How we became sisters | Felice Belle and Jennifer Murphy

Chris Waddell: Felice Bell and Jennifer Murphy

翻译人员: Alvin Lee 校对人员: XiangYue Chen

克里斯·沃德尔：菲丽斯·贝尔 和珍妮佛·墨菲

are going to do an excerpts from their play "Other Women,"

将要表演戏剧 《另外的女人们》选段，

which is created and directed by Monica L. Williams,

是由莫妮卡·L·威廉姆斯 创作和导演的，

so please welcome Felice Bell and Jennifer Murphy.

掌声欢迎菲丽斯·贝尔 和珍妮佛·墨菲。

(Applause)

（掌声）

(Music)

（音乐）

Felice Bell: Gambling.

菲丽斯·贝尔：赌博。

Quit your job.

辞职。

With no savings and a rough sketch of the rest of your life.

没有任何积蓄， 对未来的人生也毫无规划。

Withdraw money from your 401K,

从你的退休金中取出钱来，

pay the penalty, why wait?

去交罚款吧，你还在等什么？

In this economy, everything you own is worth more than it will ever be.

目前这种经济形势， 你拥有的一切只会越来越贬值。

Cut your hair, call yourself "new,"

剪短你的头发， 做一个全新的自我，

call your ex, call Robin,

打给你的前男友，罗宾，

tell her you bought a ticket to the Bay.

告诉她你买了一张去湾区的机票。

Paso Robles road trip,

自驾游帕索罗布尔斯，

wine taste,

品尝红酒，

buy a Malbec and a tight red tee,

买了一瓶马尔贝克， 还有紧身红T恤，

eat a cookie from an LA dispensary,

从洛杉矶的药店买了点“饼干”（大麻），

chain-smoke around bed and breakfast hillside fire pit

在卧室和山坡上的篝火坑边， 一根接一根地抽，

with San Diego newlyweds and vineyard view.

身边是来自圣地亚哥的新婚夫妇， 和葡萄园的景色。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

Go to the water with your girls

跟你的闺蜜们一起去海边，

and grease-stained bags of burgers.

带着汉堡，袋子已经渗满油渍。

Sit on driftwood.

坐在海边的木头上。

Sunset.

欣赏日落。

Remember you folded.

记住你已经不行了。

Remember your place.

记住你的处境。

Spend the night in Reno.

在里诺过夜。

Resent the safety of the slots, sit at the blackjack table,

对着老虎机的出币口生气， 坐到玩21点的桌前，

hand the dealer rent, retirement,

下注给发牌者，等待，

pray God cares enough to pony up an ace.

祈祷上帝真的在乎自己， 会发来一个A。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

Leaving.

离开。

Lunch on Lake Tahoe, they say, is deep

在太浩湖上午餐，

他们说，湖水又深又冷， 尸体在里面可以保存完整。

and cold enough to preserve a body whole.

Railroad workers, mafia, military and possibly a monster like Loch Ness --

铁路工人、黑手党、军人， 也许还有像尼斯湖水怪一样的怪物，

no one can prove it.

没人能证明。

Ignore the math.

不要在意数字。

Odds are a distraction.

赔率只是用来分散注意力的。

What matters is the chip count.

最重要的是数清筹码。

The cards on the table,

看清桌上的牌，

the cards in your hand.

看清手里的牌。

You must be willing to lose.

你要做好输的准备。

Jennifer Murphy: When the dream was a notion,

珍妮佛·墨菲：当梦想还只是一个概念，

it lived in the desert

它生活在沙漠中，

near Edwards Air Force Base, where NASA tested space ships.

离爱德华空军基地不远， NASA在那里测试宇宙飞船。

It fed on cactus and stars, but it kept being delayed.

它靠仙人掌和星空而活， 但总是被推迟。

"It's not time," they said.

“时候未到，”人们说。

The dream grew impatient,

梦想急不可耐地成长，

broke water, extracted from its mother in a bed of wrecked strawberries.

羊水破了，它从娘胎里出来， 床上满是被压碎的草莓。

As a teenager, it cried, took endless drives over the grapevine

它到了十多岁，整日哭泣， 开车穿过一望无际的葡萄园，

out of a town ripe with oranges and silence,

那是在城外，橙子金黄，万物俱寂。

"Get me out of here," it begged.

“带我离开这里，”它祈求。

It was so tiny and delicate, you feared for its life.

它是如此弱小而精致， 你担心它的生命受到伤害。

It seemed a butterfly might land on its face and crush it.

仿佛一只蝴蝶落在它脸上， 都会让它受伤。

It frightened you to love something so much.

如此地爱一样东西让你感到害怕。

Later it rebelled, got drunk,

之后它会叛逆，会喝醉酒，

handcuffed for urinating whiskey on your neighbor's rose bushes.

会因为在邻居的玫瑰丛中 撒尿被抓起来。

The dream had issues, needs.

梦想有问题，有需求。

"Don't ignore me," it screamed.

“不要忽略我，”它会大叫。

It needed skyscrapers and nicotine,

它需要摩天大楼，需要尼古丁，

needed to stay home reading the "Easter Parade"

需要在家读《万花锦绣》，

instead of going to its job as a waitress at a restaurant

而不是去餐厅当服务员，

where it could not afford the food.

仅仅为了填饱肚子。

It was a dream, for Christ's sake, it had better things to do.

那可是梦想啊，上帝， 它有更好的事情要做。

It had to write, pray, dispatch fleets of messages to God

它要书写，祈祷， 给上帝发送成堆的信息，

about how to make itself known in daylight.

关于如何让他在日光中显灵。

All its life, the dream made plans.

在它一生中，梦想都在做计划。

It planned to write, publish, get rich, publish,

计划书写，出版， 变得富有，再出版，

have sex with reckless, attractive men in the backseats of taxis,

跟好看的鲁莽的男人 在出租车后座上做爱，

yes, that happened -- no, it didn't.

没错，它这么干过—— 不，这并没有发生。

The dream argued with itself, with the truth.

梦想跟自己争辩，跟事实争辩。

You didn't have the dream, the dream had you.

你并没有掌控梦想， 是梦想掌控了你。

Every single one of its plans fell through.

每一个计划都落空了。

"I give up," it cried, "I quit."

“我放弃，”它哭喊道，“我退出。”

Hid itself in the dark until finally it heard its name being called.

把自己藏到黑暗中， 直到听到自己的名字被呼喊。

Pondered the unspeakable miracle of sticking around long enough to be seen.

思考着不可言说的奇迹， 也许在停留足够久之后就能看到。

Now it looks around for the ones who've waited years for its arrival.

它环顾四周， 看着那些等待了多年的人。

They always come for you, don't they, your girls?

你的姑娘们， 他们总会来找你，对吧？

With their crossed fingers and belief in you,

带着希望，带着对你的信任，

"No destination," they say, "No maps, no idea where we're headed."

“我们找不到目标，”她们说， “没有地图，不知道该往哪儿走。”

And even though you cannot believe this is happening,

即使你不相信，

even though you are hallucinating with fear,

即使你因为害怕产生了幻觉，

you hear yourself say it,

你听到自己在说，

"I am ready, I am ready, let's go!"

“我准备好了， 准备好了，我们出发吧。”

FB: Episode one.

FB：第一集。

JM: Everyone always wants to know how we became sisters.

JM：大家都想知道 我们是怎么成为姐妹的。

"How did you two meet?" Like we're a married couple.

“你俩怎么认识的？” 好像我们是一对夫妇。

I like to say we met online.

我会说，网上认识的。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

FB: We met at the Nuyorican Poets Café in 1999.

FB：我们是在1999年，在 新波多黎各诗人咖啡馆认识的。

Every Friday night of our young lives spent in the audience or on the mic.

每个周五的夜晚， 我们都会在台下或者台上度过。

Miss one Friday, and you would hear about the poet who killed it.

错过一个周五， 你就会听说某位诗人又红了。

You should have been there!

你会为错过而后悔。

JM: I killed it.

JM：红的就是我啊。

FB: The night I met Jen, she was sitting on the lap of my archnemesis.

FB：我遇见珍的那晚， 她坐在我死敌的大腿上。

I swear we are never going to be friends.

我当时发誓， 她肯定成为不了我的朋友。

JM: Really?

JM：真的吗？

We are not going to be friends

我们成为不了朋友，

because I'm friends with someone you don't like?

是因为我跟你不喜欢的某人是朋友？

FB: Absolutely. Without a doubt.

FB：那当然，你以为呢。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

JM: Misdemeanor one: menacing.

JM：罪行一：威胁。

I love it when women size me up and spit me out

我喜欢女人打量我一眼， 就做出判断，

before they've ever met me, before I've said one word.

她们甚至不认识我， 也没说过一句话。

The phrase "dismissed before investigation" comes to mind.

脑海中闪过一句话， “没调查就定罪”

Misdemeanor two: fraud.

罪行二：欺骗。

Felice likes to claim she believes in science and math,

菲丽斯总是号称自己 相信科学和数学，

that she proceeds through life with logic, like a man.

她像男人一样，靠逻辑来生活。

Lot of logic in this example, lot of fairness and justice,

在这部剧里，有许多公平正义，

real open-minded play.

是一部发人深思的剧。

Felice is not a detective, she only plays one onstage.

菲丽斯不是侦探， 那只是她在舞台上的角色。

And when I say that, I say it as a private investigator,

我是作为一名私家侦探说这话的，

licensed in the state of New York.

我的执照是纽约州发的。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

FB: Sherlock Holmes doesn't need a license.

FB：你觉得夏洛克·福尔摩斯 需要执照吗？

(Laughter)

（笑声）

He solves crime. So do I.

他是犯罪克星，我也是。

Using science and my intuition.

依靠科学和我的直觉。

Everything I know about detective work, I learned on TV.

我所知道的侦探知识， 都是从电视上学的。

JM: Episode two.

JM：第二集。

How we became sisters.

我们是如何成为姐妹的。

FB: Right, so about a year later,

FB：是的，差不多一年以后。

Jen and I were invited to read poems in the basement of Two Boots pizzeria.

珍和我被请去读诗， 在“双靴”披萨店的地下室。

JM: Our careers had taken off!

JM：我们开始飞黄腾达了！

(Laughter)

（笑声）

FB: After the pizzeria reading, we have a slice.

FB：读完之后， 我们分到了一块披萨。

I don't know why, but I tell her something I hadn't told anyone.

不知道为什么，我告诉她一些 从未告诉过别人的事情。

I spent the weekend in Reno with Nacho Velasquez.

我跟纳齐沃·维拉斯开兹在里诺 度过了一个周末。

First thing she says --

她说的第一件事就是……

JM: Did you see Nacho's little nacho?

JM：你有没有看到他的小纳齐沃？

FB: And we were friends.

FB：我们是普通朋友。

JM: That --

JM：这……

(Laughter)

（笑声）

That is not how I remember it.

这……跟我记得的可不一样。

In my mind, we became friends after I was diagnosed with cancer.

我的印象中，我们成为朋友 是在我被诊断出癌症之后。

You came with me to Sloan Kettering, because my family wasn't handy.

你跟我一起去斯隆·凯特琳癌症中心， 因为我的家人帮不上忙。

FB: OK, let's hear that version.

FB：好的，我们来听这个版本。

JM: So, we walk into Sloan Kettering,

JM：我们走进斯隆·凯特琳中心，

and I have never seen my sister happier.

我从未见过我姐妹如此开心。

Reminder: we are at the cancer hospital.

别忘了，我们可是在一家 癌症治疗中心。

There are people limping by with carved faces and missing ears.

到处都是步履蹒跚的病人， 脸上伤痕累累，有的连耳朵都没有。

FB: This place has everything.

FB：这里什么都有。

There is a waterfall, there are orchids, little packets of graham crackers.

有瀑布，有兰花， 还有一袋袋的全面饼干·。

JM: I am sitting in the waiting room, sweating through my dress,

JM：我坐在候诊室里，大汗淋漓，

she's making herself a cappuccino.

她给自己做了一杯卡布奇诺。

FB: It's delicious.

FB：味道不错哦。

JM: I cannot handle you right now.

JM：我真是受不了你。

FB: Episode three.

FB：第三集。

JM: Six years after we first met.

JM：我们认识6年后。

FB: My childhood best friend dies.

FB：我儿时最好的朋友去世了。

The day of his wake there is a transit strike.

在守灵那天， 发生了交通系统大罢工。

Jen walks from Cobble Hill to Crown Heights

珍要从科布尔山走到皇冠高地，

so she can go with me.

为了陪我一起。

There are moments that bond, and this one is key.

我们小时候有一群小伙伴， 这位是关键人物。

When there is no train, no car service, no bus,

当时没有城铁，没有租车服务， 没有公交车，

my sister will walk miles just to be by my side.

我的姐妹走了很远的路， 只是为了陪在我左右。

JM: When a sister loves a sister.

JM：姐妹情深。

When she says, "It's time for bibimbap,"

当她说，“我想吃韩国拌饭了，”

she means, "I need to talk, I'm having a meltdown."

她其实是说，“我想找人聊聊， 我快崩溃了。”

And when she says,

当她说，

"Did you sleep with my man, Nacho Velasquez,"

“你有没有跟我的男人， 纳齐沃·维拉斯睡过，”

she means, "I'm having trust issues around our friendship again.

她其实是说，“我对我们的 友谊又产生了怀疑。

You are supposed to know this."

你本应该知道的。”

(Laughter)

（笑声）

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB：姐妹情深，

you are in Crown Heights and she is in Bedford-Stuyvesant.

你在皇冠高地， 而她在贝德福德-斯代沃森特。

Or you're in Spain, sipping absinthe, and she is in Paris, writing.

或者你在西班牙喝苦艾酒， 她在巴黎写作。

Or you are in your apartment, sun-glassed and hoodied,

或者你在公寓， 戴着墨镜穿着帽衫，

creating new choreography to the right soundtrack.

为一段优美的配乐编舞。

JM: While you're home having flashbacks to 9/11,

JM：而你可能在家回想“9·11”时，

listening to the last call of your friend,

你接到朋友最后一通电话，

a firefighter who perished in the North Tower.

他是一名牺牲在北塔的消防员。

His last words, "Thank you."

他最后的一句话是，“谢谢你。”

You find it difficult to say goodbye.

你发现道别是如此艰难的一件事情。

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB：姐妹情深，

it is five o’clock in the morning, you are asleep and she is calling.

早上5点，你还在梦乡， 她打来电话。

You say, "Hey, sis, did someone die?"

你说，“嘿，姐们儿， 是有人去世了吗？”

JM: You are sobbing, saying your boyfriend, the cop, got shot

JM：你哽咽着说，你的男朋友， 当警察的那个，中枪了，

and straight away, her voice contains the depth and calm of a windless lake.

马上，她的声音就变得 如无风的湖水般平静而深邃。

For hours, she stays on the line and remains very quiet and very kind.

接下来的几个小时，电话那头的她 都非常安静，非常温和。

FB: Whatever you need to get through this.

FB：只要能帮你挺过去。

JM: When she says, "Let's see each other this week,"

JM：当她说，“我们这周见一面吧，”

she means, "Let's cancel and talk on the phone instead."

她的意思是，“我们不要见了， 在电话上聊就好了。”

When she says,

当她说，

“塔拉·布兰奇说的那件事 让我想起了你，”

"This thing Tara Brach said reminded me of you,"

she means it reminded her of her and then you.

她的意思是，那件事让她想起了塔拉， 然后想起了我。

It means she's been doing guided meditations again,

也就是说她又开始 在指导下进行冥想了，

is about to drop some spiritual-wisdom-type shit

尽说些精神啦，智慧啦之类的事情，

about radical acceptance, ergo --

又或者是激进的接受啦，因此——

FB: The only way to live is by accepting each minute as an unrepeatable miracle.

FB：生存的唯一方式就是把每一分钟 都当作无法重复的奇迹。

JM: In the '90s, you fought with the constancy of dawn.

JM：在90年代，你整夜不睡， 与黎明的到来不停抗争。

It was entertaining, a sport, a pastime.

娱乐、运动、消遣。

FB: What is wrong with you? JM: What's wrong with you?

FB：你是有什么毛病？ JM：有毛病的是你吧？

FB: I'm not the one being aggressive.

FB：我又不是情绪激烈的那个。 JM：不知道你在说什么，我很放松啊。

JM: I'm relaxed.

FB: I'm not doing this with you.

FB：我不跟你争了。

JM: Your wide-eyed friends would raise their hands and say,

JM：你那些吃惊的朋友们会举手问，

"What is going on with you two?"

“你们俩这是怎么了？”

One winter, when you had no money,

某年冬天，你身无分文，

you mailed her flowers from Paris because she was having surgery.

却从巴黎寄花给她， 因为她要做手术。

One spring in your deepest heartbreak

某个春天，你最心碎的时刻，

she stood with you in the rain on Fulton Street.

她跟你并肩站在雨中的富尔顿街。

FB: This isn't your dream, sis.

FB：他不是你的梦中情人，姐们儿。

You can leave him.

你可以离开他。

JM: One winter, one spring, two decades, two women, one dream.

JM：冬天，春天，20年， 2个女人，1个梦想。

Your mothers' names are Sheila.

你母亲的名字叫希拉。

They quote the Bible, say --

他们引用圣经，说，

FB: "You are fearfully and wonderfully made."

FB：“你是无畏和美妙的造物。”

JM: Say --

JM：说——

FB: "Boy, it's good you're done with that MFA."

FB：“天哪，你终于拿到 艺术创作硕士了。”

JM: You and your sister laugh, thank God that pesky dream is finished,

JM：你和你的姐妹大笑， 感谢上帝这个烦人的梦想终于实现了，

now you can finally get back to peeling potatoes and shucking corn.

你终于可以回家削土豆，掰玉米了。

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB：姐妹情深，

you want her in the audience when your play premieres

你会希望她坐在观众席中，

at the National Theatre in Washington DC.

看你在华盛顿国家剧院首演。

JM: When a sister loves a sister,

JM：姐妹情深，

she cheers and screams when an agent agrees to send out your stories.

她会为了代理人答应 发表你的文章而欢呼雀跃。

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB：姐妹情深，

she celebrates your artistic, romantic and spiritual victories.

她会为你的艺术上， 感情上和精神上的胜利而欢呼。

JM: You are like young girls becoming

JM：你就像年轻的姑娘一样，

what they always dreamed of becoming when they grew up.

成为了她们在成长过程中 一直梦想要成为的样子。

FB: When a sister loves a sister,

FB：姐妹情深，

you listen to her read, thinking --

你听她读诗，想着——

JM: As heaven to the gods is poetry to the beloved.

JM：就像天堂对众神， 诗歌给爱人。

(Applause)

（掌声）

JM: Love you.

JM：爱你。

(Applause)

（掌声）