An Olympic Champion's Mindset for Overcoming Fear | Allyson Felix | TED

翻译人员: Ethan Huang 校对人员: Yanyan Hong

One of the scariest moments of my career

我的职业生涯里 让我感到最恐惧的时刻之一

started on a dark October morning in 2018.

始于 2018 年 10 月的那个漆黑清晨。

I’m a professional athlete, and my training schedule can be a lot.

我是一名职业运动员， 我的训练也安排得很满。

Six days a week, five hours a day.

每周六练，每天五小时，

It's intense.

训练强度很大。

Still, I never train that early.

即便如此，我也从未那么早去训练。

But on this day,

但在这一天，

a special type of fear brought me out at 4am before the sun.

别样的恐惧感在太阳还未升起的凌晨四点 将我从床上拽起，

A fear that someone might discover a secret I'd been keeping.

恐惧着别人可能会发现 我一直隐藏的秘密。

我那时怀有六个月身孕。

I was six months pregnant.

I was pregnant, and I was scared enough to train in the dark

我怀着孕并惧怕到要在黑夜中训练

so that no one would see the life that was growing inside of me.

这样就没人能发现 我体内正孕育着的生命。

I feared that if a fan or someone posted a photo,

我惧怕如果粉丝 或他人发出我的孕照，

that my sponsor would immediately change their mind

我的赞助商

会马上改变他们想要跟我合作的想法。

about wanting to work with me.

I feared that I would be forced to choose between motherhood

我恐慌我那时将被迫

在成为母亲 和作为竞技体育运动员中做出抉择。

and being a competitive athlete.

I feared that the career I worked so hard to build

我担心我如此努力所创立的事业

would disappear just like that.

将因此烟消云散。

You think I'm exaggerating, right?

你们觉得我在夸大其词对吧？

How could a six-time Olympic champion, a 16-time world champion,

一位六次奥运金牌得主、 十六届世界冠军、

a world record holder,

世界纪录的保持者，

possibly think that her career might be over by doing something

怎么可能觉得她的职业生涯

会因为自然而然的怀孕而被终止？

as natural as having a baby?

Well, I'm not exaggerating.

我并不是在夸张。

Getting pregnant in track and field has been called the “kiss of death.”

在田径领域中， 怀孕一直被称为“死神之吻”。

And it comes with a lot of fear,

它带来了很多恐惧，

just like for women in many professions.

正如在很多行业中的女性 会遇到的那样。

I have been watching women that I respect

自从我 19 岁开始，

and teammates of mine hide pregnancies

我就一直有看到我所敬佩的女性

since I was 19 years old.

以及我的队友们隐瞒身孕。

I've seen women have to make gut-wrenching decisions

我见到女性被迫做出

诸如是恢复身体，

like deciding whether to recover their health

还是重回赛场的痛苦决定。

or return to the sport.

Deciding whether to stay in the hospital with a sick child or go to a race

思量是呆在医院陪伴生病的孩子 或是去参加比赛，

so that they don't receive a further pay reduction.

以防她们的薪酬进一步减少。

I know what some of you might be thinking.

我知道你们中的人可能会在想的。

We all choose to get pregnant, right?

我们都是自己选择怀孕的， 不是吗？

If a sponsor doesn't want to pay an athlete

如果赞助商不愿赞助

who's not out on the track winning,

不能再在田径场获胜的运动员，

that's just part of the deal, right?

那不是赞助商理所应当做的吗？

Well, I think the deal's rigged.

我认为协议被操纵了。

I think that companies want to have it both ways.

我觉得赞助公司们希望鱼与熊掌兼得。

And I think it's time we change.

我认为是时候我们做出改变了。

Sports companies love to tell women that they can have it all.

体育用品公司钟爱告诉女性， 她们可以得到一切想要的。

They can do it all, they can be it all.

可以做到一切想做的， 成为任何样子。

We've all seen those inspirational ads.

我们都见过这种振奋人心的广告。

I remember meeting with Nike leadership in 2010,

我记得在 2010 年时 与耐克领导层的会议，

and they told me about an initiative they sponsored called the Girl Effect.

他们向我讲述了他们赞助的新项目 叫“女孩效应（Girl Effect）”。

They promoted adolescent girls as the key to improving societies

他们在全球范围内

推动青少年女性作为发展社会的关键。

around the globe.

They said they believed in women and girls.

他们说他们相信所有的女性。

And if I joined Nike,

如果我加入耐克，

I could empower them.

我就能给予她们力量。

And I believed that.

我当时相信了这一点。

But guess what?

但你猜怎么着？

Girls come from somewhere.

女孩也是母亲生出来。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

And women having babies during childrearing years

而女性在育龄期怀孩子

is something that should be celebrated, not punished.

是应该被庆祝， 而不是受到惩罚的事情。

It should be a part of a normal, thriving, professional, athletic career.

其应该是再正常不过的、蒸蒸日上的 职业运动生涯的一部分。

And women in all fields should never feel the need

所有领域的女性都不应需要

to hide a pregnancy, at 4am, in the dark,

在漆黑的凌晨四点去隐瞒身孕，

so that they won't be photographed doing that thing that they love.

这样她就不会在 做她们热爱的事情时被偷拍。

Thank you.

谢谢大家。

(Applause)

（掌声）

Remember how scared I told you I was when I was on the track that day?

记得我说过我在训练场的那天 有多么恐惧吗？

My mind was racing with the consequences of my decision to start a family.

我的内心当时正纠结地想着 我决定建立家庭的后果。

I had already been going through

我当时已正在与耐克

a difficult renegotiation period with Nike,

历经一段艰难的重新协商阶段，

and they were already offering me 70 percent less

他们已经提出了

比我之前低 70% 的薪资。

than what I had previously been making.

And that was even before they knew about the baby.

这甚至是在他们 得知我身孕之前提出的，

Don't even get me started with the ageism

深植于资本主义梦中的年龄歧视

that is embedded in the capitalist dream.

更是让我说到就生气。

So when I told them about my pregnancy,

所以当我告诉他们我怀孕的事时，

I asked for a clause in the contract

我要求在合同里有明确表明

that specified they wouldn't reduce my pay

他们不会在我生产后 12 个月以内

within 12 months of giving birth.

减低薪酬的条款。

They said yes.

他们表示同意。

But -- you knew there was going to be a "but", right?

但是—— 你们知道凡事总有个“但是”，对吧？

But it was only a yes for me.

但是这项条款只对我成立。

They weren't ready to offer that same protection for all female athletes.

他们还没有准备好为 所有女性运动员提供相同的保障，

They weren't ready to set the precedent.

他们还没有准备好为此开创先例。

几天之后， 我的经纪人打给了我，

A couple of days later, my agent called me.

Nike wanted to use me in a commercial for the Women's World Cup.

耐克想让我参与女子世界杯的广告拍摄。

我简直不敢相信。

I couldn't believe it.

Nike wanted to use me to tell women and girls

耐克想用我告诉所有女性，

that they could do anything,

他们可以做到任何事情，

even though the contract before me said the exact opposite.

虽然摆在我面前的合同 表达了正相反的含义。

I knew what I had to do.

我知道我必须做点什么了，

I knew I had to leave.

我认为我必须离开。

I knew I was afraid,

我自知我很害怕，

but I did it anyways.

但不管怎样我还是这么做了。

I wrote an op-ed in "The New York Times"

我在《纽约时报》上写了评论专栏

calling out Nike's maternity policy,

指责耐克的产假政策，

and I wasn't the only one.

而且我并不是唯一这么做的。

(Applause)

（掌声）

My teammates and I, we helped turn the tide.

我的队友与我携手扭转了局面。

Now, Nike offers eighteen months maternity protection

耐克现在提供 18 个月的生育保障

and other sponsors --

并且其他的赞助商——

(Applause)

（掌声）

And other sponsors like Altra, Nuun, Brooks and Burton,

其他的赞助商比如 Altra 、 Nuun 、Brooks 以及 Burton ，

they came forward and they announced their new guarantees for female athletes

他们站了出来 并宣布了对在被赞助期间

who start families while being sponsored.

怀孕的女运动员的新保障。

Too late for me,

这对我来说太晚了，

but amazing for the women coming up now.

但对于未来的女性运动员而言很棒。

I didn't resign with Nike, and I'm here to tell the tale.

我并没有和耐克重新签约， 并且我来到了这里来讲诉这件事。

But more than that,

但不止于此，

I'm here to tell you that you can do it, too.

我来到这里 也是为了告诉你们同样可以。

Once you find the courage to believe in yourself,

一旦你找到勇气去相信自己，

your own worth, your own values,

相信你的自我价值，

it gets easier.

事情就会变得简单。

It's when you take a stand

当你表明立场时，

that you start to understand how to overcome that fear

你开始明白如何克服恐惧

and how to make a change for yourself and sometimes for others.

以及如何为自己，有时为他人做出改变。

I went on to find a new sponsor

我继续在以女性为主导、 以女性为中心的阿仕利塔运动品牌

in the female-led, female-focused Athleta,

找到了新的赞助。

and they helped me --

并且他们帮助了我——

(Applause)

（掌声）

And they helped me challenge

并且他们助我

the International Olympic Committee's childcare policy.

对国际奥委会的育儿政策提出挑战。

Together, we raised 200,000 dollars

我们共同为女运动员筹集了 20 万美元，

for female athletes to be able to afford childcare when they go to races.

使她们在参加比赛时 能够负担起儿童看护。

Because women have babies,

因为妇女有孩子需要照顾，

and these children don't disappear when the races begin.

而对孩子看护 在比赛开始后依然需要。

I made it back to the Olympics two years after giving birth.

在生产的两年后， 我成功回到了奥运赛场。

I won a gold and a bronze.

我斩获得了一金一铜。

(Applause and cheers)

（掌声与喝彩）

And I became the most decorated American track and field athlete of all time.

我成为了美国有史以来 收获奖牌最多的田径运动员。

All while my daughter was watching.

这都发生在我的女儿注视下。

Audience: Aww.

（观众惊呼声）

AF: I was running for so much more than for medals

我当时奔跑的目的远远超过了奖牌

or for a time on the track.

或者一次上场的机会。

我在为女性，为母亲，

I was running as a representation for women and for mothers

为那些被告知他们的故事已完结的人而奔跑。

and for anybody who had been told that their story was over.

I remember crossing that line in Tokyo and having such a sense of fulfillment.

我记得在东京跨越终点线 以及拥有着那种成就感时，

I looked down at my feet

我低头看向我的双脚，

and for the first time in my entire career,

这是我整个职业生涯中第一次

I wasn't wearing Adidas,

没有穿着阿迪达斯，

I wasn't wearing Nike.

也没有穿着耐克。

I was wearing Saysh,

我当时穿着的是 Saysh ，

the women's footwear brand that I founded,

这是当我没有鞋类赞助商时，

我自己创立的专由女性设计的、

designed for and by women,

也专为女性打造的运动鞋品牌。

when I was left without a footwear sponsor.

Because I was tired of not being valued or able to show up fully as myself.

因为我厌倦了不被重视， 或不能完全展现自己。

I learned that my voice has power,

我了解到我的声音是有力量的，

and when I bet on myself, change is possible.

当我相信自己时，改变就可能发生。

During the pandemic,

在疫情时期，

we all saw what happens when that thin line

我们都见证了当职业 与个人生活之间的微弱界限，

between our professional and personal lives permanently blurs.

不再清晰可见后会发生什么。

We have seen women step back, give up, drop out,

我们已经看到妇女退缩、放弃、辍学，

as having it all became doing it all,

因为把生活安排得井井有条 变成了包办一切，

and doing it all became impossible.

而包办一切成了不可能。

We have got to stop forcing people to choose between parenting

我们必须停止强迫人们

在养育子女和从事他们喜爱的工作之间 做出选择。

and doing the work that they love.

And we've got to stop pretending that we're not making those decisions

我们必须停止假装 我们没有做出过这些决定，

because the results affect us all.

因为其结果会影响到我们所有人。

Not just women, but men and our children, too.

不仅仅是女性，还有男性， 以及我们的孩子。

By creating the environment that we all live, work,

创造我们所有人生活、工作、

love and raise our families in.

去爱和建立家庭的环境。

Isn't it past time that we call out the hypocrisy

现在不正是我们批判虚伪

and create a new normal?

和创造新常态的时候吗？

One with real generosity, humanity and truth at the center,

一个以真正的慷慨、人性和真理 为中心的环境，

not some misplaced sense of what business is or does.

而不是以我们 传统思维里的商业模式为中心。

We should say what we will tolerate.

我们应该表达出我们将能接受什么，

And as we all recover from the pandemic that has flattened us,

而当我们从这场 击倒你我的疫情中恢复过来时，

let's just not rebuild the same version of the broken system that we had before.

我们就别再重建之前同样的破碎系统了，

But let's learn and create something new.

而是学习并创造新的东西。

Each one of us has a role to play.

我们每个人都有自己需要扮演的角色。

And you don’t have to be an Olympian

你不必成为奥运选手

to create change for yourself or for others.

才能为你或者身边的人带来改变。

这个房间里的每个人 都可以对自己拥有信心，

Everyone in this room can bet on themselves.

It will typically happen in moments of fear

它通常会发生在恐惧的、

when you don't see the path forward.

当你看不到前进道路的时刻。

In my own experience, it was a terrifying decision,

根据我自己的经验来说， 这是个骇人的决定，

but that will be your first clue.

但这将是你的第一条线索。

That feeling of being terrified is your invitation to create change.

这种害怕的感觉会鼓励你创造改变。

You have to acknowledge those feelings,

你必须承认这些感觉，

you have to brave them, and you have to fight to move forward.

你必须勇敢地面对它们 并且你必须为向前迈进而奋斗。

It won't be easy.

这不是件轻松的事情。

You will be afraid.

你会感到害怕。

Your voice will shake.

你会声音颤抖。

But what I can absolutely promise you

但我能绝对向你保证的是

is that it will be worth it.

这一切都将值得。

Thank you.

感谢大家。

(Applause)

（掌声）