Embrace your raw, strange magic | Casey Gerald

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My mother called this summer to stage an intervention.

Letos me je majka nazvala kako bi intervenisala.

She'd come across a few snippets of my memoir,

Naletela je na nekoliko odlomaka iz mojih memoara,

which wasn't even out yet,

koji još uvek nisu bili objavljeni,

and she was concerned.

i bila je zabrinuta.

It wasn't the sex.

Nije se radilo o seksu.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

It was the language that disturbed her.

Jezik ju je uznemirio.

For example:

Na primer:

"I have been so many things

„Bio sam toliko toga

along my curious journey:

tokom mog neobičnog putovanja:

a poor boy, a nigger,

siromašni dečak, crnčuga,

a Yale man, a Harvard man,

čovek sa Jejla, čovek sa Harvarda,

a faggot, a Christian,

peder, hrišćanin,

a crack baby, alleged,

dete ovisnice o kreku, navodno,

the spawn of Satan, the Second Coming,

potomak Satane, drugi Hristov dolazak,

Casey."

Kejsi.“

That's just page six.

To je tek šesta strana.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

So you may understand my mother's worry.

Pa možete da razumete majčinu zabrinutost.

But she wanted only to make one small change.

Međutim, htela je samo da unese jednu malu ispravku.

So she called, and she began,

Pa je nazvala i otpočela je:

"Hey, you are a man.

„Hej, ti si čovek.

You're not a faggot, you're not a punk,

Nisi peder, nisi propalica,

and let me tell you the difference.

i dozvoli da ti kažem razliku.

You are prominent. You are intelligent.

Ti si ugledan. Ti si inteligentan.

You dress well. You know how to speak.

Oblačiš se lepo. Znaš da se izražavaš.

People like you.

Sviđaš se ljudima.

You don't walk around doing your hand like a punk.

Ne šetaš okolo sa ispruženom rukom kao propalica.

You're not a vagabond on the street.

Nisi ulična skitnica.

You are an upstanding person

Ti si cenjena osoba

who just happens to be gay.

koja je igrom slučaja gej.

Don't put yourself over there

Ne smeštaj sebe tamo

when you are over here."

kada ti je mesto ovde.“

She thought she'd done me a favor,

Mislila je da mi je učinila uslugu,

and in a way, she had.

a na neki način i jeste.

Her call clarified what I am trying to do with my life

Njen poziv je razjasnio ono što pokušavam da učinim u životu

and in my work as a writer,

i u svom poslu kao pisac,

which is to send one simple message:

a to je da pošaljem jednu prostu poruku:

the way we're taught to live has got to change.

način na koji smo naučili da živimo mora da se promeni.

I learned this the hard way.

Naučio sam ovo na teži način.

I was born not on the wrong side of the tracks,

Nisam rođen na pogrešnom koloseku,

but on the wrong side of a whole river,

već skroz na pogrešnoj strani reke

the Trinity, down in Oak Cliff, Texas.

Triniti, dole u Oak Klifu u Teksasu.

I was raised there in part by my grandmother

Tu su me podigli naizmenično moja baka,

who worked as a domestic,

koja je radila kao kućna pomoćnica,

and by my sister,

i moja sestra,

who adopted me a few years after our mother,

koja me je usvojila nekoliko godina nakon što je naša majka,

who struggled with mental illness,

koja je bolovala od mentalne bolesti,

disappeared.

nestala.

And it was that disappearance,

A taj nestanak,

that began when I was 13 and lasted for five years,

koji je počeo kad mi je bilo 13 godina i trajao je pet godina,

that shaped the person I became,

oblikovao me je u osobu koja sam postao,

the person I later had to unbecome.

osobu koja sam kasnije morao da prestanem da budem.

Before she left, my mother had been my human hiding place.

Pre nego što je otišla, moja majka je bila moje ljudsko skrovište.

She was the only other person who seemed as strange as me,

Bila je jedina druga osoba koja se činila jednako neobičnom kao ja,

beautifully strange,

prelepo neobičnom,

some mix of Blanche DuBois from "A Streetcar Named Desire"

nekakav spoj Blanš Duboa iz „Tramvaja zvanog čežnja“

and a 1980s Whitney Houston.

i Vitni Hjuston iz 1980-ih.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I'm not saying she was perfect,

Ne kažem da je bila savršena,

just that I sure benefited from her imperfections.

već da sam zasigurno imao koristi od njenih nesavršenosti.

And maybe that's what magic is, after all:

A možda je, naposletku, baš u tome čarolija:

a useful mistake.

u korisnoj grešci.

So when she began to disappear for days at a time,

Pa kad je počela da nestaje, ponekad danima,

I turned to some magic of my own.

okrenuo sam se nekakvoj sopstvenoj čaroliji.

It struck me, as from above,

Sinulo mi je, kao iz neba,

that I could conjure up my mother just by walking perfectly

da mogu da prizovem moju majku prosto hodajući savršeno

from my elementary school at the top of a steep hill

od moje osnovne škole na vrhu strmog brda,

all the way down to my grandmother's house,

pa skroz dole do bakine kuće,

placing one foot, and one foot only, in each sidewalk square.

smeštajući jedno stopalo,

i to samo jedno stopalo u svaki kvadrat na trotoaru.

I couldn't let any part of any foot touch the line between the square,

Nisam dozvoljavao deliću ijednog stopala da dotakne liniju između kvadrata,

I couldn't skip a square,

nisam smeo da preskočim kvadrat,

all the way to the last square at the last blade of grass

sve do poslednjeg kvadrata kod poslednje vlati trave

that separated our lawn from our driveway.

koja je razdvajala naš travnjak od ulaza u dvorište.

And I bullshit you not, it worked --

I ne zezam vas, delovalo je -

just once though.

iako samo jednom.

But if my perfect walk could not bring my mother back,

Međutim, ako moj savršeni hod nije mogao da vrati moju majku,

I found that this approach had other uses.

otkrio sam da ovaj pristup ima druge primene.

I found that everyone else in charge around me

Otkrio sam da svi ostali autoriteti oko mene

loved nothing more than perfection,

vole jedino savršenstvo,

obedience, submission.

poslušnost, pokornost.

Or at least if I submitted, they wouldn't bother me too much.

Ili će me bar, ako se potčinim, manje uznemiravati.

So I took a bargain

Pa sam prihvatio pogodbu

that I'd later see in a prison, a Stasi prison in Berlin,

koju ću kasnije da vidim u zatvoru, Štazijinom zatvoru u Berlinu,

on a sign that read,

na znaku na kom je pisalo:

"He who adapts can live tolerably."

„Onaj ko se prilagodi može da živi podnošljivo.“

It was a bargain that helped ensure

Bila je to pogodba koja je obezbeđivala

I had a place to stay and food to eat;

da imam smeštaj i hranu;

a bargain that won me praise of teachers and kin, strangers;

pogodba koja mi je donela pohvale nastavnika i rodbine, stranaca;

a bargain that paid off big time, it seemed,

pogodba koja se isplatila uveliko, kako se činilo,

when one day at 17, a man from Yale showed up at my high school to recruit me

kada se jednog dana u mojoj 17. godini čovek sa Jejla pojavio

u mojoj srednjoj školi da me vrbuje za fudbalsku ekipu sa Jejla.

for Yale's football team.

It felt as out of the blue to me then as it may to you now.

Činilo mi se tada neočekivanim kao što se možda sada čini vama.

The Yale man said -- everybody said --

Čovek sa Jejla je rekao - svi su rekli -

that this was the best thing that could ever happen to me,

da je to nešto najbolje što je moglo da mi se desi,

the best thing that could happen to the whole community.

nešto najbolje što je moglo da se desi čitavoj zajednici.

"Take this ticket, boy," they told me.

„Uzmi ovu ulaznicu, dečače“, rekli su mi.

I was not so sure.

Nisam bio baš siguran.

Yale seemed another world entire:

Jejl se činio kao potpuno drugi svet:

a cold, foreign, hostile place.

hladno, strano, neprijateljsko mesto.

On the first day of my recruiting visit,

Prvog dana moje regruterske posete,

I texted my sister an excuse for not going.

poslao sam poruku sestri kao izgovor što mi se nije išlo.

"These people are so weird."

„Ovi ljudi su tako čudni.“

She replied, "You'll fit right in."

Odgovorila je: „Savršeno ćeš se uklopiti.“

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I took the ticket

Prihvatio sam ulaznicu

and worked damn hard to fit right in.

i prokleto se silno trudio da se uklopim.

When my freshman advisor warned me not to wear my fitted hats on campus ...

Kada me je moja savetnica za brucoše upozorila da ne nosim kačkete na kampusu:

"You're at Yale now. You don't have to do that anymore," she said.

„Sada si na Jejlu. Ne moraš više to da radiš“, rekla je.

I figured, this was just one of the small prices

Mislio sam kako je ovo tek jedna od manjih cena

that must be paid to make it.

koja mora da se plati zarad uspeha.

I paid them all, or tried,

Sve sam ih platio, ili sam pokušao,

and sure enough they seemed to pay me back:

i veoma brzo su počele, kako se činilo, da mi uzvraćaju:

made me a leader on the varsity football team;

postao sam vođa prve fudbalske ekipe;

got me into a not-so-secret society

upao sam u ne tako tajno društvo

and a job on Wall Street, and later in Washington.

i dobio posao na Vol stritu, a kasnije u Vašingtonu.

Things were going so well that I figured naturally

Stvari su tako dobro išle da sam prirodno smatrao

I should be President of the United States.

da bi trebalo da budem predsednik SAD-a.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But since I was only 24

Međutim, kako su mi bile tek 24 godine,

and since even presidents have to start somewhere,

a kako čak i predsednici moraju da počnu negde,

I settled instead on a run for Congress.

umesto toga sam se zadovoljio kandidaturom za kongres.

Now, this was in the afterglow of that great 2008 election:

Sad, ovo je bilo nakon velikih izbora iz 2008,

the election during which a serious, moderate senator stressed,

izbora tokom kojih je ozbiljni, umereni senator naglasio:

"The message you've got to send more than any other message

„Poruka koju morate da pošaljete više od bilo koje druge poruke

is that Barack Obama is just like us."

je da je Barak Obama isti kao mi.“

They sent that message so well

Toliko dobro su poslali tu poruku

that their campaign became the gold standard of modern politics,

da je njihova kampanja postala zlatni standard savremene politike,

if not modern life, which also seems to demand

ako ne i savremenog života koji, kako se čini, takođe zahteva

that we each do whatever it takes to be able to say at the end of our days

da svi mi uradimo šta god je potrebno da bismo mogli reći na kraju naših dana,

with peace and satisfaction, "I was just like everybody else."

pomireni i sa zadovoljstvom: „Bio sam isti kao i svi drugi.“

And this would be my message, too.

A to bi bila i moja poruka.

So one night, I made one final call to my prospective campaign manager.

Pa sam jedne noći obavio poslednji poziv sa mojim uvaženim menadžerom kampanje.

We'd do the things it'd take to win, but first he had one question:

Uradićemo što je potrebno da pobedimo, ali prvo je imao jedno pitanje:

"Is there anything I need to know?"

„Ima li nešto što bi trebalo da znam?“

I held the phone and finally said,

Držao sam telefon i naposletku rekao:

"Well, you should probably know I'm gay."

„Pa, verovatno bi trebalo da znaš da sam gej.“

Silence.

Tišina.

"Hmm. I see," he nearly whispered,

„Hmm. Razumem“, skoro da je prošaputao,

as if he'd found a shiny penny or a dead baby bird.

kao da je pronašao blistavi novčić ili mrtvu ptičicu.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

"I'm glad you told me," he continued.

„Drago mi je što si mi rekao“, nastavio je.

"You definitely didn't make my job any easier.

„Definitivno mi nisi olakšao posao.

I mean, you are in Texas.

Mislim, u Teksasu si.

But it's not impossible, not impossible.

Međutim, nije nemoguće, nije nemoguće.

But Casey, let me ask you something:

Kejsi, dozvoli da te nešto pitam:

How are you going to feel when somebody, say, at a rally, calls you a faggot?

kako ćeš da se osećaš kada te neko, recimo na mitingu, nazove pederom?

And let's be real, OK?

I budimo realni, u redu?

You do understand that somebody might want to physically harm you.

Razumeš da će neko možda želeti da te fizički povredi.

I just want to know:

Samo želim da znam:

Are you really ready for this?"

da li si stvarno spreman za ovo?“

I wasn't.

Nisam bio.

And I could not understand --

I nisam mogao da razumem -

could hardly breathe

jedva sam mogao da dišem,

or think, or say a word.

razmišljam ili progovorim.

But to be clear: the boy that I was at that time

Da pojasnim: dečak koji sam tad bio

would have leapt at the chance to be harmed,

bi se zaleteo na priliku da bude povređen,

to sacrifice everything, even life, for a cause.

da žrtvuje sve, čak i život, zarad cilja.

There was something shocking, though --

Bilo je tu nešto šokantno, ipak -

not that there should have been, but there was --

ne znači da je trebalo da bude, ali bilo je -

in the notion that he might be harmed for nothing more than being himself,

u pomisli da bi mogao da bude povređen samo zbog toga što je to što jeste,

which he had not even tried to do in the first place.

a što prvenstveno nije ni pokušavao da bude.

All that he -- all that I --

Sve što je on - sve što sam ja -

had tried to do and be was what I thought was asked of me.

pokušavao da budem i što sam bio je bilo ono što sam smatrao da se traži od mene.

I was prominent for a 24-year-old:

Bio sam ugledan za 24-godišnjaka:

intelligent, I spoke well, dressed decent; I was an upstanding citizen.

inteligentan, lepo sam se izražavao, pristojno odevao; bio sam uzoran građanin.

But the bargain I had accepted could not save me after all,

Međutim, pogodba koju sam prihvatio ipak nije mogla da me spasi,

nor can it save you.

a ne može da spasi ni vas.

You may have already learned this lesson,

Možda ste već naučili ovu lekciju

or you will, regardless of your sexuality.

ili ćete naučiti, bez obzira na vašu seksualnost.

The queer receives a concentrated dose, no doubt,

Kvir pojedinci dobijaju koncentrisanu dozu, nesumnjivo,

but repression is a bitter pill that's offered to us all.

ali represija je gorka tableta koju nude svima nama.

We're taught to hide so many parts of who we are and what we've been through:

Naučeni smo da skrivamo toliko delova nas samih i onog kroz šta smo prošli:

our love, our pain, for some, our faith.

našu ljubav, naš bol, neki i našu veru.

So while coming out to the world can be hard,

Iako razotkrivanje pred svetom može da bude teško,

coming in to all the raw, strange magic of ourselves can be much harder.

zadiranje u sirovu, čudnovatu čaroliju nas samih može da bude još teže.

As Miles Davis said, "It takes a long time to sound like yourself."

Kao što je Majls Dejvis govorio: "Potrebno je dugo vremena da zazvučite kao vi."

That surely was the case for me.

To je zasigurno bio moj slučaj.

I had my private revelation that night at 24,

Imao sam lično prosvetljenje te noći sa 24 godine,

but mostly went on with my life.

ali sam uglavnom nastavio dalje sa životom.

I went on to Harvard Business School, started a successful nonprofit,

Krenuo sam na Poslovnu školu na Harvardu, osnovao uspešnu neprofitnu organizaciju,

wound up on the cover of a magazine, on the stage at TED.

završio na naslovnici časopisa, na sceni TED-a.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I had achieved, by my late 20s,

Postigao sam do kasnih dvadesetih

about everything a kid is supposed to achieve.

otprilike sve što bi klinac trebalo da ostvari.

But I was real cracked up:

Međutim, zaista sam se slamao.

not exactly having a nervous breakdown, but not too far off,

Nisam baš imao nervni slom, ali nisam ni bio predaleko od toga,

and awful sad either way.

i svakako sam bio veoma tužan.

I had never thought of being a writer,

Nikad nisam pomišljao da postanem pisac,

didn't even read, in earnest, until I was nearly 23.

nisam čak ni previše čitao, sve do svoje skoro 23. godine.

But the book business is about the only industry

Međutim, knjižarstvo je otprilike jedina industrija

that will pay you to investigate your own problems, so --

koja vam plaća da istražujete sopstvene probleme, pa -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

So I decided to give it a try,

Pa sam odlučio da se okušam,

to trace those cracks with words.

da pokušam rečima da opišem te pukotine.

Now, what came out on the page was about as strange as I felt at that time,

Sad, ono što je izašlo na papir je bilo čudno kao i moja osećanja tada,

which alarmed some people at first.

a to je u početku uznemirilo neke ljude.

A respected writer called to stage his own intervention

Jedan uvaženi pisac me je nazvao kako bi i sam intervenisao

after reading a few early chapters,

nakon što je pročitao nekoliko prvih poglavlja

and he began, much like my mother,

i otpočeo je, baš poput moje majke:

"Hey, listen.

„Hej, slušaj.

You've been hired to write an autobiography.

Angažovan si da napišeš autobiografiju.

It's a straightforward exercise.

To je jednostavna vežba.

It's got a beginning, middle and end,

Ima početak, sredinu i kraj,

and is grounded in the facts of your life.

i zasnovana je na činjenicama iz tvog života.

And by the way, there's a great tradition of autobiography in this country,

I usput, imamo značajnu tradiciju autobiografskog pisanja u našoj državi,

led by people on the margins of society who write to assert their existence.

predvođenu ljudima sa margina društva koji pišu da bi istakli svoje postojanje.

Go buy some of those books and learn from them.

Kupi neke od tih knjiga i uči od njih.

You're going in the wrong direction."

Ideš u pogrešnom smeru.“

But I no longer believed what we are taught --

Međutim, više nisam verovao u ono čemu su nas podučavali -

that the right direction is the safe direction.

da je pravi smer bezbedan smer.

I no longer believed what we are taught --

Više nisam verovao čemu su nas podučavali -

that queer lives or black lives or poor lives are marginal lives.

da su životi kvir ljudi ili crnaca ili siromašnih marginalni životi.

I believed what Kendrick Lamar says on "Section.80.":

Verovao sam u ono što Kendrik Lamar kaže u pesmi „Section.80“:

"I'm not on the outside looking in.

„Ne gledam spolja ka unutra.

I'm not on the inside looking out.

Ne gledam iznutra ka spolja.

I'm in the dead fucking center looking around."

Tačno sam u jebenom središtu i osvrćem se okolo.“

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

That was the place

To je bilo mesto

from which I hoped to work,

sa kog sam se nadao da ću da delam,

headed in the only direction worth going, the direction of myself,

zapućen u jedinom pravcu u kom se vredi kretati, u pravcu sebe,

trying to help us all refuse the awful bargains

pokušavajući da pomognem svima nama da odbacimo užasnu pogodbu

we've been taught to take.

koju smo naučili da prihvatamo.

We're taught to turn ourselves

Naučeni smo da pretvorimo sebe

and our work into little nuggets that are easily digestible;

i svoja dela u sićušne zalogaje koje je lako svariti;

taught to mutilate ourselves so that we make sense to others,

naučeni smo da se sakatimo kako bismo imali smisla drugima,

to be a stranger to ourselves so the right people might befriend us

da budemo stranci sebi samima kako bi smo se sprijateljili s pravim ljudima

and the right schools might accept us, and the right jobs might hire us,

i kako bi nas prave škole primile

i da bismo se zaposlili na pravim poslovima,

and the right parties might invite us,

i kako bi nas pozvali na prave žurke,

and, someday, the right God might invite us to the right heaven

i kako bi nas, jednog dana, pravi bog pozvao u pravi raj

and close his pearly gates behind us,

i zatvorio svoja biserna vrata za nama,

so we can bow down to Him forever and ever.

kako bismo mogli da mu se klanjamo na vek vekova.

These are the rewards, they say,

Ovo su nagrade, kažu,

for our obedience:

za našu poslušnost:

to be a well-liked holy nugget,

da postanete uvaženi sveti zalogaj,

to be dead.

da budete mrtvi.

And I say in return, "No, thank you."

A ja kažem na to: „Ne, hvala.“

To the world and to my mother.

Svetu i mojoj majci.

Well, to tell you the truth,

Pa, da budem iskren,

all I said was, "OK, Mom, I'll talk to you later."

samo sam rekao: „U redu, mama, pričaćemo kasnije.“

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But in my mind, I said, "No, thank you."

Međutim, u sebi sam rekao: „Ne, hvala.“

I cannot accept her bargain either.

Ne mogu ni njenu pogodbu da prihvatim.

Nor should you.

A ne treba ni vi.

It would be easy for many of us in rooms like this

Bilo bi lako za mnoge od nas u prostorijama poput ove

to see ourselves as safe,

da na sebe gledamo kao da smo na bezbednom,

to keep ourselves over here.

da se držimo tu.

We speak well, we dress decent,

Lepo se izražavamo, pristojno odevamo,

we're intelligent, people like us, or act like they do.

inteligentni smo, sviđamo se ljudima, ili se oni ponašaju kao da im se sviđamo.

But instead, I say that we should remember Lot's wife.

Međutim, umesto toga, tvrdim da bi trebalo da se setimo Lotove žene.

Jesus of Nazareth said it first to his disciples:

Isus iz Nazareta je to prvo rekao svojim učenicima:

"Remember Lot's wife."

„Setite se Lotove žene.“

Lot, in case you haven't read the Bible recently,

Lot, u slučaju da niste skoro čitali Bibliju,

was a man who set his family down in Sodom,

je bio čovek koji se smestio sa porodicom dole u Sodomi,

in the midst of a wicked society that God decided he had to destroy.

u središtu rđavog društva koje je Bog odlučio da mora da uništi.

But God, being cruel, yet still a sap in part,

Međutim, Bog, budući okrutan, no ipak malčice i luckast,

rushed two angels out to Sodom to warn Lot to gather up his folks

požurio je dva anđela da pođu u Sodomu i upozore Lota da okupi svoje

and get out of Dodge.

i da uhvati maglu.

Lot heard the angel's warning, but delayed.

Lot je čuo anđeosko upozorenje, međutim, odlagao je.

They didn't have all day to wait, so they grabbed Lot's hands

Nisu imali čitav dan da čekaju, pa su zgrabili Lotovu ruku

and his two daughters' hands, and his wife's hands,

ruke njegove dve kćerke, i ruke njegove supruge

and hurried them out of Sodom.

i požurili su s njima van Sodome.

And the angels shout,

I anđeli su povikali:

"Escape to the mountain. Whatever you do, don't look back,"

„Bežite u planinu. Šta god radili, ne osvrćite se nazad“,

just as God starts raining down fire on Sodom and Gomorrah.

baš u trenutku kada je Bog počeo da suklja vatru na Sodomu i Gomoru.

I can't figure out how Gomorrah got dragged into this.

Ne shvatam kako je Gomora uvučena u sve ovo.

But Lot and his folks are running,

Međutim, Lot i njegovi trče,

fleeing all that destruction,

beže od sveg tog uništenja,

kicking up dust while the Lord rains down death,

podižu prašinu dok Gospod seje smrt,

and then, for some reason, Lot's wife looks back.

a onda, iz nekog razloga, Lotova žena se osvrće nazad.

God turns her into a pillar of salt.

Bog je pretvara u stub soli.

"Remember Lot's wife," Jesus says.

„Setite se Lotove žene“, kaže Isus.

But I've got a question:

Međutim, pitam se:

Why does she look back?

zašto se osvrnula nazad?

Does she look back because she didn't want to miss the mayhem,

Da li se osvrnula nazad jer nije želela da propusti pustošenje,

wanted one last glimpse of a city on fire?

želela je da baci poslednji pogled na grad u plamenu?

Does she look back because she wanted to be sure that her people

Da li se osvrnula nazad jer je želela da se uveri da su njeni ljudi

were far enough from danger to breathe a little easy?

daleko od opasnosti kako bi malo odahnula?

I'm so nosy and selfish sometimes, those likely would have been my reasons

Ponekad sam takvo sebično njuškalo da bi to verovatno bili moji razlozi,

if I'd been in her shoes.

da sam bio na njenom mestu.

But what if something else was going on with this woman, Lot's wife?

Međutim, šta ako se nešto drugo dešavalo s ovom ženom, Lotovom suprugom?

What if she could not bear the thought of leaving those people

Šta ako nije mogla da podnese misao da ostavlja sve te ljude

all alone to burn alive,

da sami živi izgore,

even for righteousness's sake?

čak ni u ime pravednosti?

Isn't that possible?

Zar to nije moguće?

If it is, then this backward glance of a disobedient woman

Ako je tako, onda ovaj osvrt nazad neposlušne žene

may not be a cautionary tale after all.

možda naposletku i nije opomena.

It may be the bravest act in all the Bible,

Možda se radi o najhrabrijem činu u čitavoj Bibliji,

even braver than the act that holds the whole Book together,

čak i hrabrijem od čina koji ovu knjigu drži na okupu,

the crucifixion.

raspeća.

We are told that up on Calvary, on an old rugged cross,

Rečeno je da je gore na Golgoti, na starom ofucanom krstu,

Jesus gave his life to save everybody:

Isus dao svoj život da spasi sve ljude:

billions and billions of strangers for all time to come.

milijarde i milijarde stranaca za sva buduća vremena.

It's a nice thing to do.

To je lep postupak.

It made him famous, that's for sure.

Proslavio ga je, zasigurno.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But Lot's wife was killed,

Međutim, Lotova žena je ubijena,

turned into a pillar of salt,

pretvorena u stub soli,

all because she could not turn her back on her friends,

samo zato što nije mogla da okrene leđa svojim prijateljima,

the wicked men of Sodom,

rđavim ljudima iz Sodome,

and nobody even wrote the woman's name down.

a niko čak nije ni zapisao ime te žene.

Oh, to have the courage of Lot's wife.

Ah, imati hrabrost Lotove žene.

That's the kind of courage we need today.

Taj vid hrabrosti nam je danas potreban.

The courage to put ourselves over there.

Hrabrost da se stavimo tamo.

The courage that says that either all of us have to be faggots,

Hrabrost koja kaže da svi moramo da budemo pederi

or none of us can be faggots, for any of us to be free.

ili niko od nas ne može da bude peder, kako bi bilo ko od nas bio slobodan.

The courage to stand with other vagabonds in the street,

Hrabrost da stojimo sa drugim skitnicama na ulici,

with all the wretched of the earth,

sa svim ubogim na zemlji,

to form an army of the least of these,

da osnujemo vojsku od potrebitih,

with the faith that from the naked crust of all we are,

s verom da smo svi goli došli na svet,

we can build a better world.

možemo da sagradimo bolji svet.

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)