Shaka Senghor: Why your worst deeds don't define you | TED

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์•„๋ž˜ ์˜๋ฌธ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ”ํด๋ฆญํ•˜์‹œ๋ฉด ์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.

๋ฒˆ์—ญ: Sunphil Ga ๊ฒ€ํ† : Jeong-Lan Kinser
00:12
Twenty-three years ago,
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23๋…„์ „,
00:15
at the age of 19,
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19์‚ด์—,
00:18
I shot and killed a man.
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์ €๋Š” ์ด์„ ์˜์•„์„œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์„ ์ฃฝ์˜€์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:21
I was a young drug dealer
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์ €๋Š” ์ž‘์€ ๋ฐ˜์ž๋™ ๊ถŒ์ด๊ณผ ๋ถˆ๊ฐ™์ด ๊ธ‰ํ•œ ์„ฑ์งˆ์„ ์ง€๋‹Œ ์ Š์€ ๋งˆ์•ฝ ๋”œ๋Ÿฌ์˜€์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:23
with a quick temper
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00:25
and a semi-automatic pistol.
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00:30
But that wasn't the end of my story.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ ๊ฑด ์ œ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ์˜ ๋์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์ฃ .
00:32
In fact, it was beginning,
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์‚ฌ์‹ค, ์ด๊ฑด ์‹œ์ž‘์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
00:36
and the 23 years since
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ , ๊ทธ ํ›„ 23๋…„์€
00:39
is a story of acknowledgment,
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์ธ์ •, ์‚ฌ๊ณผ,
00:42
apology and atonement.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ฐธํšŒ์˜ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:46
But it didn't happen in the way
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๊ฑด ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ์ƒ์ƒํ•˜๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์ผ์–ด๋‚˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์ฃ .
00:47
that you might imagine or think.
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00:51
These things occurred in my life
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์ด๊ฒƒ๋“ค์ด ์ œ ์‚ถ์—์„œ ์ผ์–ด๋‚œ ๊ฒƒ์€
00:52
in a way that was surprising,
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๋งค์šฐ ๋†€๋ผ์šด ๋ฐฉ์‹์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
00:54
especially to me.
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ํŠนํžˆ๋‚˜ ์ € ์ž์‹ ์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” ๋ง์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:56
See, like many of you,
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๋ณด์„ธ์š”, ๋งŽ์€ ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ,
00:59
growing up, I was an honor roll student,
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์ž๋ผ๋ฉด์„œ, ์ €๋Š” ํ•™๊ต๋ฅผ ์šฐ๋“ฑ์ƒ‰์œผ๋กœ ์กธ์—…ํ–ˆ๊ณ ,
01:01
a scholarship student,
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์žฅํ•™์ƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ ,
01:03
with dreams of becoming a doctor.
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์˜์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ๋˜๋ ค๋Š” ๊ฟˆ์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์ฃ .
01:05
But things went dramatically wrong
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ƒํ™ฉ์€ ๊ธ‰์ž‘์Šค๋Ÿฝ๊ฒŒ ์•ˆ์ข‹์•„์กŒ์–ด์š”.
01:08
when my parents separated
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๋ถ€๋ชจ๋‹˜์ด ๋ณ„๊ฑฐํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋˜๊ณ 
01:10
and eventually divorced.
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๊ฒฐ๊ตญ ์ดํ˜ผํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์„ ๋•Œ๋ง์ด์ฃ .
01:14
The actual events are pretty straightforward.
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์‹ค์ œ ์‚ฌ๊ฑด๋“ค์€ ์‚ฌ์‹ค ์•„์ฃผ ๋ถ„๋ช…ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
01:17
At the age of 17,
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17์‚ด์—,
01:19
I got shot three times
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์ „ ๋””ํŠธ๋กœ์ดํŠธ์˜ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์‚ฌ๋Š” ๋™๋„ค์˜ ๊ตฌ์„์—์„œ ์ด์„ 3๋ฒˆ์ด๋‚˜ ๋งž์•˜์ฃ .
01:21
standing on the corner of my block in Detroit.
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01:26
My friend rushed me to the hospital.
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์ œ ์นœ๊ตฌ๊ฐ€ ์ €๋ฅผ ๋ณ‘์›์œผ๋กœ ๊ธ‰ํžˆ ์˜ฎ๊ฒผ์ฃ .
01:28
Doctors pulled the bullets out,
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์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์€ ์ด์•Œ์„ ๋นผ๋ƒˆ๊ณ ,
01:32
patched me up,
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์ƒ์ฒ˜๋ฅผ ์น˜์œ ํ•ด์ฃผ์—ˆ์ฃ ,
01:33
and sent me back to the same neighborhood where I got shot.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €๋ฅผ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด์„ ๋งž์€ ๋™๋„ค๋กœ ๋Œ๋ ค๋ณด๋ƒˆ์ฃ .
01:38
Throughout this ordeal,
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์ด ๋‚œ๊ด€์„ ๊ฑฐ์น˜๋Š” ๋™์•ˆ,
01:40
no one hugged me,
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์•„๋ฌด๋„ ์ €๋ฅผ ์•ˆ์•„์ฃผ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค,
01:43
no one counseled me,
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์•„๋ฌด๋„ ์ƒ๋‹ดํ•ด์ฃผ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์ฃ ,
01:45
no one told me I would be okay.
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์•„๋ฌด๋„ ๊ดœ์ฐฎ์•„ ์งˆ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ณ  ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:48
No one told me that I would live in fear,
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์•„๋ฌด๋„ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ณตํฌ์—์„œ ์‚ด ๊ฒƒ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์ฃ ,
01:51
that I would become paranoid,
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์ €๋Š” ํŽธ์ง‘์ฆ์ด ์˜ฌ ๊ฒƒ์ด๊ณ ,
01:53
or that I would react hyper-violently
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๋˜๋Š” ์ด์— ๋งž๋Š”๊ฒƒ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์ง€๋‚˜์น˜๊ฒŒ ํญ๋ ฅ์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ˜์‘ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋ ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ตฌ์š”.
01:56
to being shot.
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01:59
No one told me that one day,
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๊ทธ ๋ˆ„๊ตฌ๋„, ์–ธ์  ๊ฐ€
02:02
I would become the person behind the trigger.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ ์ด์˜ ๋ฐฉ์•„์‡ ๋ฅผ ๋‹น๊ธธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ด ๋ ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ณ  ์–˜๊ธฐํ•ด ์ฃผ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์ฃ .
02:06
Fourteen months later,
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14๊ฐœ์›” ์ดํ›„,
02:08
at 2 a.m.,
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์ƒˆ๋ฒฝ 2์‹œ์—,
02:11
I fired the shots
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์ €๋Š” ์ด์„ ์ˆ๊ณ ,
02:13
that caused a man's death.
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๊ทธ๊ฑด ํ•œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์˜ ์ฃฝ์Œ์„ ์•ผ๊ธฐ์‹œ์ผฐ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:16
When I entered prison,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ต๋„์†Œ์— ์ˆ˜๊ฐ๋˜์—ˆ์„๋•Œ,
02:18
I was bitter, I was angry, I was hurt.
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์ „ ๋น„ํ†ตํ–ˆ๊ณ , ๋ถ„๋…ธํ•ด ์žˆ์—ˆ๊ณ , ์ƒ์ฒ˜๋ฐ›์•˜์—ˆ์ฃ .
02:24
I didn't want to take responsibility.
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์ „ ์ฑ…์ž„์„ ์ง€๊ธฐ ์‹ซ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:27
I blamed everybody from my parents
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์ „ ์ œ ๋ถ€๋ชจ๋‹˜๊ณผ
02:29
to the system.
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์ด ์‚ฌํšŒ๊ตฌ์กฐ ์ „๋ถ€๋ฅผ ๋น„๋‚œํ–ˆ๊ณ 
02:32
I rationalized my decision to shoot
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์ €๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด์„ ์ด์šฉํ•˜๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํŒ๋‹จํ–ˆ๋˜๊ฒƒ์„ ํ•ฉ๋ฆฌํ™”ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:34
because in the hood where I come from,
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ž๋ž€ ๋™๋„ค์—์„œ๋Š”
02:36
it's better to be the shooter
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์ด์„ ๋งž๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋ณด๋‹ค
02:38
than the person getting shot.
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์˜๋Š”๊ฒŒ ๋” ๋‚ซ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:41
As I sat in my cold cell,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ฐจ๊ฐ€์šด ๊ฐ์˜ฅ์— ์•‰์•„์„œ,
02:45
I felt helpless,
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์ €๋Š” ๋ฌด๋ ฅ๊ฐ์„,
02:46
unloved and abandoned.
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์‚ฌ๋ž‘๋ฐ›์ง€ ๋ชปํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ๊ณ  ๋ฒ„๋ฆผ๋ฐ›์•˜๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฐ์ •์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ฒŒ ๋์ฃ .
02:50
I felt like nobody cared,
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์ €์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์•„๋ฌด๋„ ์‹ ๊ฒฝ์“ฐ์ง€ ์•Š๋Š”๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋Š๊ผˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:54
and I reacted
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐ‡ํ˜”๋‹ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ์‹ค์—
02:56
with hostility to my confinement.
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์ ๋Œ€๊ฐ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ˜์‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:59
And I found myself getting
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €๋Š” ์ œ ์ž์‹ ์ด
03:00
deeper and deeper into trouble.
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๋” ๊นŠ์€ ๋ฌธ์ œ์˜ ์ˆ˜๋ ์œผ๋กœ ๋Œ๋ ค๋“ค์–ด ๊ฐ€๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:02
I ran black market stores,
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์ €๋Š” ์•”์‹œ์žฅ์œผ๋กœ ๋›ฐ์–ด๊ฐ€์„œ,
03:05
I loan sharked,
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๊ณ ์ด์ž ์‚ฌ์ฑ„๋ฅผ ๋นŒ๋ ธ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค,
03:08
and I sold drugs that were illegally smuggled
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €๋Š” ๋น„ํ•ฉ๋ฒ•์ ์œผ๋กœ ๊ต๋„์†Œ์•ˆ์œผ๋กœ
03:10
into the prison.
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๋ชฐ๋ž˜ ์•ฝ์„ ํŒ”์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:12
I had in fact become
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์‚ฌ์‹ค ์ €๋Š”
03:13
what the warden of the Michigan Reformatory called
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๋ฏธ์‹œ๊ฐ„ ๊ต๋„์†Œ์˜ ๊ฐ๋…๊ด€์ด
03:16
"the worst of the worst."
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"์ตœ์•… ์ค‘ ์ตœ์•…" ์ด๋ผ ๋ถ€๋ฅด๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ด ๋˜์—ˆ์ฃ .
03:19
And because of my activity,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ ํ™œ๋™ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์—,
03:21
I landed in solitary confinement
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์ œ ์ „์ฒด ์ˆ˜๊ฐ ์ƒํ™œ ์ค‘์—
03:24
for seven and a half years
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7๋…„ ๋ฐ˜์„ ๋…๊ฐ๋ฐฉ์—์„œ
03:26
out of my incarceration.
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๋ณด๋‚ด๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:29
Now as I see it, solitary confinement
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์ด์ œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋ณด๋ฉด, ๋…๊ฐ๋ฐฉ์€
03:31
is one of the most inhumane and barbaric places
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๊ฐ€์žฅ ๋น„์ธ๊ฐ„์ ์ด๊ณ  ์•ผ๋งŒ์ ์ธ ๊ณต๊ฐ„์ค‘ ํ•˜๋‚˜๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฑธ
03:33
you can find yourself,
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๋‹น์‹ ์€ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค,
03:36
but find myself I did.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ, ์ œ ์ž์‹ ์€ ์•„์ด๋””์–ด๋ฅผ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
03:39
One day, I was pacing my cell,
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ํ•œ๋‚ , ์ €๋Š” ์ œ ๊ฐ์˜ฅ ๋ฐฉ์•ˆ์˜ ์ผ์„ ํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์ฃ ,
03:42
when an officer came and delivered mail.
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์šฐํŽธ๋ถ€๊ฐ€ ์™”๊ณ  ์šฐํŽธ์„ ๋ฐฐ๋‹ฌํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:47
I looked at a couple of letters
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์ €๋Š” ๋ช‡ ๊ฐœ์˜ ํŽธ์ง€๋ฅผ ๋ณด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:48
before I looked at the letter
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ œ ์•„๋“ค์ด ๋น„๋šค์ง€๋งŒ ์†์œผ๋กœ ์“ด ํŽธ์ง€๋ฅผ ๋ณด๊ธฐ๊นŒ์ง€ ๋ง์ด์ฃ .
03:50
that had my son's squiggly handwriting on it.
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03:53
And anytime I would get a letter from my son,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ ์•„๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ํŽธ์ง€๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์„๋•Œ๋Š” ์–ธ์ œ๋‚˜ ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์€ ํ•œ์ค„๊ธฐ์˜ ๋น›๊ณผ๋„ ๊ฐ™์•˜์ฃ .
03:55
it was like a ray of light
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03:57
in the darkest place you can imagine.
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๋ˆ„๊ตฌ๋ผ๋„ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฐ€์žฅ ์–ด๋‘์šด ๊ณณ์— ๋น„์น˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์ฃ .
04:00
And on this particular day, I opened this letter,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด ํŠน์ •ํ•œ ๋‚ , ์ €๋Š” ์ด ํŽธ์ง€๋ฅผ ์—ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:03
and in capital letters, he wrote,
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๊ทธ๋Š” ๋Œ€๋ฌธ์ž๋กœ ํŽธ์ง€๋ฅผ ์ผ์–ด์š”,
04:06
"My mama told me why you was in prison:
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"์—„๋งˆ๊ฐ€ ์–˜๊ธฐํ•ด์คฌ์ฃ , "์™œ ์•„๋น ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐ์˜ฅ์— ์žˆ๋Š”์ง€์š”:
04:10
murder."
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์‚ด์ธ."
04:12
He said, "Dad, don't kill.
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๊ทธ๋Š” ๋งํ–ˆ์ฃ , "์•„๋น , ์ฃฝ์ด์ง€๋งˆ์„ธ์š”.
04:14
Jesus watches what you do. Pray to Him."
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์˜ˆ์ˆ˜๋‹˜์€ ์•„๋น ๊ฐ€ ํ•˜๋Š” ํ–‰๋™์„ ๋ณด๊ณ ์žˆ์–ด์š”. ๊ทธ์—๊ฒŒ ๊ธฐ๋„ํ•ด์š”."
04:20
Now, I wasn't religious at that time,
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์ž, ์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ๋•Œ ์ข…๊ต์ ์ธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ๊ณ 
04:22
nor am I religious now,
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์ง€๊ธˆ๋„ ์ข…๊ต์ ์ด์ง€๋Š” ์•Š์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:23
but it was something so profound
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ œ ์•„๋“ค์˜ ๋ง์—๋Š” ๋ญ”๊ฐ€ ์•„์ฃผ ์‹ฌ์˜คํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:26
about my son's words.
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04:29
They made me examine things about my life
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ „ ์ œ ์ธ์ƒ์—์„œ ๊ณ ๋ คํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋˜ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์„ ๊ฒ€ํ† ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ•ด ์ฃผ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:30
that I hadn't considered.
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04:32
It was the first time in my life
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์ด๊ฒƒ์€ ์ œ ์ธ์ƒ์˜ ์ฒซ๋ฒˆ์งธ์˜€์ฃ ,
04:34
that I had actually thought about the fact
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์‹ค์ œ๋กœ ์ œ ์•„๋“ค์ด ์ €๋ฅผ ์‚ด์ธ์ž๋กœ ๋ณผ ๊ฒƒ์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์— ๊ด€ํ•ด ์ƒ๊ฐํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด์ฃ .
04:36
that my son would see me as a murderer.
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04:40
I sat back on my bunk
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์ €๋Š” ์ œ ์นจ๋Œ€์— ์•‰์•„
04:42
and I reflected on something I had read
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'Plato'์—์„œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ฝ์—ˆ๋˜ ๋ญ”๊ฐ€๋ฅผ
04:44
in [Plato],
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ํšŒ์ƒํ•ด๋ƒˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:46
where Socrates stated in "Apology"
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Socrates ๊ฐ€ "์‚ฌ๊ณผ"์—์„œ ๋งํ–ˆ๋˜
04:48
that the unexamined life isn't worth living.
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"๊ฒ€ํ† ๋˜์ง€ ์•Š๋Š” ์‚ถ์€ ๊ฐ€์น˜์žˆ๋Š” ์‚ถ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋‹ค"๋ผ๊ณ  ํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
04:53
At that point is when the transformation began.
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๊ทธ ์‹œ์ ์ด ๋ณ€์‹ ์ด ์‹œ์ž‘๋œ ์ง€์ ์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:58
But it didn't come easy.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์€ ์‰ฝ๊ฒŒ ๋‚˜์˜จ ๊ฒฐ๊ณผ๋Š” ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:03
One of the things I realized,
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05:05
which was part of the transformation,
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๊ทธ ๊ฒƒ์€ ๋ณ€์‹ ์˜ ํ•œ ๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด์—ˆ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ ์ค‘ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊นจ๋‹ฌ์€ ๊ฒƒ์€,
05:07
was that there were four key things.
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๊ทธ ๊ฒƒ์€ 4๊ฐ€์ง€์˜ ํ•ต์‹ฌ์ด ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ :
05:11
The first thing was,
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์ฒซ๋ฒˆ์งธ๋Š”
05:13
I had great mentors.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ํ›Œ๋ฅญํ•œ ๋ฉ˜ํ† ๋“ค์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:16
Now, I know some of you all are probably thinking,
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์ž, ์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„๋“ค์ด ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ,
05:18
how did you find a great mentor in prison?
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"์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๋‹น์‹ ์€ ๊ฐ์˜ฅ์—์„œ ๋ฉ˜ํ† ๋ฅผ ์ฐพ์•˜๋‚˜์š”?"
05:21
But in my case,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ œ ๊ฒฝ์šฐ์—๋Š”,
05:24
some of my mentors
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์‚ถ์˜ ๋ฌธ์žฅ์„ ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์ณ ์ค€ ๋ช‡๋ช…์˜ ์ œ ๋ฉ˜ํ† ๋“ค์€
05:25
who are serving life sentences
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05:27
were some of the best people to ever come into my life,
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์ œ ์‚ถ์—์„œ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:30
because they forced me to look at my life honestly,
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ์ œ ์‚ถ์„ ์ •์งํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ณด๋„๋ก ๋ถ€์ถ”๊ฒผ๊ณ 
05:33
and they forced me to challenge myself
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ์ €์˜ ์˜์‚ฌ๊ฒฐ์ •์— ๊ด€ํ•ด ์ œ ์ž์‹ ์„ ๊ทน๋ณตํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋ถ€์ถ”๊ฒผ์œผ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ์š”.
05:35
about my decision making.
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05:37
The second thing was literature.
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๋‘๋ฒˆ์งธ๋Š” ๋ฌธํ•™์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:41
Prior to going to prison,
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๊ฐ์˜ฅ์— ๊ฐ€๊ธฐ์ „์—,
05:43
I didn't know that there were so many brilliant
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์ €๋Š” ์„ธ์ƒ์— ๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ๋„ ๋งŽ์€ ํ›Œ๋ฅญํ•œ ํ‘์ธ ์‹œ์ธ๋“ค,
05:45
black poets, authors and philosophers,
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์ž‘๊ฐ€๋“ค๊ณผ ์ฒ ํ•™๊ฐ€๋“ค์ด ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ๋ชฐ๋ž๊ณ ,
05:48
and then I had the great fortune
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๊ทธ๋‹ค์Œ์—, ์ €๋Š” ์ •๋ง ์šด์ด ์ข‹๊ฒŒ๋„
05:51
of encountering Malcolm X's autobiography,
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Malcolm X์˜ ์ „๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ์ฝ์—ˆ์ฃ .
05:56
and it shattered every stereotype I had about myself.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์€ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ œ ์ž์‹ ์— ๊ด€ํ•ด ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๋˜ ํŽธ๊ฒฌ๋“ค์„ ๊นผ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:00
The third thing was family.
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์„ธ๋ฒˆ์งธ๋Š” ๊ฐ€์กฑ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:03
For 19 years, my father stood by my side
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์ œ ์•„๋ฒ„์ง€๋Š”, ํ”๋“ค๋ฆฌ์ง€ ์•Š๋Š” ์‹ ๋…์œผ๋กœ 19๋…„๋™์•ˆ ์ œ ํŽธ์— ์„œ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:07
with an unshakable faith,
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06:10
because he believed that I had what it took
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ œ ์‚ถ์„
06:11
to turn my life around.
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๋ฐ”๊ฟ€๊ฒƒ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ๋ฏฟ์œผ์…จ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด์ง€์š”.
06:14
I also met an amazing woman
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์ €๋Š” ๋˜ํ•œ ๋†€๋ผ์šด ํ•œ ์—ฌ์ž๋ฅผ ๋งŒ๋‚ฌ์ฃ .
06:17
who is now the mother of my two-year-old son Sekou,
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๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” 2์‚ด๋‚œ Sekou์˜ ์—„๋งˆ์—์š”.
06:20
and she taught me how to love myself
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ์ €์—๊ฒŒ ์ œ ์ž์‹ ์„
06:22
in a healthy way.
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์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๊ฑด๊ฐ•ํ•œ ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์œผ๋กœ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜๋Š”์ง€๋ฅผ ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์ผœ ์ฃผ์—ˆ์ฃ .
06:26
The final thing was writing.
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๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰์€ ์“ฐ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—์š”.
06:29
When I got that letter from my son,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ œ ์•„๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ํŽธ์ง€๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์•˜์„๋•Œ,
06:31
I began to write a journal
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์ €๋Š” ์ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ์“ฐ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
06:33
about things I had experienced in my childhood
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์–ด๋ ธ์„๋•Œ์™€
06:36
and in prison,
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๊ฐ์˜ฅ์—์„œ ๊ฒฝํ—˜ํ–ˆ๋˜ ์ผ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด์„œ์ฃ .
06:38
and what it did is it opened up my mind to the idea
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ธ€์“ฐ๊ธฐ๋Š” ์ œ ๋งˆ์Œ์„ ์ฐธํšŒ์˜ ์•„์ด๋””์–ด์ชฝ์œผ๋กœ ์—ด์–ด์ฃผ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:42
of atonement.
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06:45
Earlier in my incarceration, I had received
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ๋˜์—ˆ๋˜ ์ดˆ๊ธฐ์—, ์ €๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ฃฝ์ธ ํฌ์ƒ์ž์˜
06:47
a letter from one of the relatives of my victim,
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์นœ์ฒ™์—๊ฒŒ์„œ ํŽธ์ง€ ํ•œ ํ†ต์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:50
and in that letter,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ํŽธ์ง€์—์„œ,
06:53
she told me she forgave me,
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๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ์ €๋ฅผ ์šฉ์„œํ•ด์ฃผ๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋งํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:55
because she realized I was a young child
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์–ด๋ฆด๋•Œ ํ•™๋Œ€๋ฐ›์€ ์•„์ด์˜€์—ˆ๊ณ 
06:57
who had been abused
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06:58
and had been through some hardships
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๊ณ ๋‚œ์„ ๊ฒช์—ˆ์œผ๋ฉฐ,
07:00
and just made a series of poor decisions.
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์ผ๋ จ์˜ ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๊ฐ€์ง€ ์–ด๋ฆฌ์„์€ ๊ฒฐ์ •์„ ํ–ˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ์•˜๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด์ฃ .
07:03
It was the first time in my life
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์ด ๊ฒƒ์€ ์ œ ์‚ถ์—์„œ ์ฒ˜์Œ์œผ๋กœ
07:05
that I ever felt open to forgiving myself.
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์ œ ์ž์‹ ์„ ์šฉ์„œํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์— ๋งˆ์Œ์„ ์—ด๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ฑธ ๋Š๋‚€ ๋•Œ์˜€์ฃ .
07:13
One of the things that happened
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๊ทธ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์ด ์ผ์–ด๋‚œ ํ›„ ์ผ์–ด๋‚œ ํ•œ๊ฐ€์ง€๋Š”
07:14
after that experience is that
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07:17
I thought about the other men who were incarcerated
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์ €์™€ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ๋œ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด์„œ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
07:19
alongside of me,
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07:20
and how much I wanted to share this with them.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด ์‚ฌ์‹ค์„ ๊ทธ๋“ค๊ณผ ๊ณต์œ ํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ์ƒ๋‹นํžˆ ์›ํ•œ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„์š”.
07:23
And so I started talking to them about
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ
07:25
some of their experiences,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๊ฒฝํ—˜๋“ค์„ ๊ณต์œ ํ•˜๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:27
and I was devastated to realize
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋ฌด์น˜๊ฒŒ ๊นจ๋‹ฌ์•˜์ฃ .
07:29
that most of them came from the same abusive environments,
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๊ทธ๋“ค ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„๋„ ๋น„์Šทํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ•™๋Œ€๋ฐ›์€ ํ™˜๊ฒฝ์—์„œ ์ž๋ผ๋‚ฌ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„์š”.
07:32
And most of them wanted help and they wanted to turn it around,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ๋“ค ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์€ ๋„์›€๋ฐ›๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ์›ํ–ˆ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ํ™˜๊ฒฝ์„ ๊ทน๋ณตํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ์›ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:35
but unfortunately the system
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋ถˆํ–‰ํ•˜๊ฒŒ๋„,
07:37
that currently holds 2.5 million people in prison
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ํ˜„์žฌ 2.5 ๋ฐฑ๋งŒ๋ช…์˜ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ์ž๋“ค์„ ์ˆ˜๊ฐํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ทธ ์‹œ์Šคํ…œ์€,
07:40
is designed to warehouse
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์ฐฝ๊ณ ๊ฐ™์€ ๊ณณ์— ์ˆ˜๊ฐํ•˜๋„๋ก ์„ค๊ณ„๋˜์–ด ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:43
as opposed to rehabilitate or transform.
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๋‹ค์‹œ ์‚ด๊ฒŒํ•˜๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ๋ณ€์‹ ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๊ณผ๋Š” ๋ฐ˜๋Œ€์ง€์š”.
07:47
So I made it up in my mind
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ๊ฒฐ์‹ฌํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:49
that if I was ever released from prison
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์–ธ์ œ๋ผ๋„ ๊ฐ์˜ฅ์—์„œ ๋ฐฉ๋ฉด๋œ๋‹ค๋ฉด
07:51
that I would do everything in my power
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๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ๊ฐ–๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ์–ด๋–ค ํž˜์„ ์ด์šฉํ•ด์„œ๋ผ๋„
07:53
to help change that.
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๊ทธ๊ฑธ ๋ฐ”๊พธ๋„๋ก ๋•๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ตฌ์š”.
07:57
In 2010, I walked out of prison
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2010๋…„์— ์ €๋Š” ๊ต๋„์†Œ์—์„œ ๋ฐฉ๋ฉด๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:59
for the first time after two decades.
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20๋…„ ํ›„์˜ ์ฒซ ์ˆœ๊ฐ„์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
08:03
Now imagine, if you will,
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์ด์ œ, ๊ดœ์ฐฎ์œผ์‹œ๋ฉด ์ƒ์ƒํ•ด๋ณด์„ธ์š”.
08:04
Fred Flintstone walking into an episode
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์ œ์Šคํ†ค์ด๋ผ๋Š” ํŠธ๋ผ๋งˆ์— ํ”„๋ ˆ๋“œ ํ”Œ๋ฆฐ์Šคํ†ค์ด ๋“ค์–ด์˜ต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:07
of "The Jetsons."
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08:09
That was pretty much what my life was like.
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๊ทธ๊ฑด ์ œ ์‚ถ์˜ ์–‘์ƒ๊ณผ ์•„์ฃผ ๋น„์Šทํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:12
For the first time, I was exposed to the Internet,
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์ฒ˜์Œ์œผ๋กœ, ์ €๋Š” ์ธํ„ฐ๋„ท,
08:15
social media,
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์‚ฌํšŒ์  ๋ฏธ๋””์–ด,
08:17
cars that talk like KITT from "Knight Rider."
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'Knight Rider'์—์„œ KITT์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์–˜๊ธฐํ•˜๋Š” ์ฐจ๋“ค์„ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋˜์—ˆ์ฃ .
08:21
But the thing that fascinated me the most
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ €๋ฅผ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ๋งค๋ฃŒ์‹œํ‚จ๊ฒƒ์€
08:23
was phone technology.
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์ „ํ™”๊ธฐ์ˆ ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:25
See, when I went to prison,
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๋ณด์„ธ์š”, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ต๋„์†Œ์— ๊ฐ”์„ ๋•Œ,
08:26
our car phones were this big
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์ž๋™์ฐจ ์ „ํ™”๋“ค์€ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์ปธ๊ณ ,
08:28
and required two people to carry them.
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๋‘ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ด ๋“ค๊ณ  ์šด๋ฐ˜ํ•ด์•ผ ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
08:30
So imagine what it was like when I first grabbed
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‹ˆ, ์ƒ์ƒํ•ด๋ณด์„ธ์š”,
์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ œ ์ž‘์€ ๋ธ”๋ž™๋ฒ ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์ด์šฉํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋์„ ๋•Œ ์–ด๋• ์„์ง€ ๋ง์ด์ฃ .
08:33
my little Blackberry
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08:35
and I started learning how to text.
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ๋ฌธ์ž๋ฅผ ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๋ณด๋‚ด๋Š”์ง€๋ฅผ ๋ฐฐ์šฐ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
08:37
But the thing is, the people around me,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋ฌธ์ œ๋Š”, ์ œ ์ฃผ๋ณ€์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€
08:38
they didn't realize that I had no idea
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋งŽ์€ ์•ฝ์ž๋“ค์ด ์–ด๋–ค ์˜๋ฏธ์ธ์ง€,
08:40
what all these abbreviated texts meant,
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08:43
like LOL, OMG, LMAO,
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LOL, OMG, LMAO๊ฐ€ ๋ญ”์ง€ ์ „ํ˜€ ๋ชจ๋ฅธ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์ „ํ˜€ ๋ชฐ๋ž๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:48
until one day I was having a conversation
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๊ทธ๊ฑด ์–ด๋Š๋‚  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ œ ์นœ๊ตฌ์™€ ๋ฌธ์ž๋กœ ๋Œ€ํ™”๋ฅผ ํ•  ๋•Œ๊นŒ์ง€ ๊ณ„์†๋˜์—ˆ์ฃ .
08:49
with one of my friends via text,
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08:52
and I asked him to do something, and he responded back, "K."
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ์—๊ฒŒ ๋ญ”๊ฐ€ ๋ฌผ์—ˆ๊ณ , ๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๋Œ€๋‹ตํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ, "K"๋ผ๊ณ  ๋Œ€๋‹ตํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:56
And I was like, "What is K?"
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š”, "K๊ฐ€ ๋ญ์ง€?"๋ผ๊ณ  ๋ฌผ์—ˆ์ฃ .
08:59
And he was like, "K is okay."
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€, "K๋Š” okay์•ผ" ๋ผ๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”."
09:01
So in my head, I was like,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ œ ๋จธ๋ฆฌ์—์„œ๋Š”,
09:02
"Well what the hell is wrong with K?"
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"๊ธ€์Ž„, K๊ฐ€ ๋ญ๊ฐ€ ์ž˜๋ชป๋๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑฐ์ง€?"
09:05
And so I text him a question mark.
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” "?"๋ฅผ ์นœ๊ตฌ์—๊ฒŒ ๋ณด๋ƒˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:07
And he said, "K = okay."
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ์ž, ๊ทธ๋Š” ๋งํ–ˆ์ฃ , "K = okay."
09:11
And so I tap back, "FU." (Laughter)
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ๋‹ต๋ณ€์œผ๋กœ, "FU."๋ผ๊ณ  ๋ณด๋ƒˆ์–ด์š”.
09:16
And then he texts back, and he asks me
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ์ž ๊ทธ๋Š” ๋ฌธ์ž๋ฅผ ๋Œ๋ ค๋ณด๋‚ด๋ฉฐ, ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €์—๊ฒŒ ๋ฌผ์–ด๋ดค์–ด์š”,
09:17
why was I cussing him out.
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์™œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ์—๊ฒŒ ์š•ํ–ˆ๋Š”์ง€๋ฅผ์š”.
09:19
And I said, "LOL FU,"
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ๋งํ–ˆ์ฃ , "LOL FU (Laugh Out Loud Finally Understand),
09:22
as in, I finally understand.
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09:23
(Laughter)
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๋‚œ ๋งˆ์นจ๋‚ด ์ดํ•ดํ–ˆ๋‹ค." ์—์„œ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๋ง์ด์ฃ . (์›ƒ์Œ)
09:25
And so fast forward three years,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋น ๋ฅด๊ฒŒ 3๋…„์ด ์ง€๋‚ฌ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:29
I'm doing relatively good.
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์ „ ์ƒ๋Œ€์ ์œผ๋กœ ์ž˜ ์‚ด๊ณ  ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:31
I have a fellowship at MIT Media Lab,
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์ „ MIT Media Lab์˜ ํ•œ ๊ฐ€์กฑ์ด๊ตฌ์š”,
09:33
I work for an amazing company called BMe,
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BMe๋ผ๋Š” ํšŒ์‚ฌ์—์„œ ์ผํ•˜๊ตฌ์š”,
09:37
I teach at the University of Michigan,
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University of Michigan์—์„œ ๊ฐ•์˜๋„ ํ•˜์ฃ .
09:39
but it's been a struggle
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๋™์•ˆ ์–ด๋ ค์›€์„ ๋Š๊ปด์˜ค๊ณ  ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:41
because I realize that there are more
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ์ „ ๊ฐ์˜ฅ์—์„œ ๋ฐฉ๋ฉด๋˜๋Š” ๋งŽ์€ ์—ฌ์ž๋“ค๊ณผ ๋‚จ์ž๋“ค์ด
09:42
men and women coming home
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09:44
who are not going to be afforded those opportunities.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ํ–‰์šด๋“ค์„ ์–ป์ง€ ๋ชปํ•˜๋ฆฌ๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ๊นจ๋‹ฌ์•˜๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:47
I've been blessed to work with some amazing
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์ €๋Š” ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ๋ฉ‹์ง„ ๋‚จ์„ฑ๋“ค๊ณผ ์—ฌ์„ฑ๋“ค๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์ผํ•˜๋Š” ์ถ•๋ณต์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:49
men and women,
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๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด ์‚ฌํšŒ์— ๋ณต๊ท€ํ•˜๋„๋ก ๋•๋Š”๊ฒƒ์ธ๋ฐ,
09:52
helping others reenter society,
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09:53
and one of them is my friend named Calvin Evans.
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๊ทธ๋“ค์ค‘์—๋Š” ํ•˜๋‚˜๋Š” ์ œ์นœ๊ตฌ์ธ, ์นผ๋นˆ ์—๋ฐ˜์Šค์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
๊ทธ๋Š” ์ €์ง€๋ฅด์ง€ ์•Š์€ ๋ฒ”์ฃ„๋กœ 24๋…„๋™์•ˆ ๊ฐ์˜ฅ์ƒํ™œ์„ ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
09:58
He served 24 years for a crime he didn't commit.
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10:01
He's 45 years old. He's currently enrolled in college.
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๊ทธ๋Š” 45์‚ด์ด๊ณ  ํ˜„์žฌ ๋Œ€ํ•™ ์žฌํ•™์ค‘์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:04
And one of the things that we talked about
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์–˜๊ธฐํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ค‘ ํ•˜๋‚˜๋Š”
10:06
is the three things that I found important
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐœ์ธ์ ์ธ ๋ณ€์‹ ์—์„œ ์ค‘์š”ํ•˜๋‹ค๊ณ  ์—ฌ๊ธฐ๋Š” 3๊ฐ€์ง€ ์‚ฌํ•ญ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:08
in my personal transformation,
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10:09
the first being acknowledgment.
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์ฒซ๋ฒˆ์งธ๋Š” ์ธ์ •์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:11
I had to acknowledge that I had hurt others.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์—๊ฒŒ ์ƒ์ฒ˜๋ฅผ ์ž…ํ˜”๋‹ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ์‹ค์„ ์ธ์ •ํ•ด์•ผ ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
10:14
I also had to acknowledge that I had been hurt.
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๋˜ํ•œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ƒ์ฒ˜๋ฐ›์•˜๋‹ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ์‹ค๋„ ์ธ์ •ํ•ด์•ผํ–ˆ์ฃ .
10:17
The second thing was apologizing.
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๋‘๋ฒˆ์งธ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๊ณผํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:19
I had to apologize to the people I had hurt.
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์ „ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ƒ์ฒ˜์ฃผ์—ˆ๋˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์‚ฌ๊ณผํ•ด์•ผํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:21
Even though I had no expectations of them accepting it,
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๋น„๋ก ์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ๋“ค์ด ์ˆ˜์šฉํ•  ๊ฒƒ์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๊ธฐ๋Œ€ํ•˜์ง€๋Š” ์•Š์•˜์ง€๋งŒ
10:23
it was important to do because it was the right thing.
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๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์„ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ์˜ณ์€ ์ผ์ด์—ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์—, ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์€ ์ค‘์š”ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:26
But I also had to apologize to myself.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋˜ํ•œ ์ €๋Š” ์ œ ์ž์‹ ์—๊ฒŒ๋„ ์‚ฌ๊ณผํ•ด์•ผํ–ˆ์ฃ .
10:29
The third thing was atoning.
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์„ธ๋ฒˆ์งธ๋Š” ์ฐธํšŒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:32
For me, atoning meant
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์ €์—๊ฒŒ ์ฐธํšŒํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€
10:33
going back into my community
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์ œ ๊ณต๋™์ฒด๋กœ ๋Œ์•„๊ฐ€ ์œ„ํ—˜์ƒํƒœ์˜ ์ Š์€์ด๋“ค๊ณผ ์ผํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
10:35
and working with at-risk youth
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10:36
who were on the same path,
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๊ฐ™์€ ๊ธธ์„ ๊ฑท๊ณ  ์žˆ๊ณ ,
10:38
but also becoming at one with myself.
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์ €์™€ ํ•œ๋ชธ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๋˜์–ด๊ฐ€๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ์ด๋“ค์ด์ฃ .
10:42
Through my experience of being locked up,
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๊ฐ‡ํ˜€ ๋ณธ ์ œ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์„ ํ†ตํ•ด, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ค‘ ํ•˜๋‚˜๋Š” ์ด๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค:
10:44
one of the things I discovered is this:
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10:46
the majority of men and women
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์ˆ˜๊ฐ๋œ ๋Œ€๋‹ค์ˆ˜์˜ ๋‚จ์ž๋‚˜ ์—ฌ์ž๋“ค์€ ๊ตฌ์ œํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:47
who are incarcerated are redeemable,
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10:51
and the fact is,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด๊ฑด ์‚ฌ์‹ค์€,
10:52
90 percent of the men and women who are incarcerated
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์ˆ˜๊ฐ๋œ 90%์˜ ๋‚จ์ž์™€ ์—ฌ์ž๋Š”
10:54
will at some point return to the community,
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์–ด๋Š ์‹œ์ ์—์„œ ๊ณต๋™์ฒด๋กœ ๋Œ์•„๊ฐ€๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒƒ์ด๊ณ ,
10:57
and we have a role in determining what kind
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” ์–ด๋–ค ์ข…๋ฅ˜์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด
10:59
of men and women return to our community.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๊ณต๋™์ฒด์— ๋Œ์•„์˜ฌ ์ง€ ๊ฒฐ์ •ํ•  ์—ญํ• ์ด ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:02
My wish today
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์ €์˜ ํ˜„์žฌ ์†Œ๋ง์€
11:05
is that we will embrace
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๋Œ€๋Ÿ‰ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ์— ๋Œ€์ฒ˜ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด
11:09
a more empathetic approach
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์ข€ ๋” ๊ณต๊ฐ์ ์ธ ์ ‘๊ทผ์„ ํฌ์šฉํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:11
toward how we deal with mass incarceration,
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11:14
that we will do away with
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์ฆ‰, ๊ฐ€๋‘ฌ๋†“๊ณ  ์—ด์‡ ๋ฅผ ๋นผ์•˜์•„ ๋‚ด๋™๋Œ•์ด์น˜๋Š” ์ •์‹ ์„ ๋ฒ„๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:15
the lock-them-up-and-throw-away-the-key mentality,
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11:18
because it's proven it doesn't work.
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๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์ด ๋จนํžˆ์ง€ ์•Š๋Š”๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒŒ ํŒ๋ช…์ด ๋˜์—ˆ์œผ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ์š”.
11:21
My journey is a unique journey,
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์ œ ์—ฌํ–‰์€ ๋…ํŠนํ•œ ์—ฌํ–‰์ด์ง€๋งŒ,
11:24
but it doesn't have to be that way.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ๋ฐฉ์‹์œผ๋กœ ๋  ํ•„์š”๋Š” ์—†์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:27
Anybody can have a transformation
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๋ˆ„๊ตฌ๋ผ๋„ ๋ณ€์‹ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:29
if we create the space for that to happen.
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์ด ์ผ์–ด๋‚˜๋„๋ก ํ•  ๊ณต๊ฐ„์„ ๋งŒ๋“ ๋‹ค๋ฉด ๋ง์ด์ฃ .
11:32
So what I'm asking today
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ์˜ค๋Š˜ ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์—๊ฒŒ ์š”์ฒญํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:34
is that you envision
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ์„ธ์ƒ์˜ ๋‚จ์ž๋“ค๊ณผ ์—ฌ์ž๋“ค์ด ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๊ณผ๊ฑฐ์— ์ธ์งˆ๋กœ ์žกํžˆ์ง€ ์•Š๊ณ ,
11:35
a world where men and women
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11:38
aren't held hostage to their pasts,
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11:41
where misdeeds and mistakes
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๊ทธ ์‹คํŒจ์™€ ์ž˜๋ชป๋“ค์ด ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ์—ฌ์ƒ์„ ๊ทœ์ •ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š๋Š” ๊ณณ์„ ๋งˆ์Œ์— ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ์„ธ์š”.
11:43
don't define you for the rest of your life.
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11:46
I think collectively, we can create that reality,
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์ €๋Š” ๋‹จ์ฒด์ ์œผ๋กœ, ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๋Ÿฌํ•œ ํ˜„์‹ค์„ ์ฐฝ์กฐํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:49
and I hope you do too.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„๋„ ๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ํ˜„์‹ค์„ ์ฐฝ์กฐํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํฌ๋งํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:50
Thank you.
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๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:52
(Applause)
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์ด ์›น์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ ์ •๋ณด

์ด ์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์˜์–ด ํ•™์Šต์— ์œ ์šฉํ•œ YouTube ๋™์˜์ƒ์„ ์†Œ๊ฐœํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์ „ ์„ธ๊ณ„ ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์น˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ˆ˜์—…์„ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๊ฐ ๋™์˜์ƒ ํŽ˜์ด์ง€์— ํ‘œ์‹œ๋˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ” ํด๋ฆญํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๊ณณ์—์„œ ๋™์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋น„๋””์˜ค ์žฌ์ƒ์— ๋งž์ถฐ ์ž๋ง‰์ด ์Šคํฌ๋กค๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์˜๊ฒฌ์ด๋‚˜ ์š”์ฒญ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒฝ์šฐ ์ด ๋ฌธ์˜ ์–‘์‹์„ ์‚ฌ์šฉํ•˜์—ฌ ๋ฌธ์˜ํ•˜์‹ญ์‹œ์˜ค.

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