Dena Simmons: How students of color confront impostor syndrome | TED

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Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Camille Martínez
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翻译人员: Tong Li 校对人员: Wenyu Liu
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So, my journey began in the Bronx, New York,
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我的旅程从纽约市的布朗克斯区开始,
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in a one-bedroom apartment,
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在一个一居室公寓里,
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with my two sisters and immigrant mother.
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和我的两个妹妹 还有移民而来的母亲住在一起。
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I loved our neighborhood.
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我爱我们的社区。
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It was lively.
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它充满生气。
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There was all this merengue blasting,
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总会有人跳梅伦格舞,热闹极了,
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neighbors socializing on building stoops
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街坊邻里在门外的台阶上聊天,
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and animated conversations over domino playing.
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一边玩儿多米诺骨牌一边兴致勃勃地讨论。
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It was home,
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那是家,
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and it was sweet.
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很亲切。
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But it wasn't simple.
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但事情也并不简单。
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In fact, everyone at school knew the block where we lived,
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事实上,学校里每个人 都知道我们住的那个街区,
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because it was where people came to buy weed and other drugs.
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因为人们在那儿 购买大麻和其他毒品。
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And with drug-dealing comes conflict,
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伴随毒品交易的还有打架斗殴,
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so we often went to sleep to the sound of gunshots.
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所以我们常常在枪声中入眠。
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I spent much of my childhood worried,
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我大部分的童年 是在担惊受怕中度过的,
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worried about our safety.
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担心我们的安全。
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And so did our mother.
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我们的妈妈也是这样。
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She worried that the violence we witnessed would overtake our lives;
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她担心我们目睹的暴力 会影响我们的生活;
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that our poverty meant
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担心贫穷
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that the neighbors with whom we lived and shared space
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会让和我们住在同一区的邻居
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would harm us.
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伤害我们。
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Our entire life was in the Bronx,
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我们之前全部的生活都在布朗克斯区,
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but my mother's anxiety spurred her into action,
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但是我妈妈的焦虑促使她采取了行动,
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and soon we were driving so fast to Connecticut --
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不久我们就开车 飞奔到了康涅狄格州——
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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to boarding school campuses, with full scholarships in tow.
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去了寄宿学校, 还拿到了全额奖学金。
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Man, don't underestimate the power of a mother
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嘿,当一个母亲下定决心保护孩子安全的时候,
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determined to keep her children safe.
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永远不要低估她的力量。
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(Cheers)
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(欢呼)
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(Applause)
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(掌声)
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At boarding school,
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在寄宿学校,
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for the first time,
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第一次,
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I was able to sleep without worry.
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我可以安心入睡。
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I could leave my dorm room unlocked,
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我可以不锁宿舍的门,
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walk barefoot in the grass,
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赤脚走在草地上,
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and look up to see a night sky full of stars.
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仰望繁星璀璨的夜空。
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Happy novelties.
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这些都是令人欢欣的新鲜事。
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But there were other novelties as well.
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但是还有其他的“新鲜事”。
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Very quickly, I felt like I didn't belong.
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很快,我觉得自己格格不入。
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I learned that I didn't speak the right way,
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我意识到我说话的方式不对,
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and to demonstrate the proper ways of speaking,
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为了给我示范正确的说话方式,
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my teachers gave me frequent lessons, in public,
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我的老师经常在公共场合给我“指导”,
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on the appropriate way to enunciate certain words.
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教我如何正确吐字。
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A teacher once instructed me in the hallway:
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有一次一个老师在走廊里指点我说:
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"Aaaaaas-king."
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“Aaaaaas-king。”
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She said this loudly.
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她大声地说。
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"Dena, it's not 'axing,' like you're running around with an axe.
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“德娜,不是‘axing’, 那样说就好像你拿了把斧子到处跑一样。
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That's silly."
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你那么说很傻。”
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Now at this point, you can imagine the snickers of my classmates,
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此时此刻,你们可以想象 我的同学们在暗中窃笑,
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but she continued:
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但是她还接着说:
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"Think about breaking the word into 'ass' and 'king,'
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“想想把这个单词分成‘ass’和‘king’, (译注:ass有屁股、笨蛋之意)
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and then put the two together to say it correctly --
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然后再把两个合到一起 准确地念出来——
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'Asking.'"
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‘Asking’ 。”
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There were some other moments that reminded me that I didn't belong.
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还有一些其他的时候 我觉得我不属于那里。
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Once, I walked into a classmate's dorm room,
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有一次,我走到一个同学的宿舍,
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and I watched her watch her valuables around me.
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发现她盯着我周围属于她的东西
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Like, why would she do that? I thought to myself.
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她为什么那样做? 我这样问自己。
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And then there was the time
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还有一次
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when another classmate walked into my dorm room,
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另一个同学来我的宿舍,
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and yelled, "Ew!" as I was applying hair grease to my scalp.
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喊道,“诶哟喂!” 当时我正在往头皮上抹发乳。
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There is emotional damage done when young people can't be themselves,
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当年轻人们不能做自己
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when they are forced to edit who they are in order to be acceptable.
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却为了被别人接纳而被迫改变自己的时候, 是会有情绪伤害的。
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It's a kind of violence.
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那是一种暴力。
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Ultimately, I'm a quintessential success story.
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最终,我成了一个成功故事的典范。
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I attended boarding school and college in New England,
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我读上了新英格兰的寄宿高中和大学,
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studied abroad in Chile
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去智利留过学,
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and returned to the Bronx to be a middle school teacher.
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回到布朗克斯区, 成为了一名中学老师。
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I received a Truman Scholarship,
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我得过杜鲁门奖学金,
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a Fulbright and a Soros Fellowship.
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福布莱特奖学金和索罗斯奖学金。
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And I could list more.
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我还可以列出来更多。
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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But I won't.
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但我不会。
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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I earned my doctorate at Columbia University.
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我在哥伦比亚大学获得了博士学位。
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(Cheers)
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(欢呼)
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(Applause)
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(掌声)
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And then I landed a job at Yale.
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接着我在耶鲁找到了一份工作。
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(Applause)
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(掌声)
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I am proud of everything that I've been able to accomplish
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我为我迄今为止 在旅程中所取得的这些成就
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on my journey thus far.
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而感到骄傲。
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I have eternal imposter syndrome.
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但我患有长期的“冒名顶替症候群”。
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Either I've been invited because I'm a token,
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我觉得我被邀请,或是因为我是个代表性人物,
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which really isn't about me,
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但这和我个人没有什么关系,
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but rather, about a box someone needed to check off.
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而是需要有我这样的(有色)人种到场。
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Or, I am exceptional,
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又或者,我是个特例,
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which means I've had to leave the people I love behind.
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就是说,我不得不把我爱的人们甩在后面。
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It's the price that I and so many others pay for learning while black.
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这就是身为黑人的我和其他黑人 为学习而付出的代价。
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(Applause)
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(掌声)
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I police myself all the time.
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我一直自我监督。
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Are my pants too tight?
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我的裤子是不是太紧了?
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Should I wear my hair up or in a fro?
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我是应该把头发扎起来 还是扎短的小卷发。
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Should I speak up for myself,
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我应该为自己发声吗,
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or will the power of my words be reduced to: "She's angry"?
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不过我的语气会不会被人认为 “她生气了?”
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Why did I have to leave the Bronx
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为什么我必须离开布朗克斯区
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to gain access to a better education?
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去接受更好的教育?
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And why, in the process of getting that better education,
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在接受更好的教育的过程中,
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did I have to endure the trauma of erasing what made me, me --
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为什么我一定要忍受痛苦?
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a black girl from the Bronx, raised by an Antiguan mother?
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一个被安提瓜母亲养育的 来自布朗克斯区的黑人女孩,这就是我啊。
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So when I think about our current education reform initiatives,
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所以当我想到 我们当今的教育改革,
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I can't help asking:
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我不禁要问:
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What are our students of color learning about themselves?
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我们的有色人种学生学到了 关于他们自己的什么?
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Three -- three decades of research reveal
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三十年的调查研究显示
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that students of color are suspended and expelled
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有色人种的学生被停课 和开除的概率
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at a rate three times greater than white students,
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比白人学生高出三倍多,
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and are punished in harsher ways for the same infractions.
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并且在违反相同规定时 有色人种的学生会受到更严厉的惩罚。
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They also learn this through the absence of their lives and narratives
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课本中缺少关于他们的生活叙述,
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in the curricula.
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也让他们意识到了这一点。
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The Cooperative Children's Book Center did a review of nearly 4,000 books
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儿童读物合作中心对近四千本书进行了评估,
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and found that only three percent were about African-Americans.
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发现只有百分之三 是关于非裔美国人的。
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And they further learn this
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他们发现和自己一样的老师也很少
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through the lack of teachers that look like them.
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这也印证了他们的想法。
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An analysis of data
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来自国家教育统计中心的
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from the National Center for Education Statistics
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一项数据分析显示
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found that 45 percent of our nation's pre-K to high school students
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在我们国家从学前班到高中
有色人种的学生 占百分之四十五,
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were people of color,
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while only 17 percent of our teachers are.
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而有色人种老师 仅占百分之十七。
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Our youth of color pay a profound price
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有色人种的青年 付出的代价很高
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when their schooling sends them the message
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当他们接受的教育 传达给他们这样的信息:
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that they must be controlled,
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他们必须被约束,
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that they must leave their identities at home
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而且他们只能在家里做自己,
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in order to be successful.
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只有这样才能成功。
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Every child deserves an education
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每个孩子都理应接受教育
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that guarantees the safety to learn
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接受那种保证他们学习的安全
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in the comfort of one's own skin.
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并且不为他们自己的肤色觉得羞耻的教育。
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(Applause)
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(掌声)
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It is possible to create emotionally and physically safe classrooms
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创造出情感和身体上安全的 课堂是有可能的,
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where students also thrive academically.
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学生们在这样的课堂里 茁壮成长,学有所成。
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I know, because I did it in my classroom
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我知道,因为在我回到 布朗克斯区教书时,
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when I returned to teach in the Bronx.
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我在我的课堂就是这么做的。
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So what did that look like?
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所以那是怎么样的情景?
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I centered my instruction
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我的教育围绕着
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on the lives, histories and identities of my students.
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我的学生们的生命、历史和身份展开。
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And I did all of this because I wanted my students to know
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我这样做,是因为 我想让我的学生们知道
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that everyone around them was supporting them
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他们周围的每个人都支持他们
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to be their best self.
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支持他们去做最好的自己。
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So while I could not control the instability of their homes,
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因此虽然我无法确保他们的家庭是否稳定,
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the uncertainty of their next meal,
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他们的下一餐能否确定,
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or the loud neighbors that kept them from sleep,
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也无法控制让他们无法入睡的吵闹的邻居。
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I provided them with a loving classroom
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但是我可以给他们一个 充满爱的课堂,
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that made them feel proud of who they are,
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使他们为自己的身份感到自豪,
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that made them know that they mattered.
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这让他们知道自己是重要的。
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You know,
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你知道吗,
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every time I hear or say the word "asking,"
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每次我听到或说出 “asking”这个单词时,
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I am in high school again.
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我就感觉我又回到高中了。
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I am thinking about "ass" and "king"
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我就想到“ass”和“king”,
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and putting the two together so that I speak in a way
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把这两个单词组合到一起,
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where someone in power will want to listen.
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通过这种说话方式, 有权力的人才会想听我讲话。
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There is a better way,
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但有更好的方式,
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one that doesn't force kids of color into a double bind;
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这种方式不会让 有色人种的孩子进退两难;
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a way for them to preserve their ties
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这种方式能使他们
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to their families, homes and communities;
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和自己的家人、家庭 以及群体保持联系;
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a way that teaches them to trust their instincts
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这种方式才能让他们相信自己的直觉
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and to have faith in their own creative genius.
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并对他们自己的天才创造力充满信心。
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Thank you.
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谢谢大家。
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(Applause)
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(掌声)
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