How we became sisters | Felice Belle and Jennifer Murphy

Chris Waddell: Felice Bell and Jennifer Murphy

Prevodilac: Milana Ruzic Lektor: Ivana Krivokuca

Kris Vadel: Felis Bel i Dženifer Marfi

are going to do an excerpts from their play "Other Women,"

će izvesti delove svoje predstave „Druge žene“,

which is created and directed by Monica L. Williams,

čija je autorka i režiserka Monika L. Vilijams,

so please welcome Felice Bell and Jennifer Murphy.

stoga, molim vas da pozdravite Felis Bel i Dženifer Marfi.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

(Music)

(Muzika)

Felice Bell: Gambling.

Felis Bel: Kockanje.

Quit your job.

Daj otkaz na poslu.

With no savings and a rough sketch of the rest of your life.

Bez imalo ušteđevine i sa grubim planom za ostatak svog života.

Withdraw money from your 401K,

Podigni novac iz svog penzionog fonda,

pay the penalty, why wait?

plati kaznu, zašto čekati?

In this economy, everything you own is worth more than it will ever be.

U ovoj ekonomiji, sve što poseduješ vredi više nego ikada.

Cut your hair, call yourself "new,"

Ošišaj kosu, nazovi sebe „novom“,

call your ex, call Robin,

nazovi svog bivšeg, nazovi Robin,

tell her you bought a ticket to the Bay.

reci joj da si kupila kartu za more.

Paso Robles road trip,

Putovanje u Paso Robles,

wine taste,

degustacije vina,

buy a Malbec and a tight red tee,

kupi vino Malbek i tesnu crvenu majicu,

eat a cookie from an LA dispensary,

pojedi kolač iz radnje marihuane u Los Anđelesu,

chain-smoke around bed and breakfast hillside fire pit

puši bez prekida uz založenu vatru po brdskim motelima

with San Diego newlyweds and vineyard view.

sa mladencima iz San Dijega i pogledom na vinograde.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Go to the water with your girls

Idi do vode sa svojim devojkama

and grease-stained bags of burgers.

i masnim kesama od hamburgera.

Sit on driftwood.

Sedi na splavu.

Sunset.

Zalazak sunca.

Remember you folded.

Seti se da si presekla.

Remember your place.

Seti se svog mesta.

Spend the night in Reno.

Provedi noć u Rinu.

Resent the safety of the slots, sit at the blackjack table,

Prezri sigurnost mašina za kockanje, sedi za sto za blekdžek,

hand the dealer rent, retirement,

predaj deliocu stanarinu, penziju,

pray God cares enough to pony up an ace.

moli se da je bogu dovoljno stalo da izbaci asa.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Leaving.

Odlazak.

Lunch on Lake Tahoe, they say, is deep

Ručak na jezeru Taho, koje je, kažu, duboko

and cold enough to preserve a body whole.

i dovoljno hladno da očuva telo u celosti.

Railroad workers, mafia, military and possibly a monster like Loch Ness --

Radnici železnica, mafija, vojska i možda čudovište poput onog iz Loh Nesa -

no one can prove it.

niko ne može to dokazati.

Ignore the math.

Ignoriši matematiku.

Odds are a distraction.

Verovatnoća samo ometa.

What matters is the chip count.

Ono što je važno je broj čipova.

The cards on the table,

Karte na stolu,

the cards in your hand.

karte u tvojoj ruci.

You must be willing to lose.

Moraš biti spremna na poraz.

Jennifer Murphy: When the dream was a notion,

Dženifer Marfi: Kada je san bio pojam,

it lived in the desert

živeo je u pustinji

near Edwards Air Force Base, where NASA tested space ships.

blizu vazdušne baze Edvards, gde je NASA testirala svemirske brodove.

It fed on cactus and stars, but it kept being delayed.

Hranio se kaktusom i zvezdama, ali je stalno odlagan.

"It's not time," they said.

„Nije još vreme“, govorili su.

The dream grew impatient,

San je postajao sve nestrpljiviji,

broke water, extracted from its mother in a bed of wrecked strawberries.

probušio vodenjak, odvojio se od majke iz postelje uništenih jagoda.

As a teenager, it cried, took endless drives over the grapevine

Kao tinejdžer, plakao je, beskonačno se vozio kroz vinovu lozu

out of a town ripe with oranges and silence,

iz grada prepunog narandži i tišine.

"Get me out of here," it begged.

„Vodi me odavde“, preklinjao je.

It was so tiny and delicate, you feared for its life.

Bio je tako mali i nežan da ste se bojali za njegov život.

It seemed a butterfly might land on its face and crush it.

Činilo se da leptir može sleteti na njegovo lice i razbiti ga.

It frightened you to love something so much.

Plašilo vas je da nešto toliko volite.

Later it rebelled, got drunk,

Kasnije se pobunio, napio,

handcuffed for urinating whiskey on your neighbor's rose bushes.

zarobljen je zbog uriniranja viskija na komšijino žbunje.

The dream had issues, needs.

San je imao problema, potreba.

"Don't ignore me," it screamed.

„Ne ignoriši me“, vikao je.

It needed skyscrapers and nicotine,

Bili su mu potrebni neboderi i nikotin,

needed to stay home reading the "Easter Parade"

trebalo mu je da ostane kući i čita „Uskršnju paradu“

instead of going to its job as a waitress at a restaurant

umesto da ide na posao kao konobarica u restoranu

where it could not afford the food.

gde ne može ni hranu priuštiti.

It was a dream, for Christ's sake, it had better things to do.

To je bio san, pobogu; imao je pametnijeg posla.

It had to write, pray, dispatch fleets of messages to God

Morao je da piše, moli se, šalje flotu poruka bogu

about how to make itself known in daylight.

o tome kako da se pojavi na svetlosti dana.

All its life, the dream made plans.

Celog svog života, san je pravio planove.

It planned to write, publish, get rich, publish,

Planirao je da piše, objavljuje, obogati se, objavljuje,

have sex with reckless, attractive men in the backseats of taxis,

ima seksualne odnose sa opasnim, privlačnim muškarcima

na zadnjem sedištu taksija,

yes, that happened -- no, it didn't.

da, to se desilo - ne, nije.

The dream argued with itself, with the truth.

San se svađao sam sa sobom, sa istinom.

You didn't have the dream, the dream had you.

Nisi imao san; san je imao tebe.

Every single one of its plans fell through.

Svaki njegov plan je propao.

"I give up," it cried, "I quit."

„Odustajem“, plakao je, „Dižem ruke.“

Hid itself in the dark until finally it heard its name being called.

Sakrivao se u mraku sve dok konačno nije čuo da ga zovu po imenu.

Pondered the unspeakable miracle of sticking around long enough to be seen.

Razmišljao je o neverovatnom čudu ostajanja dovoljno dugo da bi ga videli.

Now it looks around for the ones who've waited years for its arrival.

Sada traži one koji su godinama čekali njegov dolazak.

They always come for you, don't they, your girls?

One uvek dođu po tebe, zar ne, tvoje devojke?

With their crossed fingers and belief in you,

Dok drže fige i veruju u tebe,

"No destination," they say, "No maps, no idea where we're headed."

„Bez odredišta“, kažu, „bez mapa, bez predstave kuda smo se uputili.“

And even though you cannot believe this is happening,

Čak i ako ne možeš da veruješ da se ovo događa,

even though you are hallucinating with fear,

čak iako haluciniraš od straha,

you hear yourself say it,

čuješ sebe kako govoriš:

"I am ready, I am ready, let's go!"

„Spremna sam, spremna sam, hajdemo!“

FB: Episode one.

FB: Epizoda broj jedan.

JM: Everyone always wants to know how we became sisters.

DžM: Svi uvek žele da znaju kako smo postale sestre.

"How did you two meet?" Like we're a married couple.

„Kako ste se vas dve upoznale?“ Kao da smo venčani par.

I like to say we met online.

Volim da kažem da smo se upoznale na netu.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

FB: We met at the Nuyorican Poets Café in 1999.

FB: Upoznale smo se 1999. godine u Njujorškom kafiću pesnika.

Every Friday night of our young lives spent in the audience or on the mic.

Svaki petak uveče naših mladih života provodile smo u publici ili za mikrofonom.

Miss one Friday, and you would hear about the poet who killed it.

Ako preskočite jedan petak, slušate o pesniku koji je rasturio na nastupu.

You should have been there!

Trebalo je da budeš tamo!

JM: I killed it.

DžM: Rasturila sam!

FB: The night I met Jen, she was sitting on the lap of my archnemesis.

FB: Te noći kada sam upoznala Džen,

sedela je u krilu mog zakletog neprijatelja.

I swear we are never going to be friends.

Zaklela sam se da nikad nećemo biti prijateljice.

JM: Really?

DžM: Stvarno?

We are not going to be friends

Nećemo biti prijateljice

because I'm friends with someone you don't like?

jer se ja družim sa nekim koga ti ne voliš?

FB: Absolutely. Without a doubt.

FB: Totalno. Bez ikakve sumnje.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

JM: Misdemeanor one: menacing.

DžM: Prekršaj broj jedan: ugroženost.

I love it when women size me up and spit me out

Volim kada me žene odmere i odbace

before they've ever met me, before I've said one word.

pre nego što me upoznaju, pre nego sam i progovorila.

The phrase "dismissed before investigation" comes to mind.

Fraza „pušten pre istrage“ mi pada na pamet.

Misdemeanor two: fraud.

Prekršaj broj dva: prevara.

Felice likes to claim she believes in science and math,

Felis voli da tvrdi da veruje u nauku i matematiku,

that she proceeds through life with logic, like a man.

da se kroz život vodi logikom, kao muškarac.

Lot of logic in this example, lot of fairness and justice,

Ima mnogo logike u ovom primeru, mnogo pravičnosti i poštenja;

real open-minded play.

predstava veoma otvorenog uma.

Felice is not a detective, she only plays one onstage.

Felis nije detektiv, već samo glumi detektiva na sceni.

And when I say that, I say it as a private investigator,

I kada kažem to, govorim to kao privatni detektiv

licensed in the state of New York.

sa dozvolom države Njujork.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

FB: Sherlock Holmes doesn't need a license.

FB: Šerloku Holmsu ne treba dozvola.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

He solves crime. So do I.

On rešava zločine. Kao i ja.

Using science and my intuition.

Koristeći nauku i svoju intuiciju.

Everything I know about detective work, I learned on TV.

Sve što znam o detektivskom poslu, naučila sam na TV-u.

JM: Episode two.

DžM: Epizoda broj dva.

How we became sisters.

Kako smo postale sestre.

FB: Right, so about a year later,

FB: Da, pa posle godinu dana,

Jen and I were invited to read poems in the basement of Two Boots pizzeria.

Džen i ja smo bile pozvane da čitamo pesme u podrumu picerije „Dve čizme“.

JM: Our careers had taken off!

DžM: Naše karijere uzleću!

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

FB: After the pizzeria reading, we have a slice.

FB: Nakon čitanja u pizeriji, pojele smo po parče.

I don't know why, but I tell her something I hadn't told anyone.

Ne znam zašto, ali rekla sam joj nešto što nikom pre nisam rekla.

I spent the weekend in Reno with Nacho Velasquez.

Provela sam vikend u Rinu sa Naćom Velaskezom.

First thing she says --

Prvo što je rekla -

JM: Did you see Nacho's little nacho?

DžM: Da li si videla Naćov mali naćo?

FB: And we were friends.

FB: I postale smo drugarice.

JM: That --

DžM: To -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

That is not how I remember it.

Ja se ne sećam da je bilo tako.

In my mind, we became friends after I was diagnosed with cancer.

Koliko se ja sećam, postale smo drugarice nakon što su mi dijagnostifikovali rak.

You came with me to Sloan Kettering, because my family wasn't handy.

Pošla si sa mnom u „Sloun Ketering“ jer moja porodica nije bila pri ruci.

FB: OK, let's hear that version.

FB: Okej, hajde da čujemo tu verziju.

JM: So, we walk into Sloan Kettering,

DžM: Pa, ušetale smo u „Sloun Ketering“

and I have never seen my sister happier.

i nikad nisam videla svoju sestru srećniju.

Reminder: we are at the cancer hospital.

Podsetnik: mi smo u bolnici za rak.

There are people limping by with carved faces and missing ears.

Tu su ljudi koju šepaju sa licima punim ožiljaka i bez ušiju.

FB: This place has everything.

FB: To mesto ima sve.

There is a waterfall, there are orchids, little packets of graham crackers.

Ima vodopad, orhideje, male paketiće krekera.

JM: I am sitting in the waiting room, sweating through my dress,

DžM: Sedim u čekaonici i znojim se kroz haljinu,

she's making herself a cappuccino.

a ona sebi pravi kapućino.

FB: It's delicious.

FB: Ukusan je.

JM: I cannot handle you right now.

DžM: Ne mogu te trenutno podneti.

FB: Episode three.

FB: Epizoda broj tri.

JM: Six years after we first met.

DžM: Šest godina nakon što smo se upoznale.

FB: My childhood best friend dies.

FB: Moj najbolji prijatelj iz detinjstva umire.

The day of his wake there is a transit strike.

Na dan njegovog bdenja dešava se štrajk saobraćajnih radnika.

Jen walks from Cobble Hill to Crown Heights

Džen ide peške od Kobl Hila do Kraun Hajtsa

so she can go with me.

da bi mogla ići sa mnom.

There are moments that bond, and this one is key.

Postoje momenti koji nas zbliže i ovaj je ključan.

When there is no train, no car service, no bus,

Kada nema voza, auta, autobusa,

my sister will walk miles just to be by my side.

moja sestra će šetati kilometrima samo da bi bila uz mene.

JM: When a sister loves a sister.

DžM: Kada sestra voli sestru.

When she says, "It's time for bibimbap,"

Kada kaže: „Vreme je za bibimbap“,

she means, "I need to talk, I'm having a meltdown."

misli: „Želim da pričamo; raspadam se.“

And when she says,

A kada kaže:

"Did you sleep with my man, Nacho Velasquez,"

„Da li si spavala sa mojim čovekom, Naćom Velaskezom?“

she means, "I'm having trust issues around our friendship again.

onda misli: „Ponovo imam problema sa poverenjem u našem prijateljstvu.

You are supposed to know this."

Trebalo bi ovo da znaš.“

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB: Kada sestra voli sestru,

you are in Crown Heights and she is in Bedford-Stuyvesant.

ti si u Kraun Hajtsu, a ona je u Bedford-Stajvesantu.

Or you're in Spain, sipping absinthe, and she is in Paris, writing.

Ili si ti u Španiji, piješ apsint, a ona je u Parizu, piše.

Or you are in your apartment, sun-glassed and hoodied,

Ili si ti u stanu, sa naočarama za sunce i kapuljačom,

creating new choreography to the right soundtrack.

stvaraš novu koreografiju uz pravu muziku.

JM: While you're home having flashbacks to 9/11,

DžM: Dok si ti kod kuće i imaš flešbekove od 11. septembra,

listening to the last call of your friend,

slušajući poslednji poziv svog prijatelja,

a firefighter who perished in the North Tower.

vatrogasca koji je poginuo u Severnoj kuli,

His last words, "Thank you."

a njegove poslednje reči su „hvala ti“,

You find it difficult to say goodbye.

teško ti je oprostiti se.

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB: Kada sestra voli sestru,

it is five o’clock in the morning, you are asleep and she is calling.

pet je ujutru, ti spavaš i ona zove.

You say, "Hey, sis, did someone die?"

Ti kažeš: „Hej, seko, da li je neko umro?“

JM: You are sobbing, saying your boyfriend, the cop, got shot

DžM: Jecaš i govoriš da je tvoj momak, policajac, upucan

and straight away, her voice contains the depth and calm of a windless lake.

i odmah njen glas ima dubinu i smirenost jezera bez vetra.

For hours, she stays on the line and remains very quiet and very kind.

Satima, ona je na liniji veoma tiha i ljubazna.

FB: Whatever you need to get through this.

FB: Šta god ti treba da prođeš kroz ovo.

JM: When she says, "Let's see each other this week,"

DžM: Kada kaže: „Hajde da se vidimo ove nedelje“,

she means, "Let's cancel and talk on the phone instead."

misli: „Hajde da otkažemo i umesto toga pričamo telefonom.''

When she says,

Kada kaže:

"This thing Tara Brach said reminded me of you,"

„Ono što je Tara Brak rekla me podsetilo na tebe“,

she means it reminded her of her and then you.

misli da ju je podsetilo prvo na samu sebe, pa onda na tebe.

It means she's been doing guided meditations again,

To znači da je ponovo radila vođenu meditaciju

is about to drop some spiritual-wisdom-type shit

i da će izbaciti neko sranje duhovno-mudrog tipa

about radical acceptance, ergo --

o radikalnom prihvatanju, stoga -

FB: The only way to live is by accepting each minute as an unrepeatable miracle.

FB: Jedini način da živiš je da prihvatiš svaku minutu kao neponovljvo čudo.

JM: In the '90s, you fought with the constancy of dawn.

DžM: Devedesetih, borila si se sa postojanoću zore.

It was entertaining, a sport, a pastime.

Bilo je zabavno, sport, razbibriga.

FB: What is wrong with you? JM: What's wrong with you?

FB: Šta nije u redu s tobom? DžM: Šta nije u redu s tobom?

FB: I'm not the one being aggressive.

FB: Nisam ja ta koja je agresivna.

JM: I'm relaxed.

DžM: Ja sam opuštena.

FB: I'm not doing this with you.

FB: Neću ovo da radim s tobom.

JM: Your wide-eyed friends would raise their hands and say,

DžM: Tvoji prijatelji sa razrogačenim očima

bi podigli ruke i rekli: „Šta se dešava sa vas dve?“

"What is going on with you two?"

One winter, when you had no money,

Jedne zime, kada nisi imala novca,

you mailed her flowers from Paris because she was having surgery.

poslala si joj cveće iz Pariza jer je bila na operaciji.

One spring in your deepest heartbreak

Jednog proleća tokom najgoreg raskida

she stood with you in the rain on Fulton Street.

stajala je sa tobom na kiši u ulici Fulton.

FB: This isn't your dream, sis.

FB: To nije tvoj san, seko.

You can leave him.

Možeš da ga ostaviš.

JM: One winter, one spring, two decades, two women, one dream.

DžM: Jedna zima, jedno proleće, dve decenije, dve žene, jedan san.

Your mothers' names are Sheila.

Ime vaših majki je Šila.

They quote the Bible, say --

Citiraju Bibliju, recimo -

FB: "You are fearfully and wonderfully made."

FB: „Ti si strašno i sjajno napravljena.“

JM: Say --

DžM: Recimo -

FB: "Boy, it's good you're done with that MFA."

FB: „Dobro je da si završila sa master studijama.“

JM: You and your sister laugh, thank God that pesky dream is finished,

DžM: Ti i tvoja sestra se smejete, hvala bogu da je taj dosadni san gotov.

now you can finally get back to peeling potatoes and shucking corn.

Sada se konačno možeš vratiti

na ljuštenje krompira i kukuruza.

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB: Kada sestra voli sestru,

you want her in the audience when your play premieres

želiš da bude u publici tokom premijere svoje predstave

at the National Theatre in Washington DC.

u Narodnom pozorištu u Vašingtonu.

JM: When a sister loves a sister,

DžM: Kada sestra voli sestru,

she cheers and screams when an agent agrees to send out your stories.

ona navija i vrišti kada agent pristane da pošalje tvoje priče.

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB: Kada sestra voli sestru,

she celebrates your artistic, romantic and spiritual victories.

ona slavi tvoje umetničke, romantične i duhovne pobede.

JM: You are like young girls becoming

DžM: Vi ste kao mlade devojke koje postaju

what they always dreamed of becoming when they grew up.

ono o čemu su oduvek sanjale da će postati kada odrastu.

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB: Kada sestra voli sestru,

you listen to her read, thinking --

slušaš je dok čita, misleći -

JM: As heaven to the gods is poetry to the beloved.

DžM: To što je raj bogovima, poezija je voljenima.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

JM: Love you.

DžM: Volim te.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)