What it's like to be a transgender dad | LB Hannahs

譯者: Lilian Chiu 審譯者: Yanyan Hong

So the other morning I went to the grocery store

有天早上，我去一間雜貨店，

and an employee greeted me

一位員工和我打招呼，

with a "Good morning, sir, can I help you with anything?"

說：「早安，先生， 有什麼我能協助您的嗎？」

I said, "No, thanks, I'm good."

我說：「不用，沒關係，我不需要。」

The person smiled and we went our separate ways.

他微笑一下， 我們就各自做各自的事了。

I grabbed Cheerios and I left the grocery store.

我買了早餐穀片（Cheerios）後， 離開了雜貨店。

And I went through the drive-through of a local coffee shop.

接著我開車到 本地咖啡店的得來速車道。

After I placed my order, the voice on the other end said,

我點好餐之後，另一端的聲音說：

"Thank you, ma'am. Drive right around."

「謝謝您，女士，請開過來。」

Now, in the span of less than an hour,

在不到一小時的時間內，

I was understood both as a "sir" and as a "ma'am."

我被認為是「先生」及「女士」。

But for me, neither of these people are wrong,

但對我來說， 這兩個人都沒有錯，

but they're also not completely right.

但他們也沒有完全正確。

This cute little human is my almost-two-year-old Elliot.

這個可愛的小傢伙， 是我的艾略特，快要兩歲了。

Yeah, alright.

是的，沒錯。

And over the past two years,

在過去兩年間，

this kid has forced me to rethink the world

這個孩子迫使我重新思考這個世界，

and how I participate in it.

及我要如何參與其中。

I identify as transgender and as a parent, that makes me a transparent.

我是變性人（transgender） 也是家長 （parent），

所以我成了透明人（transparent）。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

(Applause)

（掌聲）

(Cheering)

（歡呼）

(Applause)

（掌聲）

As you can see, I took this year's theme super literal.

你們可以發現，我完全取用了 今年 TED 主題的字面意思。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

Like any good dad joke should.

老爸笑話本來就該如此。

More specifically, I identify as genderqueer.

更明確來說，我是性別酷兒，

And there are lots of ways to experience being genderqueer,

而身為性別酷兒的體驗有很多種，

but for me that means I don't really identify as a man or a woman.

但對我來說，那就意味著 我不被視為男人或女人。

I feel in between and sometimes outside of this gender binary.

我感覺身在兩性中間， 有時還覺得在兩性之外。

And being outside of this gender binary

而身在兩性之外，

means that sometimes I get "sired" and "ma'amed"

就意味著，我只是出門做例行事項，

in the span of less than an hour when I'm out doing everyday things

有時也會在不到一小時中， 被稱為「先生」及「女士」。

買個早餐穀片也會如此。

like getting Cheerios.

但我走在中間這線道上 才感到最舒適。

But this in between lane is where I'm most comfortable.

This space where I can be both a sir and a ma'am

在這個空間中，我可以 既是先生也是女士，

這是我覺得最對也最真實的空間。

feels the most right and the most authentic.

But it doesn't mean that these interactions aren't uncomfortable.

但那並不表示這些互動是舒服的。

Trust me, the discomfort can range from minor annoyance

相信我，不舒服的範圍 可以從小小的煩擾感

到實際覺得不安全。

to feeling physically unsafe.

Like the time at a bar in college

比如，大學時，有次在酒吧裡，

when a bouncer physically removed me by the back of the neck

有位保鏢從我脖子後面抓我，

and threw me out of a woman's restroom.

直接把我拖出女廁。

But for me, authenticity doesn't mean "comfortable."

但對我來說， 真實並不表示「舒服」。

It means managing and negotiating the discomfort of everyday life,

它意味著，要處理和協調 日常生活中的不舒服，

even at times when it's unsafe.

即使是在不安全的時候。

And it wasn't until my experience as a trans person

一直到我身為變性者的經驗

collided with my new identity as a parent

和我作為家長的新身份產生衝突時，

that I understood the depth of my vulnerabilities

我才知道我的脆弱有多深，

and how they are preventing me from being my most authentic self.

以及脆弱如何讓我無法 做最真實的自己。

Now, for most people, what their child will call them

對大部分人來說， 他們的孩子要如何稱呼他們，

is not something that they give much thought to

是不用多想的事情，

outside of culturally specific words

用文化上很明確的用詞即可， 或性別稱謂的其他同義詞，

or variations on a gendered theme like "mama," "mommy," or "daddy," "papa."

如「媽媽」、「媽咪」、 「爹地」、「爸爸」。

But for me, the possibility is what this child,

但對我來說， 這個孩子將來也會長大

who will grow to be a teenager and then a real-life adult,

成為青少年，成為成人，

而在我們接下來的生命中， 他會如何稱呼我，

will call me for the rest of our lives,

was both extremely scary and exciting.

非常讓人害怕，卻也讓人興奮。

And I spent nine months wrestling with the reality that being called "mama"

我花了九個月的時間， 為了「媽媽」這件事掙扎，

or something like it didn't feel like me at all.

類似這類的事， 讓我覺得完全不像自己。

不論我試過多少次， 換過多少版本的「媽媽」，

And no matter how many times or versions of "mom" I tried,

it always felt forced and deeply uncomfortable.

感覺就是很生硬， 且有種深深的不舒服。

I knew being called "mom" or "mommy" would be easier to digest for most people.

我知道對多數人，被稱為「媽媽」 或「媽咪」會比較容易消化。

The idea of having two moms is not super novel,

有兩個媽媽並不是非常新奇的事，

especially where we live.

特別是在我們住的地方。

So I tried other words.

所以，我試了其他的用詞。

And when I played around with "daddy," it felt better.

當我用「爹地」胡鬧著玩時， 感覺是比較好。

Better, but not perfect.

比較好，但不完美。

It felt like a pair of shoes that you really liked

感覺就像一雙你真的很喜歡的鞋子，

but you needed to wear and break in.

但你得穿它、適應它。

And I knew the idea of being a female-born person being called "daddy"

我知道因為我出生是女生， 要被稱為「爹地」

會是很艱辛的路， 且必然會有很多不舒服的時刻。

was going to be a harder road with a lot more uncomfortable moments.

But, before I knew it, the time had come

但是不知不覺間，時間就到了，

and Elliot came screaming into the world, like most babies do,

艾略特就像大部分的 寶寶一樣，呱呱落地，

and my new identity as a parent began.

而我身為家長的新身份就開始了。

I decided on becoming a daddy, and our new family faced the world.

我決定要當爹地， 我們的新家庭要面對這個世界。

Now one of the most common things that happens when people meet us

當大家遇到我們的時候， 最常發生的狀況是

is for people to "mom" me.

他們會稱我為「媽」。

And when I get "momed", there are several ways the interaction can go,

當我被稱為「媽」時， 接下來的互動會有幾種可能狀況，

我畫了張地圖協助說明我的選項。

and I've drawn this map to help illustrate my options.

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

So, option one is to ignore the assumption

選項一是無視這個假設，

and allow folks to continue to refer to me as "mom,"

讓大家繼續把我稱為「媽」，

which is not awkward for the other party,

這樣對方並不會覺得尷尬，

but is typically really awkward for us.

但尷尬的通常是我們。

And it usually causes me to restrict my interaction with those people.

且這會造成我沒那麼想和那些人互動。

Option one.

選項一。

Option two is to stop and correct them

選項二是停下來，指正他們，

and say something like,

說類似這樣的話：

"Actually, I'm Elliot's dad" or "Elliot calls me 'daddy.'"

「其實，我是艾略特的爸爸。」 或「艾略特稱我為『爹地』。」

And when I do this, one or two of the following things happen.

當我這麼做時， 下面的這些事有可能會發生。

Folks take it in stride and say something like, "Oh, OK."

對方從容應對，說：「喔，好。」

And move on.

就繼續聊下去。

Or they respond by apologizing profusely

或是他們會再三道歉，

because they feel bad or awkward or guilty or weird.

因為他們感覺很糟、 很尷尬、很罪惡，或很怪。

But more often, what happens is folks get really confused

但通常，會發生的是， 對方感到十分困惑，

and look up with an intense look and say something like,

表情會很緊繃， 接著說類似這樣的話：

"Does this mean you want to transition?

「這表示你想要變性嗎？

Do you want to be a man?"

你想要當男人？」

Or say things like,

或是說：

"How can she be a father?

「她怎麼能當父親？

Only men can be dads."

只有男人才能當爹地。」

Well, option one is oftentimes the easier route.

選項一通常是比較簡單的路。

Option two is always the more authentic one.

選項二是則向來都是比較真實的。

And all of these scenarios involve a level of discomfort,

以上所有情境， 都帶有一定程度的不舒服，

在最好的狀況下也一樣。

even in the best case.

And I'll say that over time, my ability to navigate this complicated map

隨著時間過去，我使用 這張複雜地圖找方向的能力

has gotten easier.

有變得比較容易。

But the discomfort is still there.

但仍然會有不舒服。

Now, I won't stand here and pretend

我不會站在這裡假裝

like I've mastered this, it's pretty far from it.

我已經精通了竅門，還遠得很。

And there are days when I still allow option one to take place

還是有些時候，我會讓選項一發生，

because option two is just too hard or too risky.

只因為選項二實在 太困難或太冒險了。

There's no way to be sure of anyone's reaction,

沒辦法確定任何人的反應會是什麼。

and I want to be sure that folks have good intentions,

而我想要確定大家有好的意圓，

that people are good.

大家是好人。

But we live in a world where someone's opinion of my existence

但在我們所居住的世界， 某些人對我的存在會有意見，

can be met with serious threats to me

這會對我造成嚴重的威脅，

or even my family's emotional or physical safety.

甚至會威脅到我家人的 情緒或實體安全，

So I weigh the costs against the risks

所以我權衡了風險和成本，

and sometimes the safety of my family comes before my own authenticity.

且有時我家人的安全比 我自己的真實性更重要。

But despite this risk,

但儘管有這樣的風險，

I know as Elliot gets older and grows into her consciousness and language skills,

我知道當艾略特長大些， 開始有意識且學會語言技巧之後，

if I don't correct people, she will.

若我不去指正別人，她也會去做。

I don't want my fears and insecurities to be placed on her,

我不希望我的恐懼和 不安全感被加諸在她身上，

to dampen her spirit or make her question her own voice.

讓她意志消沉，或是 讓她質疑她自己的聲音。

I need to model agency, authenticity and vulnerability,

我得要示範出能動性、 真實性，和脆弱性，

and that means leaning into those uncomfortable moments of being "momed"

而那就意味著要去接觸那些 被稱為「媽」的不舒服時刻，

and standing up and saying, "No, I'm a dad.

並站出來說：「不，我是爸爸。

And I even have the dad jokes to prove it."

我甚至會說爸爸笑話，可以當證明。」

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

Now, there have already been plenty of uncomfortable moments

我已經遇過了許多不舒服的時刻，

甚至有些痛苦的時刻。

and even some painful ones.

但在我當爸爸的這短短兩年中，

But there's also been, in just two short years,

也有許多讓我感到確認、 有時甚至感到轉變的時刻，

validating and at times transformative moments on my journey as a dad

and my path towards authenticity.

這是我邁向真實性的路。

When we got our first sonogram,

看到第一張超音波圖時，

we decided we wanted to know the sex of the baby.

我們決定想要知道寶寶的性別。

The technician saw a vulva and slapped the words "It's a girl"

技師看到陰部，把「是女孩」 這幾個字打在螢幕上，

on the screen and gave us a copy and sent us on our way.

給我們一份複本，就讓我們走了。

We shared the photo with our families like everyone does

就和一般人一樣， 我們把這照片和家人分享，

and soon after, my mom showed up at our house with a bag filled --

沒多久，我媽媽帶著一個袋子 來我們家，裝滿了──

I'm not exaggerating,

我沒誇飾，

it was like this high and it was filled, overflowing with pink clothes and toys.

它大概有這麼高，裝得滿滿的， 全是粉紅的衣服和玩具。

Now I was a little annoyed to be confronted with a lot of pink things,

面對一大堆粉紅色的東西， 其實讓我感到有點煩，

and having studied gender

我研究過性別，

and spent countless hours teaching about it in workshops and classrooms,

也在研討會和教室教性別， 投入無數個小時，

I thought I was pretty well versed on the social construction of gender

我以為我很了解性別的社會建構，

and how sexism is a devaluing of the feminine

以及性別主義如何貶低女性，

and how it manifests both explicitly and implicitly.

以及它用什麼方式顯現， 包括內在以及外在。

But this situation, this aversion to a bag full of pink stuff,

但在這個情況下， 對一大袋粉紅物品的反感，

forced me to explore my rejection of highly feminized things

迫使我去探究我 對於我孩子的世界中

in my child's world.

那些高度女性化的物品的排拒。

I realized that I was reinforcing sexism

我發現我反而是在增援那些我教學時

and the cultural norms I teach as problematic.

說有問題的事物： 性別主義以及文化標準。

No matter how much I believed in gender neutrality in theory,

不論我多麼相信理論上的性別中立，

in practice, the absence of femininity is not neutrality, it's masculinity.

在實際上，缺乏女性化並不是 表示中性，而是表示男性化。

If I only dress my baby in greens and blues and grays,

如果我只讓我的寶寶穿 綠色、藍色，以及灰色，

外在世界並不會認為：「喔， 那是個很可愛的性別中性寶寶。」

the outside world doesn't think, "Oh, that's a cute gender-neutral baby."

They think, "Oh, what a cute boy."

他們會想：「喔，好可愛的男孩。」

So my theoretical understanding of gender and my parenting world collided hard.

所以，我對於性別理論的了解 和我教養子女的世界用力地相撞。

Yes, I want a diversity of colors and toys for my child to experience.

是的，我希望我的孩子 能體驗到多樣化的顏色和玩具。

I want a balanced environment for her to explore

我希望她去探索的 是一個平衡的環境，

and make sense of in her own way.

讓她用自己的方式去理解。

We even picked a gender-neutral name for our female-born child.

我們甚至為出生為女性的孩子 挑了一個中性的名字。

But gender neutrality is much easier as a theoretical endeavor

但要做到性別中性， 在理論上比實際上容易得多。

than it is as a practice.

And in my attempts to create gender neutrality,

而在我試圖創造性別中性的過程中，

I was inadvertently privileging masculinity over femininity.

我不經意就會偏袒 男性化多於女性化。

So, rather than toning down or eliminating femininity in our lives,

所以，我們不是將我們生活中的 女性成份給降低或消除，

we make a concerted effort to celebrate it.

而是同心協力去讚頌它。

We have pinks among the variety of colors,

我們有各種顏色，當中也有粉紅色，

we balance out the cutes with handsomes

我們在可愛和帥氣間找到平衡，

and the prettys with strongs and smarts

在美麗和強壯與聰明間找到平衡，

and work really hard not to associate any words with gender.

並非常努力不要把 字詞和性別拉上關係。

We value femininity and masculinity

我們重視女性氣質以及男子氣概，

同時對此也非常吹毛求疵。

while also being highly critical of it.

And do our best to not make her feel limited by gender roles.

我們盡力不讓她覺得 會受到性別角色的限制。

And we do all this in hopes

我們做這一切的目的，

that we model a healthy and empowered relationship with gender for our kid.

是希望成為我們孩子的榜樣， 展現健康且有自主權的關係。

Now this work to develop a healthy relationship with gender for Elliot

為了艾略特，我們努力 與性別建立健康的關係，

made me rethink and evaluate how I allowed sexism to manifest

這麼做讓我重新思考 和評估我要如何讓性別主義

in my own gender identity.

在我自己的性別身分中呈現。

I began to reevaluate how I was rejecting femininity

我開始重新評估我如何抗拒女性特質，

in order to live up to a masculinity that was not healthy

只為了堅持不健康的男子氣概，

or something I wanted to pass on.

或是我想要傳遞的訊息。

Doing this self-work meant I had to reject option one.

進行這項自我功課 就意味著我得放棄選項一。

I couldn't ignore and move on.

我不能當作沒事就繼續下去。

I had to choose option two.

我得要選擇選項二。

I had to engage with some of my most uncomfortable parts

我得要面對一些 讓我覺得最不舒服的部分，

to move towards my most authentic self.

才能朝向我最真實的自己前進。

And that meant I had to get real about the discomfort I have with my body.

那就表示，我得要實際點， 面對我對我身體的不舒服。

It's pretty common for trans people to feel uncomfortable in their body,

對變性人來說，對自己的身體 感到不舒服是很常見的狀況。

and this discomfort can range from debilitating to annoying

這種不舒服， 從無力感到厭煩感都有，

and everywhere in between.

以及兩者間的範圍。

And learning my body and how to be comfortable in it as a trans person

了解我的身體及如何舒適地 處在其中，扮演變性人的角色，

has been a lifelong journey.

是一生的漫長旅程。

I've always struggled with the parts of my body

對於我身體上被定義為 比較女性化的部分，

that can be defined as more feminine --

總是讓我很掙扎──

my chest, my hips, my voice.

我的胸部、臀部、聲音。

And I've made the sometimes hard, sometimes easy decision

我做了個有時困難、有時簡單的決定，

to not take hormones or have any surgeries to change it

就是不要用賀爾蒙或手術來做改變，

to make myself more masculine by society's standards.

來讓我更符合社會的男性化標準。

And while I certainly haven't overcome all the feelings of dissatisfaction,

雖然我肯定還沒有 克服所有不滿的感受，

I realized that by not engaging with that discomfort

但我了解到，若不去面對那種不舒服

and coming to a positive and affirming place with my body,

並找到正面、肯定的方式 看待我的身體，

I was reinforcing sexism, transphobia and modeling body shaming.

反而是在助長性別主義、 跨性別恐懼症、以及示範身體羞辱。

If I hate my body,

如果我討厭我的身體，

in particular, the parts society deems feminine or female,

特別是被社會視為 陰柔或女性化的部分，

I potentially damage how my kid can see the possibilities of her body

我可能就會讓我的孩子 無法好好看見她的身體、

以及她陰柔或女性化的部分， 具有什麼樣的可能性。

and her feminine and female parts.

If I hate or am uncomfortable with my body,

如果我討厭我的身體 或對它感到不舒服，

我怎能期望我的孩子會愛她的身體？

how can I expect my kid to love hers?

Now it would be easier for me to choose option one:

對我來說，選擇選項一 是比較容易的：

to ignore my kid when she asks me about my body or to hide it from her.

若我的孩子問我關於我身體的問題， 不理會她或是對她隱瞞。

But I have to choose option two every day.

但我每天都得要選擇選項二。

I have to confront my own assumptions about what a dad's body can and should be.

我得正視我對於父親的身體可以 或應該是什麼樣子所做的假設。

So I work every day to try and be more comfortable in this body

所以我每天都努力嘗試， 對這具身體以及我的女性化表現

and in the ways I express femininity.

感到更舒適一些，

So I talk about it more,

所以我更常去談它，

I explore the depths of this discomfort

我更深入去探索這種不舒服，

and find language that I feel comfortable with.

並找到我覺得舒服的表達方式。

And this daily discomfort helps me build both agency and authenticity

這種日常的不舒服，協助我 針對如何呈現我的身體及

我的性別，建立能動性和真實性。

in how I show up in my body and in my gender.

I'm working against limiting myself.

我在努力不要限制我自己。

I want to show her that a dad can have hips,

我想要讓她知道， 爸爸也可以有臀部，

a dad doesn't have to have a perfectly flat chest

爸爸不一定要有非常平坦的胸部，

or even be able to grow facial hair.

甚至不用有鬍子。

And when she's developmentally able to,

當她發育夠成熟之後，

I want to talk to her about my journey with my body.

我想要和她談我身體的這段旅程。

I want her to see my journey towards authenticity

我想要她了解 我朝向真實性前進的旅程，

即使那意味著要 讓她看到比較糟的部分。

even when it means showing her the messier parts.

We have a wonderful pediatrician

我們有個很棒的小兒科醫生，

and have established a good relationship with our kid's doctor.

我們也和我們孩子的醫生 建立了很好的關係。

And as you all know, while your doctor stays the same,

你們都知道，雖然醫生是同一位，

your nurses and nurse practitioners change in and out.

但護士和執業護士的流動率很高。

And when Elliot was first born, we took her to the pediatrician

當艾略特剛出生時， 我們帶她去看小兒科醫生，

我們遇到了第一位護士── 我們叫她莎菈。

and we met our first nurse -- we'll call her Sarah.

Very early in in our time with Sarah,

在我們和莎菈互動的很早期，

we told her how I was going to be called "dad"

我們就告訴她我會被稱為「爸爸」，

and my partner is "mama."

我的另一半是「媽媽」。

Sarah was one of those folks that took it in stride,

莎菈是屬於那種從容接受的人，

and our subsequent visits went pretty smoothly.

我們後續的造訪就都很順利。

大約一年後，莎菈換班了，

And about a year later, Sarah switched shifts

我們開始要面對一個 新的護士──我們叫她貝琪。

and we started working with a new nurse -- we'll call her Becky.

We didn't get in front of the dad conversations

我們並沒有主動談爸爸的事，

and it didn't actually come up until Sarah, our original nurse,

直到有一次原本的護士莎菈 走進來打招呼時，

這個話題才被提起。

walked in to say hi.

莎菈很溫暖很活潑， 和艾略特、我，和我妻子說嗨，

Sarah's warm and bubbly and said hi to Elliot and me and my wife

and when talking to Elliot said something like,

她跟艾略特說了類似這樣的話：

"Is your daddy holding your toy?"

「你的爹地拿的是你的玩具嗎？」

Now out of the corner of my eye,

我從眼角餘光可以看到

I could see Becky swing around in her chair

坐著的貝琪突然轉向，

and make daggers at Sarah.

怒目看著莎菈。

And as the conversation shifted to our pediatrician,

當對談轉到小兒科醫生那邊時，

I saw Sarah and Becky's interaction continue, and it went something like this.

我看見莎菈和貝琪的互動持續著， 狀況類似這樣。

貝琪搖頭表示「不」， 嘴型說的是「媽媽」。

Becky, shaking her head "no" and mouthing the word "mom."

Sarah, shaking her head "no" and mouthing the word "no, dad."

莎菈搖頭表示「不」， 嘴型說的是「不，爸爸」。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

Awkward, right?

很尷尬，對吧？

So this went back and forth in total silence a few more times

這樣完全沉默地來來回回了幾次，

until we walked away.

直到我們離開。

Now, this interaction has stuck with me.

我無法忘懷這段互動。

Sarah could have chosen option one,

莎菈可以選擇選項一，

ignored Becky, and let her refer to me as mom.

不理會貝琪，就讓她稱為我媽媽。

It would have been easier for Sarah.

那對莎菈來說會比較容易。

She could have put the responsibility back on me or not said anything at all.

她本來應該把責任丟回來給我， 什麼都不用多說。

But in that moment, she chose option two.

但在那一刻，她選擇了選項二。

She chose to confront the assumptions and affirm my existence.

她選擇勇敢面對那樣的假設， 並肯定我的存在。

She insisted that a person who looks and sounds like me

她堅持看起來、聽起來 像我這樣的人，

其實是可以當爸爸的。

can in fact be a dad.

And in a small but meaningful way,

她以一種雖微小但有意義的方式

advocated for me, my authenticity and my family.

為我發聲，為我的 真實性和我的家庭發聲。

Unfortunately, we live in a world that refuses to acknowledge trans people

不幸的是，我們所居住的 世界拒絕承認變性人

and the diversity of trans people in general.

一般來說， 也拒絕承認變性人的多樣性。

And my hope is that when confronted with an opportunity

我的願望是，當遇到可以為他人

to stand up for someone else,

站出來的機會時，

我們都能像莎菈一樣 採取行動，即使會有風險。

we all take action like Sarah, even when there's risk involved.

So some days, the risk of being a genderqueer dad feels too much.

有些時候，身為性別酷兒 爸爸的風險讓我難以承受。

And deciding to be a dad has been really hard.

決定要當爸爸也是一件很困難的事。

And I'm sure it will continue to be the hardest,

我相信這決定也會一直是最困難的，

yet the most rewarding experience of my life.

但這卻會是我人生中最有報酬的經驗。

But despite this challenge, every day has felt 100 percent worth it.

儘管很有挑戰，我仍然 覺得每天都 100% 值得。

So each day I affirm my promise to Elliot

所以，每天我對艾略特做出承諾，

and that same promise to myself.

也正是我對我自己的承諾。

To love her and myself hard

要努力去愛她以及愛我自己，

with forgiveness and compassion,

帶著寬恕和同理心，

with tough love and with generosity.

帶著嚴厲的愛以及慷慨。

To give room for growth, to push beyond comfort

給予成長的空間，走出舒適圈，

in hopes of attaining and living a more meaningful life.

希望能夠達成並過著更有意義的人生。

I know in my head and in my heart

我的大腦和我的心都知道，

that there are hard and painful and uncomfortable days ahead.

未來還有困難、痛苦、 不舒服的日子在等著。

My head and my heart also know

我的大腦和我的心也知道，

that all of it will lead to a more rich, authentic life

這一切終將會引我們 到更豐富、更真實的人生，

that I can look back on without regrets.

讓我回頭看時，也不會有遺憾。

Thank you.

謝謝。

(Applause)

（掌聲）