Our treatment of HIV has advanced. Why hasn't the stigma changed? | Arik Hartmann
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So I want to start this talk
by showing y'all a photo,
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翻译人员: Yan Gao
校对人员: Kangping Qi
首先,我想用一张照片
来开始这个演讲,
00:04
and it's a photo many of you
have probably seen before.
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可能很多人以前见过这张照片。
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So I want you all to take a moment
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那我希望大家花一点时间,
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and look at this photo,
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仔细看这张照片,
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and really reflect on some
of the things that come to mind,
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并真正关注一下
在脑海中浮现的一些事情,
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and what are some
of those things, those words.
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关注一下那是些什么事,什么话。
00:19
Now, I'm going to ask you all
to look at me.
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现在,请大家再看看我。
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What words come to mind
when you look at me?
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当你看着我时,想到的是什么词?
00:28
What separates that man up there
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照片中那个男人
与我有什么区别?
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from me?
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00:34
The man in that photo is named David Kirby
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那照片中的男人名叫
大卫·柯比(David Kirby),
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and it was taken in 1990
as he was dying from AIDS-related illness,
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照片是在1990年他因艾滋相关疾病
即将死去时拍摄,
00:40
and it was subsequently
published in "Life Magazine."
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后来在“生活杂志”上发表。
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The only real thing
separating me from Kirby
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我与柯比的唯一真正区别是,
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is about 30 years of medical advancements
in the way that we treat HIV and AIDS.
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HIV(人类免疫缺陷病毒)和艾滋病
的治疗方法已经进步了30年。
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So what I want to ask next is this:
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那么我想问的下一个问题是:
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If we have made such exponential progress
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如果我们在抗击HIV方面
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in combatting HIV,
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取得如此指数级的进展,
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why haven't our perceptions
of those with the virus evolved alongside?
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为什么对这些病毒的认知
却没有随之进步呢?
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Why does HIV elicit this reaction from us
when it's so easily managed?
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为什么HIV如此容易控制,
却还会引发我们这种反应呢?
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When did the stigmatization even occur,
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污名化究竟是什么时候开始发生的?
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and why hasn't it subsided?
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又为什么还没消退呢?
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And these are not
easy questions to answer.
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这些都是难以回答的问题。
它们汇聚了太多的
不同因素和想法。
01:24
They're the congealing
of so many different factors and ideas.
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01:27
Powerful images, like this one of Kirby,
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像柯比照片这样的震撼影像,
就是上世纪80和90年代
艾滋病危机的形象,
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these were the faces of the AIDS crisis
in the '80s and '90s,
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01:33
and at the time the crisis
had a very obvious impact
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当时的危机非常明显地冲击了
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on an already stigmatized group of people,
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一个已经有污名的人群,
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and that was gay men.
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那就是男同性恋。
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So what the general straight public saw
was this very awful thing
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大多异性恋公众所看到的是,
非常可怕的事正发生在
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happening to a group of people who
were already on the fringes of society.
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一群已经处于社会边缘的人身上。
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The media at the time began
to use the two almost interchangeably --
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当时的媒体开始将这两个词
几乎可互换地使用:
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gay and AIDS --
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同性恋和艾滋病——
01:55
and at the 1984
Republican National Convention,
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而在1984年共和党全国大会上,
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one of the speakers joked
that gay stood for: "Got AIDS yet?"
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一个发言人笑说,同性恋一词是
“得了艾滋病没?”的缩写。
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And that was the mindset at the time.
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这就是当时大众的普遍心态。
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But as we started
to understand the virus more
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但随着我们开始更多地了解这病毒,
以及它的传播方式,
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and how it was transmitted,
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02:10
we realized that that risk
had increased its territory.
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我们意识到这种风险
扩大了它的版图。
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The highly profiled case
of Ryan White in 1985,
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1985年的瑞恩·怀特(Ryan White)
案例引起了高度关注,
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who was a 13-year-old hemophiliac
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他是13岁的血友病患者,
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who had contracted HIV
from a contaminated blood treatment,
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通过被污染的血液治疗感染了HIV,
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and this marked the most profound shift
in America's perception of HIV.
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这标志着美国对HIV的认知
的最深刻的转变。
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No longer was it restricted
to these dark corners of society,
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它不再局限于社会的阴暗角落、
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to queers and drug users,
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酷儿(同性恋者)和吸毒者,
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but now it was affecting people
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而是正在影响着
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that society deemed
worthy of their empathy,
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社会上认为值得同情的人们,
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to children.
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孩子们。
02:42
But that permeating fear
and that perception, it still lingers.
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但是那种入骨的恐惧
和那种偏见,仍然存在。
02:47
And I want a show of hands
for these next few questions.
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下面几个问题我希望
大家可以举手示意。
02:50
How many of you in here
were aware that with treatment,
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你们有多少人知道,
通过治疗,
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those with HIV not only
fend off AIDS completely,
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HIV感染者不仅能够
完全抵御艾滋病,
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but they live full and normal lives?
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而且能够过上完整且正常的生活?
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Y'all are educated.
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你们都学过啊。
03:03
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
03:04
How many of you are aware
that with treatment,
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你们中有多少人知道,
通过治疗,
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those with HIV can reach
an undetectable status,
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HIV感染者可以实现
检测不到病毒的状态,
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and that makes them
virtually uninfectious?
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这种状态使他们
事实上没有传染性?
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Much less.
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知道的人少多了。
03:16
How many of you were aware
of the pre- and postexposure treatments
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你们中有多少人知道,
现在有暴露前和暴露后治疗,
可以把传播风险
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that are available
that reduce the risk of transmission
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03:23
by over 90 percent?
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降低90%以上?
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See, these are incredible advancements
that we have made in fighting HIV,
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看,这些是在抗击HIV方面
已经取得的惊人进步,
03:31
yet they have not managed
to dent the perception
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却仍不能削弱多数美国人
03:34
that most Americans have
of the virus and those living with it.
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对该病毒和病毒感染者的认知。
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And I don't want you to think
I'm downplaying the danger of this virus,
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我不想让大家认为我在
对这种病毒的危险轻描淡写,
03:44
and I am not ignorant of
the harrowing past of the AIDS epidemic.
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我也不是不知道
艾滋病大流行的悲惨历史。
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I am trying to convey
that there is hope for those infected
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我想表达的是,
那些感染者是有希望的,
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and HIV is not the death sentence
it was in the '80s.
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HIV不再是80年代的死刑了。
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And now you may ask, and I asked
this question myself initially:
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那你可能会问,
我当初也这么问过自己:
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Where are the stories?
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真实故事在哪里?
04:01
Where are these people living with HIV?
Why haven't they been vocal?
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这些HIV感染者在哪?
为什么他们不出声?
04:05
How can I believe these successes,
or these statistics,
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没有看到成功案例,
我怎么相信这些成功,
或这些统计数字?
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without seeing the successes?
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04:12
And this is actually
a very easy question for me to answer.
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这个问题对我来说
实际上很容易回答。
04:16
Fear, stigma and shame:
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恐惧、污名和耻辱,
可以说,是这些让
HIV感染者隐姓埋名。
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these keep those living with HIV
in the closet, so to speak.
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04:24
Our sexual histories are as personal
to us as our medical histories,
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对我们来说,性史
与病历一样是隐私,
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and when you overlap the two,
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当两者重叠时,
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you can find yourself
in a very sensitive space.
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你会发现自己处在一个
非常敏感的空间里。
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The fear of how others
perceive us when we're honest
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对坦诚之后别人会
如何看待我们的恐惧,
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keeps us from doing many things in life,
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让我们逃避生活中的很多事情,
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and this is the case
for the HIV-positive population.
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HIV阳性人群就是这样。
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To face social scrutiny and ridicule
is the price that we pay for transparency,
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面对社会的评判和嘲笑
是我们公开隐私的代价,
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and why become a martyr
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如果能够像没有HIV的人
一样若无其事,
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when you can effectively pass
as someone without HIV?
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那还为什么去做烈士?
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After all, there are no
physical indications you have the virus.
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毕竟,没有任何身体迹象
表明你携带病毒。
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There's no sign that you wear.
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你身上没有标记。
05:00
There is safety in assimilation,
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同化带来安全感,
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and there is safety in invisibility.
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隐身也有安全感。
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I'm here to throw back that veil
and share my story.
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但我来这里是为了扔掉面纱,
分享我的故事。
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So in the fall of 2014,
I was a sophomore in college
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2014年秋,我上大学二年级,
就像多数大学生一样,
我性行为活跃,
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and like most college students,
I was sexually active,
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05:18
and I generally took precautions
to minimize the risk that sex carries.
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通常我都采取预防措施,
以尽量减小性病风险。
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Now, I say generally,
because I wasn't always safe.
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我说通常,是因为
并没有确保每一次都安全。
05:27
It only takes a single misstep
before we're flat on the ground,
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而摔倒在地只需要迈错一步而已,
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and my misstep is pretty obvious.
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我迈错的那一步很简单,
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I had unprotected sex,
and I didn't think much of it.
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发生了未加保护的性行为,
而我也并没有多想。
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Fast-forward about three weeks,
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大概三周之后,
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and it felt like I'd been trampled
by a herd of wildebeest.
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我感觉像被牛群踩过一样。
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The aches in my body were
like nothing I have felt before or since.
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身体的疼痛是在那之前或之后
都从未经历过的。
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I would get these bouts
of fever and chill.
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我出现了发烧和寒颤,
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I would reel with nausea,
and it was difficult to walk.
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恶心呕吐,走路都困难。
05:53
Being a biology student,
I had some prior exposure to disease,
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作为生物专业的学生,
我以前接触过疾病,
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and being a fairly informed gay man,
I had read a bit on HIV,
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而且作为知识丰富的男同性恋,
我也读过关于HIV的文章,
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so to me, it clicked
that this was seroconversion,
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所以我知道,这是一种血清转化,
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or as it's sometimes called,
acute HIV infection.
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或者有时叫做急性HIV感染。
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And this is the body's reaction
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这是人体对HIV抗原
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in producing antibodies
to the HIV antigen.
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产生抗体的反应。
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It's important to note that not everybody
goes through this phase of sickness,
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重点是要了解,并不是每个人
都经历这个发病阶段,
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but I was one of the lucky ones who did.
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而我是经历了
该发病阶段的幸运者之一。
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And I was lucky as in,
there were these physical symptoms
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我很幸运是因为,这些身体症状
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that let me know, hey, something is wrong,
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在告诉我,嘿,出问题了,
06:25
and it let me detect
the virus pretty early.
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并让我早点去做病毒检测。
06:29
So just to clarify,
just to hit the nail on head,
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所以就为了确认,
为了被一针见血地告知,
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I got tested on campus.
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我在学校做了测试。
06:35
And they said they would call me
the next morning with the results,
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他们先说第二天早上
会打电话告诉我结果,
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and they called me,
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然而当他们给我打电话时,
06:41
but they asked me to come in
and speak to the doctor on staff.
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叫我本人到场与医生谈谈。
06:44
And the reaction I received from her
wasn't what I was expecting.
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医生对我的反应我并没意料到。
06:49
She reassured me what I already knew,
that this wasn't a death sentence,
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她确认了我已经知道的事实,
这并不是死刑,
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and she even offered
to put me in contact with her brother,
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她甚至愿意让我联系她哥哥——
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who had been living with HIV
since the early '90s.
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一个从90年代初期开始携带HIV的人。
06:59
I declined her offer,
but I was deeply touched.
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我拒绝了她的好意,但深受感动。
07:03
I was expecting to be reprimanded.
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我所预期的是被谴责。
07:05
I was expecting pity and disappointment,
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我在等着的是怜悯和失望,
但我看到的是同情和人性温暖,
07:08
and I was shown compassion
and human warmth,
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07:11
and I'm forever grateful
for that first exchange.
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我永远感激这第一次的交流。
07:15
So obviously for a few weeks,
I was a physical mess.
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当然,之后的几个星期,
我的身体状况一塌糊涂。
07:20
Emotionally, mentally, I was doing OK.
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但在情绪上、心理上,我还好。
07:22
I was taking it well.
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我接受了这个事实。
07:24
But my body was ravaged,
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但是我的身体备受折磨,
07:26
and those close to me,
they weren't oblivious.
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而我身边的人还不知道。
07:29
So I sat my roommates down,
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所以我请室友们坐下,
07:31
and I let them know
I'd been diagnosed with HIV,
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告诉他们我已经被
诊断出感染了HIV,
07:34
that I was about to receive treatment,
and I didn't want them to worry.
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我正要接受治疗,
也希望他们不要担心。
我还记得他们脸上的表情。
07:39
And I remember the look on their faces.
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07:42
They were holding each other
on the couch and they were crying,
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他们在沙发上互相抱着哭,
07:45
and I consoled them.
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我就安慰他们。
07:46
I consoled them about my own bad news,
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这是我自己的悲催消息,
我却在安慰他们,
07:49
but it was heartwarming
to see that they cared.
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但看到他们在乎我,
是很温暖的感觉。
07:53
But from that night, I noticed a shift
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但从那天晚上开始,我注意到
07:56
in the way that I was treated at home.
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他们在家对待我的方式变了。
07:59
My roommates wouldn't
touch anything of mine,
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室友们不碰我的东西,
08:01
and they wouldn't eat
anything I had cooked.
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也不吃我煮的饭。
08:04
Now, in South Louisiana,
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可是,在南路易斯安那州,
08:07
we all know that you don't refuse food.
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我们都知道,没人拒绝食物。
08:09
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
08:10
And I'm a damn good cook,
so don't think that passed me by.
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而我是个超棒的厨师,
所以不要以为是我厨艺差。
08:13
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
08:16
But from these first silent hints,
their aversion got gradually more obvious
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但从这些最初的沉默暗示开始,
他们的厌恶变得越来越明显,
08:20
and more offensive.
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也越来越无礼。
08:22
I was asked to move my toothbrush
from the bathroom,
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他们让我把牙刷从洗手间拿走,
08:26
I was asked to not share towels,
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让我不要共用毛巾,
08:28
and I was even asked
to wash my clothes on a hotter setting.
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甚至让我洗衣服时设置更高的温度。
08:32
This wasn't head lice, y'all.
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嘿,这不是头虱,
08:34
This wasn't scabies. This was HIV.
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这也不是疥疮,这是HIV。
08:36
It can be transmitted through blood,
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它的传播渠道是血液、
08:39
sexual fluids like semen or vaginal fluids
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诸如精液或阴道液的体液、
和母乳。
08:42
and breast milk.
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08:43
Since I wasn't sleeping with my roommates,
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既然我没有与室友上床,
08:46
I wasn't breastfeeding them --
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也没有给他们母乳喂养——
08:48
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
08:49
and we weren't reenacting "Twilight,"
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我们也没有重演“暮光之城”,
08:51
I was of no risk to them
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我对他们完全没有危险,
08:53
and I made this aware to them,
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我也明确告诉了他们,
08:56
but still, this discomfort, it continued,
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但是,这种不适仍在继续,
08:58
until eventually I was asked to move out.
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直到最后我被要求搬出去。
09:01
And I was asked to move out
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我被要求搬出去,
09:03
because one of my roommates
had shared my status with her parents.
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因为其中一个室友把
我的状况告诉了她父母。
09:06
She shared my personal
medical information to strangers.
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她把我的个人医疗信息
告诉给陌生人。
09:13
And now I'm doing that
in a roomful of 300 of y'all,
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虽然现在我正与你们300人分享,
09:16
but at the time, this was not
something I was comfortable with,
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但那时的分享让我很不舒服,
09:20
and they expressed their discomfort
with their daughter living with me.
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他们对女儿与我在
同一屋檐下表示不安。
09:25
So being gay, raised
in a religious household
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作为同性恋,
在宗教家庭中长大,
09:27
and living in the South,
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生活在南方,
09:29
discrimination wasn't new to me.
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歧视对我来说并不陌生。
09:31
But this form was,
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但是这种形式是陌生的,
09:34
and it was tremendously disappointing
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而且是非常令人失望的,
因为它来自一个不太可能的来源。
09:36
because it came
from such an unlikely source.
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09:40
Not only were these
college-educated people,
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这些人不仅受过大学教育,
09:43
not only were they other members
of the LGBT community,
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不仅是LGBT社群的成员,
09:47
but they were also my friends.
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而且他们还是我的朋友。
09:50
So I did. I moved out
at the end of the semester.
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所以我认了。
我在学期末搬出去了。
09:53
But it wasn't to appease them.
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但那不是为了让他们满意。
09:55
It was out of respect for myself.
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那是出于对我自己的尊重。
09:58
I wasn't going to subject myself to people
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我没打算屈服于那些
10:00
who were unwilling
to remedy their ignorance,
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不愿意补救自己无知的人,
10:03
and I wasn't going to let something
that was now a part of me
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也不会让这已经进入我生命的东西
10:06
ever be used as a tool against me.
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被当作工具来敌视我。
10:09
So I opted for transparency
about my status,
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所以我选择将自己的状态透明化,
永远可见。
10:13
always being visible.
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10:15
And this is what I like to call
being the everyday advocate.
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这就是我所说的
做个日常倡导者。
这种透明的重点,
这个日常倡导的重点,
10:19
The point of this transparency,
the point of this everyday advocacy,
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10:23
was to dispel ignorance,
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是消除无知,
10:25
and ignorance is a very scary word.
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无知是一个非常可怕的词。
10:28
We don't want to be seen as ignorant,
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我们不想被视为无知者,
10:30
and we definitely
don't want to be called it.
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我们也绝对不希望被称为无知者。
10:33
But ignorance is not
synonymous with stupid.
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但无知跟愚蠢不一样。
10:36
It's not the inability to learn.
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无知不是学习能力的缺失。
10:38
It's the state you're in before you learn.
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它是你学会之前的状态。
10:42
So when I saw someone
coming from a place of ignorance,
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所以每当我看到无知的人,
10:45
I saw an opportunity for them to learn.
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我看到的是他们学习的机会。
10:48
And hopefully, if I could
spread some education,
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希望是,如果我能传播一点教育,
10:51
then I could mitigate
situations for others
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那么我可以帮助别人
10:54
like I had experienced with my roommates
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减轻我与我室友经历的状况,
10:56
and save someone else
down the line that humiliation.
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在羞耻的队列里拯救某人。
11:00
So the reactions I received
haven't been all positive.
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我收到的反馈并不全是正面的。
11:05
Here in the South,
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在南部这里,
我们背负很多污名,
因为宗教压力,
11:07
we have a lot stigma
due to religious pressures,
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11:10
our lack of a comprehensive sex education
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因为缺乏全面的性教育,
11:13
and our general conservative outlook
on anything sexual.
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以及对涉及性的一切
持有的普遍保守观念。
11:16
We view this as a gay disease.
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我们把这当作同性恋疾病。
11:19
Globally, most new HIV infections
occur between heterosexual partners,
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世界上大多数新的HIV感染
发生在异性伴侣之间,
在美国,女性,特别是有色女性
11:24
and here in the States,
women, especially women of color,
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11:26
are at an increased risk.
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的风险正在增加。
11:28
This is not a gay disease.
It never has been.
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这不是同性恋疾病。
它从来都不是。
11:31
It's a disease we should
all be concerned with.
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这是一个所有人都应该
关心的疾病。
11:35
So initially, I felt limited.
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最初,我感到了局限。
11:38
I wanted to expand my scope
and reach beyond what was around me.
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我想扩大我的范围,
超越我周围的环境。
11:43
So naturally,
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很自然地,
11:46
I turned to the dark underworld
of online dating apps,
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我转向在线约会应用程序
的阴暗地下世界,
11:49
to apps like Grindr,
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像Grindr这样的应用程序,
11:52
and for those of you who are unfamiliar,
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对于那些不熟悉的人,
11:54
these are dating apps
targeted towards gay men.
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这些是针对同性恋男子的
约会应用程序。
11:56
You can upload a profile and a picture
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这里可以上传个人资料和照片,
11:58
and it will show you
available guys within a radius.
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它会显示一定距离内可以约的人。
你们大概听说过Tinder。
12:01
Y'all have probably heard of Tinder.
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12:03
Grindr has been around for a lot longer,
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Grindr存在的时间长得多,
12:05
since it was much harder
to meet your future gay husband
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因为在教堂或小商店遇见,
或异性恋会用手机约会之前
12:08
at church or the grocery store,
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使用的任何方法,
12:10
or whatever straight people did
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对于遇见你未来的同性恋丈夫,
12:12
before they found out
they could date on their phones.
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难度都很大。
12:15
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
12:16
So on Grindr, if you liked
what you saw or read,
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所以在Grindr上,如果你
看到喜欢的照片或文字,
12:19
you could send someone a message,
you can meet up, you can do other things.
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可以给他发个短信,
可以见面,也可以做别的事情。
12:23
So on my profile,
I obviously stated that I had HIV,
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在我的简介中,
我明确表示我有HIV,
12:27
I was undetectable, and I welcomed
questions about my status.
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但处于检测不到的状态,
并且欢迎就我的状况提问。
12:32
And I received a lot of questions
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我收到了许多问题
12:34
and a lot of comments,
both positive and negative.
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和很多意见,
既有正面的也有负面的。
12:37
And I want to start with the negative,
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我想先说负面的,
12:40
just to frame some of this ignorance
that I've mentioned before.
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只是为了阐明一些我之前
提到的这种无知。
12:44
And most of these negative comments
were passing remarks or assumptions.
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这些负面评论的大部分
传递的是评论或假设。
12:48
They would assume things
about my sex life or my sex habits.
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他们会假设我的性生活或
我的性行为习惯。
12:52
They would assume
I put myself or others at risk.
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他们会假设我把自己
或他人置于危险之中。
12:55
But very often I would just be met
with these passing ignorant remarks.
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但是很多时候,我只是收到
这些无知的言论。
12:59
In the gay community,
it's common to hear the word "clean"
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在同性恋群体中,
当你提到HIV阴性的人时,
13:03
when you're referring to someone
who is HIV negative.
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常听到“干净”这个词。
13:06
Of course the flip side to that
is being unclean, or dirty,
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当然,如果你有HIV,
那么就是它的反面,
13:10
when you do have HIV.
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“不洁”或者肮脏。
13:11
Now, I'm not sensitive
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我不是敏感,
13:13
and I'm only truly dirty
after a day in the field,
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也只有在地里忙一天之后
我才真的会脏,
13:17
but this is damaging language.
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但这是一种破坏性的语言。
13:19
This is a community-driven stigma
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这是一个由群体驱动的污名,
13:21
that keeps many gay men
from disclosing their status,
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让很多同性恋者不愿透漏身份,
13:24
and it keeps those newly diagnosed
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让新诊断出来的人
13:26
from seeking support
within their own community,
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不敢在他们自己的群体里寻求支持,
13:28
and I find that truly distressing.
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我对此深感痛心。
13:31
But thankfully, the positive responses
have been a lot more numerous,
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不过要感谢的是,
正面回应的数量多得多,
13:35
and they came from guys who were curious.
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都是来自好奇的人们。
13:37
And they were curious
about the risks of transmission,
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而且他们对传播的风险感到好奇,
13:40
or what exactly "undetectable" meant,
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或者好奇“检测不到”具体什么意思,
13:43
or where they could get tested,
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或者是去哪可以做检测,
13:45
or some guys would ask me
about my experiences,
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有些人会询问我的经历,
13:47
and I could share my story with them.
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我也可以和他们分享我的故事。
13:49
But most importantly,
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但最重要的是,
13:52
I would get approached by guys
who were newly diagnosed with HIV
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我也会接触到刚刚诊断出HIV的人,
13:56
and they were scared, and they were alone,
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他们害怕,孤立无助,
13:58
and they didn't know
what step to take next.
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不知道下一步怎么办。
14:01
They didn't want to tell their family,
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他们不想告诉家里人,
14:03
they didn't want to tell their friends
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不想告诉朋友,
14:05
and they felt damaged,
and they felt dirty.
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他们觉得被毁了,觉得自己很脏。
14:09
And I did whatever I could
to immediately calm them,
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我尽一切可能让他们立即冷静下来,
14:12
and then I would put them in contact
with AcadianaCares,
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然后让他们与AcadianaCares联系,
14:15
which is a wonderful resource
we have in our community
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那是我们社区具备的很棒的资源,
14:18
for those with HIV.
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为HIV感染者服务。
14:20
And I'd put them in contact
with people I knew personally
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而且我让他们和我
私下认识的人联系,
14:23
so that they could not only
have this safe space to feel human again,
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让他们不但有安全的空间
可以重整心情,
14:27
but so they could also have
the resources they needed
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还拥有所需的资源
14:30
in affording their treatment.
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来负担治疗。
14:32
And this was by far
the most humbling aspect
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这是迄今为止我的透明化
14:35
of my transparency,
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带来的最普及的方面,
14:37
that I could have some positive impact
on those who were suffering like I did,
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我还可以给像我一样痛苦过
的人带来积极影响,
14:42
that I could help those
who were in the dark,
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我可以帮助那些身处黑暗中的人,
14:45
because I had been there,
and it wasn't a good place to be.
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因为我也曾经历过,
那不好过。
14:49
These guys came from
all different backgrounds,
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这些人来自各种不同的背景,
14:51
and many of them
weren't as informed as I had been,
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他们很多人并不像我一样懂很多,
14:54
and they were coming to me
from a place of fear.
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他们是带着恐惧来找我的。
14:57
Some of these people I knew personally,
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一部分人与我私下相识,
14:59
or they knew of me,
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或者他们知道我,
15:01
but many more, they were anonymous.
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但更多的人是匿名的。
15:03
They were these blank profiles
who were too afraid to show their faces
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他们的身份档案一片空白,
对我说出实情后又不敢露脸的人。
15:07
after what they had told me.
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15:09
And on the topic of transparency,
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关于透明度的话题,
15:12
I want to leave y'all with a few thoughts.
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我想留下几点想法。
15:14
I found that with whatever risk
or gamble I took
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我发现,公开自己的身份,
无论有多冒险或孤注一掷,
15:18
in putting my face out there,
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相比我收到的任何
负面评价、任何抨击,
15:20
it was well worth any negative comment,
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15:22
any flak I received,
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都是很值的,
15:24
because I felt I was able to make
this real and this tangible impact.
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因为我觉得自己能够
做出真正的、切实的影响。
15:29
And it showed me that our efforts resound,
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它也表明,我们的努力是有回报的,
15:32
that we can alter the lives
that we encounter for the good,
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去善意改变我们遇到的生命,
15:36
and they in turn can take that momentum
and push it even further.
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他们也会接受那份动力,
并把它推得更高。
15:40
And if any of you or anyone you know
is dealing with HIV,
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如果你或你认识的任何人
正在对抗HIV,
15:44
or if you want to see what resources
you have in your community,
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或者你想了解你的社群中有哪些资源,
15:47
or just educate yourself
more on the disease,
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或者只想多了解点这种疾病,
15:50
here are some wonderful national sites
that you can access
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那么可以访问这些
很棒的全国网站,
15:53
and you are more than welcome
to find me after this talk
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也欢迎在演讲之后找我,
15:56
and ask me anything you'd like.
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问我任何你想问的问题。
我们都听过“透过树木看见森林”,
15:59
We've all heard the phrase
"to see the forest through the trees,"
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16:03
so I implore all of you here to really
see the human through the disease.
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所以我在这里恳请大家
透过疾病看见人性。
16:09
It's a very easy thing
to see numbers and statistics
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看到数字和统计数据时,
16:13
and only see the perceived dangers.
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很容易只看到已知的危险。
16:16
It's a much harder thing to see
all the faces behind those numbers.
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而看见那些数字背后的
面孔要难得多。
16:22
So when you find yourself
thinking those things, those words,
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所以,当你发现自己
在想着那些事,那些词语,
16:25
what you might have thought
looking at David Kirby,
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那些看着大卫·柯比会想起的东西,
16:28
I ask you instead,
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我请你,
16:31
think son,
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想想儿子,
16:33
or think brother,
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或想想兄弟,
16:35
think friend
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想想朋友,
16:37
and most importantly, think human.
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最重要的,想想人类。
16:40
Seek education when faced with ignorance,
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当面对无知时,寻求教育,
16:43
and always be mindful,
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时刻保持警觉,
16:45
and always be compassionate.
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始终富有同情心。
16:48
Thank you.
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谢谢。
16:49
(Applause)
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(掌声)
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