What I learned serving time for a crime I didn't commit | Teresa Njoroge

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When I heard those bars
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slam hard,
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I knew it was for real.
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I feel confused.
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I feel betrayed.
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I feel overwhelmed.
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I feel silenced.
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What just happened?
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How could they send me here?
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I don't belong here.
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How could they make such a huge mistake
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without any repercussions whatsoever to their actions?
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I see large groups of women
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in tattered uniforms
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surrounded by huge walls and gates,
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enclosed by iron barbed wires,
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and I get hit by an awful stench,
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and I ask myself,
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how did I move
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from working in the respected financial banking sector,
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having worked so hard in school,
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to now being locked up
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in the largest correctional facility
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for women in Kenya?
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My first night
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at Langata Women Maximum Security Prison
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was the toughest.
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In January of 2009,
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I was informed that I had handled a fraudulent transaction unknowingly
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at the bank where I worked.
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I was shocked, scared and terrified.
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I would lose a career that I loved passionately.
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But that was not the worst.
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It got even worse than I could have ever imagined.
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I got arrested,
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maliciously charged
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and prosecuted.
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The absurdity of it all was the arresting officer
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asking me to pay him 10,000 US dollars
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and the case would disappear.
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I refused.
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Two and a half years on,
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in and out of courts,
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fighting to prove my innocence.
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It was all over the media,
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in the newspapers, TV, radio.
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They came to me again.
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This time around, said to me,
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"If you give us 50,000 US dollars,
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the judgement will be in your favor,"
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irrespective of the fact that there was no evidence whatsoever
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that I had any wrongdoing
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on the charges that I was up against.
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I remember the events
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of my conviction
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six years ago
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as if it were yesterday.
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The cold, hard face of the judge
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as she pronounced my sentence
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on a cold Thursday morning
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for a crime that I hadn't committed.
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I remember holding
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my three-month-old beautiful daughter
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whom I had just named Oma,
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which in my dialect means "truth and justice,"
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as that was what I had longed so much for
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all this time.
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I dressed her in her favorite purple dress,
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and here she was, about to accompany me
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to serve this one-year sentence
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behind bars.
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The guards did not seem sensitive to the trauma
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that this experience was causing me.
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My dignity and humanity disappeared
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with the admission process.
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It involved me being searched for contrabands,
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changed from my ordinary clothes
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to the prison uniform,
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forced to squat on the ground,
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a posture that I soon came to learn
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would form the routine
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of the thousands of searches,
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number counts,
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that lay ahead of me.
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The women told me,
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"You'll adjust to this place.
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You'll fit right in."
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I was no longer referred to as Teresa Njoroge.
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The number 415/11 was my new identity,
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and I soon learned that was the case with the other women
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who we were sharing this space with.
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And adjust I did to life on the inside:
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the prison food,
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the prison language,
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the prison life.
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Prison is certainly no fairytale world.
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What I didn't see come my way
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was the women and children
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whom we served time and shared space with,
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women who had been imprisoned
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for crimes of the system,
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the corruption that requires a fall guy,
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a scapegoat,
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so that the person who is responsible
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could go free,
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a broken system that routinely vilifies the vulnerable,
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the poorest amongst us,
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people who cannot afford to pay bail
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or bribes.
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And so we moved on.
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As I listened to story after story
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of these close to 700 women
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during that one year in prison,
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I soon realized that crime
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was not what had brought these women to prison,
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most of them,
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far from it.
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It had started with the education system,
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whose supply and quality is not equal for all;
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lack of economic opportunities
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that pushes these women to petty survival crimes;
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the health system,
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social justice system,
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the criminal justice system.
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If any of these women,
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who were mostly from poor backgrounds,
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fall through the cracks
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in the already broken system,
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the bottom of that chasm is a prison,
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period.
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By the time I completed my one-year sentence
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at Langata Women Maximum Prison,
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I had a burning conviction
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to be part of the transformation
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to resolve the injustices
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that I had witnessed
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of women and girls
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who were caught up in a revolving door
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of a life in and out of prison
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due to poverty.
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After my release,
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I set up Clean Start.
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Clean Start is a social enterprise
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that seeks to give these women and girls
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a second chance.
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What we do is we build bridges for them.
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We go into the prisons, train them,
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give them skills, tools and support
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to enable them to be able to change their mindsets,
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their behaviors and their attitudes.
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We also build bridges into the prisons
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from the corporate sector --
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individuals, organizations
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that will partner with Clean Start
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to enable us to provide employment,
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places to call home,
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jobs, vocational training,
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for these women, girls,
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boys and men,
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upon transition back into society.
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I never thought
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that one day
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I would be giving stories
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of the injustices that are so common
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within the criminal justice system,
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but here I am.
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Every time I go back to prison,
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I feel a little at home,
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but it is the daunting work
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to achieve the vision
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that keeps me awake at night,
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connecting the miles to Louisiana,
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which is deemed as the incarceration capital of the world,
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carrying with me stories
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of hundreds of women
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whom I have met within the prisons,
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some of whom are now embracing their second chances,
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and others who are still on that bridge of life's journey.
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I embody a line
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from the great Maya Angelou.
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"I come as one,
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but I stand as 10,000."
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(Applause)
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For my story is singular,
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but imagine with me
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the millions of people
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in prisons today,
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yearning for freedom.
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Three years post my conviction
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and two years post my release,
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I got cleared by the courts of appeal
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of any wrongdoing.
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(Applause)
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Around the same time,
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I got blessed with my son,
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whom I named Uhuru,
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which in my dialect means "freedom."
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(Applause)
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Because I had finally gotten the freedom
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that I so longed for.
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I come as one,
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but I stand as 10,000,
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encouraged by the hard-edged hope
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that thousands of us have come together
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to reform and transform the criminal justice system,
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encouraged that we are doing our jobs
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as we are meant to do them.
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And let us keep doing them
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with no apology.
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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