Doris Kearns Goodwin: What we can learn from past presidents

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So, indeed, I have spent my life
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looking into the lives of presidents who are no longer alive.
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Waking up with Abraham Lincoln in the morning,
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thinking of Franklin Roosevelt when I went to bed at night.
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But when I try and think about what I've learned
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about the meaning in life, my mind keeps wandering back
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to a seminar that I took when I was a graduate student at Harvard
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with the great psychologist Erik Erikson.
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He taught us that the richest and fullest lives
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attempt to achieve an inner balance between three realms:
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work, love and play.
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And that to pursue one realm to the disregard of the other,
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is to open oneself to ultimate sadness in older age.
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Whereas to pursue all three with equal dedication,
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is to make possible a life filled not only with achievement,
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but with serenity.
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So since I tell stories, let me look back
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on the lives of two of the presidents I've studied to illustrate this point --
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Abraham Lincoln and Lyndon Johnson.
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As for that first sphere of work,
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I think what Abraham Lincoln's life suggests
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is that fierce ambition is a good thing.
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He had a huge ambition.
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But it wasn't simply for office or power or celebrity or fame --
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what it was for was to accomplish something worthy enough in life
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so that he could make the world a little better place for his having lived in it.
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Even as a child, it seemed, Lincoln dreamed heroic dreams.
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He somehow had to escape that hard-scrabble farm
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from which he was born.
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No schooling was possible for him,
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except a few weeks here, a few weeks there.
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But he read books in every spare moment he could find.
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It was said when he got a copy of the King James Bible
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or "Aesop's Fables," he was so excited he couldn't sleep.
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He couldn't eat.
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The great poet Emily Dickinson once said,
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"There is no frigate like a book to take us lands away."
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How true for Lincoln.
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Though he never would travel to Europe,
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he went with Shakespeare's kings to merry England,
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he went with Lord Byron's poetry to Spain and Portugal.
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Literature allowed him to transcend his surroundings.
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But there were so many losses in his early life
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that he was haunted by death.
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His mother died when he was only nine years old;
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his only sister, Sarah, in childbirth a few years later;
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and his first love, Ann Rutledge, at the age of 22.
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Moreover, when his mother lay dying,
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she did not hold out for him the hope
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that they would meet in an afterworld.
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She simply said to him,
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"Abraham, I'm going away from you now, and I shall never return."
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As a result he became obsessed with the thought
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that when we die our life is swept away -- dust to dust.
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But only as he grew older did he develop
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a certain consolation from an ancient Greek notion --
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but followed by other cultures as well --
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that if you could accomplish something worthy in your life,
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you could live on in the memory of others.
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Your honor and your reputation would outlive your earthly existence.
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And that worthy ambition became his lodestar.
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It carried him through the one significant depression that he suffered
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when he was in his early 30s.
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Three things had combined to lay him low.
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He had broken his engagement with Mary Todd,
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not certain he was ready to marry her,
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but knowing how devastating it was to her that he did that.
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His one intimate friend, Joshua Speed, was leaving Illinois
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to go back to Kentucky because Speed's father had died.
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And his political career in the state legislature
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was on a downward slide.
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He was so depressed that friends worried he was suicidal.
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They took all knives and razors and scissors from his room.
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And his great friend Speed went to his side and said,
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"Lincoln, you must rally or you will die."
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He said that, "I would just as soon die right now,
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but I've not yet done anything to make any human being
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remember that I have lived."
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So fueled by that ambition, he returned to the state legislature.
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He eventually won a seat in Congress.
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He then ran twice for the Senate, lost twice.
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"Everyone is broken by life," Ernest Hemingway once said,
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"but some people are stronger in the broken places."
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So then he surprised the nation with an upset victory
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for the presidency over three far more experienced,
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far more educated, far more celebrated rivals.
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And then when he won the general election,
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he stunned the nation even more
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by appointing each of these three rivals into his Cabinet.
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It was an unprecedented act at the time because everybody thought,
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"He'll look like a figurehead compared to these people."
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They said, "Why are you doing this, Lincoln?"
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He said, "Look, these are the strongest
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and most able men in the country.
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The country is in peril. I need them by my side."
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But perhaps my old friend Lyndon Johnson
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might have put it in less noble fashion:
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"Better to have your enemies inside the tent pissing out,
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than outside the tent pissing in."
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(Laughter)
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But it soon became clear that Abraham Lincoln
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would emerge as the undisputed captain of this unruly team.
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For each of them soon came to understand
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that he possessed an unparalleled array of
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emotional strengths and political skills
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that proved far more important than the thinness of his external résumé.
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For one thing, he possessed an uncanny ability
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to empathize with and to think about other peoples' point of view.
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He repaired injured feelings that might have escalated
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into permanent hostility.
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He shared credit with ease,
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assumed responsibility for the failure of his subordinates,
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constantly acknowledged his errors and learned from his mistakes.
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These are the qualities we should be looking for in our candidates in 2008.
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(Applause)
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He refused to be provoked by petty grievances.
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He never submitted to jealousy or brooded over perceived slights.
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And he expressed his unshakeable convictions
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in everyday language, in metaphors, in stories.
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And with a beauty of language -- almost as if
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the Shakespeare and the poetry he had so loved as a child
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had worked their way into his very soul.
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In 1863, when the Emancipation Proclamation was signed,
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he brought his old friend, Joshua Speed, back to the White House,
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and remembered that conversation of decades before, when he was so sad.
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And he, pointing to the Proclamation, said,
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"I believe, in this measure, my fondest hopes will be realized."
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But as he was about to put his signature on the Proclamation
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his own hand was numb and shaking
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because he had shaken a thousand hands that morning at a New Year's reception.
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So he put the pen down.
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He said, "If ever my soul were in an act, it is in this act.
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But if I sign with a shaking hand,
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posterity will say, 'He hesitated.'"
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So he waited until he could take up the pen
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and sign with a bold and clear hand.
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But even in his wildest dreams,
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Lincoln could never have imagined
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how far his reputation would reach.
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I was so thrilled to find an interview with the great Russian writer,
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Leo Tolstoy, in a New York newspaper in the early 1900s.
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And in it, Tolstoy told of a trip that he'd recently made
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to a very remote area of the Caucasus,
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where there were only wild barbarians,
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who had never left this part of Russia.
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Knowing that Tolstoy was in their midst,
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they asked him to tell stories of the great men of history.
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So he said, "I told them about Napoleon
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and Alexander the Great and Frederick the Great
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and Julius Caesar, and they loved it.
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But before I finished, the chief of the barbarians stood up and said,
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'But wait, you haven't told us about the greatest ruler of them all.
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We want to hear about that man who spoke with a voice of thunder,
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who laughed like the sunrise,
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who came from that place called America, which is so far from here,
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that if a young man should travel there,
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he would be an old man when he arrived.
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Tell us of that man. Tell us of Abraham Lincoln.'"
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He was stunned.
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He told them everything he could about Lincoln.
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And then in the interview he said, "What made Lincoln so great?
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Not as great a general as Napoleon,
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not as great a statesman as Frederick the Great."
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But his greatness consisted, and historians would roundly agree,
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in the integrity of his character
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and the moral fiber of his being.
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So in the end that powerful ambition
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that had carried Lincoln through his bleak childhood had been realized.
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That ambition that had allowed him to laboriously educate himself by himself,
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to go through that string of political failures
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and the darkest days of the war.
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His story would be told.
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So as for that second sphere, not of work, but of love --
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encompassing family, friends and colleagues --
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it, too, takes work and commitment.
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The Lyndon Johnson that I saw in the last years of his life,
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when I helped him on his memoirs,
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was a man who had spent so many years in the pursuit of
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work, power and individual success,
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that he had absolutely no psychic or emotional resources left
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to get him through the days
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once the presidency was gone.
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My relationship with him began on a rather curious level.
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I was selected as a White House Fellow when I was 24 years old.
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We had a big dance at the White House.
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President Johnson did dance with me that night.
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Not that peculiar --
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there were only three women out of the 16 White House Fellows.
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But he did whisper in my ear that he wanted me
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to work directly for him in the White House.
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But it was not to be that simple.
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For in the months leading up to my selection,
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like many young people, I'd been active
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in the anti-Vietnam War movement,
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and had written an article against Lyndon Johnson,
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which unfortunately came out in The New Republic
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two days after the dance in the White House.
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(Laugher)
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And the theme of the article was how to remove Lyndon Johnson from power.
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(Laughter)
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So I was certain he would kick me out of the program.
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But instead, surprisingly, he said,
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"Oh, bring her down here for a year,
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and if I can't win her over, no one can."
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So I did end up working for him in the White House.
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Eventually accompanied him to his ranch to help him on those memoirs,
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never fully understanding why he'd chosen me to spend so many hours with.
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I like to believe it was because I was a good listener.
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He was a great storyteller.
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Fabulous, colorful, anecdotal stories.
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There was a problem with these stories, however,
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which I later discovered, which is that half of them weren't true.
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But they were great, nonetheless.
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(Laughter)
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So I think that part of his attraction for me was that I loved listening to his tall tales.
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But I also worried that part of it was that I was then a young woman.
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And he had somewhat of a minor league womanizing reputation.
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So I constantly chatted to him about boyfriends,
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even when I didn't have any at all.
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Everything was working perfectly,
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until one day he said he wanted to discuss our relationship.
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Sounded very ominous when he took me nearby to the lake,
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conveniently called Lake Lyndon Baines Johnson.
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And there was wine and cheese and a red-checked tablecloth --
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all the romantic trappings.
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And he started out,
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"Doris, more than any other woman I have ever known ... "
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And my heart sank.
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And then he said,
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"You remind me of my mother."
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(Laughter)
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It was pretty embarrassing, given what was going on in my mind.
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But I must say, the older I've gotten,
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the more I realize what an incredible privilege it was
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to have spent so many hours with this aging lion of a man.
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A victor in a thousand contests,
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three great civil rights laws, Medicare, aid to education.
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And yet, roundly defeated in the end by the war in Vietnam.
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And because he was so sad and so vulnerable,
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he opened up to me in ways he never would have
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had I known him at the height of his power --
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sharing his fears, his sorrows and his worries.
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And I'd like to believe that the privilege fired within me
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the drive to understand the inner person behind the public figure,
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that I've tried to bring to each of my books since then.
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But it also brought home to me the lessons
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which Erik Erikson had tried to instill in all of us
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about the importance of finding balance in life.
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For on the surface, Lyndon Johnson should have had
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everything in the world to feel good about in those last years,
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in the sense that he had been elected to the presidency;
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he had all the money he needed to pursue
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any leisure activity he wanted;
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he owned a spacious ranch in the countryside, a penthouse in the city,
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sailboats, speedboats.
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He had servants to answer any whim,
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and he had a family who loved him deeply.
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And yet, years of concentration solely on work and individual success
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meant that in his retirement he could find no solace
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in family, in recreation, in sports or in hobbies.
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It was almost as if the hole in his heart was so large
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that even the love of a family, without work, could not fill it.
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As his spirits sagged, his body deteriorated
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until, I believe, he slowly brought about his own death.
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In those last years, he said he was so sad
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watching the American people look toward a new president and forgetting him.
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He spoke with immense sadness in his voice,
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saying maybe he should have spent more time with his children,
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and their children in turn.
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But it was too late.
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Despite all that power, all that wealth,
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he was alone when he finally died --
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his ultimate terror realized.
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So as for that third sphere of play,
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which he never had learned to enjoy,
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I've learned over the years
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that even this sphere requires a commitment of time and energy --
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enough so that a hobby, a sport, a love of music,
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or art, or literature, or any form of recreation,
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can provide true pleasure, relaxation and replenishment.
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So deep, for instance, was Abraham Lincoln's love of Shakespeare,
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that he made time to spend more than a hundred nights in the theater,
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even during those dark days of the war.
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He said, when the lights went down and a Shakespeare play came on,
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for a few precious hours he could imagine himself
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back in Prince Hal's time.
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But an even more important form of relaxation for him,
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that Lyndon Johnson never could enjoy,
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was a love of -- somehow -- humor,
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and feeling out what hilarious parts of life can produce
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as a sidelight to the sadness.
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He once said that he laughed so he did not cry,
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that a good story, for him, was better than a drop of whiskey.
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His storytelling powers had first been recognized
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when he was on the circuit in Illinois.
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The lawyers and the judges would travel
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from one county courthouse to the other,
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and when anyone was knowing Lincoln was in town,
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they would come from miles around to listen to him tell stories.
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He would stand with his back against a fire
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and entertain the crowd for hours with his winding tales.
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And all these stories became part of his memory bank,
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so he could call on them whenever he needed to.
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And they're not quite what you might expect from our marble monument.
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One of his favorite stories, for example,
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had to do with the Revolutionary War hero, Ethan Allen.
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And as Lincoln told the story,
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Mr. Allen went to Britain after the war.
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And the British people were still upset
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about losing the Revolution,
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so they decided to embarrass him a little bit
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by putting a huge picture of General Washington
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in the only outhouse, where he'd have to encounter it.
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They figured he'd be upset about the indignity
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of George Washington being in an outhouse.
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But he came out of the outhouse not upset at all.
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And so they said, "Well, did you see George Washington in there?"
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"Oh, yes," he said, "perfectly appropriate place for him."
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"What do you mean?" they said.
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"Well," he said, "there's nothing to make an Englishman shit
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faster than the sight of General George Washington."
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(Laughter)
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(Applause)
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So you can imagine, if you are in the middle of a tense cabinet meeting --
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and he had hundreds of these stories --
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you would have to relax.
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So between his nightly treks to the theater,
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his story telling, and his extraordinary sense of humor
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and his love of quoting Shakespeare and poetry,
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he found that form of play which carried him through his days.
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In my own life, I shall always be grateful
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for having found a form of play in my irrational love of baseball.
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Which allows me, from the beginning of spring training
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to the end of the fall,
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to have something to occupy my mind and heart
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other than my work.
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It all began when I was only six years old,
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and my father taught me that mysterious art of keeping score
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while listening to baseball games --
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so that when he went to work in New York during the day,
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I could record for him the history of that afternoon's
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Brooklyn Dodgers game.
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Now, when you're only six years old,
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and your father comes home every single night
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and listens to you -- as I now realize that I, in excruciating detail,
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recounted every single play of every inning
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of the game that had just taken place that afternoon.
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But he made me feel I was telling him a fabulous story.
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It makes you think there's something magic about history
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to keep your father's attention.
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In fact, I'm convinced I learned the narrative art
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from those nightly sessions with my father.
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Because at first, I'd be so excited I would blurt out,
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"The Dodgers won!" or, "The Dodgers lost!"
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Which took much of the drama of this two-hour telling away.
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(Laughter)
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So I finally learned you had to tell a story
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from beginning to middle to end.
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I must say, so fervent was my love
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of the old Brooklyn Dodgers in those days
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that I had to confess in my first confession
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two sins that related to baseball.
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The first occurred because the Dodgers' catcher, Roy Campanella,
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came to my hometown of Rockville Centre, Long Island,
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just as I was in preparation for my first Holy Communion.
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And I was so excited --
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first person I'd ever see outside of Ebbets Field.
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But it so happened he was speaking in a Protestant Church.
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When you are brought up as a Catholic, you think
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that if you ever set foot in a Protestant Church,
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you'll be struck dead at the threshold.
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So I went to my father in tears, "What are we going to do?"
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He said, "Don't worry. He's speaking in a parish hall.
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We're sitting in folding chairs. He's talking about sportsmanship.
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It's not a sin."
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But as I left that night, I was certain that somehow
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I'd traded the life of my everlasting soul
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for this one night with Roy Campanella.
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(Laughter)
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And there were no indulgences around that I could buy.
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So I had this sin on my soul when I went to my first confession.
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I told the priest right away.
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He said, "No problem. It wasn't a religious service."
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But then, unfortunately, he said, "And what else, my child?"
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And then came my second sin.
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I tried to sandwich it in between talking too much in church,
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wishing harm to others, being mean to my sisters.
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And he said, "To whom did you wish harm?"
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And I had to say that I wished that various New York Yankees players
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would break arms, legs and ankles --
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(Laughter)
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-- so that the Brooklyn Dodgers could win their first World Series.
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He said, "How often do you make these horrible wishes?"
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And I had to say, every night when I said my prayers.
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(Laughter)
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So he said, "Look, I'll tell you something.
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I love the Brooklyn Dodgers, as you do,
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but I promise you some day they will win fairly and squarely.
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You do not need to wish harm on others to make it happen."
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"Oh yes," I said.
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But luckily, my first confession -- to a baseball-loving priest!
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(Laughter)
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Well, though my father died of a sudden heart attack
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when I was still in my 20s,
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before I had gotten married and had my three sons,
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I have passed his memory -- as well as his love of baseball -- on to my boys.
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Though when the Dodgers abandoned us to come to L.A.,
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I lost faith in baseball until I moved to Boston
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and became an irrational Red Sox fan.
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And I must say, even now, when I sit with my sons
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with our season tickets,
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I can sometimes close my eyes against the sun
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and imagine myself, a young girl once more, in the presence of my father,
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watching the players of my youth on the grassy fields below:
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Jackie Robinson, Roy Campanella, Pee Wee Reese, and Duke Snider.
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I must say there is magic in these moments.
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When I open my eyes and I see my sons
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in the place where my father once sat,
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I feel an invisible loyalty and love
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linking my sons to the grandfather whose face they never had a chance to see,
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but whose heart and soul they have come to know
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through all the stories I have told.
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Which is why, in the end, I shall always be grateful for this curious love of history,
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allowing me to spend a lifetime looking back into the past.
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Allowing me to learn from these large figures
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about the struggle for meaning for life.
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Allowing me to believe that the private people
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we have loved and lost in our families,
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and the public figures we have respected in our history,
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just as Abraham Lincoln wanted to believe,
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really can live on, so long as we pledge
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to tell and to retell the stories of their lives.
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Thank you for letting me be that storyteller today.
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(Applause)
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Thank you.
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