwa Tuhan itu ada.

We're just not sure who it is.

Kami hanya belum tahu siapa itu.

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

So the first takeaway for me

Kesimpulan yang saya dapatkan,

when I realized I was a None and had found that information out

ketika menyadari bahwa saya adalah Non, dan mendapati

was that I wasn't alone.

bahwa saya tidaklah sendirian.

I was finally part of a group in America

Akhirnya saya jadi bagian grup di Amerika

that had a lot of members,

yang mempunyai banyak anggota,

which felt really reassuring.

yang rasanya menentramkan.

But then the second, not-so-reassuring takeaway

Tapi kemudian, kesimpulan yang tidak menentramkan

was that, oh, man, there are a lot of us.

yaitu, aduh, jumlah kita banyak.

That can't be good,

Itu tidak baik,

because if a lot of highly spiritual people are currently godless,

karena jika banyak orang yang spiritual, tetapi tidak mempunyai Tuhan,

maybe finding God is not going to be as easy as I had originally hoped.

mungkin menemukan Tuhan tidaklah semudah yang diharapkan.

So that is when I decided that on my spiritual journey,

Saat itulah saya memutuskan bahwa dalam perjalanan spiritual,

I was going to avoid the obvious places

saya hendak menghindari tempat yang pasti,

and skip the big-box religions altogether

melewatkan semua gereja besar,

and instead venture out into the spiritual fringe

dan sebagai gantinya akan menjelajah sisi-sisi spiritual,

of mediums

seperti cenayang,

and faith healers

dan penyembuh iman,

and godmen.

dan penyembah dewa.

But remember, I'm a non-absolutist,

Tapi ingat, saya seorang non-absolutis,

which means I was pretty inclined to keep a fairly open mind,

yang artinya saya cenderung untuk tetap berpikiran terbuka,

which turned out to be a good thing,

yang ternyata merupakan sesuatu yang bagus,

because I went to a witch's potluck dinner

karena saya pernah makan malam dengan cenayang

at the LGBT Center in New York City,

di Lembaga LGBT di kota New York,

where I befriended two witches;

dan berteman dengan dua cenayang;

drank a five-gallon jerrican full of volcanic water

minum lima galon jerigen penuh dengan air vulkanik

with a shaman in Peru;

dengan seorang dukun di Peru;

got a hug from a saint in the convention center --

mendapat pelukan dari santo di gedung serbaguna --

she smelled really nice --

aroma tubuhnya wangi --

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

chanted for hours in a smoke-filled, heat-infused sweat lodge

menyanyi berjam-jam di pondok yang panas, dan penuh dengan asap

on the beaches of Mexico;

di pantai Meksiko;

worked with a tequila-drinking medium to convene with the dead,

bekerja dengan cenayang yang minum tequila untuk bertemu orang mati,

who oddly included both my deceased mother-in-law

yang anehnya, termasuk bertemu dengan mertua saya yang sudah meninggal,

and the deceased manager of the hip-hop group The Roots.

dan manajer dari grup hip-hop The Roots yang sudah meninggal.

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

Yeah, my mother-in-law told me she was really happy

Ibu mertua saya bilang beliau sangat senang,

her son had chosen me for his wife.

karena putranya memilih saya sebagai istri.

Duh! But --

Aduh! Tapi --

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

Yeah.

Iya.

But the manager of The Roots

Tapi manajer dari The Roots

said that maybe I should cut back on all the pasta I was eating.

berkata bahwa saya harus mengurangi pasta yang saya makan waktu itu.

I think we can all agree

Saya rasa kita semua setuju,

that it was lucky for my husband that it wasn't his dead mother

untung bukan almarhum ibu suami saya yang menyarankan

who suggested I lay off carbs.

agar saya mengurangi karbo.

(Laughter)

(Tertawa)

I also joined a laughing yoga group out of South Africa;

Saya juga bergabung dengan grup yoga tertawa di luar Afrika Selatan;

witnessed a woman have a 45-minute orgasm --

menyaksikan seorang wanita yang mengalami orgasme selama 45 menit --

I am not making this up --

ini benar --

as she tapped into the energy of the universe --

sembari dia membuka energi semesta --

I think I'm going to go back there --

Mungkin saya akan kembali ke sana --

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

called God from a phone booth in the Nevada desert at Burning Man,

memanggil Tuhan dari bilik telepon di gurun Nevada saat Ritual Pembakaran,

wearing a unitard and ski goggles;

memakai unitard, dan kacamata ski;

and I had an old Indian guy lie on top of me,

dan ada seorang pria India berbaring di atas saya,

and no, he wasn't my husband.

dia bukan suami saya.

This was a perfect stranger named Paramji,

Dia adalah orang tak dikenal yang bernama Paramji,

and he was chanting into my chakras

dia membacakan mantera ke cakra saya,

as he tapped into the energy forces of the Universe to heal my "yoni,"

sembari memanggil kekuatan energi alam semesta untuk mengobati "yoni" saya

which is a Sanskrit word for "vagina."

yaitu kata Sanskrit untuk "vagina."

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

I was going to have a slide here,

Saya mau menambah gambar slide,

but a few people suggested

tapi beberapa orang berkata,

that a slide of my yoni at TED -- even TEDWomen --

bahwa sebuah gambar slide yoni saya di TED -- meskipun TEDWomen --

not the best idea.

bukanlah ide yang bagus.

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

Very early in my quest,

Pada awal pencarian,

I also went to see the Brazilian faith healer John of God

saya mendatangi penyembuh iman dari Brazil bernama John of God

at his compound down in Brazil.

di kampnya di Brazil.

Now, John of God is considered a full-trance medium,

John of God bisa dibilang perantara roh,

which basically means he can talk to dead people.

yang artinya dia bisa berbicara dengan orang mati.

But in his case, he claims to channel a very specific group

Tapi, dia mengklaim bahwa dirinya adalah perantara untuk kelompok tertentu,

of dead saints and doctors

yaitu para santo, dan dokter

in order to heal whatever's wrong with you.

untuk menyembuhkan apa pun masalah kalian.

And although John of God does not have a medical degree

Dan walaupun John of God tidak mempunyai gelar medis,

or even a high school diploma,

atau pun ijazah SMA,

he actually performs surgery --

dia benar-benar melakukan operasi --

the real kind, with a scalpel,

yang nyata, dengan pisau bedah,

but no anesthesia.

tanpa anestesi,

Yeah, I don't know.

Entahlah.

He also offers invisible surgery, where there is no cutting,

Dia juga menawarkan operasi tak terlihat, tanpa pembedahan,

and surrogate surgery,

dan operasi pengganti,

where he supposedly can treat somebody who is thousands of miles away

sehingga dia bisa menangani orang yang berada ribuan mil jauhnya

by performing a procedure on a loved one.

lewat perantaraan orang terdekat.

Now, when you go to visit John of God,

Jika bertemu John of God,

there are all kinds of rules and regulations.

ada banyak peraturan.

It's a whole complicated thing,

Proses yang sangat kompleks,

but the bottom line is that you can visit John of God

tapi pada dasarnya semua orang bisa bertemu John of God,

and present him with three things that you would like fixed,

dan menunjukkan tiga hal yang ingin diselesaikan,

and he will set the dead saints and doctors to work on your behalf

lalu dia akan mengirim santo, dan dokter untuk memecahkan masalah

to get the job done.

atas nama Anda.

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

Now, before you snicker,

Sebelum tertawa terbahak-bahak,

consider

renungkanlah,

that, at least according to his website,

bahwa berdasarkan situs webnya,

over eight million people --

lebih dari delapan juta orang --

including Oprah,

termasuk Oprah,

the Goddess of Daytime TV --

Sang Dewi Siang TV --

have gone to see John of God,

telah menemui John of God,

and I was pre-wired to keep an open mind.

dan saya telah terprogram untuk berpikiran terbuka.

But to be honest, the whole thing for me was kind of weird and inconclusive,

Tapi sejujurnya, semua hal itu sangatlah aneh, dan tidak berarti,

and in the end, I flew home,

pada akhirnya, saya pulang,

even more confused than I already started out.

menjadi lebih bingung dari sebelumnya.

But that doesn't mean I came home empty-handed.

Tapi bukan berarti pulang dengan tangan kosong.

In the weeks leading up to my trip to Brazil,

Beberapa minggu sebelum perjalanan ke Brazil,

I mentioned my upcoming plans to some friends

saya menyampaikan rencana tersebut kepada beberapa teman,

and to a couple of colleagues at Google,

dan juga beberapa rekan kerja di Google,

where I was a lawyer at the time.

waktu itu saya pengacara di sana.

And I might have mentioned it to a couple more people

Mungkin saya ceritakan rencana ini kepada orang lain,

because I'm chatty,

karena saya suka ngobrol,

including my neighbor,

juga dengan tetangga,

the guy who works at the local coffee shop I go to each morning,

orang yang bekerja di kafe yang saya kunjungi setiap hari,

the checkout lady at Whole Foods

wanita kasir di Whole Foods,

and a stranger who sat next to me on the subway.

dan orang lain yang duduk sebelah saya di kereta.

I told each of them where I was going

Saya cerita sudah pernah ke mana,

and why,

dan kenapa,

and I offered to carry three wishes of theirs down to Brazil,

dan saya menawarkan agar mereka membawa tiga harapan ke Brazil,

explaining that anyone going to see John of God

menjelaskan kepada siapa pun yang akan bertemu John of God

could act as a proxy for others

bisa diwakilkan, jadi tidak semua

and save them the trip.

harus ke sana.

And to my surprise, my in-box overflowed.

Kemudian kotak pesan saya penuh.

Friends told friends who told friends,

Saling bercerita dari mulut ke mulut,

and those friends apparently told more friends,

satu orang menceritakan kepada temannya,

other strangers and the guys at their coffee shops,

orang lain di kafenya,

until it seemed that days before I left for Brazil

hingga menjelang keberangkatan ke Brazil,

that there was no one who did not have my email address.

tidak ada yang tidak punya email saya.

And at the time, all I could conclude was that I had offered too much

Dan saat itu, saya menyadari bahwa saya menawarkan terlalu banyak,

to too many.

sangat terlalu banyak.

But when I actually reread those messages a few years later,

Tapi ketika membaca lagi pesan-pesan itu beberapa tahun kemudian,

I noticed something completely different.

saya mendapati sesuatu yang berbeda.

Those emails actually shared three commonalities,

Semua email itu sebenarnya punya tiga kesamaan,

the first of which was rather curious.

yang pertama lumayan menarik.

Almost everyone sent me meticulous details about how they could be reached.

Hampir semua mengirim pesan tentang cara menghubungi mereka.

I had told them, or their friends had told them,

Saya, atau temannya telah memberi tahu mereka,

that along with the list of the three things they wanted fixed,

bahwa bersama dengan tiga hal yang ingin diselesaikan,

I needed their photo, their name and their date of birth.

saya perlu foto, nama, dan tanggal lahir mereka.

But they gave me full addresses, with, like, apartment numbers and zip codes,

Tapi mereka memberi alamat lengkap, beserta nomor apartemen, dan kode pos,

as if John of God was going to stop by their house

seakan John of God akan mengunjungi rumah mereka,

and see them in person or send along a package.

dan menemui mereka, atau mengirimkan paket.

It was as if, in the highly unlikely event that their wishes were granted

Seakan, sangat tak memungkinkan bahwa keinginan mereka bisa dikabulkan

by John of God,

oleh John of God,

they just wanted to make sure that they weren't delivered

mereka ingin memastikan keinginan mereka tidak dikirim

to the wrong person or the wrong address.

ke orang, atau alamat yang salah.

Even if they didn't believe,

Walaupun mereka tidak percaya,

they were hedging their bets.

mereka memasrahkan segalanya.

The second commonality was just as curious,

Kesamaan kedua yang sama menariknya,

but far more humbling.

tapi lebih rendah hati.

Virtually everyone --

Hampir semuanya --

the stranger on the subway,

orang-orang di kereta,

the guy at the coffee shop,

pria di kafe,

the lawyer down the hall,

pengacara di lantai bawah,

the Jew, the atheist, the Muslim, the devout Catholic --

orang Yahudi, Atheis, Muslim, dan Katolik yang taat --

all asked for essentially the same three things.

semuanya pada dasarnya meminta tiga hal yang sama.

OK, there were a couple of outliers, and yes, a few people asked for cash.

Memang, ada yang tidak, dan ada beberapa yang meminta uang.

But when I eliminated what were ultimately a handful of anomalies,

Tapi ketika saya bagi menjadi beberapa anomali,

the similarities were staggering.

kesamaannya sangat mengejutkan.

Almost every single person

Hampir semua orang,

first asked for good health for themselves and their families.

meminta kesehatan untuk keluarga, juga untuk diri mereka sendiri.

Almost universally,

Hampir secara umum,

they next asked for happiness

berikutnya minta kebahagiaan,

and then love,

kemudian cinta,

in that order:

urutannya seperti ini:

health, happiness, love.

kesehatan, kebahagiaan, cinta.

Sometimes they asked for a specific health issue to be fixed,

Terkadang mereka minta beberapa masalah kesehatan tertentu

but more often than not, they just asked for good health in general.

untuk disembuhkan, tapi sebagian besar meminta kesehatan secara umum.

When it came to happiness,

Saat bicara kebahagiaan,

they each phrased it slightly differently,

tiap orang mengungkapkannya secara berbeda,

but they all asked for the same specific subtype of happiness, too --

tapi mereka semua juga minta jenis kebahagiaan yang sama --

the kind of happiness that sinks in

jenis kebahagiaan yang dalam,

and sets down roots in your soul;

dan mengakar di jiwa;

the kind of happiness that could sustain us,

jenis kebahagiaan yang bisa menopang kita,

even if we were to lose absolutely everything else.

walaupun seandainya kita kehilangan semuanya.

And for love,

Untuk masalah cinta,

they all asked for the kind of romantic love,

mereka semua minta cinta yang romantis,

the soul mate that we read about in epic romantic novels,

pasangan hidup yang kita baca di novel romantis,

the kind of love that will stay with us till the end of our days.

jenis cinta yang akan bertahan hingga hari-hari terakhir kita.

Sorry, that's my husband.

Maaf, itu suami saya.

Crap! Now I forgot my place.

Aduh! Saya jadi lupa.

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

(Applause)

(Tepuk tangan)

So by and large,

Secara keseluruhan,

all of these friends and strangers,

semua teman, dan orang-orang ini,

regardless of their background, race or religion,

tanpa menghiraukan latar belakang, ras, atau agama mereka,

all asked for the same things,

semua minta hal yang sama,

and they were the same things that I really wanted,

dan itu semua sama seperti yang saya inginkan,

the simplified version of the basic human needs

penyederhanaan dari kebutuhan pokok manusia

identified by social scientists like Abraham Maslow and Manfred Max-Neef.

yang dijelaskan oleh pakar sosial seperti Abraham Maslow, dan Manfred Max-Neef.

No one asked for answers to the big existential questions

Tak ada yang minta jawaban dari pertanyaan eksistensi yang besar,

or for proof of God or the meaning of life like I had set out to find.

atau bukti Tuhan, atau arti hidup seperti yang ingin saya cari.

They didn't even ask for an end to war or global hunger.

Mereka bahkan tak minta agar perang, atau kelaparan berhenti.

Even when they could have asked for absolutely anything,

Walaupun saat mereka diberikan kesempatan untuk meminta apa pun,

they all asked for health, happiness and love.

mereka semua minta kesehatan, kebahagiaan, dan cinta.

So now those emails had a third commonality as well.

Semua email itu punya kesamaan ketiga.

Each of them ended in the exact same way.

Semua diakhiri dengan cara yang sama.

Instead of thanking me for carting their wishes all the way to Brazil,

Bukannya berterima kasih kepada saya, karena membawakan harapan ke Brazil,

everyone said,

mereka semua bilang,

"Please don't tell anyone."

"Jangan beri tahu siapa pun"

So I decided to tell everyone --

Jadi, saya ceritakan ke semua orang --

(Laughter)

(Penonton tertawa)

right here on this stage,

di panggung ini,

not because I'm untrustworthy,

bukan karena saya tak bisa dipercaya,

but because the fact that we have so much in common

tapi karena kenyataan bahwa kita punya banyak kesamaan,

feels especially important for us all to hear, especially now,

rasanya sangat penting untuk diketahui semua orang, apalagi sekarang,

when so many of the world's problems

ketika masalah di dunia ini begitu banyak,

seem to be because we keep focusing on the things that make us different,

mungkin karena kita terus fokus pada hal yang membuat kita semua berbeda,

not on what binds us together.

bukan pada hal yang menyatukan kita.

And look -- I am the first to admit that I am not a statistician,

Saya yang pertama mengakui bahwa saya bukan seorang ahli statistik,

and that the data I presented to you that I just accumulated in my in-box

dan data yang saya tunjukkan semua berasal dari kotak pesan,

is more anecdotal than scientific, more qualitative than quantitative.

lebih bersifat anekdot bukan spesifik, lebih kualitatif bukan kuantitatif.

It is, as anyone who works with data would tell you,

Benar seperti yang akan dikatakan para pengolah data,

hardly a statistically significant or demographically balanced sample.

hampir tidak signifikan secara statistik, atau sampel demografinya seimbang.

But nonetheless, I find myself thinking about those emails

Tapi tetap saja, saya memikirkan semua email itu,

every time I reflect back on the bias and prejudice

setiap kali saya melihat bias, dan prasangka

that I've faced in my life,

yang terjadi dalam hidup saya,

or when there's another hate crime or a senseless tragedy

atau kapan pun terjadi kejahatan kebencian,

that underscores the disheartening sense

atau tragedi tanpa sebab, yang menyebabkan rasa kecewa,

that our differences might be insurmountable.

menekankan bahwa perbedaan kita mungkin tak terkira.

I then remind myself that I have evidence

Kemudian saya sadar punya bukti,

that the humbling, unifying commonality

bahwa kesamaan yang merendahkan hati, dan menyatukan

of our humanity

kemanusiaan kita

is that, even when presented with the opportunity

adalah, walaupun diberikan kesempatan

to ask for anything at all,

untuk meminta apa pun,

most of us want the same things,

kebanyakan kita ingin hal yang sama,

and that this is true no matter who we are,

dan siapa pun diri kita,

what name we call our god,

siapa pun Tuhan kita,

or which religion, if any, we call home.

atau agama apa pun yang nyaman bagi kita pribadi.

I then also note

Kemudian saya amati,

that apparently some of us want these things so badly

bahwa rupanya beberapa dari kita sangat menginginkan hal ini,

that we would email a None,

sampai-sampai kita mau mengirim email

a spiritually confused None like me --

kepada Non, orang yang bingung akan agamanya seperti saya --

some might say otherwise confused as well --

yang lain juga merasa bahwa saya bingung --

and that we would seek out this stranger and email her our deepest wishes,

namun kita mau mencari orang ini, dan mengirimkan keinginan terdalam kita,

just in case there is the remote possibility

kalau-kalau ada kemungkinan,

that they might be granted by someone who is not a god,

hal ini akan dikabulkan seseorang yang bukan Tuhan,

much less our god,

apa lagi Tuhan kita,

someone who is not even a member of our chosen religion,

seseorang yang bukan anggota dari agama kita,

someone who, when you look at him on paper,

seseorang yang tampaknya,

seems like an unlikely candidate to deliver.

bukan orang yang bisa mengabulkan.

And so now,

Jadi,

when I reflect back on my spiritual quest,

jika berkilas balik pada perjalanan spiritual saya,

even though I did not find God,

walaupun saya tidak menemukan Tuhan,

I found a home in this:

saya menemukan kenyamanan di sini:

even today, in a world fractured by religious,

walaupun sekarang, di dunia yang terpecah oleh agama,

ethnic, political, philosophical, and racial divides,

etnik, politik, filosofi, dan ras,

even with all of our obvious differences,

walaupun dengan perbedaan kita yang nyata,

at the end of the day,

pada akhirnya,

and the most fundamental level,

pada tingkat yang paling mendasar,

we are all the same.

kita semua itu sama.

Thank you.

Terima kasih.

(Applause)

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