What makes life worth living in the face of death | Lucy Kalanithi

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์•„๋ž˜ ์˜๋ฌธ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ”ํด๋ฆญํ•˜์‹œ๋ฉด ์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.

๋ฒˆ์—ญ: Sujin Byeon ๊ฒ€ํ† : Jihyeon J. Kim
00:12
A few days after my husband Paul was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer,
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์ œ ๋‚จํŽธ ํด์ด ํ์•” 4๊ธฐ ์„ ๊ณ ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์€ ๋ฉฐ์น  ํ›„
00:19
we were lying in our bed at home,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์นจ๋Œ€์— ๋ˆ„์›Œ ์žˆ์„ ๋•Œ์˜€์–ด์š”.
00:21
and Paul said,
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ–ˆ์ฃ .
00:23
"It's going to be OK."
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"๊ดœ์ฐฎ์•„์งˆ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ."
00:25
And I remember answering back,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ „ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋Œ€๋‹ตํ–ˆ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์œผ๋กœ ๊ธฐ์–ตํ•ด์š”.
00:28
"Yes.
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"์‘."
00:29
We just don't know what OK means yet."
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"์šฐ๋ฆฐ ์•„์ง ๊ดœ์ฐฎ๋‹ค๋Š” ์˜๋ฏธ๋ฅผ ๋ชจ๋ฅด์ง€๋งŒ."
00:35
Paul and I had met as first-year medical students at Yale.
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ํด๊ณผ ์ „ ์˜ˆ์ผ๋Œ€ ์˜๋Œ€ 1ํ•™๋…„ ๋•Œ ๋งŒ๋‚ฌ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:38
He was smart and kind and super funny.
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๊ทธ๋Š” ๋˜‘๋˜‘ํ•˜๊ณ  ์นœ์ ˆํ•˜๊ณ  ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ์žฌ๋ฏธ์žˆ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
00:42
He used to keep a gorilla suit in the trunk of his car,
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๊ทธ๋Š” ์ฐจ ํŠธ๋ ํฌ์— ๊ณ ๋ฆด๋ผ ์˜์ƒ์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ๋‹ค๋…”์ฃ .
00:46
and he'd say, "It's for emergencies only."
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ•˜๊ธธ, "์ด๊ฑด ์˜ค์ง ๊ธด๊ธ‰์ƒํ™ฉ์„ ์œ„ํ•œ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ."
00:48
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
00:51
I fell in love with Paul as I watched the care he took with his patients.
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ํ™˜์ž๋ฅผ ๋Œ๋ณด๋Š” ํด์„ ๋ณด๋ฉฐ ์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ์™€ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘์— ๋น ์กŒ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:55
He stayed late talking with them,
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๊ทธ๋Š” ๋‹จ์ˆœํžˆ ์„ธ๋ถ€์ ์ธ ๋ณ‘๋ ฅ๋ฟ๋งŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
00:57
seeking to understand the experience of illness
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๋Šฆ๊ฒŒ๊นŒ์ง€ ๋จธ๋ฌด๋ฅด๋ฉฐ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค๊ณผ ๋Œ€ํ™”๋ฅผ ๋‚˜๋ˆ„๊ณ 
01:00
and not just its technicalities.
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ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์˜ ์‚ถ์„ ์ดํ•ดํ•˜๋ ค๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:04
He later told me he fell in love with me
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๋‚˜์ค‘์— ๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ•˜๊ธธ, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์‹ฌ์žฅ์ด ๋›ฐ์ง€ ์•Š์•„
01:06
when he saw me cry over an EKG of a heart that had ceased beating.
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์‹ฌ์ „๋„๊ฐ€ ๋ฉˆ์ถ˜ ํ™˜์ž๋ฅผ ๋ณด๊ณ  ์šฐ๋Š” ๊ฑธ ๋ณด๊ณ  ์‚ฌ๋ž‘์— ๋น ์กŒ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ•˜๋”๊ตฐ์š”.
01:12
We didn't know it yet,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ทธ ์‚ฌ์‹ค์„ ์•Œ์ง€ ๋ชปํ–ˆ์ง€๋งŒ
01:14
but even in the heady days of young love,
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์ Š์€ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋“ค์ด ์˜๊ธฐ์–‘์–‘ํ–ˆ๋˜ ์‹œ์ ˆ์—๋„
01:17
we were learning how to approach suffering together.
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์ €ํฌ๋Š” ๊ณ ํ†ต์— ๋‹ค๊ฐ€๊ฐ€๋Š” ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์„ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ๋ฐฐ์šฐ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:22
We got married and became doctors.
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์ €ํฌ๋Š” ๊ฒฐํ˜ผํ–ˆ๊ณ  ์˜์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:25
I was working as an internist
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋‚ด๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋กœ ์ผํ•˜๊ณ 
01:27
and Paul was finishing his training as a neurosurgeon
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ํด์€ ์‹ ๊ฒฝ์™ธ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜ ์ˆ˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋งˆ์น  ๋ฌด๋ ต
01:31
when he started to lose weight.
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๊ทธ์˜ ๋ชธ๋ฌด๊ฒŒ๊ฐ€ ์ค„์–ด๋“ค๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:34
He developed excruciating back pain and a cough that wouldn't go away.
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๊ทธ๋Š” ์š”ํ†ต์— ๊ดด๋กœ์›Œํ•˜๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ๊ณ , ๊ธฐ์นจ์ด ๋Š์ด์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์ฃ .
01:40
And when he was admitted to the hospital,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ๋ณ‘์›์— ๊ฐ€์„œ
01:42
a CT scan revealed tumors in Paul's lungs and in his bones.
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CT์Šค์บ”์„ ํ†ตํ•ด ํ์™€ ๋ผˆ์— ์žˆ๋Š” ์ข…์–‘์„ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:48
We had both cared for patients with devastating diagnoses;
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ชจ๋‘ ์ ˆ๋ง์ ์ธ ์ง„๋‹จ์„ ๋ฐ›์€ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์„ ๋Œ๋ณด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:53
now it was our turn.
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๊ทธ ์ ˆ๋ง์ ์ธ ์ง„๋‹จ์ด ์ €ํฌ์—๊ฒŒ ์ฐพ์•„์™”์ฃ .
01:58
We lived with Paul's illness for 22 months.
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ํด์€ ๋ณ‘์„ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•œ ํ›„ 22๊ฐœ์›”์„ ์‚ด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:01
He wrote a memoir about facing mortality.
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๊ทธ๋Š” ์ฃฝ์Œ์„ ๋งž์ดํ•˜๋Š” ํšŒ๊ณ ๋ก์„ ์ผ๊ณ 
02:05
I gave birth to our daughter Cady,
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์ €๋Š” ๋”ธ ์บ๋””๋ฅผ ์ถœ์‚ฐํ–ˆ์œผ๋ฉฐ
02:08
and we loved her and each other.
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๋”ธ๊ณผ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์„œ๋กœ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:10
We learned directly how to struggle through really tough medical decisions.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์–ด๋ ค์šด ์˜ํ•™์ ์ธ ๊ฒฐ์ •์„ ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ํ—ค์ณ๋‚˜๊ฐ€์•ผ ํ•˜๋Š”์ง€ ์ง์ ‘์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐฐ์› ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:17
The day we took Paul into the hospital for the last time
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ํด์„ ๋ณ‘์›์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ๋ ค๊ฐ„ ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ๋‚ ์€ ์ œ ์ธ์ƒ์— ์žˆ์–ด์„œ
02:20
was the most difficult day of my life.
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๊ฐ€์žฅ ํž˜๋“ค์—ˆ๋˜ ๋‚ ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:24
When he turned to me at the end
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๊ทธ๋Š” ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ์ˆœ๊ฐ„ ์ œ๊ฒŒ
02:26
and said, "I'm ready,"
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"๋‚˜ ์ค€๋น„๋์–ด" ํ•˜๊ณ  ๋งํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:30
I knew that wasn't just a brave decision.
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๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์ด ๋‹จ์ˆœํžˆ ์šฉ๊ฐํ•œ ๊ฒฐ์ •๋งŒ์ด ์•„๋‹˜์„ ์•Œ์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:34
It was the right one.
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์˜ณ์€ ๊ฒฐ์ •์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:36
Paul didn't want a ventilator and CPR.
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ํด์€ ์‚ฐ์†Œํ˜ธํก๊ณผ ์‹ฌํ์†Œ์ƒ์„ ์›์น˜ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:40
In that moment,
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๊ทธ ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ์ˆœ๊ฐ„
02:41
the most important thing to Paul
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ํด์—๊ฒŒ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ค‘์š”ํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์€
02:45
was to hold our baby daughter.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋”ธ์„ ์•ˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:49
Nine hours later,
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9์‹œ๊ฐ„์ด ํ๋ฅด๊ณ 
02:50
Paul died.
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๊ทธ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋งํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:55
I've always thought of myself as a caregiver --
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์ „ ์–ธ์ œ๋‚˜ ์ €๋ฅผ ํ™˜์ž๋ฅผ ๋Œ๋ณด๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์œผ๋กœ ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:58
most physicians do --
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๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์˜ ๋‚ด๊ณผ ์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์ด ๊ทธ๋Ÿฌํ•˜๋“ฏ์ด์š”.
03:00
and taking care of Paul deepened what that meant.
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ํด์„ ๋Œ๋ณด๋ฉฐ ๊ทธ ์˜๋ฏธ๊ฐ€ ๋”์šฑ ๊นŠ์–ด์กŒ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:03
Watching him reshape his identity during his illness,
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ํˆฌ๋ณ‘ ๊ธฐ๊ฐ„ ๋™์•ˆ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ์ •์ฒด์„ฑ์„ ๊ฐ€๋‹ค๋“ฌ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์ง€์ผœ๋ณด๊ณ 
03:07
learning to witness and accept his pain,
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๊ทธ์˜ ๊ณ ํ†ต์„ ๋ชฉ๊ฒฉํ•˜๊ณ  ๋ฐ›์•„๋“ค์ด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋ฐฐ์šฐ๋ฉฐ
03:11
talking together through his choices --
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ์„ ํƒํ•œ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋‚˜๋ˆ„๋ฉด์„œ์š”.
03:13
those experiences taught me
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์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ๊ฒฝํ—˜๋“ค์€ ์ €์—๊ฒŒ
03:15
that resilience does not mean bouncing back to where you were before,
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ํšŒ๋ณตํ•œ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑด ๋‹จ์ง€ ์˜ˆ์ „์˜ ๋ชจ์Šต์œผ๋กœ ๋˜๋Œ์•„์˜ด์„ ์˜๋ฏธํ•œ๋‹ค๊ฑฐ๋‚˜
03:20
or pretending that the hard stuff isn't hard.
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ํž˜๋“  ๊ฒƒ์„ ํž˜๋“ค์ง€ ์•Š์€ ์ฒ™ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ์•„๋‹˜์„ ์•Œ๋ ค์ฃผ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:23
It is so hard.
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๋งค์šฐ ์–ด๋ ค์šด ์ผ์ด๊ณ 
03:26
It's painful, messy stuff.
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๊ณ ํ†ต์Šค๋Ÿฝ๊ณ  ํ˜ผ๋ž€์Šค๋Ÿฝ์ฃ .
03:31
But it's the stuff.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜ ๊ทธ์ € ๋Œ€์ƒ์ผ ๋ฟ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:32
And I learned that when we approach it together,
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๋˜ํ•œ, ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ•จ๊ป˜ ๋ณ‘์— ๋‹ค๊ฐ€๊ฐ€๋ฉด์„œ
03:36
we get to decide what success looks like.
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์–ด๋–ค๊ฒƒ์„ ์„ฑ๊ณต์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„์ง€ ๊ฒฐ์ •ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์Œ์„ ๋ฐฐ์› ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:42
One of the first things Paul said to me after his diagnosis was,
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ํด์ด ์„ ๊ณ ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์€ ํ›„ ์ฒ˜์Œ ํ–ˆ๋˜ ๋ง ์ค‘ ํ•˜๋‚˜๋Š”
03:47
"I want you to get remarried."
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋‹ค์‹œ ๊ฒฐํ˜ผํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ”๋ž€๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:50
And I was like, whoa, I guess we get to say anything out loud.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ „ ๋งˆ์น˜ ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒƒ์„ ํ„ฐ๋†“๊ณ  ๋งํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„ ๊ฒƒ๋งŒ ๊ฐ™์•˜์–ด์š”.
03:53
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
03:56
It was so shocking
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๋งค์šฐ ์ถฉ๊ฒฉ์ ์ด๊ณ 
03:58
and heartbreaking ...
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๊ฐ€์Šด ์•„ํ”ˆ ์ผ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
04:01
and generous,
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๊ทธ์˜ ๋ฐฐ๋ ค๊ฐ€ ๋Š๊ปด์กŒ๊ณ ,
04:02
and really comforting
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๋˜ ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ํŽธ์•ˆํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:04
because it was so starkly honest,
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์™œ๋‚˜ํ•˜๋ฉด ์™„์ „ํžˆ ์†”์งํ–ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:06
and that honesty turned out to be exactly what we needed.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์†”์งํ•จ์„ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ํ•„์š”๋กœ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
04:10
Early in Paul's illness,
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ํด์˜ ํˆฌ๋ณ‘ ์ดˆ๊ธฐ์—
04:12
we agreed we would just keep saying things out loud.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒƒ์„ ์†”์งํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ„ฐ๋†“๊ณ  ๋‚˜๋ˆ„๊ธฐ๋กœ ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:17
Tasks like making a will,
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์œ ์–ธ์žฅ์„ ์“ฐ๋Š” ์ผ
04:19
or completing our advance directives --
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์‚ฌ์ „์˜๋ฃŒ์˜ํ–ฅ์„œ๋ฅผ ์™„์„ฑํ•˜๋Š” ์ผ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ
04:22
tasks that I had always avoided --
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ํ•ญ์ƒ ํ”ผํ•ด์™”๋˜ ์ผ๋“ค
04:24
were not as daunting as they once seemed.
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ํ•œ๋•Œ๋Š” ๋ฒ…์ฐจ๋ณด์˜€์ง€๋งŒ ์‹ค์ œ๋กœ๋Š” ๊ทธ๋ ‡์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
04:27
I realized that completing an advance directive is an act of love --
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์‚ฌ์ „์˜๋ฃŒ์˜ํ–ฅ์„œ๋ฅผ ์ž‘์„ฑํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€
04:33
like a wedding vow.
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๋งˆ์น˜ ๊ฒฐํ˜ผ์‹ ๋ฐฑ๋…„ ๊ฐ€์•ฝ๊ณผ ๊ฐ™์€ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘์˜ ์ผ์ข…์ž„์„ ์•Œ๊ฒŒ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:35
A pact to take care of someone,
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๋ˆ„๊ตฐ๊ฐ€๋ฅผ ๋Œ๋ณด๊ฒ ๋‹ค๋Š” ์•ฝ์†,
04:37
codifying the promise
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์ฃฝ์Œ์ด ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๊ฐˆ๋ผ๋†“์„ ๋•Œ๊นŒ์ง€
04:40
that til death do us part,
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๊ณ์— ์žˆ๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ 
04:43
I will be there.
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๋งน์„ธํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ
04:45
If needed, I will speak for you.
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ํ•„์š”ํ•˜๋‹ค๋ฉด ๋‹น์‹ ์„ ์œ„ํ•ด ๋ชฉ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๋‚ด๊ณ 
04:49
I will honor your wishes.
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์›ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ฐ”๋ฅผ ์กด์ค‘ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ
04:53
That paperwork became a tangible part of our love story.
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๊ทธ ๋ฌธ์„œ๋“ค์€ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์—ฐ์• ์‚ฌ์˜ ํ•œ ๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด ๋˜์—ˆ์ฃ .
04:58
As physicians,
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์˜์‚ฌ๋กœ์„œ
05:00
Paul and I were in a good position
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ํด๊ณผ ์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ์˜ ์ง„๋‹จ ๊ฒฐ๊ณผ๋ฅผ ์ดํ•ดํ•˜๊ณ 
05:01
to understand and even accept his diagnosis.
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๋˜ ์ด๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์•„๋“ค์ด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์—์„œ๋Š” ์œ ๋ฆฌํ•œ ์œ„์น˜์˜€์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:05
We weren't angry about it,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ™”๋ฅผ ๋‚ด์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
05:07
luckily,
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๋‹คํ–‰์Šค๋Ÿฝ๊ฒŒ๋„
05:08
because we'd seen so many patients in devastating situations,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ ˆ๋ง์ ์ธ ์ƒํ™ฉ์— ๋น ์ ธ์žˆ๋Š” ์ˆ˜๋งŽ์€ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์„ ๋ณด์•„์™”๊ณ 
05:12
and we knew that death is a part of life.
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๋˜ ์ฃฝ์Œ์ด ์‚ถ์˜ ์ผ๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:17
But it's one thing to know that;
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ํ•œ ๊ฐ€์ง€ ์•Œ๊ฒŒ ๋œ ์ ์ด ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
05:19
it was a very different experience
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์ค‘๋ณ‘์˜ ๋ถˆํ™•์‹คํ•จ๊ณผ ์Šฌํ”” ์†์— ์‚ด์•„๊ฐ€๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€
05:20
to actually live with the sadness and uncertainty of a serious illness.
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๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:26
Huge strides are being made against lung cancer,
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ํ์•”์„ ์น˜๋ฃŒํ•˜๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•œ ๊ฑฐ๋Œ€ํ•œ ์ง„๋ณด๊ฐ€ ์ด๋ฃจ์–ด์กŒ์ง€๋งŒ
05:29
but we knew that Paul likely had months to a few years left to live.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํด์ด ๋ช‡ ๋‹ฌ์—์„œ ์งง๊ฒŒ๋Š” ๋ช‡ ๋…„๋ฐ–์— ์‹œ๊ฐ„์ด ๋‚จ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Œ์„ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:36
During that time,
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๊ทธ ๊ธฐ๊ฐ„ ๋™์•ˆ
05:37
Paul wrote about his transition from doctor to patient.
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ํด์€ ์˜์‚ฌ์—์„œ ํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€ ๋œ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์„ ๊ธ€๋กœ ์ป์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:41
He talked about feeling like he was suddenly at a crossroads,
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๊ทธ๋Š” ๊ฐ‘์ž‘์Šค๋ ˆ ๊ต์ฐจ๋กœ์— ์„œ๊ฒŒ ๋œ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์€ ๊ฐ์ •๊ณผ
05:45
and how he would have thought he'd be able to see the path,
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์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ ๊ธธ์„ ๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ๋Š”์ง€์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์ผ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:49
that because he treated so many patients,
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๊ทธ๋Š” ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์„ ์น˜๋ฃŒํ•ด์™”๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์—
05:51
maybe he could follow in their footsteps.
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๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ์ž์ทจ๋ฅผ ๋”ฐ๋ผ๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„ ๊ฒƒ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:55
But he was totally disoriented.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๋Š” ์ž์ทจ๋ฅผ ๋”ฐ๋ผ๊ฐ€๊ธฐ ๋ณด๋‹ค๋Š”
05:58
Rather than a path,
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์™„์ „ํžˆ ํ˜ผ๋ž€์Šค๋Ÿฌ์›Œํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:00
Paul wrote,
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ํด์€ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์ ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค
06:01
"I saw instead
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"๋‚˜๋Š” ์˜ค์ง
06:03
only a harsh, vacant, gleaming white desert.
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๊ฑฐ์น ๊ณ , ๊ณตํ—ˆํ•˜๋ฉฐ, ์–ด์Šดํ‘ธ๋ ˆ ๋น›๋‚˜๋Š” ํ•˜์–€ ์‚ฌ๋ง‰์„ ๋ณด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:08
As if a sandstorm had erased all familiarity.
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๋งˆ์น˜ ๋ชจ๋ž˜ํญํ’์ด ์ต์ˆ™ํ–ˆ๋˜ ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์„ ์ง€์›Œ๋ƒˆ๋“ฏ์ด.
06:12
I had to face my mortality
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๋‚˜๋Š” ๋‚˜ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ์ฃฝ์Œ๊ณผ ๋Œ€๋ฉดํ•˜๊ณ 
06:15
and try to understand what made my life worth living,
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๋‚ด ์‚ถ์„ ์˜๋ฏธ์žˆ๊ฒŒ ๋งŒ๋“ค ๊ฒƒ์ด ๋ฌด์—‡์ธ์ง€ ์ดํ•ดํ•˜๋ ค ๋…ธ๋ ฅํ–ˆ์œผ๋ฉฐ
06:20
and I needed my oncologist's help to do so."
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์ด๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•ด์„œ๋Š” ์ข…์–‘ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜์˜ ๋„์›€์ด ํ•„์š”ํ•˜๋‹ค"
06:27
The clinicians taking care of Paul
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ํด์„ ๋Œ๋ณด๋Š” ์ž„์ƒ์˜๋Š” ์ œ ๋™๋ฃŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ
06:29
gave me an even deeper appreciation for my colleagues in health care.
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๋” ๊นŠ์€ ๊ฐ์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ์ „ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:33
We have a tough job.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์–ด๋ ค์šด ์ง์—…์„ ๊ฐ€์กŒ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:35
We're responsible for helping patients have clarity around their prognoses
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๋ณ‘์˜ ์˜ˆํ›„์™€ ์„ ํƒํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ์น˜๋ฃŒ์•ˆ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด
06:40
and their treatment options,
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๋ช…ํ™•ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ์•Œ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก ๋„์™€์•ผ ํ•˜๋Š” ์ฑ…์ž„์ด ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:42
and that's never easy, but it's especially tough
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์‰ฝ์ง€ ์•Š์€ ์ผ์ด์ฃ . ํŠนํžˆ ์•”๊ณผ ๊ฐ™์ด
06:44
when you're dealing with potentially terminal illnesses like cancer.
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๋ถˆ์น˜๋ณ‘์˜ ๊ฐ€๋Šฅ์„ฑ์ด ์žˆ์„๋• ๋”์šฑ ๋” ํž˜๋“  ์ผ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:50
Some people don't want to know how long they have left,
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์–ด๋–ค ์ด๋“ค์€ ์ž์‹ ์—๊ฒŒ ์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ์‹œ๊ฐ„์ด ๋‚จ์•„์žˆ๋Š”์ง€ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์‹ถ์ง€ ์•Š์•„ํ•˜๊ธฐ๋„ ํ•˜๊ณ 
06:53
others do.
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์–ด๋–ค ์ด๋“ค์€ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ดํ•˜๊ธฐ๋„ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:55
Either way, we never have those answers.
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์–ด์ฐŒ๋๋“ , ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ•ด๋‹ต์„ ์–ป์ง€๋Š” ๋ชปํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:00
Sometimes we substitute hope
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์–ด๋–ค ๋•Œ๋Š” ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์‹œ๋‚˜๋ฆฌ์˜ค๋ฅผ ๊ฐ•์กฐํ•˜๋ฉด์„œ
07:03
by emphasizing the best-case scenario.
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ํฌ๋ง์„ ๋Œ€์‹ ํ•˜๊ธฐ๋„ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:08
In a survey of physicians,
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๋‚ด๊ณผ ์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์„ ๋Œ€์ƒ์œผ๋กœ ํ•œ ์„ค๋ฌธ์กฐ์‚ฌ์— ๋”ฐ๋ฅด๋ฉด
07:10
55 percent said they painted a rosier picture
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55%์˜ ์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์ด ํ™˜์ž์—๊ฒŒ ์˜ˆํ›„๋ฅผ ์„ค๋ช…ํ•  ๋•Œ
07:15
than their honest opinion
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์†”์งํ•œ ์˜๊ฒฌ์„ ์ „๋‹ฌํ•˜๊ธฐ ๋ณด๋‹ค๋Š”
07:16
when describing a patient's prognosis.
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ํฌ๋ง์ ์ธ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํ–ˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:19
It's an instinct born out of kindness.
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์นœ์ ˆํ•จ์—์„œ ๋ฐœํ˜„๋œ ๋ณธ๋Šฅ์ด๋ผ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:23
But researchers have found
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜ ์—ฐ๊ตฌ์›๋“ค์€
07:25
that when people better understand the possible outcomes of an illness,
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ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์ด ๋ณ‘์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐœ์ƒ๊ฐ€๋Šฅํ•œ ๊ฒฐ๊ณผ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์ธ์ง€ํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์„ ๋•Œ
07:30
they have less anxiety,
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๋œ ๋ถˆ์•ˆํ•ด ํ•˜๋ฉฐ
07:32
greater ability to plan
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๋” ํฐ ๊ณ„ํš์„ ์„ธ์šฐ๊ณ 
07:35
and less trauma for their families.
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๊ฐ€์กฑ์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ํŠธ๋ผ์šฐ๋งˆ๋ฅผ ๋œ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์Œ์„ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:40
Families can struggle with those conversations,
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07:43
but for us, we also found that information immensely helpful with big decisions.
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๊ฐ€์กฑ๋“ค์€ ์ด ๊ฐ™์€ ๋Œ€ํ™”๋กœ ์ธํ•ด ์–ด๋ ค์›€์„ ๊ฒช์„ ์ˆ˜๋„ ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:50
Most notably,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํฐ ๊ฒฐ๋‹จ์„ ๋‚ด๋ฆฌ๋Š”๋ฐ ๋Œ€๋‹จํžˆ ๋„์›€์ด ๋œ๋‹ค๋Š” ์ ์„ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:52
whether to have a baby.
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๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ฃผ๋ชฉํ•  ๋งŒํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์€
07:56
Months to a few years meant Paul was not likely to see her grow up.
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์•„์ด์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ๊ฒฐ์ •์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:02
But he had a good chance of being there for her birth
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ํด์—๊ฒŒ ์–ผ๋งˆ ๋‚จ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ์•„์ด๊ฐ€ ์ปค๊ฐ€๋Š” ๊ฑธ ๋ณผ ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
08:05
and for the beginning of her life.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๋Š” ์•„์ด๊ฐ€ ํƒœ์–ด๋‚˜๊ณ , ์„ฑ์žฅ์„ ํ•˜๋Š” ์ฒซ ๋‹จ๊ณ„๋ฅผ ๋ณผ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”
08:08
I remember asking Paul
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ํ–‰์šด์„ ๋ˆ„๋ ธ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:10
if he thought having to say goodbye to a child
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์ €๋Š” ํด์—๊ฒŒ ์•„์ด์—๊ฒŒ ์ž‘๋ณ„ ์ธ์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ํ•œ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด
08:13
would make dying even more painful.
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์ฃฝ์–ด๊ฐ€๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋ณด๋‹ค ๊ณ ํ†ต์Šค๋Ÿฝ๊ฒŒ ๋งŒ๋“œ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ์•„๋‹Œ์ง€
08:18
And his answer astounded me.
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๋ฌผ์–ด๋ณด์•˜๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์„ ๊ธฐ์–ตํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:20
He said,
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๊ทธ์˜ ๋Œ€๋‹ต์€ ๋†€๋ผ์› ์–ด์š”.
08:21
"Wouldn't it be great if it did?"
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ•˜๊ธธ
08:27
And we did it.
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"์•„์ด์—๊ฒŒ ์ž‘๋ณ„ ์ธ์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋ณด๋‹ค ์ข‹์€ ๊ฒƒ์ด ์žˆ์„๊นŒ?"
08:29
Not in order to spite cancer,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €ํฌ๋Š” ์•„์ด๋ฅผ ๊ฐ€์กŒ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:33
but because we were learning
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์•” ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
08:35
that living fully means accepting suffering.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์™„์ „ํžˆ ์‚ฐ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ๊ณ ํ†ต์„ ๋ฐ›์•„๋“ค์ด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž„์„
08:43
Paul's oncologist tailored his chemo
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๋ฐฐ์›Œ๊ฐ€๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:46
so he could continue working as a neurosurgeon,
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ํด์˜ ์ข…์–‘ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋Š” ๋งž์ถค ํ™”ํ•™ ์š”๋ฒ•์„ ํ†ตํ•ด
08:49
which initially we thought was totally impossible.
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ํด์ด ์‹ ๊ฒฝ์™ธ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋กœ ์ผํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
08:53
When the cancer advanced
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ฒ˜์Œ์—๋Š” ๋ถˆ๊ฐ€๋Šฅ์ด๋ผ ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
08:54
and Paul shifted from surgery to writing,
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์•”์ด ์ง„ํ–‰๋˜๋ฉด์„œ
08:58
his palliative care doctor prescribed a stimulant medication
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ํด์ด ์ˆ˜์ˆ ์—์„œ ๊ธ€์„ ์“ฐ๋Š” ์ผ๋กœ ๋ฐ”๊พธ์—ˆ์„ ๋•Œ
09:01
so he could be more focused.
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ํด์˜ ๋ง๊ธฐํ™˜์ž ๊ฐ„๋ณ‘ ์˜์‚ฌ๋Š” ํด์ด ๋” ์ง‘์ค‘ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก
09:04
They asked Paul about his priorities and his worries.
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๊ฐ์„ฑ์ œ๋ฅผ ์ฒ˜๋ฐฉํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:08
They asked him what trade-offs he was willing to make.
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ํด์—๊ฒŒ ์šฐ์„ ์ˆœ์œ„์™€ ๊ฑฑ์ •๊ฑฐ๋ฆฌ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋ฌผ์–ด ๋ณด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:14
Those conversations are the best way to ensure
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๋˜ ํด์ด ๊ธฐ๊บผ์ด ๋ฐ”๊ฟ€ ๊ฒƒ์ด ๋ฌด์—‡์ธ์ง€ ๋ฌผ์–ด๋ณด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:18
that your health care matches your values.
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์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ๋Œ€ํ™”๋“ค์€ ์น˜๋ฃŒ ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•๊ณผ ํ™˜์ž ์ž์‹ ์˜ ๊ฐ€์น˜๊ฐ€ ์ผ์น˜ํ•˜๋Š”์ง€ ํ™•์ธํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”
09:24
Paul joked that it's not like that "birds and bees" talk
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๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ข‹์€ ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:26
you have with your parents,
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ํด์€ ๊ทธ ๋Œ€ํ™”๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€๋Šฅํ•œํ•œ ์ตœ๋Œ€ํ•œ ๋นจ๋ฆฌ ๋๋‚ด๊ณ 
09:28
where you all get it over with as quickly as possible,
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๋งˆ์น˜ ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์ผ์ด ์ผ์–ด๋‚œ ์  ์—†๋Š” ์ฒ™์„ ํ•˜๋Š”
09:30
and then pretend it never happened.
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'๋ถ€๋ชจ๋‹˜๊ณผ ์„ฑ๊ต์œก' ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ๋ฉฐ ๋†๋‹ด์„ ํ–ˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:32
You revisit the conversation as things change.
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์ƒํ™ฉ์ด ๋ณ€ํ•˜๋ฉด ๋Œ€ํ™”๋ฅผ ๋‹ค์‹œ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ•ด์•ผ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:35
You keep saying things out loud.
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๊ณ„์†ํ•ด์„œ ํฐ ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋กœ ๋งํ•ด์•ผ ํ•˜์ฃ .
09:40
I'm forever grateful
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์ €๋Š” ์˜์›ํžˆ ๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•  ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:41
because Paul's clinicians felt
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ํด์˜ ์ฃผ์น˜์˜๋“ค์ด
09:43
that their job wasn't to try to give us answers they didn't have,
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ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ์ผ์„ ํ•˜๋ ค๊ณ  ํ•˜๊ฑฐ๋‚˜
09:47
or only to try to fix things for us,
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๊ณ ์ณ์ฃผ๋ ค๊ณ ๋งŒ ํ•œ๋‹ค๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š๊ณ 
09:50
but to counsel Paul through painful choices ...
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ํด์˜ ๋ชธ์€ ์‡ ์•ฝํ•ด์ง€์ง€๋งŒ ์‚ถ์˜ ์˜์ง€๋Š” ๊ฐ•ํ•  ๋•Œ์—
09:54
when his body was failing but his will to live wasn't.
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๊ณ ํ†ต์Šค๋Ÿฌ์šด ์„ ํƒ์„ ๋•๊ณ  ์กฐ์–ธํ•ด ์ค€๊ฒŒ ๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ด์š”.
10:01
Later, after Paul died,
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ํด์ด ์‚ฌ๋งํ•œ ํ›„
10:03
I received a dozen bouquets of flowers,
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์ „ ์ˆ˜ ๋งŽ์€ ๊ฝƒ๋‹ค๋ฐœ๋“ค์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:06
but I sent just one ...
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๊ทธ ์ค‘ ๋‹จ ํ•œ ๊ฐœ๋งŒ์„
10:08
to Paul's oncologist,
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ํด์˜ ์ข…์–‘ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜์— ๋ณด๋ƒˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:10
because she supported his goals
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๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ํด์˜ ์›ํ–ˆ๋˜ ๋ชฉํ‘œ๋ฅผ ์ด๋ฃฐ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๊ฒŒ ๋„์™”๊ณ 
10:14
and she helped him weigh his choices.
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ํด์˜ ์„ ํƒ์„ ์กด์ค‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:18
She knew that living means more than just staying alive.
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๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ์‚ถ์ด๋ž€ ์ƒ์กด ๊ทธ ์ด์ƒ์ž„์„ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:25
A few weeks ago, a patient came into my clinic.
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๋ช‡ ์ฃผ ์ „, ํ•œ ํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€ ์ œ ๋ณ‘์›์„ ์ฐพ์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:28
A woman dealing with a serious chronic disease.
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๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ์‹ฌ๊ฐํ•œ ๋งŒ์„ฑ ์งˆํ™˜์„ ์•“๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์ฃ .
10:32
And while we were talking about her life and her health care,
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๊ทธ๋…€์™€ ์‚ถ๊ณผ ์น˜๋ฃŒ์— ๊ด€ํ•ด ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ ๋‚˜๋ˆ„๋˜ ์ค‘ ๊ทธ๋…€๋Š”
10:35
she said, "I love my palliative care team.
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"์ €๋Š” ์ œ ๋ง๊ธฐ ํ™˜์ž ์น˜๋ฃŒ ํŒ€์„ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•ด์š”.
10:39
They taught me that it's OK to say 'no'."
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ '์•„๋‹ˆ์˜ค'๋ผ๊ณ  ๋งํ•ด๋„ ๋œ๋‹ค๊ณ  ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์ณค์–ด์š”โ€ ๋ผ๊ณ  ๋งํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:43
Yeah, I thought, of course it is.
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๋„ค, ๋ฌผ๋ก  ์ œ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋„ ๊ทธ๋ ‡์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:46
But many patients don't feel that.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜ ๋งŽ์€ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์€ ๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋Š๋ผ์ง€ ์•Š์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:50
Compassion and Choices did a study
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Compassion and Choices์ด๋ผ๋Š” ์กฐ์ง์—์„œ
10:52
where they asked people about their health care preferences.
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์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ๊ฑด๊ฐ• ๊ด€๋ฆฌ ์„ ํ˜ธ์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ์กฐ์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ์‹ค์‹œํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:56
And a lot of people started their answers with the words
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋งŽ์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด
11:00
"Well, if I had a choice ..."
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"๊ธ€์Ž„, ๋งŒ์•ฝ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์„ ํƒํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด ..." ์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๋ง๋กœ ๋‹ต๋ณ€์„ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:03
If I had a choice.
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๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ์„ ํƒ์„ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด.
11:06
And when I read that "if,"
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์ €๋Š” "๋งŒ์•ฝ"์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ ํžŒ ๊ฒƒ์„ ์ฝ์œผ๋ฉฐ
11:08
I understood better
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์™œ ํ™˜์ž์˜ 4๋ช… ์ค‘ 1๋ช…์ด
11:10
why one in four people
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๊ณผ๋„ํ•˜๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ์›์น˜ ์•Š๋Š” ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›๋Š” ์ง€
11:13
receives excessive or unwanted medical treatment,
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๋˜๋Š” ๊ฐ€์กฑ ๊ตฌ์„ฑ์›์ด
11:18
or watches a family member receive excessive or unwanted medical treatment.
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๊ณผ๋„ํ•˜๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ์›์น˜ ์•Š๋Š” ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์ง€์ผœ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋˜๋Š”์ง€ ์•Œ๊ฒŒ ๋์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:25
It's not because doctors don't get it.
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๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์€ ์˜์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ์ดํ•ดํ•˜์ง€ ๋ชปํ•˜๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด ์•„๋‹™๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:27
We do.
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์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค๋„ ์ดํ•ดํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:29
We understand the real psychological consequences
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ™˜์ž์™€ ๊ทธ ๊ฐ€์กฑ์ด ๊ฒช์„
11:32
on patients and their families.
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์‹ฌ๋ฆฌ์  ์˜ํ–ฅ๋ ฅ์„ ์ดํ•ดํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:35
The things is, we deal with them, too.
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๋ฌธ์ œ๋Š”, ์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค ๋˜ํ•œ ์ด๋ฅผ ๊ฒฌ๋ŽŒ์•ผ ํ•œ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:38
Half of critical care nurses and a quarter of ICU doctors
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์ค‘ํ™˜์ž ๊ฐ„ํ˜ธ์‚ฌ ์ค‘ ์ ˆ๋ฐ˜, ์ค‘ํ™˜์ž์‹ค ์˜์‚ฌ 4๋ช… ์ค‘ 1๋ช…์ด
11:43
have considered quitting their jobs
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์ž์‹ ์˜ ์ผ์„ ๊ทธ๋งŒ ๋‘๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ๊ณ ๋ฏผํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:46
because of distress over feeling that for some of their patients,
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ํ™˜์ž ์ค‘ ์ผ๋ถ€์—๊ฒŒ ํ™˜์ž์˜ ๊ฐ€์น˜๊ด€์— ๋งž์ง€ ์•Š๋Š” ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ์ œ๊ณตํ–ˆ๋‹ค๋Š”
11:51
they've provided care that didn't fit with the person's values.
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๋Š๋‚Œ์„ ๋ฐ›๊ณ  ๊ณ ๋‡Œํ•˜๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:57
But doctors can't make sure your wishes are respected
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜ ์˜์‚ฌ๋Š” ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์•Œ๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€๋Š”
11:59
until they know what they are.
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๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๋ฐ”๋žŒ์ด ๋ฌด์—‡์ธ์ง€, ๋˜ ๊ทธ ๋ฐ”๋žŒ์ด ์กด์ค‘๋ฐ›๋Š”์ง€ ํ™•์‹ ์„ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
12:03
Would you want to be on life support if it offered any chance of longer life?
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์‚ถ์„ ์—ฐ์žฅ์‹œํ‚ฌ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ธฐํšŒ๊ฐ€ ์ œ๊ณต๋œ๋‹ค๋ฉด ๋ฐ›๊ณ  ์‹ถ์œผ์‹œ๊ฐ€์š”?
12:08
Are you most worried about the quality of that time,
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์‹œ๊ฐ„์˜ ์–‘๋ณด๋‹ค๋Š” ํ€„๋ฆฌํ‹ฐ๋ฅผ
12:12
rather than quantity?
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๋”์šฑ ์—ผ๋ คํ•˜๊ณ  ๊ณ„์‹ ๊ฐ€์š”?
12:14
Both of those choices are thoughtful and brave,
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์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ์„ ํƒ์„ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ๋ชจ๋‘ ๋ฐฐ๋ ค๊นŠ๊ณ  ์šฉ๊ฐํ•œ ํ–‰๋™์ด์ง€๋งŒ
12:19
but for all of us, it's our choice.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ชจ๋‘์—๊ฒŒ ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์€ ์„ ํƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
12:22
That's true at the end of life
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์‚ถ์˜ ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰์—์„œ
12:24
and for medical care throughout our lives.
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๋˜ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์‚ถ ๊ฐ€์šด๋ฐ ์˜๋ฃŒ ์„œ๋น„์Šค๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›๋Š” ๊ณผ์ •์—์„œ๋„ ๋งˆ์ฐฌ๊ฐ€์ง€์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
12:27
If you're pregnant, do you want genetic screening?
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์ž„์‹ ์„ ํ•˜์…จ๋‹ค๋ฉด, ์œ ์ „ ๊ฒ€์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ์›ํ•˜์‹œ๋‚˜์š”?
12:30
Is a knee replacement right or not?
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์ธ๊ณต ๊ด€์ ˆ์€ ์˜ณ์€ ๊ฒƒ์ผ๊นŒ์š”?
12:33
Do you want to do dialysis in a clinic or at home?
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ํˆฌ์„์„ ํ•˜์‹ค ๊ฒฝ์šฐ, ๋ณ‘์›๊ณผ ์ง‘ ์–ด๋Š ๊ณณ์„ ์›ํ•˜์‹œ๋‚˜์š”?
12:38
The answer is:
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์ด์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ๋‹ต์€
12:40
it depends.
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์ƒํ™ฉ์— ๋”ฐ๋ผ ๋‹ค๋ฅด๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
12:42
What medical care will help you live the way you want to?
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์–ด๋–ค ์˜๋ฃŒ ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์ด ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ์›ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ฐฉ์‹์œผ๋กœ ์‚ด์•„๊ฐ€๋Š” ๋ฐ ๋„์›€์ด ๋ ๊นŒ์š”?
12:48
I hope you remember that question
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๋‹ค์Œ ๋ฒˆ, ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ๊ฑด๊ฐ•๊ณผ ๊ด€๋ จ๋œ
12:51
the next time you face a decision in your health care.
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๊ฒฐ์ •์„ ๋‚ด๋ ค์•ผ ํ•  ์ˆœ๊ฐ„์ด ์˜จ๋‹ค๋ฉด ๊ทธ ์งˆ๋ฌธ์„ ๊ธฐ์–ตํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ”๋ž๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
12:55
Remember that you always have a choice,
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” ํ•ญ์ƒ ์„ ํƒ์˜ ์—ฌ์ง€๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์œผ๋ฉฐ ์ž์‹ ์—๊ฒŒ ์˜ณ์ง€ ์•Š์€ ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฒ•์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด์„œ๋Š”
12:59
and it is OK to say no to a treatment that's not right for you.
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'์•„๋‹ˆ์˜ค'๋ผ๊ณ  ๋งํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ์ ์„์š”.
13:06
There's a poem by W.S. Merwin --
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13:09
it's just two sentences long --
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W.S.Merwin์˜ ์‹œ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋‘ ๋ฌธ์žฅ ๋ฐ–์— ๋˜์ง€ ์•Š์ง€๋งŒ,
13:12
that captures how I feel now.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ง€๊ธˆ ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๋Š๋ผ๋Š”์ง€๋ฅผ ํ‘œํ˜„ํ•ด ์ฃผ์ฃ .
13:16
"Your absence has gone through me
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"๋‚˜์—๊ฒŒ์„œ ๋‹น์‹ ์˜ ๋ถ€์žฌ๋Š”
13:19
like thread through a needle.
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์‹ค ๊ฐ€๋‹ฅ์ด ๋ฐ”๋Š˜์„ ํ†ตํ•ด์„œ ์ง€๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๊ณผ ๊ฐ™์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
13:23
Everything I do is stitched with its color."
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ํ•  ์ผ์€ ์ง€๋‚˜๊ฐ„ ํ”์ ์— ์ƒ‰์„ ์ž…ํžˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค."
13:29
For me that poem evokes my love for Paul,
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์ด ์‹œ๋Š” ์ €์—๊ฒŒ ํด์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘๊ณผ
13:33
and a new fortitude
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๊ทธ๋ฅผ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜๊ณ  ๋˜ ๊ทธ๋ฅผ ์žƒ์€ ํ›„
13:35
that came from loving and losing him.
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์–ป๊ฒŒ ๋œ ์ƒˆ๋กœ์šด ์šฉ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋– ์˜ฌ๋ฆฌ๊ฒŒ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
13:40
When Paul said, "It's going to be OK,"
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ํด์ด "๊ดœ์ฐฎ์•„์งˆ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ"๋ผ๊ณ  ๋งํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์€
13:43
that didn't mean that we could cure his illness.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ์˜ ๋ณ‘์„ ์น˜๋ฃŒํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๋œป์€ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
13:48
Instead, we learned to accept both joy and sadness at the same time;
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๋Œ€์‹ , ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ธฐ์จ๊ณผ ์Šฌํ””์„ ๋™์‹œ์— ๋ฐ›์•„ ๋“ค์ผ ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋ฐฐ์› ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
13:55
to uncover beauty and purpose
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ชจ๋‘๊ฐ€ ํƒœ์–ด๋‚˜๊ณ  ๋˜ ๋ชจ๋‘๊ฐ€ ์ฃฝ๊ฒŒ๋˜์ง€๋งŒ
13:58
both despite and because we are all born
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์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์Œ๊ณผ ์‚ถ์˜ ๋ชฉ์ ์„
14:03
and we all die.
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๋ฐํžˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์ฃ .
14:06
And for all the sadness and sleepless nights,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋ชจ๋“  ์Šฌํ””๊ณผ ์ž  ๋ชป์ด๋ฃจ๋Š” ๋ฐค๋“ค์€
14:09
it turns out there is joy.
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๊ธฐ์จ์ด ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
14:12
I leave flowers on Paul's grave
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์ €๋Š” ํด์˜ ๋ฌ˜์ง€์— ๊ฝƒ์„ ๋‚จ๊ธฐ๊ณ 
14:14
and watch our two-year-old run around on the grass.
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2 ์‚ด ๋œ ์ €ํฌ์˜ ๋”ธ์ด ํ’€๋ฐญ ์œ„๋ฅผ ๋Œ์•„๋‹ค๋‹ˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์ง€์ผœ๋ณด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
14:19
I build bonfires on the beach and watch the sunset with our friends.
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ํ•ด๋ณ€์—์„œ ๋ชจ๋‹ฅ๋ถˆ์„ ํ”ผ์šฐ๊ณ , ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์„์–‘์„ ์ง€์ผœ ๋ณด์•˜์ฃ .
14:25
Exercise and mindfulness meditation have helped a lot.
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์šด๋™๊ณผ ๋ช…์ƒ์„ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ๋งŽ์€ ๋„์›€์ด ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
14:30
And someday,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์–ธ์  ๊ฐ€
14:31
I hope I do get remarried.
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์ €๋Š” ๋‹ค์‹œ ๊ฒฐํ˜ผํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๊ธฐ๋Œ€ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
14:36
Most importantly, I get to watch our daughter grow.
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๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ค‘์š”ํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์€ ๋”ธ์˜ ์„ฑ์žฅํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์ง€์ผœ ๋ณธ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
14:40
I've thought a lot about what I'm going to say to her
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๋”ธ์ด ์„ฑ์žฅํ–ˆ์„ ๋•Œ, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ํ•ด์ค„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ๋ง๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด
14:44
when she's older.
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๋งŽ์ด ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด ๋ณด์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
14:48
"Cady,
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"์บ๋””
14:50
engaging in the full range of experience --
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์‚ถ๊ณผ ์ฃฝ์Œ, ์‚ฌ๋ž‘๊ณผ ์ƒ์‹ค๊ณผ ๊ฐ™์€
14:53
living and dying,
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๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒฝํ—˜์„ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด
14:55
love and loss --
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์‚ด์•„๊ฐ€๋ฉด์„œ
14:57
is what we get to do.
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ํ•ด์•ผ ํ•  ์ผ์ด๋ž€๋‹ค.
15:00
Being human doesn't happen despite suffering.
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๊ณ ํ†ต์„ ๊ฒช์œผ๋ฉด์„œ ์ธ๊ฐ„์ด ๋˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ž€๋‹ค.
15:07
It happens within it.
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์‚ถ์—์„œ ์ผ์–ด๋‚˜๋Š” ์ผ๋“ค์ด์ง€.
15:10
When we approach suffering together,
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ํ•จ๊ป˜ ๊ทธ ๊ณผ์ •์„ ๊ฒช์œผ๋ฉด์„œ
15:13
when we choose not to hide from it,
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๋˜ ์ˆจ๊ธฐ์ง€ ์•Š๊ธฐ๋กœ ๊ฒฐ์ •ํ•œ๋‹ค๋ฉด
15:16
our lives don't diminish,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์‚ถ์€ ์œ„์ถ•๋˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
15:18
they expand."
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๋”์šฑ ๊นŠ์–ด์งˆ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ."
15:21
I've learned that cancer isn't always a battle.
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์ €๋Š” ์•”์„ ๋‹ค๋ฃจ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ๋Š˜ ์ „ํˆฌ๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹˜์„ ๋ฐฐ์› ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค
15:26
Or if it is,
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์•”์ด ์ „ํˆฌ๋ผ๋ฉด
15:27
maybe it's a fight for something different than we thought.
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์•„๋งˆ๋„ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•œ ๊ฒƒ๊ณผ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๋ฌด์–ธ๊ฐ€๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ ์‹ธ์›€์ผ ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
15:32
Our job isn't to fight fate,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์ผ์€ ์šด๋ช…๊ณผ ์‹ธ์šฐ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
15:35
but to help each other through.
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์ง€๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋Š” ๊ณผ์ •์„ ์„œ๋กœ ๋•๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
15:39
Not as soldiers
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๊ตฐ์ธ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
15:41
but as shepherds.
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๋ชฉ์ž์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๋ง์ด์ฃ .
15:45
That's how we make it OK,
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๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์ด ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ดœ์ฐฎ์•„ ์งˆ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก ๋งŒ๋“œ๋Š” ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
15:47
even when it's not.
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์ƒํ™ฉ์ด ๊ทธ๋ ‡์ง€ ์•Š๋”๋ผ๋„์š”.
15:50
By saying it out loud,
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ํฐ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋กœ ๋งํ•˜๋ฉด์„œ
15:53
by helping each other through ...
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์„œ๋กœ ๋„์šฐ๋ฉฐ...
15:57
and a gorilla suit never hurts, either.
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๊ณ ๋ฆด๋ผ ์ˆ˜ํŠธ ๋˜ํ•œ, ์ ˆ๋Œ€ ์•„ํ”„์ง€ ์•Š์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
16:00
Thank you.
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๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:01
(Applause)
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์ด ์›น์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ ์ •๋ณด

์ด ์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์˜์–ด ํ•™์Šต์— ์œ ์šฉํ•œ YouTube ๋™์˜์ƒ์„ ์†Œ๊ฐœํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์ „ ์„ธ๊ณ„ ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์น˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ˆ˜์—…์„ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๊ฐ ๋™์˜์ƒ ํŽ˜์ด์ง€์— ํ‘œ์‹œ๋˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ” ํด๋ฆญํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๊ณณ์—์„œ ๋™์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋น„๋””์˜ค ์žฌ์ƒ์— ๋งž์ถฐ ์ž๋ง‰์ด ์Šคํฌ๋กค๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์˜๊ฒฌ์ด๋‚˜ ์š”์ฒญ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒฝ์šฐ ์ด ๋ฌธ์˜ ์–‘์‹์„ ์‚ฌ์šฉํ•˜์—ฌ ๋ฌธ์˜ํ•˜์‹ญ์‹œ์˜ค.

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