Diana Nyad: Extreme swimming with the world's most dangerous jellyfish

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Yeah, so a couple of years ago I was turning 60,
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and I don't like being 60.
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(Laughter)
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And I started grappling
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with this existential angst
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of what little I had done with my life.
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It wasn't the resume
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of breaking this record here,
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it was more like, who had I become?
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How had I spent my valuable time?
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How could this have gone by
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like lightning?
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And I couldn't forgive myself
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for the countless, countless hours
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I had lost
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in negative thought --
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all the time I had spent beating myself up
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for losing my marriage
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and not stopping the sexual abuse when I was a kid
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and career moves
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and this and this and this.
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Just why, why didn't I do it better? Why? Why? Why?
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And then my mother died at 82.
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And so I starting thinking,
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not only am I not happy with the past,
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now I'm getting choked with,
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"I've only got 22 years left."
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What am I going to do with this short amount of time
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that's just fleeting?
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And I'm not in the present whatsoever.
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And I decided the remedy to all this malaise
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was going to be
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for me to chase
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an elevated dream,
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an extreme dream,
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something that would require
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utter conviction
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and unwavering passion,
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something that would make me
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be my best self
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in every aspect of my life,
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every minute of every day,
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because the dream was so big
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that I couldn't get there
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without that kind of behavior and that kind of conviction.
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And I decided,
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it was an old dream that was lingering,
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that was from so many years ago,
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three decades ago --
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the only sort of world class swim
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I had tried and failed at back in my 20s --
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was going from Cuba to Florida.
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It was deep in my imagination.
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No one's ever done it without a shark cage.
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It's daunting.
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It's more than a hundred miles across a difficult passage of ocean.
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It's probably, at my speed, at my age --
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for anybody's speed at anybody's age --
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going to take 60, maybe 70, hours
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of continuous swimming,
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never getting out on the boat.
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And I started to train.
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I hadn't swum for 31 years, not a stroke.
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And I had kept in good shape, but swimming's a whole different animal.
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As a matter of fact,
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this picture is supposed to be me during training.
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It's a smiling face.
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And when you're training for this sport, you are not smiling.
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(Laughter)
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It's an arduous, difficult sport,
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and I don't remember smiling
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at any time during this sport.
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As I said, I respect other sports,
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and I compare this sport sometimes
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to cycling and to mountain climbing
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and other of the expedition type events,
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but this is a sensory deprivation,
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a physical duress.
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And when I started in
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with the eight hours and the 10 hours and the 12 hours
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and the 14 hours and the 15 hours and the 24-hour swims,
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I knew I had it,
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because I was making it through these.
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And when I said I'm going to go out and do a 15-hour swim,
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and we're coming into the dock after a long day
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and it's now night,
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and we come in and it's 14 hours and 58 minutes
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and I can touch the dock and we're done,
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the trainer says, "That's great.
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It's 14 hours 58 minutes. Who cares the last two minutes?"
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I say, "No, it's got to be 15 hours,"
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and I swim another minute out and another minute back
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to make the 15 hours.
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And I put together an expedition.
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It's not that I didn't have help,
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but honestly, I sort of led, I was the team leader.
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And to get the government permissions,
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you read in the paper,
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you think it's easy to get into Cuba everyday?
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Try going in with an armada like we had
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of 50 people and five boats
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and CNN's crew, etc.
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The navigation is difficult.
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There's a big river called the Gulf Stream
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that runs across
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and it's not going in the direction you are.
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It's going to the east and you'd like to go north.
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It's tricky.
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And there's dehydration.
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And there's hypothermia.
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And there are sharks.
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And there are all kinds of problems.
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And I gathered together, honestly,
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the world's leading experts in every possible way.
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And a month ago,
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the 23rd of September,
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I stood on that shore
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and I looked across
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to that long, long faraway horizon
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and I asked myself,
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do you have it?
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Are your shoulders ready?
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And they were. They were prepared.
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No stone left unturned.
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Was the mind ready?
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You know, you're swimming with the fogged goggles,
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you're swimming at 60 strokes a minute,
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so you're never really focused on anything, you don't see well.
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You've got tight bathing caps over your ears
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trying to keep the heat of the head,
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because it's where the hypothermia starts,
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and so you don't hear very well.
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You're really left alone with your own thoughts.
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And I had all kinds of counting systems ready there
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in English, followed by German,
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followed by Spanish, followed by French.
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You save the French for last.
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And I had songs, I had a playlist in my head --
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not through headphones, in my own head --
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of 65 songs.
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And I couldn't wait to get into the dark in the middle of the night,
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because that's when Neil Young comes out.
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(Laughter)
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And it's odd, isn't it?
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You'd think you'd be singing Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah"
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out in the majesty of the ocean,
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not songs about heroin addiction in New York City.
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But no, for some reason
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I couldn't wait to get into the dark of the night
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and be singing,
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♫ "A heard you knocking at my cellar door ♫
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♫ I love you baby and I want some more ♫
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♫ Ooh, ooh, the damage done" ♫
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(Applause)
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The night before I started,
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I finished Stephen Hawking's "The Grand Design."
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And I couldn't wait
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to trip the mind fantastic.
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About the 50th hour,
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I was going to start thinking about the edge of the universe.
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Is there an edge?
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Is this an envelope we're living inside of,
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or no, does it go onto infinity in both time and space?
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And there's nothing like swimming for 50 hours in the ocean
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that gets you thinking about things like this.
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I couldn't wait to prove the athlete I am,
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that nobody else in the world can do this swim.
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And I knew I could do it.
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And when I jumped into that water,
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I yelled in my mother's French, "Courage!"
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And I started swimming,
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and, oh my God, it was glassy.
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And we knew it, all 50 people on the boat,
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we all knew this was it,
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this was our time.
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And I reminded myself a couple hours in,
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you know, the sport is sort of a microcosm of life itself.
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First of all, you're going to hit obstacles.
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And even though you're feeling great at any one moment,
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don't take it for granted, be ready,
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because there's going to be pain, there's going to be suffering.
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It's not going to feel this good all the way across.
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And I was thinking of the hypothermia
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and maybe some shoulder pain
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and all the other things --
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the vomiting that comes from being in the saltwater.
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You're immersed in the liquid.
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Your body doesn't like the saltwater.
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After a couple of days, three days,
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you tend to rebel
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in a lot of physical ways.
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But no, two hours in,
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wham! Never in my life ...
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I knew there were Portuguese men o' war,
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all kinds of moon jellies, all kinds of things,
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but the box jellyfish from the southern oceans
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is not supposed to be in these waters.
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And I was on fire --
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excruciating, excruciating pain.
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I don't know if you can still see
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the red line here and up the arm.
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Evidently, a piece this big of tentacle
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has a hundred-thousand little barbs on it
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and each barb is not just stinging your skin,
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it's sending a venom.
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The most venomous animal that lives in the ocean
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is the box jellyfish.
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And every one of those barbs
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is sending that venom into this central nervous system.
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So first I feel like boiling hot oil,
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I've been dipped in.
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And I'm yelling out, "Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire!
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Help me! Somebody help me!"
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And the next thing is paralysis.
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I feel it in the back and then I feel it in the chest up here,
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and I can't breathe.
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And now I'm not swimming with a nice long stroke,
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I'm sort of crabbing it this way.
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Then come convulsions.
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A young man on our boat is an EMT. He dives in to try to help me.
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He's stung.
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They drag him out on the boat,
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and he's -- evidently, I didn't see any of this -- but lying on the boat
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and giving himself epinephrine shots
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and crying out.
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He's 29 years old,
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very well-built, lean, he's six-foot, five,
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weighs 265 lbs.,
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and he is down.
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And he is crying and he's yelling to my trainer
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who's trying to help me.
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And he's saying, "Bonnie, I think I'm going to die.
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My breath is down to three breaths a minute.
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I need help, and I can't help Diana."
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So that was at eight o'clock at night.
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The doctor, medical team from University of Miami
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arrived at five in the morning.
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So I swam through the night,
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and at dawn they got there and they started with prednisone shots.
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I didn't get out,
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but was in the water taking prednisone shots, taking Xanax,
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oxygen to the face.
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It was like an ICU unit
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in the water.
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(Laughter)
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And I guess the story is
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that even Navy SEALS who are stung by the box jelly,
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they're done.
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They either die or they quickly get to a hospital.
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And I swam through the night and I swam through the next day.
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And the next night at dusk,
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again, wham!
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The box jelly again --
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all across the neck, all across here.
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And this time,
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I don't like it, I didn't want to give into it,
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but there's a difference between a non-stop swim
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and a staged swim.
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And I gave in
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to the staged swim.
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And they got me out and they started again
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with the epinephrine and the prednisone
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and with the oxygen and with everything they had on board.
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And I got back in.
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And I swam through that night and into the next day.
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And at 41 hours,
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this body couldn't make it.
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The devastation of those stings
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had taken the respiratory system down
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so that I couldn't make the progress I wanted.
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And the dream was crushed.
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And how odd
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is this intelligent person who put this together
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and got all these world experts together.
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And I knew about the jellyfish,
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but I was sort of cavalier.
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A lot of athletes have this, you know,
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sort of invincibility.
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They should worry about me. I don't worry about them.
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I'll just swim right through them.
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We've got benadryl on board. If I get stung, I'll just grin and bear it.
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Well there was no grin and bearing this.
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As a matter of fact, the best advice I got
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was from an elementary school class
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in the Caribbean.
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And I was telling these kids, 120 of them --
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they were all in the school on the gymnasium floor --
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and I was telling them about the jellyfish
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and how they're gelatinous
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and you can't see them at night especially.
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And they have these
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long 30 to 40 to 50-ft. tentacles.
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And they do this wrapping.
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And they can send the poison into the system.
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And a little kid from the back was like this.
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And I said, "What's your name?" "Henry."
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"Henry, what's your question?"
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He said, "Well, I didn't have a question so much
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as I had a suggestion."
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He said, "You know those guys
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who really believe in what they believe in
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and so they wear bombs?"
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And I said, "Well it's odd that you've learned of this
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as a noble kind of pursuit, but yeah, I know those guys."
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He said, "That's what you need.
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You need like a school of fish
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that would swim in front of you like this."
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(Laughter)
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"And when the jellyfish come and they wrap their tentacles around the fish,
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they're going to be busy with them,
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and you'll just scoot around."
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I said, "Oh, it's like a suicide army."
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He said, "That's what I'm talking about. That's what you need."
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And little did I know,
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that you should listen to eight year-olds.
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And so I started that swim
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in a bathing suit like normal,
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and, no joke, this is it; it came from the shark divers.
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I finished the swim like this.
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I was swimming with this thing on.
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That's how scared of the jellyfish I was.
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So now what do I do?
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I wouldn't mind
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if every one of you came up on this stage tonight
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and told us how you've gotten over the big disappointments of your lives.
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Because we've all had them, haven't we?
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We've all had a heartache.
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And so my journey now
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is to find some sort of grace
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in the face of this defeat.
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And I can look at the journey,
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not just the destination.
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I can feel proud. I can stand here in front of you tonight
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and say I was courageous.
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Yeah.
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(Applause)
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Thank you.
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And with all sincerity, I can say,
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I am glad I lived those two years of my life that way,
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because my goal to not suffer regrets anymore,
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I got there with that goal.
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When you live that way, when you live with that kind of passion,
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there's no time, there's no time for regrets,
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you're just moving forward.
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And I want to live every day of the rest of my life that way,
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swim or no swim.
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But the difference
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in accepting this particular defeat
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is that sometimes,
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if cancer has won,
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if there's death and we have no choice,
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then grace and acceptance
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are necessary.
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But that ocean's still there.
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This hope is still alive.
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And I don't want to be the crazy woman
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who does it for years and years and years,
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and tries and fails and tries and fails and tries and fails,
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but I can swim from Cuba to Florida,
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and I will swim from Cuba to Florida.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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And so, what after that?
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Are you going to swim the Atlantic?
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No, that's the last swim.
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It's the only swim I'm interested in.
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But I'm ready.
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And by the way, a reporter called me the other day
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and he said he looked on Wikipedia
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and he said he saw my birthday was August 22nd 1949,
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and for some odd reason in Wikipedia,
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they had my death date too.
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(Laughter)
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He said, "Did you know you're going to die the same place you were born, New York City,
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and it's going to be in January of '35?"
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I said, "Nope. I didn't know."
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And now I'm going to live to 85.
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I have three more years than I thought.
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And so I ask myself,
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I'm starting to ask myself now,
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even before this extreme dream
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gets achieved for me,
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I'm asking myself,
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and maybe I can ask you tonight too,
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to paraphrase the poet
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Mary Oliver,
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she says, "So what is it,
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what is it you're doing,
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with this one wild and precious life of yours?"
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Thank you very much.
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(Applause)
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Thank you. Thank you.
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Thank you. Thank you.
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(Applause)
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Live it large. Live it large.
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