Live Drawings of the Human Experience | Jarrett J. Krosoczka | TED

Translator: Nabila Adiandini Reviewer: Hafizh Alfarisi

Hey, everyone.

Halo, semuanya.

If it's cool with you, I'm just going to draw for a little bit.

Kalau kalian tidak keberatan, aku akan menggambar sedikit.

(Laughter)

(Tawa)

Cerita selalu membantuku memahami pengalaman manusia.

Story has always helped me understand the human experience.

Growing up,

Di masa pertumbuhan,

I took solace in the books that I would read,

aku mendapat penghiburan dari buku yang kubaca

and those book characters that I met offered me friendship.

dan karakter yang kutemui pada buku-buku itu

memberiku persahabatan.

Karakter seperti Ralph S. Mouse

Characters like Ralph S. Mouse

from Beverly Cleary's "The Mouse and the Motorcycle."

dari The Mouse and the Motorcycle karya Beverly Cleary.

Snoopy, Garfield.

Snoopy, Garfield.

They offered me companionship as I dealt with the trauma

Mereka menemaniku ketika aku menghadapi trauma

atas Ibuku yang berjuang sepanjang hidup melawan kecanduan opioid,

of my mother's lifelong struggle with an opioid addiction,

the fact that I didn’t know who or where my birth father was.

bahkan aku tidak tahu siapa atau di mana ayah kandungku.

Story has also helped me understand my family's history.

Cerita juga telah membantuku memahami sejarah keluargaku.

My grandfather, who raised me,

Kakekku, yang membesarkanku,

would hold court in the living room,

menarik minat orang-orang di ruang tengah,

menghiburku dengan kisah hidupnya semasa Depresi Besar.

regaling me with stories of life during the Great Depression.

Dia menceritakan kisah orang tuanya

And telling me all about his parents

who had emigrated from Poland.

yang bermigrasi dari Polandia.

Now, my great grandparents died many years before I was ever born.

Kakek nenek buyutku meninggal bertahun-tahun

sebelum aku lahir.

But through these stories that were shared

Namun, melalui kisah-kisah yang diceritakan

di rumah kami,

in our home

I always felt like I knew them.

aku selalu merasa mengenali mereka.

Now creating my own stories,

Menciptakan kisahku sendiri

memberiku cara untuk melarikan diri.

that offered me an escape portal.

You see, it was a home that was filled with so much dysfunction.

Rumah kami dipenuhi banyak hal yang tak berjalan dengan semestinya.

My grandparents drank a lot.

Kakek nenekku sering minum-minum,

ada banyak teriakan,

There was a lot of yelling,

ada banyak kekacauan,

a lot of chaos,

dan aku tak bisa mengendalikannya.

and I controlled none of it.

From the pages of my comics,

Dari halaman-halaman komikku,

akulah yang memegang kendali.

I was the one calling the shots.

Creating my own worlds, creating my own characters.

Menciptakan duniaku sendiri, menciptakan karakterku sendiri,

mengenalkannya kepada teman-teman

Sharing them with my friends and family members.

dan seluruh anggota keluarga.

I thrived off that creativity.

Aku berkembang lewat kreativitas itu.

Now my mother was an incredibly talented artist.

Ibuku adalah seniman yang sangat berbakat.

Walaupun dia melewatkan sebagian besar masa kecilku di penjara,

And even though she spent a majority of my childhood incarcerated,

she spent her time drawing cartoons

dia menghabiskan waktunya

dengan menggambar kartun

and mailing them to me.

dan mengirimkannya kepadaku.

Kartun-kartun Ibuku yang datang dari penjara ini,

And these cartoons that arrived from prison from my mom,

it was her way of, you know,

adalah caranya untuk

it was her way of letting me know that she loved me

memberitahuku bahwa dia mencintaiku

and letting me know just what I was capable of.

dan memberitahuku akan kemampuan yang kumiliki.

Now bearing witness to the stories of others

Menjadi saksi dari cerita orang lain

helped me put life into perspective.

membantuku melihat kehidupan dari sudut pandang lain.

When I was a teenager,

Ketika aku remaja,

I volunteered at a camp for children with cancer.

aku menjadi relawan di sebuah kamp untuk anak-anak pengidap kanker.

Aku menghabiskan beberapa musim panas setelahnya untuk bekerja di sana juga.

And I spent several summers after that working there as well.

And of all the kids I met over the years,

Dari seluruh anak yang kutemui dalam beberapa tahun tersebut,

the kid that sticks out the most in my memory is Eric.

anak yang paling kuingat adalah Eric.

Eric was the very first kid that I was charged to care for.

Eric adalah anak pertama yang aku asuh.

I was 16 years old.

Waktu itu, usiaku 16 tahun,

He was four

dia berumur 4 tahun.

and had recently been diagnosed with leukemia.

Dia baru saja didiagnosis terkena penyakit leukemia.

Jadi ...

Now ...

Walaupun rambutnya menipis,

Despite his thinning hair,

despite the shunt in his chest,

walaupun

ada selang di dadanya,

anak ini mengayunkan pedang Power Rangers-nya

this boy wielded a Power Rangers sword

dan memperjuangkan hidup dengan penuh semangat

and went after life with so much energy

and an ear-to-ear grin.

dan senyuman lebar.

Pada tahun-tahunku mengurus anak-anak kamp yang mengidap penyakit kritis,

Now, in my years of working with kids with critical illnesses at camp,

I was often lauded, but that just always felt

aku sering kali dipuji, tapi hal itu selalu terasa

tidak penting dan terbalik

unnecessary and backwards,

because it just felt like such a selfish endeavor.

karena rasanya seperti pencapaian yang egois.

I was given a front-row seat

Aku diberikan kursi terdepan

untuk menyaksikan kisah paling luar biasa dalam sejarah manusia.

to some of the most remarkable stories in human history.

Eric meninggal

Eric died

shortly before his sixth birthday.

tidak lama sebelum ulang tahunnya yang ke-6,

Twenty-five years ago.

25 tahun lalu.

You know, there isn't a day that I don't think about him,

Tak sehari pun aku melupakannya,

tak sehari pun aku lupa betapa berartinya dia,

there isn't a day that I don't think what he meant to me

atau yang bisa dilakukannya dengan umur yang pendek.

or what he was able to do with his short life.

Aku masih berhubungan dengan keluarganya.

And I do remain in touch with his family.

Ketika mengunjungi makamnya,

When I visit his grave site,

I don't bring flowers.

aku tidak membawa bunga.

I bring a Power Rangers action figure.

Aku membawa mainan Power Rangers.

I've recently completed a graphic memoir recounting my time working at camp.

Aku baru menyelesaikan memoar grafis,

yang menceritakan saat-saat

aku bekerja di kamp,

And working with this population.

bekerja untuk orang-orang ini,

And that time with Eric.

dan waktu bersama Eric.

Now, creating a graphic memoir is a daunting experience.

Membuat memoar grafis adalah pengalaman yang menakutkan.

There is, of course, the physical labor of a book

Tentunya ada beban kerja fisik

saat membuat buku yang panjangnya beratus halaman,

that is hundreds of pages long.

That has multiple panels of art on every single page.

yang memiliki beragam panel gambar

di setiap halamannya.

Tapi, dampak emosional itulah yang paling sulit diatasi.

But it's the emotional toll that is the most difficult to deal with.

Aku berhadapan dengan orang-orang terkasih yang kurindukan.

I'm face-to-face with these loved ones that I've missed.

I'm in that room again and often for the first time

Aku berada di ruangan itu lagi dan sering kali

untuk pertama kalinya aku menghadapi hal-hal yang tak pernah kuhadapi saat itu.

dealing with stuff I had never dealt with at the time.

Now I went into this process knowing full well

Aku melalui proses ini dengan sepenuhnya menyadari

betapa intensnya pengalaman ini.

how intense this experience would be.

Aku sebelumnya membuat memoar grafis

I'd previously created a graphic memoir

yang berjudul Hey, Kiddo,

called "Hey, Kiddo,"

about my own childhood and my mother's addictions.

tentang masa kecilku dan masalah ibuku yang kecanduan.

So I know what you're all thinking.

Aku tahu apa yang sedang kalian pikirkan:

buku anak-anak tentang orang tua yang kecanduan heroin,

Books for kids about a parent with heroin addiction,

kanker anak.

pediatric cancer.

Dan ya, aku cuma mengejar tren di literatur anak-anak.

And yes, I'm just chasing all of the hot trends in children's literature.

(Laughter)

(Tawa)

Namun, ketika aku mengerjakan Hey, Kiddo,

But when I was working on "Hey, Kiddo,"

walaupun orang-orang terpenting di hidupku telah meninggal --

even though the most important people in my life had since passed --

my grandfather, my mother --

kakekku, ibuku --

proses menulis buku itu

production on that book

membawaku lebih dekat dengan mereka.

brought me closer to them.

And the same now has happened

Hal yang sama terjadi

with Eric

dengan Eric

via "Sunshine."

lewat buku Sunshine.

We all have loss in our lives, and we all have pain in our life,

Hidup kita pernah diliputi kehilangan serta perasaan sakit

and that can be so incredibly difficult.

dan hal itu dapat menjadi amat membebani.

And I know all too well that ...

Aku sangat memahami bahwa

No matter how much I talk about these people,

biarpun aku sering membicarakan mereka,

no matter how much I write about them,

biarpun aku banyak menulis tentang mereka,

no matter how much I draw them,

biarpun aku banyak menggambar mereka,

there is nothing that I'm going to do

tak satu pun hal yang kulakukan dapat membawa mereka kembali.

that's going to bring them back to this Earth.

I miss them.

Aku merindukan mereka,

But I take solace in knowing that their stories are being shared

tapi aku mendapat penghiburan dengan mengetahui

bahwa kisah mereka disebarkan dan bahwa mereka diingat

and that they are being remembered,

karena kakekku benar.

because my grandfather was right.

Stories keep people alive and real to us.

Cerita membuat manusia tetap hidup dan terasa nyata bagi kita semua.

Terima kasih.

Thank you.

(Applause)

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