Our treatment of HIV has advanced. Why hasn't the stigma changed? | Arik Hartmann

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์•„๋ž˜ ์˜๋ฌธ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ”ํด๋ฆญํ•˜์‹œ๋ฉด ์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.

00:00
So I want to start this talk by showing y'all a photo,
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๋ฒˆ์—ญ: Dohye Kim ๊ฒ€ํ† : Seungho Lee
์ €๋Š” ํ•œ ์žฅ์˜ ์‚ฌ์ง„๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์ด ๊ฐ•์—ฐ์„ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ•˜๋ ค๊ณ  ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ยถ
00:04
and it's a photo many of you have probably seen before.
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์•„๋งˆ๋„ ์ด๋ฏธ ๋งŽ์€ ๋ถ„๋“ค์ด ๋ณด์‹  ์  ์žˆ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
00:08
So I want you all to take a moment
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋ฉด ์ž ์‹œ ์‹œ๊ฐ„์„ ๊ฐ–๊ณ 
00:10
and look at this photo,
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์ด ์‚ฌ์ง„์„ ๋ด์ฃผ์„ธ์š”.
00:12
and really reflect on some of the things that come to mind,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐ๋‚˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์„ ๋˜์งš์–ด๋ณด์„ธ์š”.
00:16
and what are some of those things, those words.
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๋– ์˜ค๋ฅด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๋“ค, ๋‹จ์–ด๋“ค์„ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด๋ณด์„ธ์š”.
00:19
Now, I'm going to ask you all to look at me.
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์ด์ œ, ๋ชจ๋‘ ์ €๋ฅผ ๋ด ์ฃผ์„ธ์š”
00:24
What words come to mind when you look at me?
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์ €๋ฅผ ๋ณด๋ฉด ์–ด๋–ค ๋‹จ์–ด๊ฐ€ ๋– ์˜ค๋ฅด๋‚˜์š”?
00:28
What separates that man up there
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์‚ฌ์ง„ ์†์˜ ๋‚จ์ž์™€
00:31
from me?
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์ €๋ฅผ ๊ตฌ๋ถ„์ง“๋Š” ๊ฑด ๋ญ”๊ฐ€์š”?
00:34
The man in that photo is named David Kirby
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์‚ฌ์ง„ ์† ๋‚จ์ž์˜ ์ด๋ฆ„์€ David Kirby์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:36
and it was taken in 1990 as he was dying from AIDS-related illness,
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๋•Œ๋Š” 1990๋…„, ๊ทธ๋Š” AIDS ๊ด€๋ จ ๋ณ‘์œผ๋กœ ์ฃฝ์–ด๊ฐ€๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:40
and it was subsequently published in "Life Magazine."
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ํ›„์— "Life Magazine"์— ์‹ค๋ฆฌ์ฃ .
00:43
The only real thing separating me from Kirby
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์ €์™€ Kirby๋ฅผ ๊ตฌ๋ถ„์ง“๋Š” ์œ ์ผํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์€
00:47
is about 30 years of medical advancements in the way that we treat HIV and AIDS.
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HIV์™€ AIDS๋ฅผ ์น˜๋ฃŒํ•˜๋Š” 30๋…„์˜ ์ง„๋ณด๋œ ์˜ํ•™ ๊ธฐ์ˆ ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:53
So what I want to ask next is this:
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด์–ด ๋ง์”€๋“œ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์‹ถ์€ ๊ฒƒ์€
00:58
If we have made such exponential progress
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ HIV๋ฅผ ์น˜๋ฃŒํ•˜๋Š” ๋ฐ์— ์žˆ์–ด์„œ
01:00
in combatting HIV,
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์—„์ฒญ๋‚œ ๋ฐœ์ „์„ ์ด๋ฃจ์—ˆ์Œ์—๋„
01:02
why haven't our perceptions of those with the virus evolved alongside?
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์™œ HIV์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์ธ์‹์€ ๋‹ฌ๋ผ์ง€์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์„๊นŒ์š”?
01:07
Why does HIV elicit this reaction from us when it's so easily managed?
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HIV๋ฅผ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ๋‚˜ ์‰ฝ๊ฒŒ ๊ด€๋ฆฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”๋ฐ๋„. ์™œ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” HIV์— ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ฐ˜์‘ํ• ๊นŒ์š”?
01:13
When did the stigmatization even occur,
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๋‚™์ธ์ด ์ฐํžŒ ๊ฒƒ์€ ์–ธ์ œ๋ถ€ํ„ฐ์ด๊ณ ,
01:17
and why hasn't it subsided?
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์™œ ์ด๋Ÿฐ ์ธ์‹์€ ์ง„์ •๋˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์„๊นŒ์š”?
01:20
And these are not easy questions to answer.
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์ด ์งˆ๋ฌธ๋“ค์€ ๋ชจ๋‘ ๋Œ€๋‹ตํ•˜๊ธฐ ์–ด๋ ค์šด ์งˆ๋ฌธ๋“ค์ด์—์š”
01:24
They're the congealing of so many different factors and ideas.
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์š”์ธ๋“ค๊ณผ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋“ค์ด ์—‰๊ฒจ๋ถ™์–ด ํ•˜๋‚˜๋กœ ๊ตณ์–ด์กŒ๊ฑฐ๋“ ์š”.
01:27
Powerful images, like this one of Kirby,
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KIrby์˜ ์‚ฌ์ง„๊ณผ ๊ฐ™์€ ๊ฐ•๋ ฅํ•œ ์ด๋ฏธ์ง€๋“ค,
01:30
these were the faces of the AIDS crisis in the '80s and '90s,
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์ด๋Ÿฐ ์ด๋ฏธ์ง€๋“ค์€ 80๋…„๋Œ€์™€ 90๋…„๋Œ€์˜ AIDS ์œ„๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ ˆ์˜ ๋ชจ์Šต์ด์—์š”.
01:33
and at the time the crisis had a very obvious impact
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ๋‹น์‹œ ์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ์œ„๊ธฐ๋Š” ์•„์ฃผ ๋ถ„๋ช…ํ•œ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ๋ฏธ์ณค์–ด์š”.
01:36
on an already stigmatized group of people,
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์ด๋ฏธ ๋‚™์ธ์ฐํžŒ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ์š”.
01:38
and that was gay men.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ๊ฒŒ์ด ๋‚จ์ž๋“ค์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”
01:40
So what the general straight public saw was this very awful thing
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์ผ๋ฐ˜์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋Œ€์ค‘์˜ ๋ˆˆ์— ์ง์ ‘ ๋ณด์ด๋Š” ๊ฑด
01:45
happening to a group of people who were already on the fringes of society.
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์ด๋ฏธ ์‚ฌํšŒ์—์„œ ์†Œ์™ธ๋œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์—๊ฒŒ ์ƒ๊ธฐ๋Š” ๋”์ฐํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
01:50
The media at the time began to use the two almost interchangeably --
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๊ทธ ๋‹น์‹œ์˜ ๋ฏธ๋””์–ด๋Š” ๋‘ ๋‹จ์–ด๋ฅผ ๊ฑฐ์˜ ๊ฐ™์€ ๋ง๋กœ ์“ฐ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
01:53
gay and AIDS --
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๊ฒŒ์ด์™€ ์—์ด์ฆˆ
01:55
and at the 1984 Republican National Convention,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  1984๋…„, ๊ณตํ™”๋‹น ์ „๋‹น๋Œ€ํšŒ์—์„œ ๋ˆ„๊ตฐ๊ฐ€๋Š” ๋†๋‹ด์œผ๋กœ,
01:58
one of the speakers joked that gay stood for: "Got AIDS yet?"
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๊ฒŒ์ด(Gay)์˜ ๋œป์ด "์—์ด์ฆˆ ์•„์ง ์•ˆ ๊ฑธ๋ ธ๋‚˜(Got Aids Yet)?"๋ผ๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:03
And that was the mindset at the time.
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๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ๋‹น์‹œ์˜ ์‚ฌ๊ณ ๋ฐฉ์‹์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:06
But as we started to understand the virus more
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์—์ด์ฆˆ ๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด์„œ,
02:09
and how it was transmitted,
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๋˜ ์—์ด์ฆˆ๊ฐ€ ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ์ „์—ผ๋˜๋Š”์ง€์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋” ๋งŽ์ด ์•Œ๊ฒŒ ๋˜์ž,
02:10
we realized that that risk had increased its territory.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์‚ฌ๊ณ ๋ฐฉ์‹์ด ๊ฐ€์ง€๋Š” ์œ„ํ—˜์„ฑ์ด ์ปค์กŒ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ๊ฒŒ ๋์–ด์š”.
02:15
The highly profiled case of Ryan White in 1985,
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1985๋…„์—๋Š” ์„ธ๊ฐ„์˜ ์ฃผ๋ชฉ์„ ๋ฐ›์€ ์‚ฌ๊ฑด์ด ์ผ์–ด๋‚ฌ์–ด์š”.
02:19
who was a 13-year-old hemophiliac
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Ryan White๋ผ๋Š” 13์‚ด์งœ๋ฆฌ ํ˜ˆ์šฐ๋ณ‘ ํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€
02:21
who had contracted HIV from a contaminated blood treatment,
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์˜ค์—ผ๋œ ํ˜ˆ์•ก ์น˜๋ฃŒ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์— HIV์— ๊ฑธ๋ ธ์–ด์š”.
02:24
and this marked the most profound shift in America's perception of HIV.
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์ด ์ผ์€ HIV์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ๋ฏธ๊ตญ์˜ ์ธ์‹์„ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ๋งŽ์ด ๋ฐ”๊ฟจ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:30
No longer was it restricted to these dark corners of society,
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๋” ์ด์ƒ ์‚ฌํšŒ์˜ ์–ด๋‘์šด ๋ถ€๋ถ„,
02:34
to queers and drug users,
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์ฆ‰, ํ€ด์–ด๋‚˜ ์•ฝ๋ฌผ ์ค‘๋…์ž์—๊ฒŒ๋งŒ ๊ตญํ•œ๋œ ๊ฒƒ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
02:36
but now it was affecting people
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์‚ฌํšŒ๊ฐ€ ๋ชจ๋‘ ์†Œ์ค‘ํžˆ ์—ฌ๊ธฐ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ
02:37
that society deemed worthy of their empathy,
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์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ๋ฏธ์น˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:40
to children.
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๋ฐ”๋กœ ์•„์ด๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ์š”.
02:42
But that permeating fear and that perception, it still lingers.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์Šค๋ฉฐ๋“  ๊ณตํฌ์™€ ๊ทธ ์ธ์‹์€ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ์—๊ฒŒ ๊ณ„์† ๋‚จ์•„ ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:47
And I want a show of hands for these next few questions.
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๋ช‡ ๊ฐ€์ง€ ์งˆ๋ฌธ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๊ฑฐ์ˆ˜๋กœ ๋‹ต ํ•ด์ฃผ์…จ์œผ๋ฉด ์ข‹๊ฒ ์–ด์š”.
02:50
How many of you in here were aware that with treatment,
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ์ค‘์—์„œ HIV ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์œผ๋ฉด
02:54
those with HIV not only fend off AIDS completely,
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AIDS๋ฅผ ์™„์ „ํžˆ ๋ง‰์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„ ๋ฟ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
02:57
but they live full and normal lives?
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์™„์ „ํžˆ ์ •์ƒ์ ์ธ ์‚ถ์„ ์‚ฐ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์•Œ๊ณ  ๊ณ„์‹ ๋ถ„ ์žˆ๋‚˜์š”?
03:02
Y'all are educated.
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ๋ชจ๋‘ ์ž˜ ๋ฐฐ์šฐ์…จ๋„ค์š”.
03:03
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
03:04
How many of you are aware that with treatment,
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ์ค‘์—์„œ HIVํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€ ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์œผ๋ฉด
03:07
those with HIV can reach an undetectable status,
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๊ฒ‰๋ณด๊ธฐ์— ์•„๋ฌด๋Ÿฐ ๋ฌธ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์—†๋Š” ์ƒํƒœ๊ฐ€ ๋  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๊ณ ,
03:10
and that makes them virtually uninfectious?
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์‚ฌ์‹ค์ƒ ์ „์—ผ๋˜์ง€ ์•Š๋„๋ก ๋งŒ๋“ ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์•Œ๊ณ  ๊ณ„์‹  ๋ถ„ ์žˆ๋‚˜์š”?
03:15
Much less.
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ํ›จ์”ฌ ์ ์–ด์กŒ์ฃ .
03:16
How many of you were aware of the pre- and postexposure treatments
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ์ค‘์—์„œ ๊ฐ์—ผ ์œ„ํ—˜์„ 90ํผ์„ผํŠธ๋‚˜ ์ค„์ผ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”
03:21
that are available that reduce the risk of transmission
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์‚ฌ์ „ ์กฐ์น˜ ํ˜น์€ ์‚ฌํ›„ ์น˜๋ฃŒ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ
03:23
by over 90 percent?
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03:27
See, these are incredible advancements that we have made in fighting HIV,
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๋ณด์…จ์ฃ ? ์ด๊ฒƒ์ด HIV์™€ ์‹ธ์šฐ๋ฉด์„œ ์ด๋ค„๋‚ธ ๋†€๋ผ์šด ๋ฐœ์ „์ด์—์š”.
03:31
yet they have not managed to dent the perception
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์—ฌ์ „ํžˆ HIV ๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค์™€ ๊ฐ์—ผ๋œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด์„œ
03:34
that most Americans have of the virus and those living with it.
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๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์˜ ๋ฏธ๊ตญ์ธ๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€์ง„ ์ธ์‹์— ๋งŽ์€ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ๋ฏธ์น˜์ง„ ๋ชปํ–ˆ์ง€๋งŒ์š”.
03:38
And I don't want you to think I'm downplaying the danger of this virus,
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์ด ๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค์˜ ์œ„ํ—˜์„ฑ์„ ๋ฌด์‹œํ•˜๋ ค๋Š” ๊ฒŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—์š”.
03:44
and I am not ignorant of the harrowing past of the AIDS epidemic.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์—์ด์ฆˆ๊ฐ€ ํผ์ ธ์žˆ๋˜ ๋”์ฐํ•œ ๊ณผ๊ฑฐ๋ฅผ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๋„ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—์š”
03:48
I am trying to convey that there is hope for those infected
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์ €๋Š” ๊ฐ์—ผ๋œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ํฌ๋ง์ด ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๊ณผ
03:51
and HIV is not the death sentence it was in the '80s.
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HIV๊ฐ€ 80๋…„๋Œ€์™€๋Š” ๋‹ค๋ฅด๊ฒŒ ์ฃฝ์Œ์„ ์˜๋ฏธํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š๋Š”๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋งํ•˜๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด์š”.
03:55
And now you may ask, and I asked this question myself initially:
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๊ทธ๋Ÿผ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ฌผ์–ด๋ณด์‹œ๊ฒ ์ฃ . ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ฒ˜์Œ ์Šค์Šค๋กœ์—๊ฒŒ ๋ฌผ์—ˆ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ์š”.
03:59
Where are the stories?
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์™œ ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์–˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋ชป ๋“ค์—ˆ์ง€?
04:01
Where are these people living with HIV? Why haven't they been vocal?
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HIV์— ๊ฑธ๋ฆฐ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ์–ด๋”” ์žˆ์ง€? ์™œ ์•„๋ฌด๋„ ๋ง์ด ์—†์—ˆ์ง€?
04:05
How can I believe these successes, or these statistics,
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์น˜๋ฃŒ์— ์„ฑ๊ณตํ•œ ๊ฑธ ๋ณธ ์ ์ด ์—†๋Š”๋ฐ
04:09
without seeing the successes?
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์„ฑ๊ณตํ–ˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ์‹ค ํ˜น์€ ์ˆ˜์น˜๋ฅผ ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๋ฏฟ์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์ง€?
04:12
And this is actually a very easy question for me to answer.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด๊ฑด ์‚ฌ์‹ค ์ œ๊ฒŒ๋Š” ๋‹ต๋ณ€ํ•˜๊ธฐ ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ์‰ฌ์šด ์งˆ๋ฌธ์ด์—์š”
04:16
Fear, stigma and shame:
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๊ณตํฌ, ๋‚™์ธ, ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ˆ˜์น˜์Šค๋Ÿฌ์›€
04:20
these keep those living with HIV in the closet, so to speak.
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์ด๋Ÿฐ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์ด HIV ๊ฐ์—ผ์ž๋“ค์„, ๋งํ•˜์ž๋ฉด ์˜ท์žฅ ์†์— ๊ฐ€๋‘ฌ๋†จ์–ด์š”.
04:24
Our sexual histories are as personal to us as our medical histories,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์„ฑ ์ƒํ™œ์€ ๋ณ‘๋ ฅ ๋งŒํผ์ด๋‚˜ ์‚ฌ์ ์ธ ์˜์—ญ์ด์—์š”.
04:28
and when you overlap the two,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด ๋‘˜์„ ๊ฒน์ณ๋†“์œผ๋ฉด
04:29
you can find yourself in a very sensitive space.
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๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ์˜ˆ๋ฏผํ•œ ์˜์—ญ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ• ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:32
The fear of how others perceive us when we're honest
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์†”์งํ•˜๊ฒŒ ์–˜๊ธฐํ–ˆ์„ ๋•Œ ํƒ€์ธ์˜ ์‹œ์„ ์ด ๋‘๋ ค์›Œ์„œ
04:35
keeps us from doing many things in life,
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๋งŽ์€ ํ–‰๋™์— ์ œ์•ฝ์„ ๋ฐ›์ฃ .
04:38
and this is the case for the HIV-positive population.
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์ด๊ฒƒ์ด HIV์— ๊ฐ์—ผ๋œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ๋‚˜ํƒ€๋‚˜๋Š” ํ˜„์ƒ์ด์—์š”.
04:41
To face social scrutiny and ridicule is the price that we pay for transparency,
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์žˆ๋Š” ๊ทธ๋Œ€๋กœ ๋งํ•˜๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด์„œ๋Š” ์‚ฌํšŒ์  ์‹œ์„ ๊ณผ ์กฐ๋กฑ์„ ๋งˆ์ฃผํ•ด์•ผ ํ•ด์š”
04:47
and why become a martyr
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๊ทธ๋Ÿผ ์ˆœ๊ต์ž๊ฐ€ ๋  ์ด์œ ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๋‚˜์š”?
04:49
when you can effectively pass as someone without HIV?
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HIV์— ๊ฐ์—ผ๋˜์ง€ ์•Š์€ ์—ฌ๋Š ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์ง€๋‚˜์น  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”๋ฐ ๋ง์ด์ฃ .
04:53
After all, there are no physical indications you have the virus.
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์‚ฌ์‹ค, HIV ๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค๋Š” ์‹ ์ฒด์  ๋ณ€ํ™”๋ฅผ ์ผ์œผํ‚ค์ง€ ์•Š์•„์š”.
04:56
There's no sign that you wear.
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๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ์ง•ํ›„๊ฐ€ ์—†์ฃ .
05:00
There is safety in assimilation,
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๋™ํ™”๋˜์ง€๋„ ์•Š๊ณ ,
05:02
and there is safety in invisibility.
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๋ณด์ด์ง€๋„ ์•Š์ฃ .
05:06
I'm here to throw back that veil and share my story.
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์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ๊ธฐ์„œ ๊ทธ ๋ฒ ์ผ์„ ๋ฒ—๊ธฐ๊ณ  ์ œ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋“ค๋ ค๋“œ๋ฆฌ๋ ค๊ณ  ํ•ด์š”.
05:11
So in the fall of 2014, I was a sophomore in college
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2014๋…„ ๊ฐ€์„ ์ €๋Š” ๋Œ€ํ•™๊ต 2ํ•™๋…„์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:15
and like most college students, I was sexually active,
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๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๋Œ€ํ•™์ƒ๋“ค์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์„ฑ์š•์ด ์™•์„ฑํ–ˆ์ฃ .
05:18
and I generally took precautions to minimize the risk that sex carries.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋ณดํ†ต์€ ํ”ผ์ž„๋„ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”. ์„ฑ๊ด€๊ณ„๋กœ ์ธํ•œ ์œ„ํ—˜์„ ์ค„์ด๋ ค๊ณ ์š”.
05:23
Now, I say generally, because I wasn't always safe.
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๋ณดํ†ต์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ํ•œ ์ด์œ ๋Š” ํ•ญ์ƒ ์•ˆ์ „ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ•˜์ง€๋Š” ์•Š์•˜๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด์—์š”.
05:27
It only takes a single misstep before we're flat on the ground,
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๋ฐœ์„ ์ž˜๋ชป ๋””๋ŽŒ ๋ฐ”๋‹ฅ์— ๋„˜์–ด์ง€๋Š” ๊ฑด ํ•œ ์ˆœ๊ฐ„์ด๋“ฏ
05:30
and my misstep is pretty obvious.
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์ œ ์‹ค์ˆ˜๋Š” ๋ป”ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:32
I had unprotected sex, and I didn't think much of it.
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์ „ ์ฝ˜๋”์„ ์‚ฌ์šฉํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๊ณ  ๋ณ„ ์‹ ๊ฒฝ์„ ์“ฐ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
05:35
Fast-forward about three weeks,
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3์ฃผ๊ฐ„์˜ ์ผ์„ ๋นจ๋ฆฌ ๊ฐ๊ธฐํ•ด๋ณด๋ฉด,
05:37
and it felt like I'd been trampled by a herd of wildebeest.
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์•ผ์ƒ ๋™๋ฌผ๋“ค ๋ฌด๋ฆฌ์— ์ง“๋ฐŸํžˆ๋Š” ๋Š๋‚Œ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:42
The aches in my body were like nothing I have felt before or since.
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์˜ˆ์ „์— ๋Š๊ปด๋ณด์ง€ ๋ชปํ•œ ํ†ต์ฆ์„ ๋Š๊ผˆ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ํ›„๋กœ๋„ ๋Š๋ผ์ง€ ๋ชปํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:46
I would get these bouts of fever and chill.
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ํ•œ๋ฐ”ํƒ• ์—ด์ด ๋‚˜๊ณ  ์˜คํ•œ์ด ๋“ค์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:49
I would reel with nausea, and it was difficult to walk.
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์†์ด ๋ฉ”์Šฅ๊ฑฐ๋ฆฌ๋ฉด์„œ ํœ˜์ฒญ๋Œ”๊ณ  ๊ฑท๊ธฐ๊ฐ€ ํž˜๋“ค์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:53
Being a biology student, I had some prior exposure to disease,
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์ €๋Š” ์ƒ๋ฌผํ•™ ์ „๊ณต์˜ ํ•™์ƒ์ด์—ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์— ์งˆ๋ณ‘์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋ฏธ๋ฆฌ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๊ณ 
05:57
and being a fairly informed gay man, I had read a bit on HIV,
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๊ฝค ์•„๋Š” ๊ฒŒ ๋งŽ์€ ๊ฒŒ์ด์˜€๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์— HIV์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์ฝ์€ ์ ๋„ ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
06:01
so to me, it clicked that this was seroconversion,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ „ ์ด๊ฒƒ์ด ํ˜ˆ์ฒญ์ „ํ™˜์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ์•˜์–ด์š”.
06:04
or as it's sometimes called, acute HIV infection.
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๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๋ง๋กœ ๊ธ‰์„ฑ HIV ๊ฐ์—ผ์ฆ์ด๋ผ๊ณ ๋„ ํ•˜์ฃ .
06:07
And this is the body's reaction
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด๊ฒƒ์€
06:09
in producing antibodies to the HIV antigen.
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HIV ํ•ญ์›์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ํ•ญ์ฒด๋ฅผ ๋งŒ๋“ค์–ด๋‚ด๋Š” ๋ฐ˜์‘์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
06:12
It's important to note that not everybody goes through this phase of sickness,
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์ค‘์š”ํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์€, ๋ชจ๋“  ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ด ์ด๋Ÿฐ ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์„ ๊ฒฝํ—˜ํ•˜์ง€๋Š” ์•Š์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:16
but I was one of the lucky ones who did.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ „ ์ด๋ฅผ ๊ฒฝํ—˜ํ•œ ์šด ์ข‹์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ ์ค‘ ํ•˜๋‚˜์˜€์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:19
And I was lucky as in, there were these physical symptoms
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์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ๋ชธ์˜ ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์ด
06:22
that let me know, hey, something is wrong,
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์ œ๊ฒŒ ๋ญ”๊ฐ€ ์ž˜๋ชป๋๋‹ค๊ณ  ์•Œ๋ ค์ฃผ์—ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:25
and it let me detect the virus pretty early.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด ๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค๋ฅผ ๊ฝค ์ผ์ฐ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๊ฒŒ ํ•ด ์ฃผ์—ˆ์ฃ .
06:29
So just to clarify, just to hit the nail on head,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ํ™•์‹คํžˆ ์•Œ๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด,
06:33
I got tested on campus.
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์ €๋Š” ๋Œ€ํ•™์—์„œ ๊ฒ€์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
06:35
And they said they would call me the next morning with the results,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋‹ค์Œ ๋‚  ์•„์นจ์— ๊ฒฐ๊ณผ๋ฅผ ์•Œ๋ ค์ฃผ๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
06:39
and they called me,
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์ œ๊ฒŒ ์ „ํ™”๊ฐ€ ์™”์ฃ .
06:41
but they asked me to come in and speak to the doctor on staff.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ๋ฐ ์ €๋ณด๊ณ  ํ•™๊ต์— ์žˆ๋Š” ์˜์‚ฌ์™€ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํ•ด ๋ณด๋ผ๊ณ  ํ•˜๋”๊ตฐ์š”.
06:44
And the reaction I received from her wasn't what I was expecting.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ๋…€์˜ ๋ฐ˜์‘์€ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์˜ˆ์ƒํ–ˆ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ๊ณผ ๋‹ฌ๋ž์–ด์š”.
06:49
She reassured me what I already knew, that this wasn't a death sentence,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ด๋ฏธ ์•Œ๋˜ ๋ง๋กœ ์•ˆ์‹ฌ์‹œ์ผฐ์–ด์š”. ์ด๊ฒŒ ์‚ฌํ˜• ์„ ๊ณ ๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„์š”.
06:53
and she even offered to put me in contact with her brother,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์‹ฌ์ง€์–ด ์ œ๊ฒŒ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ์˜ค๋น ์™€ ์—ฐ๋ฝํ•ด๋ณด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ œ์•ˆํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
06:56
who had been living with HIV since the early '90s.
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๊ทธ๋…€์˜ ์˜ค๋น ๋Š” 90๋…„๋Œ€ ์ดˆ๋ฐ˜๋ถ€ํ„ฐ HIV์— ๊ฑธ๋ ค ์‚ด์•„์™”๋˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
06:59
I declined her offer, but I was deeply touched.
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์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ ์ œ์•ˆ์„ ๊ฑฐ์ ˆํ–ˆ์ง€๋งŒ, ๋งˆ์Œ ์† ๊นŠ์ด ๊ฐ๋™๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
07:03
I was expecting to be reprimanded.
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์ €๋Š” ํ˜ผ๋‚  ์ค„ ์•Œ์•˜๊ฑฐ๋“ ์š”.
07:05
I was expecting pity and disappointment,
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์ €๋ฅผ ๋ถˆ์Œํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋ณด๊ณ , ์ œ๊ฒŒ ์‹ค๋งํ•  ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:08
and I was shown compassion and human warmth,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ง„์‹ฌ์–ด๋ฆฐ ์—ฐ๋ฏผ๊ณผ ์ธ๊ฐ„์ ์ธ ๋”ฐ๋œปํ•จ์„ ๋ณด์—ฌ์ฃผ์…จ์–ด์š”.
07:11
and I'm forever grateful for that first exchange.
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์ „ ๊ทธ ๋•Œ์˜ ์ฒซ ๋Œ€ํ™”๋ฅผ ์˜์›ํžˆ ๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•  ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
07:15
So obviously for a few weeks, I was a physical mess.
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์ดํ›„ ๋ช‡ ์ฃผ ๋™์•ˆ ๋‹น์—ฐํžˆ ์ œ ๋ชธ์€ ์—‰๋ง์ด ๋์–ด์š”.
07:20
Emotionally, mentally, I was doing OK.
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๊ฐ์ •์ ์œผ๋กœ, ์ •์‹ ์ ์œผ๋กœ๋Š” ๊ดœ์ฐฎ์•˜์–ด์š”.
07:22
I was taking it well.
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์ž˜ ๋ฐ›์•„๋“ค์ด๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์ฃ .
07:24
But my body was ravaged,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ œ ๋ชธ์€ ๋ง๊ฐ€์กŒ์–ด์š”.
07:26
and those close to me, they weren't oblivious.
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์ œ ์ฃผ์œ„ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ์˜์‹ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ชปํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:29
So I sat my roommates down,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ์ œ ๋ฃธ๋ฉ”์ดํŠธ๋ฅผ ์•‰ํ˜€๋†“๊ณ 
07:31
and I let them know I'd been diagnosed with HIV,
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HIV๋ฅผ ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์•˜๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋งํ•ด์คฌ์–ด์š”.
07:34
that I was about to receive treatment, and I didn't want them to worry.
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๊ณง ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์„ ๊ฒƒ์ด๊ณ  ๊ฑฑ์ •ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์œผ๋ฉด ์ข‹๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ ์š”.
07:39
And I remember the look on their faces.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ „ ๊ทธ ํ‘œ์ •๋“ค์ด ๊ธฐ์–ต๋‚˜์š”.
07:42
They were holding each other on the couch and they were crying,
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์†ŒํŒŒ์—์„œ ์„œ๋กœ๋ฅผ ๋ถ€๋‘ฅ์ผœ ์•ˆ๊ณ  ๊ฐ™์ด ์šธ๋”๋ผ๊ณ ์š”.
07:45
and I consoled them.
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์œ„๋กœํ•ด์คฌ์ฃ .
07:46
I consoled them about my own bad news,
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์ €์— ๊ด€ํ•œ ๋‚˜์œ ์†Œ์‹์ธ๋ฐ, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค์„ ์œ„๋กœํ•ด์ฃผ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:49
but it was heartwarming to see that they cared.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ €๋ฅผ ๊ฑฑ์ •ํ•ด์ฃผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋ณด๋‹ˆ ๋งˆ์Œ์ด ๋”ฐ๋œปํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:53
But from that night, I noticed a shift
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ ๋‚  ๋ฐค๋ถ€ํ„ฐ ์ „ ๋ญ”๊ฐ€ ๋ณ€ํ–ˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ์•˜์–ด์š”.
07:56
in the way that I was treated at home.
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์ง‘์—์„œ ์ €๋ฅผ ๋Œ€ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ฐฉ์‹์—์„œ์š”.
07:59
My roommates wouldn't touch anything of mine,
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์ œ ๋ฃธ๋ฉ”์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์ œ ๋ฌผ๊ฑด์€ ์•„์˜ˆ ๋งŒ์ง€๋ ค๊ณ  ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
08:01
and they wouldn't eat anything I had cooked.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์š”๋ฆฌํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์€ ๋จน์œผ๋ ค๊ณ  ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
08:04
Now, in South Louisiana,
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์ž, ๋ฃจ์ด์ง€์•„๋‚˜ ๋‚จ๋ถ€์—์„œ๋Š”
08:07
we all know that you don't refuse food.
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์•„์‹œ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์Œ์‹์€ ๊ฑฐ์ ˆํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•„์š”.
08:09
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
08:10
And I'm a damn good cook, so don't think that passed me by.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ „ ์ฃฝ์—ฌ์ฃผ๋Š” ์š”๋ฆฌ์‚ฌ์˜ˆ์š”. ๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‹ˆ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋ˆˆ์น˜ ๋ชป ์ฑŒ ๋ฆฌ ์—†์ฃ .
08:13
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
08:16
But from these first silent hints, their aversion got gradually more obvious
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ฒซ ์•”๋ฌต์ ์ธ ์‹ ํ˜ธ๋“ค์„ ์‹œ์ž‘์œผ๋กœ ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ํ˜์˜ค๊ฐ์€ ์ ์  ๋” ๋ถ„๋ช…ํ•ด์กŒ์–ด์š”.
08:20
and more offensive.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋” ๋ถˆ์พŒํ•ด์กŒ์ฃ .
08:22
I was asked to move my toothbrush from the bathroom,
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์ œ๊ฒŒ ํ™”์žฅ์‹ค์—์„œ ์ œ ์นซ์†”์„ ์น˜์›Œ๋‹ฌ๋ผ๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:26
I was asked to not share towels,
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์ˆ˜๊ฑด๋„ ๊ฐ™์ด ์“ฐ์ง€ ๋ง๊ณ ,
08:28
and I was even asked to wash my clothes on a hotter setting.
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์‹ฌ์ง€์–ด ์ œ ์˜ท๋“ค์€ ๋” ๋œจ๊ฑฐ์šด ๋ฌผ์— ๋นจ์•„๋‹ฌ๋ผ๊ณ  ๋ถ€ํƒํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:32
This wasn't head lice, y'all.
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์ด๊ฑด ๋จธ๋ฆฟ์† ์ด๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—์š”, ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„.
08:34
This wasn't scabies. This was HIV.
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์˜ด๋„ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—์š”. ์ด๊ฑด HIV์˜ˆ์š”.
08:36
It can be transmitted through blood,
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์ด๊ฑด ํ”ผ๋ฅผ ํ†ตํ•ด์„œ ๊ฐ์—ผ๋˜๊ณ 
08:39
sexual fluids like semen or vaginal fluids
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์ •์•ก์ด๋‚˜ ์งˆ์˜ ์•ก์ฒด๊ฐ™์ด ์„ฑ๊ณผ ๊ด€๋ จ๋œ ์ฒด์•ก์„ ํ†ตํ•ด์„œ ๊ฐ์—ผ๋ผ์š”.
08:42
and breast milk.
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๋ชจ์œ ๋ฅผ ํ†ตํ•ด์„œ๋„ ๊ฐ์—ผ๋˜๊ณ ์š”.
08:43
Since I wasn't sleeping with my roommates,
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์ „ ์ œ ๋ฃธ๋ฉ”์ดํŠธ์™€ ์ž” ๊ฒƒ๋„ ์•„๋‹ˆ๊ณ 
08:46
I wasn't breastfeeding them --
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๊ทธ๋ ‡๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋ชจ์œ ๋ฅผ ์ค€ ๊ฒƒ๋„ ์•„๋‹ˆ๊ณ ,
08:48
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
08:49
and we weren't reenacting "Twilight,"
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์˜ํ™” "ํŠธ์™€์ผ๋ผ์ž‡"์„ ์žฌ์—ฐํ•œ ๊ฒƒ๋„ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:51
I was of no risk to them
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์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์–ด๋–ค ์œ„ํ—˜๋„ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:53
and I made this aware to them,
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์ด ์‚ฌ์‹ค์„ ์•Œ๋ ค์ฃผ์—ˆ์ฃ .
08:56
but still, this discomfort, it continued,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์—ฌ์ „ํžˆ ๊ณ„์† ๋ถˆํŽธํ•ดํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:58
until eventually I was asked to move out.
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๊ฒฐ๊ตญ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ง‘์„ ๋‚˜๊ฐˆ ๋•Œ ๊นŒ์ง€์š”.
09:01
And I was asked to move out
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์ง‘์„ ๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋‹ฌ๋ผ๋Š” ๋ถ€ํƒ์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
09:03
because one of my roommates had shared my status with her parents.
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์ œ ๋ฃธ๋ฉ”์ดํŠธ๋“ค ์ค‘ ํ•œ ๋ช…์ด ์ œ ์ƒํƒœ๋ฅผ ๋ถ€๋ชจ๋‹˜๊ป˜ ์–˜๊ธฐํ–ˆ๊ณ ,
09:06
She shared my personal medical information to strangers.
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์ œ ๊ฐœ์ธ์ ์ธ ์˜๋ฃŒ ์ •๋ณด๋ฅผ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๋Š” ๋‚จ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์–˜๊ธฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
09:13
And now I'm doing that in a roomful of 300 of y'all,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ง€๊ธˆ ์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ๊ธฐ ๊ณ„์‹  300๋ช…์˜ ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„๋“ค๊ป˜ ํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
09:16
but at the time, this was not something I was comfortable with,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ ๋‹น์‹œ์—๋Š” ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ํŽธํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋งํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
09:20
and they expressed their discomfort with their daughter living with me.
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๊ทธ๋…€์˜ ๋ถ€๋ชจ๋‹˜์€ ๋”ธ์ด ์ €์™€ ์‚ฌ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋ถˆ์พŒํ•ดํ–ˆ์ฃ .
09:25
So being gay, raised in a religious household
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์ €๋Š” ๊ฒŒ์ด์ด๋ฉด์„œ ์ข…๊ต์ ์ธ ๊ฐ€์ •์—์„œ ์ž๋ž์–ด์š”.
09:27
and living in the South,
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๋‚จ๋ถ€ ์ถœ์‹ ์ด๊ณ ์š”.
09:29
discrimination wasn't new to me.
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์ฐจ๋ณ„์€ ์ œ๊ฒŒ ์ƒˆ๋กœ์šด ๊ฒŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
09:31
But this form was,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ ์ผ์€ ์ฒ˜์Œ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
09:34
and it was tremendously disappointing
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๋Œ€๋‹จํžˆ ์‹ค๋ง์Šค๋Ÿฌ์› ์ฃ .
09:36
because it came from such an unlikely source.
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ์ฐจ๋ณ„ํ•˜๋Š” ์ด์œ ๊ฐ€ ์ •ํ™•ํ•˜์ง€๋„ ์•Š์€ ์ •๋ณด ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด์—ˆ์œผ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ์š”.
09:40
Not only were these college-educated people,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ๋Œ€ํ•™ ๊ต์œก๋„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์„ ๋ฟ๋งŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
09:43
not only were they other members of the LGBT community,
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๋˜ LGBT์— ์†ํ•œ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ผ ๋ฟ๋งŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
09:47
but they were also my friends.
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์ œ ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค์ด๊ธฐ๋„ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
09:50
So I did. I moved out at the end of the semester.
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๊ทธ๋žฌ์–ด์š”. ๊ทธ ํ•™๊ธฐ๊ฐ€ ๋๋‚˜๊ณ  ์ง‘์„ ๋‚˜์™”์ฃ .
09:53
But it wasn't to appease them.
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๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๋ถˆ์•ˆ๊ฐ์„ ๋‹ฌ๋ž˜์ฃผ๋ ค๊ณ ๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
09:55
It was out of respect for myself.
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์ €๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•ด์„œ ๋‚˜์™”์–ด์š”.
09:58
I wasn't going to subject myself to people
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์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ๋Œ๋ ค๋‹ค๋‹ˆ๋ ค๊ณ  ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
10:00
who were unwilling to remedy their ignorance,
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๋ชจ๋ฅด๋ฉด์„œ๋„ ์•Œ๋ ค๊ณ  ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ์š”.
10:03
and I wasn't going to let something that was now a part of me
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ง€๊ธˆ ์ œ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ์ผ๋ถ€๋ถ„์„
10:06
ever be used as a tool against me.
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์ €๋ฅผ ๊ณต๊ฒฉํ•˜๋Š” ์ˆ˜๋‹จ์ด ๋˜๋„๋ก ๋†”๋‘์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
10:09
So I opted for transparency about my status,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ „ ์ œ ์ƒํƒœ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ํˆฌ๋ช…ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๊ณต๊ฐœํ•˜๊ธฐ๋กœ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
10:13
always being visible.
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ํ•ญ์ƒ ๋ณผ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก์š”.
10:15
And this is what I like to call being the everyday advocate.
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์ „ ์ด๊ฑธ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ถ€๋ฅด๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด์š”
[๋‹น๋‹นํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๊ณต๊ฐœํ•˜๊ธฐ]
10:19
The point of this transparency, the point of this everyday advocacy,
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ํˆฌ๋ช…ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋“œ๋Ÿฌ๋‚ด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ, ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค ์•ž์— ๊ณต๊ฐœํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์˜ ํ•ต์‹ฌ์€
10:23
was to dispel ignorance,
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์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์˜ ๋ฌด์ง€ํ•จ์„ ๋–จ์ณ๋‚ด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
10:25
and ignorance is a very scary word.
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๋ฌด์ง€ํ•จ์€ ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ๋ฌด์„œ์šด ๋‹จ์–ด์ฃ .
10:28
We don't want to be seen as ignorant,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ฌด์ง€ํ•ด๋ณด์ด๊ณ  ์‹ถ์ง€ ์•Š์•„์š”.
10:30
and we definitely don't want to be called it.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋ฌด์ง€ํ•˜๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋ถˆ๋ฆฌ๊ธฐ๋„ ์‹ซ์–ดํ•˜์ฃ .
10:33
But ignorance is not synonymous with stupid.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋ฌด์ง€ํ•จ์€ ๋ฉ์ฒญํ•œ ๊ฒƒ๊ณผ๋Š” ๋‹ฌ๋ผ์š”.
10:36
It's not the inability to learn.
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๋ฌด์ง€ํ•จ์€ ํ•™์Šต ๋Šฅ๋ ฅ์ด ์—†๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ์•„๋‹Œ
10:38
It's the state you're in before you learn.
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๋ฐฐ์šฐ๊ธฐ ์ด์ „์˜ ์ƒํƒœ๋ฅผ ๋งํ•ด์š”.
10:42
So when I saw someone coming from a place of ignorance,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ „ ์•„๋ฌด๊ฒƒ๋„ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€
10:45
I saw an opportunity for them to learn.
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๋ฐฐ์šธ ๊ธฐํšŒ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด์š”.
10:48
And hopefully, if I could spread some education,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋ฐ”๋ผ๊ฑด๋Œ€, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋งŒ์ผ ์ง€์‹์„ ์ „๋‹ฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด
10:51
then I could mitigate situations for others
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์ œ ๋ฃธ๋ฉ”์ดํŠธ์™€ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋˜ ์ผ๊ณผ ๊ฐ™์€
10:54
like I had experienced with my roommates
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์ƒํ™ฉ๋“ค์„ ๊ฐœ์„ ์‹œํ‚ฌ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
10:56
and save someone else down the line that humiliation.
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๋˜, ๊ทธ์™€ ๊ฐ™์€ ๊ตด์š•๊ฐ์„ ๋Š๋ผ๊ณ  ์žˆ์„ ๋ˆ„๊ตฐ๊ฐ€๋ฅผ ๊ตฌํ•  ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
11:00
So the reactions I received haven't been all positive.
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฒฝํ—˜ํ•œ ๋ฐ˜์‘๋“ค์€ ๊ธ์ •์ ์ธ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
11:05
Here in the South,
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์ด๊ณณ ๋‚จ๋ถ€์—์„œ๋Š”
11:07
we have a lot stigma due to religious pressures,
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์ข…๊ต์ ์ธ ์••๋ฐ• ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์— ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋‚™์ธ์ด ์ฐํ˜”์–ด์š”.
11:10
our lack of a comprehensive sex education
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์ข…ํ•ฉ์ ์ธ ์„ฑ๊ต์œก๋„ ๋ถ€์กฑํ–ˆ๊ณ 
11:13
and our general conservative outlook on anything sexual.
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์„ฑ๊ณผ ๊ด€๋ จ๋œ ๊ฒƒ์ด๋ผ๋ฉด ๋ณดํ†ต ๋ณด์ˆ˜์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ณด์•˜๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด์—์š”.
11:16
We view this as a gay disease.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ด๊ฒƒ์„ ๊ฒŒ์ด ๋ณ‘์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด์š”.
11:19
Globally, most new HIV infections occur between heterosexual partners,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ „์„ธ๊ณ„์ ์œผ๋กœ HIV ๊ฐ์—ผ์˜ ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์€ ์ด์„ฑ ๊ฐ„์˜ ๊ด€๊ณ„์—์„œ ์ƒ๊ฒจ์š”.
11:24
and here in the States, women, especially women of color,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด๊ณณ ๋ฏธ๊ตญ์—์„œ ์—ฌ์„ฑ๋“ค, ํŠนํžˆ ์œ ์ƒ‰์ธ์ข…์˜ ์—ฌ์„ฑ๋“ค์€
11:26
are at an increased risk.
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๋” ๋†’์€ ์œ„ํ—˜์— ์ฒ˜ํ•ด ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
11:28
This is not a gay disease. It never has been.
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์ด๊ฑด ๊ฒŒ์ด๋“ค์˜ ๋ณ‘์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์—์š”. ํ•œ ๋ฒˆ๋„ ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์  ์—†์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
11:31
It's a disease we should all be concerned with.
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์ด๊ฑด ์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ชจ๋‘๊ฐ€ ๊ด€์‹ฌ๊ฐ€์ ธ์•ผ ํ•  ์งˆ๋ณ‘์ด์—์š”.
11:35
So initially, I felt limited.
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ฒ˜์Œ์—๋Š” ์ „ ํ•œ๊ณ„๋ฅผ ๋Š๊ผˆ์–ด์š”.
11:38
I wanted to expand my scope and reach beyond what was around me.
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์ „ ์ œ ํ–‰๋™ ๋ฐ˜๊ฒฝ์„ ์ฃผ๋ณ€ ๋ฐ–์œผ๋กœ ๋„“ํžˆ๊ณ  ์‹ถ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
11:43
So naturally,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ž์—ฐ์Šค๋Ÿฝ๊ฒŒ
11:46
I turned to the dark underworld of online dating apps,
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์ €๋Š” ์–ด๋‘์šด ์ง€ํ•˜์„ธ๊ณ„๋กœ ๋ˆˆ์„ ๋Œ๋ ค
์˜จ๋ผ์ธ ๋ฐ์ดํŠธ ์–ดํ”Œ์„ ์ด์šฉํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
11:49
to apps like Grindr,
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[๊ทธ๋ผ์ธ๋”] ๊ทธ๋ผ์ธ๋” ๊ฐ™์€ ์–ดํ”Œ์„์š”.
11:52
and for those of you who are unfamiliar,
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์ƒ์†Œํ•ด ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ถ„๋“ค์„ ์œ„ํ•ด ๋ง์”€๋“œ๋ฆฌ์ž๋ฉด
11:54
these are dating apps targeted towards gay men.
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์ด ๋ฐ์ดํŠธ ์–ดํ”Œ๋“ค์€ ๊ฒŒ์ด ๋‚จ์„ฑ์„ ํƒ€๊ฒŸ์œผ๋กœ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:56
You can upload a profile and a picture
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ํ”„๋กœํ•„๊ณผ ์‚ฌ์ง„์„ ๋“ฑ๋กํ•˜๋ฉด
11:58
and it will show you available guys within a radius.
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ๊ทผ์ฒ˜์—์„œ ๋งŒ๋‚  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒŒ์ด๋“ค์„ ๋ณด์—ฌ์ค๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
12:01
Y'all have probably heard of Tinder.
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ๋ชจ๋‘ ํ‹ด๋”๋ผ๋Š” ์•ฑ์€ ๋“ค์–ด๋ณด์…จ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
12:03
Grindr has been around for a lot longer,
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๊ทธ๋ผ์ธ๋”๋Š” ๊ทธ๋ณด๋‹ค ํ›จ์”ฌ ์˜ค๋ž˜๋์–ด์š”.
12:05
since it was much harder to meet your future gay husband
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๊ตํšŒ์—์„œ ํ˜น์€ ์žฅ์„ ๋ณด๋‹ค๊ฐ€ ๋ฏธ๋ž˜์˜ ๊ฒŒ์ด ๋‚จํŽธ์„ ๋งŒ๋‚˜๋Š” ๊ฒŒ
12:08
at church or the grocery store,
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๊ณผ๊ฑฐ์— ํ›จ์”ฌ ์–ด๋ ค์› ๊ฑฐ๋“ ์š”.
12:10
or whatever straight people did
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ํฐ ๋ฐ์ดํŠธ๋ฅผ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๊ฒŒ ๋˜๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€
12:12
before they found out they could date on their phones.
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์ด์„ฑ์• ์ž๋“ค์ด ๊ทธ๋žฌ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ์š”.
12:15
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
12:16
So on Grindr, if you liked what you saw or read,
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์–ด์จŒ๋“ , ๊ทธ๋ผ์ธ๋”์—์„œ๋Š” ๋ณด๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ์ฝ์€ ๊ฒƒ์— ์ข‹์•„์š”๋ฅผ ๋ˆ„๋ฅด๋ฉด
12:19
you could send someone a message, you can meet up, you can do other things.
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๋ฉ”์‹œ์ง€๋ฅผ ๋ณด๋‚ผ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๊ณ  ๋งŒ๋‚˜๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์„ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
12:23
So on my profile, I obviously stated that I had HIV,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” ์ œ ํ”„๋กœํ•„์— HIV๋ฅผ ๊ฐ–๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์˜ฌ๋ ธ์–ด์š”.
12:27
I was undetectable, and I welcomed questions about my status.
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์ €๋ฅผ ์ฐพ์•„๋‚ผ ์ˆ˜๋Š” ์—†์—ˆ์–ด์š”. ์ œ ์ƒํƒœ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์งˆ๋ฌธ์„ ๋ฐ›๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ•˜์ž,
12:32
And I received a lot of questions
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์•„์ฃผ ๋งŽ์€ ์งˆ๋ฌธ์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
12:34
and a lot of comments, both positive and negative.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋Œ“๊ธ€๋„ ๋งŽ์•˜์–ด์š”. ์ข‹์€ ๊ธ€๋„, ๋‚˜์œ ๊ธ€๋„ ์žˆ์—ˆ์ฃ .
12:37
And I want to start with the negative,
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์ „ ๋‚˜์œ ๊ธ€์„ ๋จผ์ € ์ฝ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
12:40
just to frame some of this ignorance that I've mentioned before.
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์•„๊นŒ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ–ˆ๋˜ ๋ฌด์ง€ํ•จ์„ ํŒŒ์•…ํ•˜๋ ค๊ณ ์š”.
12:44
And most of these negative comments were passing remarks or assumptions.
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๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์˜ ์•…์„ฑ ๋Œ“๊ธ€๋“ค์€ ์ถ”์ธก์„ฑ ๋Œ“๊ธ€์ด๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ์˜๊ฒฌ ์ œ์‹œ์˜€์–ด์š”.
12:48
They would assume things about my sex life or my sex habits.
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์ œ ์„ฑ์ƒํ™œ๊ณผ ์„ฑ์Šต๊ด€์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์ถ”์ธกํ•˜๊ณ ,
12:52
They would assume I put myself or others at risk.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ œ ์Šค์Šค๋กœ๋ฅผ, ํ˜น์€ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์„ ์œ„ํ—˜์— ์ฒ˜ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ–ˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ถ”์ธกํ•˜๋”๊ตฐ์š”.
12:55
But very often I would just be met with these passing ignorant remarks.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด ์•„๋ฌด๊ฒƒ๋„ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๊ณ  ํ•˜๋Š” ์–˜๊ธฐ๋“ค์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
12:59
In the gay community, it's common to hear the word "clean"
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๊ฒŒ์ด ์ปค๋ฎค๋‹ˆํ‹ฐ์—์„œ๋Š” HIV ์Œ์„ฑ ๋ฐ˜์‘์„ ๋ณด์ธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“คํ•œํ…Œ
13:03
when you're referring to someone who is HIV negative.
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ํ”ํžˆ "๊นจ๋—ํ•˜๋‹ค"๋ผ๋Š” ๋ง์„ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
13:06
Of course the flip side to that is being unclean, or dirty,
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๋‹น์—ฐํžˆ ๊ทธ ๋ฐ˜๋Œ€์˜ ๊ฒฝ์šฐ, ์ฆ‰ HIV๋ฅผ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์œผ๋ฉด
13:10
when you do have HIV.
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๋”๋Ÿฝ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์–˜๊ธฐํ•˜์ฃ .
13:11
Now, I'm not sensitive
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์ž, ์ €๋Š” ์˜ˆ๋ฏผํ•œ ํŽธ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ๊ณ 
13:13
and I'm only truly dirty after a day in the field,
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[์‚ฌ์ „์ƒ "๋”๋Ÿฝ๋‹ค"์˜ ์˜๋ฏธ]
์ €๋Š” ์ผํ•˜๊ณ  ์˜จ ํ›„์—๋งŒ ์ž ๊น ๋”๋Ÿฌ์›Œ์ ธ์š”.
13:17
but this is damaging language.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ๋ฐ ์ด๊ฑด ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ์‹ฌํ•œ ๋ง์ด์ž–์•„์š”.
13:19
This is a community-driven stigma
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์ด๊ฑด ์ปค๋ฎค๋‹ˆํ‹ฐ์—์„œ ๋น„๋กฏ๋œ ๋‚™์ธ์ด์—์š”.
13:21
that keeps many gay men from disclosing their status,
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๋งŽ์€ ๊ฒŒ์ด ๋‚จ์„ฑ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ์ƒํƒœ๋ฅผ ์ˆจ๊ธฐ๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๊ณ 
13:24
and it keeps those newly diagnosed
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์ตœ๊ทผ HIV๋ฅผ ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ
13:26
from seeking support within their own community,
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์ž์‹ ๋“ค์˜ ์ปค๋ฎค๋‹ˆํ‹ฐ ์†์—์„œ ๋„์›€์„ ๊ตฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๊ฒŒ ํ•˜์ฃ .
13:28
and I find that truly distressing.
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์ „ ์ด๊ฒƒ์ด ์ •๋ง ๋น„์ฐธํ•˜๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด์š”.
13:31
But thankfully, the positive responses have been a lot more numerous,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•˜๊ฒŒ๋„, ๊ธ์ •์ ์ธ ๊ธ€๋“ค์ด ํ›จ์”ฌ ๋งŽ์•˜์–ด์š”.
13:35
and they came from guys who were curious.
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๊ถ๊ธˆํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด ๋งŽ์€ ๋‚จ์„ฑ๋“ค์ด ๋ณด๋‚ด์˜จ ๋ฉ”์‹œ์ง€๋“ค์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
13:37
And they were curious about the risks of transmission,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ๊ฐ์—ผ์˜ ์œ„ํ—˜์„ฑ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด,
13:40
or what exactly "undetectable" meant,
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ํ˜น์€ "๊ฐ์ง€๋˜์ง€ ์•Š๋Š”๋‹ค"๋Š” ๋ง์ด ์ •ํ™•ํžˆ ๋ฌด์—‡์„ ์˜๋ฏธํ•˜๋Š”์ง€
13:43
or where they could get tested,
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์–ด๋””์—์„œ ๊ฒ€์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”์ง€
13:45
or some guys would ask me about my experiences,
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ํ˜น์€ ์ œ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋ฌผ์–ด๋ดค์–ด์š”.
13:47
and I could share my story with them.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ „ ์ œ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์„ ๊ณต์œ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์—ˆ์ฃ .
13:49
But most importantly,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ค‘์š”ํ•œ ๊ฑด,
13:52
I would get approached by guys who were newly diagnosed with HIV
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HIV๊ฐ€ ์ง„๋‹จ์ด ๋œ์ง€ ์–ผ๋งˆ ๋˜์ง€ ์•Š์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด ์ œ๊ฒŒ ์—ฐ๋ฝํ•  ๋•Œ
13:56
and they were scared, and they were alone,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ๊ฒ์— ์งˆ๋ ค์žˆ์—ˆ๊ณ , ํ˜ผ์ž์˜€๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—์š”.
13:58
and they didn't know what step to take next.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์•ž์œผ๋กœ ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ํ•ด์•ผ ํ•˜๋Š”์ง€ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:01
They didn't want to tell their family,
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๊ฐ€์กฑ์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” ๋งํ•˜๊ธฐ ์•Š์œผ๋ ค ํ–ˆ๊ณ ,
14:03
they didn't want to tell their friends
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์นœ๊ตฌ์—๊ฒŒ๋„ ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์œผ๋ ค ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:05
and they felt damaged, and they felt dirty.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ž์‹ ์ด ๋ง๊ฐ€์กŒ๋‹ค๊ณ , ์ž์‹ ์ด ๋”๋Ÿฝ๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋Š๋ผ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:09
And I did whatever I could to immediately calm them,
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์ „ ๊ณง๋ฐ”๋กœ ๊ทธ๋“ค์„ ์•ˆ์‹ฌ์‹œํ‚ฌ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก ์ตœ์„ ์„ ๋‹คํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:12
and then I would put them in contact with AcadianaCares,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ปค๋ฎค๋‹ˆํ‹ฐ ๋‚ด์˜ HIV ๊ฐ์—ผ์ž๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•œ
14:15
which is a wonderful resource we have in our community
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ํ›Œ๋ฅญํ•œ ์ž๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ์–ป์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š”
14:18
for those with HIV.
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AcadianaCares์™€ ์—ฐ๊ฒฐ์‹œ์ผœ ์ฃผ์—ˆ์ฃ .
14:20
And I'd put them in contact with people I knew personally
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐœ์ธ์ ์œผ๋กœ ์•„๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค๊ณผ ์—ฐ๊ฒฐ์‹œ์ผœ ์ฃผ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:23
so that they could not only have this safe space to feel human again,
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๋‹ค์‹œ ์ธ๊ฐ„์• ๋ฅผ ๋Š๋‚„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ์•ˆ์ „ํ•œ ๊ณต๊ฐ„์„ ๊ฐ€์งˆ ๋ฟ๋งŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ผ
14:27
but so they could also have the resources they needed
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์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ์œ„ํ•ด์„œ ํ•„์š”ํ•œ ์ž์›๋“ค์„
14:30
in affording their treatment.
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์–ป์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก ๋ง์ด์—์š”.
14:32
And this was by far the most humbling aspect
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด๊ฒƒ์€ ์ง€๊ธˆ๊นŒ์ง€ ์ €๋ฅผ ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ทธ๋Œ€๋กœ ๋“œ๋Ÿฌ๋‚ด๋Š” ๋ฐ ์žˆ์–ด
14:35
of my transparency,
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๊ฐ€์žฅ ๊ธฐ๋ณธ์ ์ธ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:37
that I could have some positive impact on those who were suffering like I did,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ณผ๊ฑฐ์— ๊ทธ๋žฌ๋“ฏ์ด
๊ณ ํ†ต๋ฐ›๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ๊ธ์ •์ ์ธ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ์ฃผ๊ณ 
14:42
that I could help those who were in the dark,
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์–ด๋‘์šด ๊ณณ์— ์žˆ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์„ ๋•๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์š”.
14:45
because I had been there, and it wasn't a good place to be.
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ์ €๋„ ๊ทธ๊ณณ์— ์žˆ์—ˆ์œผ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ์š”. ์ „ํ˜€ ์ข‹์€ ๊ณณ์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:49
These guys came from all different backgrounds,
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์ด ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ์ œ๊ฐ๊ฐ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๋ฐฐ๊ฒฝ์„ ๊ฐ–๊ณ  ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
14:51
and many of them weren't as informed as I had been,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋งŽ์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ์ €์™€ ๋‹ฌ๋ฆฌ ๋งŽ์€ ๊ฑธ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
14:54
and they were coming to me from a place of fear.
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๋‘๋ ค์›€์— ๋–จ๋ฉฐ ์ œ๊ฒŒ ๋‹ค๊ฐ€์˜จ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด์ฃ .
14:57
Some of these people I knew personally,
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์ด ์ค‘ ๋ช‡๋ช‡์€ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐœ์ธ์ ์œผ๋กœ ์•Œ์•˜๊ฑฐ๋‚˜
14:59
or they knew of me,
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์ €๋ฅผ ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
15:01
but many more, they were anonymous.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๋ณด๋‹ค ๋” ๋งŽ์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด ์ต๋ช…์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
15:03
They were these blank profiles who were too afraid to show their faces
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ์ œ๊ฒŒ ํ„ธ์–ด๋†“์€ ํ›„ ์–ผ๊ตด์„ ๋“œ๋Ÿฌ๋‚ด๊ธฐ๊ฐ€ ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๋ฌด์„œ์›Œ
15:07
after what they had told me.
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15:09
And on the topic of transparency,
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์žˆ๋Š” ๊ทธ๋Œ€๋กœ ๋“œ๋Ÿฌ๋‚ธ๋‹ค๋Š” ์ ์—์„œ
15:12
I want to leave y'all with a few thoughts.
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์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„๊ป˜ ๋ช‡๋ช‡ ์ƒ๊ฐ์„ ๋‚จ๊ธฐ๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด์š”.
15:14
I found that with whatever risk or gamble I took
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์ €๋Š” ์ œ ์–ผ๊ตด์„ ๋“œ๋Ÿฌ๋‚ด๋Š” ๋ฐ ์žˆ์–ด
15:18
in putting my face out there,
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์–ด๋–ค ์œ„ํ—˜์ด๋‚˜ ๋ชจํ—˜์„ ๊ฒช์„ ๋•Œ,
15:20
it was well worth any negative comment,
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์•…์„ฑ ๋Œ“๊ธ€๊ณผ ์–ด๋–ค ๋งน๋น„๋‚œ๋„
15:22
any flak I received,
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๊ทธ๋งŒํ•œ ๊ฐ€์น˜๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ์•˜์–ด์š”.
15:24
because I felt I was able to make this real and this tangible impact.
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์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ์ „ ์ง„์ •ํ•˜๊ณ  ๋ถ„๋ช…ํ•œ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ์ค„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ๊ฑฐ๋“ ์š”.
15:29
And it showed me that our efforts resound,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋…ธ๋ ฅ์ด ๋„๋ฆฌ ์•Œ๋ ค์ง€๊ณ 
15:32
that we can alter the lives that we encounter for the good,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ์‚ถ์„ ๋ฐ”๊พธ๊ณ  ์ข‹์€ ๊ฐ€์น˜๋ฅผ ๋งŒ๋‚˜๊ณ 
15:36
and they in turn can take that momentum and push it even further.
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์—ฌ๊ธฐ์— ํƒ„๋ ฅ์„ ๋ฐ›์•„ ๋” ๋จผ ๊ณณ๊นŒ์ง€ ๋‹ฟ์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋ณด์—ฌ์คฌ์–ด์š”.
15:40
And if any of you or anyone you know is dealing with HIV,
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๋งŒ์ผ ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ํ˜น์€ ์ฃผ์œ„์˜ ๋ˆ„๊ตฐ๊ฐ€๊ฐ€ HIV์™€ ์‹ธ์šฐ๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด,
15:44
or if you want to see what resources you have in your community,
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ํ˜น์€ ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ์†ํ•œ ์ง€์—ญ ์‚ฌํšŒ์— ์–ด๋–ค ์ž๋ฃŒ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๋Š”์ง€ ๋ณด๊ณ  ์‹ถ๋‹ค๋ฉด,
15:47
or just educate yourself more on the disease,
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ํ˜น์€ ๊ทธ์ € ์ด ์งˆ๋ณ‘์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์Šค์Šค๋กœ ๋” ๊ณต๋ถ€ํ•˜๊ณ  ์‹ถ๋‹ค๋ฉด,
15:50
here are some wonderful national sites that you can access
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์ด ๊ณต๊ณต ์›น์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ๋“ค์„ ๋ฐฉ๋ฌธํ•ด๋ณด์„ธ์š”.
15:53
and you are more than welcome to find me after this talk
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ด ๊ฐ•์—ฐ์ด ๋๋‚œ ํ›„์— ์ €๋ฅผ ์ฐพ์•„์˜ค์…”๋„ ์ข‹์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
15:56
and ask me anything you'd like.
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๋ญ๋“ ์ง€ ๋ฌผ์–ด๋ณด์„ธ์š”.
15:59
We've all heard the phrase "to see the forest through the trees,"
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ชจ๋‘ ์•„๋Š” ๋ง์ด ์žˆ์–ด์š”. "๋‚˜๋ฌด๋งŒ ๋ณด์ง€ ๋ง๊ณ  ์ˆฒ์„ ๋ณด๋ผ"
16:03
so I implore all of you here to really see the human through the disease.
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์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ๊ธฐ ๊ณ„์‹  ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„ ๋ชจ๋‘์—๊ฒŒ ๋ณ‘๋งŒ ๋ณด์ง€ ๋ง๊ณ  ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์„ ๋ณด๊ธธ ๋ถ€ํƒํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:09
It's a very easy thing to see numbers and statistics
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์ˆซ์ž์™€ ํ†ต๊ณ„๋ฅผ ๋ณด๊ณ 
16:13
and only see the perceived dangers.
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์ง€๊ฐ๋œ ์œ„ํ—˜๋งŒ์„ ๋ณด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ์‰ฝ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:16
It's a much harder thing to see all the faces behind those numbers.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ ์ˆซ์ž๋“ค ๋’ค์— ์ˆจ๊ฒจ์ง„ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์„ ๋ณด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ํ›จ์”ฌ ์–ด๋ ต์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:22
So when you find yourself thinking those things, those words,
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๋”ฐ๋ผ์„œ ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ๊ทธ ์ˆซ์ž๋“ค๊ณผ ๋‹จ์–ด๋“ค,
16:25
what you might have thought looking at David Kirby,
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์•„๊นŒ David Kirby๋ฅผ ๋ณด๊ณ  ๋– ์˜ฌ๋ ธ์„ ๋‹จ์–ด๋“ค์„ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด,
16:28
I ask you instead,
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์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ๋‹จ์–ด๋“ค ๋Œ€์‹ 
16:31
think son,
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์•„๋“ค์„,
16:33
or think brother,
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ํ˜น์€ ํ˜•์ œ๋ฅผ ๋– ์˜ฌ๋ฆฌ๊ณ ,
16:35
think friend
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์นœ๊ตฌ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๊ณ ,
16:37
and most importantly, think human.
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๋ฌด์—‡๋ณด๋‹ค ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์œผ๋กœ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด์ฃผ์—ˆ์œผ๋ฉด ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:40
Seek education when faced with ignorance,
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๋ชจ๋ฅด๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ์ƒ๊ธฐ๋ฉด ๋ฐฐ์šฐ๊ณ 
16:43
and always be mindful,
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ํ•ญ์ƒ ์˜์‹ํ•˜๊ณ ,
16:45
and always be compassionate.
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ํ•ญ์ƒ ๋ฐฐ๋ คํ•ด์ฃผ์„ธ์š”.
16:48
Thank you.
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๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:49
(Applause)
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์ด ์›น์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ ์ •๋ณด

์ด ์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์˜์–ด ํ•™์Šต์— ์œ ์šฉํ•œ YouTube ๋™์˜์ƒ์„ ์†Œ๊ฐœํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์ „ ์„ธ๊ณ„ ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์น˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ˆ˜์—…์„ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๊ฐ ๋™์˜์ƒ ํŽ˜์ด์ง€์— ํ‘œ์‹œ๋˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ” ํด๋ฆญํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๊ณณ์—์„œ ๋™์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋น„๋””์˜ค ์žฌ์ƒ์— ๋งž์ถฐ ์ž๋ง‰์ด ์Šคํฌ๋กค๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์˜๊ฒฌ์ด๋‚˜ ์š”์ฒญ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒฝ์šฐ ์ด ๋ฌธ์˜ ์–‘์‹์„ ์‚ฌ์šฉํ•˜์—ฌ ๋ฌธ์˜ํ•˜์‹ญ์‹œ์˜ค.

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