Our treatment of HIV has advanced. Why hasn't the stigma changed? | Arik Hartmann

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So I want to start this talk by showing y'all a photo,
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and it's a photo many of you have probably seen before.
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So I want you all to take a moment
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and look at this photo,
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and really reflect on some of the things that come to mind,
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and what are some of those things, those words.
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Now, I'm going to ask you all to look at me.
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What words come to mind when you look at me?
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What separates that man up there
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from me?
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The man in that photo is named David Kirby
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and it was taken in 1990 as he was dying from AIDS-related illness,
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and it was subsequently published in "Life Magazine."
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The only real thing separating me from Kirby
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is about 30 years of medical advancements in the way that we treat HIV and AIDS.
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So what I want to ask next is this:
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If we have made such exponential progress
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in combatting HIV,
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why haven't our perceptions of those with the virus evolved alongside?
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Why does HIV elicit this reaction from us when it's so easily managed?
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When did the stigmatization even occur,
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and why hasn't it subsided?
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And these are not easy questions to answer.
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They're the congealing of so many different factors and ideas.
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Powerful images, like this one of Kirby,
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these were the faces of the AIDS crisis in the '80s and '90s,
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and at the time the crisis had a very obvious impact
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on an already stigmatized group of people,
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and that was gay men.
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So what the general straight public saw was this very awful thing
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happening to a group of people who were already on the fringes of society.
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The media at the time began to use the two almost interchangeably --
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gay and AIDS --
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and at the 1984 Republican National Convention,
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one of the speakers joked that gay stood for: "Got AIDS yet?"
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And that was the mindset at the time.
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But as we started to understand the virus more
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and how it was transmitted,
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we realized that that risk had increased its territory.
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The highly profiled case of Ryan White in 1985,
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who was a 13-year-old hemophiliac
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who had contracted HIV from a contaminated blood treatment,
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and this marked the most profound shift in America's perception of HIV.
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No longer was it restricted to these dark corners of society,
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to queers and drug users,
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but now it was affecting people
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that society deemed worthy of their empathy,
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to children.
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But that permeating fear and that perception, it still lingers.
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And I want a show of hands for these next few questions.
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How many of you in here were aware that with treatment,
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those with HIV not only fend off AIDS completely,
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but they live full and normal lives?
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Y'all are educated.
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(Laughter)
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How many of you are aware that with treatment,
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those with HIV can reach an undetectable status,
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and that makes them virtually uninfectious?
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Much less.
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How many of you were aware of the pre- and postexposure treatments
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that are available that reduce the risk of transmission
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by over 90 percent?
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See, these are incredible advancements that we have made in fighting HIV,
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yet they have not managed to dent the perception
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that most Americans have of the virus and those living with it.
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And I don't want you to think I'm downplaying the danger of this virus,
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and I am not ignorant of the harrowing past of the AIDS epidemic.
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I am trying to convey that there is hope for those infected
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and HIV is not the death sentence it was in the '80s.
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And now you may ask, and I asked this question myself initially:
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Where are the stories?
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Where are these people living with HIV? Why haven't they been vocal?
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How can I believe these successes, or these statistics,
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without seeing the successes?
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And this is actually a very easy question for me to answer.
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Fear, stigma and shame:
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these keep those living with HIV in the closet, so to speak.
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Our sexual histories are as personal to us as our medical histories,
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and when you overlap the two,
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you can find yourself in a very sensitive space.
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The fear of how others perceive us when we're honest
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keeps us from doing many things in life,
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and this is the case for the HIV-positive population.
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To face social scrutiny and ridicule is the price that we pay for transparency,
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and why become a martyr
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when you can effectively pass as someone without HIV?
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After all, there are no physical indications you have the virus.
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There's no sign that you wear.
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There is safety in assimilation,
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and there is safety in invisibility.
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I'm here to throw back that veil and share my story.
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So in the fall of 2014, I was a sophomore in college
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and like most college students, I was sexually active,
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and I generally took precautions to minimize the risk that sex carries.
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Now, I say generally, because I wasn't always safe.
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It only takes a single misstep before we're flat on the ground,
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and my misstep is pretty obvious.
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I had unprotected sex, and I didn't think much of it.
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Fast-forward about three weeks,
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and it felt like I'd been trampled by a herd of wildebeest.
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The aches in my body were like nothing I have felt before or since.
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I would get these bouts of fever and chill.
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I would reel with nausea, and it was difficult to walk.
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Being a biology student, I had some prior exposure to disease,
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and being a fairly informed gay man, I had read a bit on HIV,
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so to me, it clicked that this was seroconversion,
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or as it's sometimes called, acute HIV infection.
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And this is the body's reaction
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in producing antibodies to the HIV antigen.
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It's important to note that not everybody goes through this phase of sickness,
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but I was one of the lucky ones who did.
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And I was lucky as in, there were these physical symptoms
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that let me know, hey, something is wrong,
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and it let me detect the virus pretty early.
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So just to clarify, just to hit the nail on head,
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I got tested on campus.
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And they said they would call me the next morning with the results,
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and they called me,
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but they asked me to come in and speak to the doctor on staff.
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And the reaction I received from her wasn't what I was expecting.
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She reassured me what I already knew, that this wasn't a death sentence,
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and she even offered to put me in contact with her brother,
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who had been living with HIV since the early '90s.
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I declined her offer, but I was deeply touched.
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I was expecting to be reprimanded.
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I was expecting pity and disappointment,
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and I was shown compassion and human warmth,
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and I'm forever grateful for that first exchange.
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So obviously for a few weeks, I was a physical mess.
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Emotionally, mentally, I was doing OK.
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I was taking it well.
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But my body was ravaged,
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and those close to me, they weren't oblivious.
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So I sat my roommates down,
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and I let them know I'd been diagnosed with HIV,
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that I was about to receive treatment, and I didn't want them to worry.
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And I remember the look on their faces.
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They were holding each other on the couch and they were crying,
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and I consoled them.
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I consoled them about my own bad news,
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but it was heartwarming to see that they cared.
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But from that night, I noticed a shift
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in the way that I was treated at home.
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My roommates wouldn't touch anything of mine,
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and they wouldn't eat anything I had cooked.
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Now, in South Louisiana,
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we all know that you don't refuse food.
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(Laughter)
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And I'm a damn good cook, so don't think that passed me by.
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(Laughter)
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But from these first silent hints, their aversion got gradually more obvious
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and more offensive.
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I was asked to move my toothbrush from the bathroom,
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I was asked to not share towels,
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and I was even asked to wash my clothes on a hotter setting.
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This wasn't head lice, y'all.
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This wasn't scabies. This was HIV.
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It can be transmitted through blood,
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sexual fluids like semen or vaginal fluids
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and breast milk.
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Since I wasn't sleeping with my roommates,
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I wasn't breastfeeding them --
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(Laughter)
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and we weren't reenacting "Twilight,"
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I was of no risk to them
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and I made this aware to them,
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but still, this discomfort, it continued,
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until eventually I was asked to move out.
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And I was asked to move out
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because one of my roommates had shared my status with her parents.
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She shared my personal medical information to strangers.
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And now I'm doing that in a roomful of 300 of y'all,
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but at the time, this was not something I was comfortable with,
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and they expressed their discomfort with their daughter living with me.
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So being gay, raised in a religious household
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and living in the South,
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discrimination wasn't new to me.
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But this form was,
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and it was tremendously disappointing
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because it came from such an unlikely source.
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Not only were these college-educated people,
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not only were they other members of the LGBT community,
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but they were also my friends.
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So I did. I moved out at the end of the semester.
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But it wasn't to appease them.
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It was out of respect for myself.
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I wasn't going to subject myself to people
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who were unwilling to remedy their ignorance,
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and I wasn't going to let something that was now a part of me
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ever be used as a tool against me.
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So I opted for transparency about my status,
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always being visible.
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And this is what I like to call being the everyday advocate.
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The point of this transparency, the point of this everyday advocacy,
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was to dispel ignorance,
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and ignorance is a very scary word.
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We don't want to be seen as ignorant,
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and we definitely don't want to be called it.
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But ignorance is not synonymous with stupid.
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It's not the inability to learn.
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It's the state you're in before you learn.
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So when I saw someone coming from a place of ignorance,
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I saw an opportunity for them to learn.
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And hopefully, if I could spread some education,
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then I could mitigate situations for others
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like I had experienced with my roommates
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and save someone else down the line that humiliation.
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So the reactions I received haven't been all positive.
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Here in the South,
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we have a lot stigma due to religious pressures,
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our lack of a comprehensive sex education
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and our general conservative outlook on anything sexual.
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We view this as a gay disease.
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Globally, most new HIV infections occur between heterosexual partners,
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and here in the States, women, especially women of color,
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are at an increased risk.
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This is not a gay disease. It never has been.
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It's a disease we should all be concerned with.
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So initially, I felt limited.
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I wanted to expand my scope and reach beyond what was around me.
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So naturally,
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I turned to the dark underworld of online dating apps,
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to apps like Grindr,
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and for those of you who are unfamiliar,
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these are dating apps targeted towards gay men.
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You can upload a profile and a picture
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and it will show you available guys within a radius.
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Y'all have probably heard of Tinder.
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Grindr has been around for a lot longer,
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since it was much harder to meet your future gay husband
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at church or the grocery store,
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or whatever straight people did
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before they found out they could date on their phones.
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(Laughter)
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So on Grindr, if you liked what you saw or read,
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you could send someone a message, you can meet up, you can do other things.
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So on my profile, I obviously stated that I had HIV,
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I was undetectable, and I welcomed questions about my status.
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And I received a lot of questions
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and a lot of comments, both positive and negative.
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And I want to start with the negative,
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just to frame some of this ignorance that I've mentioned before.
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And most of these negative comments were passing remarks or assumptions.
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They would assume things about my sex life or my sex habits.
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They would assume I put myself or others at risk.
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But very often I would just be met with these passing ignorant remarks.
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In the gay community, it's common to hear the word "clean"
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when you're referring to someone who is HIV negative.
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Of course the flip side to that is being unclean, or dirty,
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when you do have HIV.
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Now, I'm not sensitive
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and I'm only truly dirty after a day in the field,
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but this is damaging language.
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This is a community-driven stigma
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that keeps many gay men from disclosing their status,
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and it keeps those newly diagnosed
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from seeking support within their own community,
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and I find that truly distressing.
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But thankfully, the positive responses have been a lot more numerous,
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and they came from guys who were curious.
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And they were curious about the risks of transmission,
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or what exactly "undetectable" meant,
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or where they could get tested,
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or some guys would ask me about my experiences,
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and I could share my story with them.
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But most importantly,
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I would get approached by guys who were newly diagnosed with HIV
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and they were scared, and they were alone,
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and they didn't know what step to take next.
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They didn't want to tell their family,
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they didn't want to tell their friends
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and they felt damaged, and they felt dirty.
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And I did whatever I could to immediately calm them,
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and then I would put them in contact with AcadianaCares,
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which is a wonderful resource we have in our community
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for those with HIV.
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And I'd put them in contact with people I knew personally
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so that they could not only have this safe space to feel human again,
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but so they could also have the resources they needed
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in affording their treatment.
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And this was by far the most humbling aspect
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of my transparency,
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that I could have some positive impact on those who were suffering like I did,
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that I could help those who were in the dark,
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because I had been there, and it wasn't a good place to be.
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These guys came from all different backgrounds,
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and many of them weren't as informed as I had been,
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and they were coming to me from a place of fear.
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Some of these people I knew personally,
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or they knew of me,
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but many more, they were anonymous.
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They were these blank profiles who were too afraid to show their faces
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after what they had told me.
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And on the topic of transparency,
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I want to leave y'all with a few thoughts.
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I found that with whatever risk or gamble I took
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in putting my face out there,
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it was well worth any negative comment,
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any flak I received,
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because I felt I was able to make this real and this tangible impact.
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And it showed me that our efforts resound,
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that we can alter the lives that we encounter for the good,
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and they in turn can take that momentum and push it even further.
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And if any of you or anyone you know is dealing with HIV,
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or if you want to see what resources you have in your community,
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or just educate yourself more on the disease,
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here are some wonderful national sites that you can access
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and you are more than welcome to find me after this talk
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and ask me anything you'd like.
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We've all heard the phrase "to see the forest through the trees,"
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so I implore all of you here to really see the human through the disease.
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It's a very easy thing to see numbers and statistics
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and only see the perceived dangers.
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It's a much harder thing to see all the faces behind those numbers.
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So when you find yourself thinking those things, those words,
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what you might have thought looking at David Kirby,
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I ask you instead,
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think son,
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or think brother,
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think friend
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and most importantly, think human.
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Seek education when faced with ignorance,
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and always be mindful,
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and always be compassionate.
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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