Live Drawings of the Human Experience | Jarrett J. Krosoczka | TED

翻译人员: Ziyao Wang 校对人员: Yip Yan Yeung

Hey, everyone.

大家好。

If it's cool with you, I'm just going to draw for a little bit.

如果你们不介意， 我现在要画点东西。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

Story has always helped me understand the human experience.

故事让我明白人生体验。

Growing up,

长大过程中，

I took solace in the books that I would read,

我从读的书中得到安慰，

and those book characters that I met offered me friendship.

我在书里遇到的角色 成为了我的好朋友。

Characters like Ralph S. Mouse

贝芙莉·克莱瑞 （Beverly Cleary）的

from Beverly Cleary's "The Mouse and the Motorcycle."

《老鼠和摩托车》里的 拉尔夫·S·老鼠，

Snoopy, Garfield.

史努比，加菲猫。

They offered me companionship as I dealt with the trauma

它们在我应对由母亲 一生对鸦片类药物上瘾

of my mother's lifelong struggle with an opioid addiction,

带来的创伤时，以及不知道 我生父是谁、在哪的

the fact that I didn’t know who or where my birth father was.

迷茫中陪伴着我。

Story has also helped me understand my family's history.

故事让我明白了 我家庭的历史。

My grandfather, who raised me,

我祖父把我养大，

would hold court in the living room,

他会在客厅里成为大家的焦点，

regaling me with stories of life during the Great Depression.

他说的一些大萧条时期的 生活故事让我很高兴。

And telling me all about his parents

他告诉我关于 他父母所有的事，

who had emigrated from Poland.

他们从波兰移民来。

Now, my great grandparents died many years before I was ever born.

我的曾祖父母在我出生前 很多年就去世了。

But through these stories that were shared

但通过这些在我们家

in our home

分享的故事，

I always felt like I knew them.

我总是觉得我认识他们。

Now creating my own stories,

现在写我自己的故事

that offered me an escape portal.

为我提供了一个避风港。

You see, it was a home that was filled with so much dysfunction.

你们看，我家里充满了混乱。

My grandparents drank a lot.

我的祖父母酗酒。

There was a lot of yelling,

家里经常大吵大闹，

a lot of chaos,

很混乱，

and I controlled none of it.

我控制不了这些事。

From the pages of my comics,

在我漫画书的书页中，

I was the one calling the shots.

我总是那个发号施令的人。

Creating my own worlds, creating my own characters.

我创造自己的世界， 自己的角色，

Sharing them with my friends and family members.

分享给我的朋友和家人们。

I thrived off that creativity.

我在这种创造力中茁壮成长。

Now my mother was an incredibly talented artist.

现在我母亲是一位 极其有天赋的艺术家。

And even though she spent a majority of my childhood incarcerated,

即使我童年的大部分时间里 她都在监禁中。

she spent her time drawing cartoons

她花时间画卡通画，

and mailing them to me.

并把它们寄给我。

And these cartoons that arrived from prison from my mom,

这些我母亲从狱中 寄出的卡通画

it was her way of, you know,

是她告诉我

it was her way of letting me know that she loved me

她爱我的方式，

and letting me know just what I was capable of.

她让我知道了我自己的长处。

Now bearing witness to the stories of others

现在，见证别人的故事

helped me put life into perspective.

让我正确看待生活。

When I was a teenager,

在我十几岁时，

I volunteered at a camp for children with cancer.

我在一个癌症儿童营地 做志愿者。

And I spent several summers after that working there as well.

我之后又在那里 工作了几个夏天。

And of all the kids I met over the years,

这些年来我遇到的所有孩子中，

the kid that sticks out the most in my memory is Eric.

埃里克给我留下了 最深的印象。

Eric was the very first kid that I was charged to care for.

埃里克是我负责照顾的 第一个孩子。

I was 16 years old.

我当时 16 岁。

He was four

他 4 岁，

and had recently been diagnosed with leukemia.

刚被诊断出有白血病。

Now ...

现在……

Despite his thinning hair,

尽管他的头发在变稀疏,

despite the shunt in his chest,

尽管他胸部有分流管，

this boy wielded a Power Rangers sword

这个男孩还是挥舞着 一把恐龙战队的剑，

and went after life with so much energy

用如此充沛的精力和满面的笑容

and an ear-to-ear grin.

追求生活。

Now, in my years of working with kids with critical illnesses at camp,

在我和重病孩子们 在营地里呆的这些年中，

I was often lauded, but that just always felt

我经常被称赞， 但这总是让我觉得

unnecessary and backwards,

没有必要和倒退，

because it just felt like such a selfish endeavor.

因为这感觉像是自私的行为。

I was given a front-row seat

我总是被安排在 最前排的座位，

to some of the most remarkable stories in human history.

目睹一些人类历史上 最非凡的故事。

Eric died

埃里克死了，

shortly before his sixth birthday.

在他快满六岁的时候。

Twenty-five years ago.

25 年前。

You know, there isn't a day that I don't think about him,

你知道吗， 我没有一天不想他，

there isn't a day that I don't think what he meant to me

我没有一天不思考 他对我意味着什么，

or what he was able to do with his short life.

还有他在他短暂的生命里 能够做的事。

And I do remain in touch with his family.

我还跟他的家人 保持着联系。

When I visit his grave site,

当我去他的墓地时，

I don't bring flowers.

我不带花，

I bring a Power Rangers action figure.

我会带着恐龙战队的可动人偶。

I've recently completed a graphic memoir recounting my time working at camp.

我最近完成了一本关于 我在那个营地时的插画回忆录。

And working with this population.

与那里的人相处。

And that time with Eric.

和埃里克度过的时间。

Now, creating a graphic memoir is a daunting experience.

创作一本插画回忆录 是一次令人生畏的经历。

There is, of course, the physical labor of a book

首先，当然是 写一本几百页的书的

that is hundreds of pages long.

体力劳动。

That has multiple panels of art on every single page.

每一页都包括了 多个艺术面板。

But it's the emotional toll that is the most difficult to deal with.

然而最让人难应对的 还是所投入的情感。

I'm face-to-face with these loved ones that I've missed.

我与这些我想念的、 所爱的人面对面。

I'm in that room again and often for the first time

我又一次在那个房间里， 常常是第一次

dealing with stuff I had never dealt with at the time.

应对我当时从未 应对过的东西。

Now I went into this process knowing full well

当我开始这个过程时， 我完全知道

how intense this experience would be.

这会是多强烈的体验。

I'd previously created a graphic memoir

我之前创作过一本 插画回忆录，

called "Hey, Kiddo,"

叫做《嘿，小孩》 （Hey, Kiddo），

about my own childhood and my mother's addictions.

画的是我自己的童年 和我母亲的瘾。

So I know what you're all thinking.

我知道你们在想什么。

Books for kids about a parent with heroin addiction,

关于父母海洛因上瘾 和小儿癌症的

pediatric cancer.

儿童书籍？

And yes, I'm just chasing all of the hot trends in children's literature.

是的，我只是在追随 热门儿童文学的发展趋势。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

But when I was working on "Hey, Kiddo,"

但是当我在创作 《嘿，小孩》的时候，

even though the most important people in my life had since passed --

连我生命中最重要的人 也去世了——

my grandfather, my mother --

我祖父，我母亲——

production on that book

那本书的创作

brought me closer to them.

让我离他们更近了。

And the same now has happened

同样的，现在，

with Eric

《阳光》（Sunshine）

via "Sunshine."

让我离埃里克更近了。

We all have loss in our lives, and we all have pain in our life,

我们生命中都有失去， 都有痛苦，

and that can be so incredibly difficult.

这些都如此困难。

And I know all too well that ...

我非常清楚……

No matter how much I talk about these people,

无论我说多少 关于这些人的事，

no matter how much I write about them,

写多少关于他们的事，

no matter how much I draw them,

画多少关于他们的画，

there is nothing that I'm going to do

我也没有办法

that's going to bring them back to this Earth.

把他们再带回到这个世界上来。

I miss them.

我想念他们。

But I take solace in knowing that their stories are being shared

但知道了他们的故事被分享， 他们被人们记住，

and that they are being remembered,

我会得到安慰，

because my grandfather was right.

因为我祖父是对的。

Stories keep people alive and real to us.

故事让他们永远陪伴着我们。

Thank you.

谢谢。

(Applause)

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