The Alchemy of Pop | Kesha | TED

翻译人员: Sue Lu 校对人员: Yanyan Hong

Welcome, ladies and gentlemen, to the Alchemy of Pop.

女士们、先生们，欢迎来听 我的演讲《流行音乐的炼金术》。

What else in the world can change your mind,

世上还有什么能够改变你的想法，

can change your mood,

改变你的心情，

can change your entire energetic frequency in 3.5 minutes?

能在短短三分半 改变你所有能量频率？

For me, that's pop music.

对我来说，只有流行音乐，

And for me, that's alchemy.

它具有炼金术般的魔力。

I'm Kesha, and I am a pop star.

我是凯莎（Kesha），一名流行歌星。

(Applause)

（掌声）

I'm a singer, I'm a songwriter,

我是歌手、作曲家、

I'm an activist, and I'm a surprisingly good scuba diver,

活动家，一位很棒的潜水员，

amongst many other things.

还擅长其他很多事项。

But the thing that drives me the most in this life is to write pop songs.

但我这辈子最大的动力 就是写流行歌曲。

And let me tell you why.

让我告诉你为什么。

For me, songwriting and scuba diving are actually very similar.

歌曲创作和潜水非常相似。

When I go diving, I like to go deep.

当我潜水时，我喜欢潜得很深。

I just jump right in that bitch.

我直接就跳进去。

And I am a cave diver,

我还是洞穴潜水员，

so I go in and I see this looming darkness,

我潜水后看到这片阴森的黑暗，

and I swim right into it,

就直接游进洞穴，

and I look behind every corner,

探查每个角落，

I leave no stone unturned.

不遗漏任何地方。

That's where the exciting shit happens.

这里才会有超刺激的事情发生。

When I'm writing a song, I also like to go deep.

当我写歌时，我也喜欢深入其中，

I like to explore my deepest, darkest thoughts.

喜欢探索我最深刻黑暗的思想，

This is also where the exciting shit happens.

这里才会有超刺激的体验出现。

This is where I find my truth.

这是我找到真理的地方。

Songwriting is a direct line of communication with the truth.

歌曲创作是与真理直接沟通的桥梁。

In song you can say things you can't say out loud to anybody else.

在歌中，你能说出 无法对别人大声说出的话，

Not your friends,

哪怕是对你的朋友，

not your therapist, not your mom.

治疗师，甚至你的母亲。

When I'm feeling anything intensely, I know it's time for me to write a song.

当我感受强烈情绪时， 我就知道是写歌的时候了。

I don't hide from my emotions.

我不会掩饰自己的情感，

I dive into them.

我会潜入其中。

You can write a song and you can not tell the truth,

你可以写歌而不道出真相，

but your song will suck.

但你的歌会很烂。

So if you would like to write a good song, you have to be honest.

如果想写首好歌，你必须诚实。

You have to sit with yourself and let your truth come,

你得面对自己，流露真情，

whatever it is.

无论它是什么。

This sounds simple,

这听起来很简单，

but where it can lead is profound.

但它能带来深远影响。

Songwriting teaches you that all emotions are valid, deserving of curiosity

歌曲创作教会你， 所有情感都是合理的，值得探索，

and deserving of a voice.

值得倾诉。

The song called "Tik Tok,"

那首名为《Tik Tok》的歌

I wrote that when I was 21.

是我 21 岁时写的。

Yeah.

是啊，

(Applause)

（掌声）

It was way before the app.

远早于Tik Tok（抖音）应用程序。

Don't blame me.

不能怪我，

I was feeling very playful.

我那时只是感觉很好玩。

I was a young nihilist.

我曾是年轻的虚无主义者，

I didn't have too many problems at the time.

当时并没遇到太多问题，

That was so fucking nice.

感觉真 TMD 太棒了。

And the dumber the lyrics got,

而且歌词越蠢，

the better the song got.

歌曲就越好听。

And I thought these feelings,

我曾觉得这些情感，

they were kind of frivolous.

有点轻浮，

They were just a guilty pleasure.

只是一种罪恶的快感。

But those exact emotions,

但正是这些情感，

that youthful, playful, pure stupidity,

年轻、好玩、纯粹的蠢笨，

made "Tik Tok" connect globally in ways I could have never imagined.

让《Tik Tok》 以出乎意料的方式连接全球。

Now, let me take you to a very different point in my life.

现在，我要讲讲我人生中 一个截然不同的时刻。

It was 2017,

那是 2017 年，

and I had to make a boundary that affected every corner of my life.

我不得不划定一个 影响我生活各方面的界限。

I found myself in a very ugly litigation

我发现自己陷入了一场很丑陋的诉讼，

with the same person who I had signed the rights to my recorded voice to.

是与我签署录音版权的同一个人。

I had lost the rights to my voice,

我失去了对自己声音的权利，

and in that I felt as if I had lost the rights to myself.

感觉就像失去了主宰自己的权利。

It was very public.

这场纷争非常公开，

It was very painful.

非常痛苦，

I was very angry.

我非常愤怒。

So I did what I do with all my emotions, and I wrote my way through it.

所以，我就按通常感受强烈时的做法， 以写歌来渡过那一段。

And that led me to a song called "Praying."

这就导致了歌曲《祈祷》的诞生。

(Music)

（音乐）

Someday, maybe you'll see the light

总有一天，也许你会看到光明

Oh, some say,

哦，有人说，

in life, you're gonna get what you give

人生中，你会收获你所种下的

But some things only God can forgive

但有些事情只有上帝才能宽恕

I hope you're somewhere prayin', prayin'

希望你在某个地方祈祷、祈祷

I hope your soul is changin', changin'

希望你的灵魂正在改变、改变

I hope you find your peace

希望你找到内心的安宁

Falling on your knees prayin'

跪下来，祈祷

(Music ends)

（音乐结束）

(Applause)

（掌声）

Thank you, thank you.

谢谢，谢谢大家。

So after "Tik Tok,"

在《Tik Tok》之后，

I wondered if anybody would connect to these uglier emotions

我曾想，还有人会 与这些更丑陋的情绪产生共鸣吗？

coming from me,

那时的我，

like, I'm the girl who "brushes her teeth with a bottle of Jack," you know?

不再是 “用一瓶杰克酒刷牙” 的女孩，

(Laughter)

（笑声）

And also, who wants to listen to an angry woman?

谁会想听一个愤怒女人的倾诉？

Turns out a lot of fucking people do.

原来 TMD 很多人都想听。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

(Cheers and applause)

（欢呼和掌声）

Hehehe

嘿嘿，

(Laughter)

（笑声）

That was the first time I was nominated for a Grammy;

那是我第一次获得格莱美奖提名；

it's the first time I performed at the Grammys.

也是我第一次在格莱美颁奖礼上演唱。

And I've heard from many people going through their own struggles

许多人告诉我，他们在经历挣扎时，

that this song helped them in some way.

这首歌曾给予他们帮助。

I dove deep into the pain.

我曾深深潜入我的痛苦中，

I didn't hide from it.

而不是躲闭它。

I alchemized it into something healing not only for me

我将它炼金般炼成一种治愈，不仅治我，

but, inadvertently, for other people.

无意中也治愈了他人。

I'm now -- probably going to cry --

我现在——可能会哭——

I'm now in a drastically different point in my life.

我正处于人生另一截然不同的时刻。

(Cheers and applause)

（欢呼和掌声）

On March 6, 2024,

2024 年 3 月 6 日，

I've gained back legal rights over my own voice.

我重获主宰自己声音的合法权利。

(Applause and cheers)

（掌声和欢呼）

And with it, a newly found freedom

随之而来的，是近 20 年来

for the first time in nearly 20 years.

首次获得的崭新自由。

It's funny how you can lose the rights to your own voice,

有意思的是， 你可能失去对自己声音的权利，

but you can never lose the rights to your truth.

但你永远不会失去对真相的权利。

Throughout this journey, songwriting has been my therapist,

在这段旅程中， 歌曲创作一直是我的治疗师、

my best friend,

我的挚友、

my lover, my drinking buddy, and my higher power.

我的爱人、酒伴和我的至高力量。

It's where I can be truly honest.

这是我可以真情流露的地方。

And I don't claim to be an expert on much,

我并不自称博大精深，

but I've experienced over and over and over

但我一次又一次经历了

how you can create art out of emotion

如何通过情感创作艺术；

and through that process, not only heal yourself

而且在这个过程中，治愈自己，

but help to heal others.

并帮助治愈他人。

And I believe there's an artist in every single one of us.

我相信每个人心中都有一个艺术家。

Creation is just exploring.

创作就是探索，

It's becoming childlike.

要变得像孩子一样好奇，

It's not judging yourself.

而不是想着评判自己。

So I encourage all of you to not be afraid of the intensity inside of you.

我鼓励大家不要惧怕内心的强烈感受，

The stupidity, the rage,

那些愚蠢、愤怒、

the anger, the darkness.

气愤、黑暗的感受，

All of it.

所有的感受。

Dive into it.

深潜其中，

Explore it.

探索它。

And I want to remind you that whether or not you are free,

我想提醒你，无论是否自由，

you are entitled to your truth.

你都有权了解自己的真情。

Find your medium, whatever speaks to you,

找到你的媒介，任何能触动你的，

and let your truth come.

让你的真情流露。

You never know who else will need to hear it.

你永远不知道还有谁需要你的歌，

You never know who else can heal from it.

你永远不知道还有谁能被它治愈。

Please don't take this for granted.

请不要想当然。

I'd like to share a song I wrote recently.

我想分享最近写的一首歌，

No one has heard this.

还没有人听过呢。

This is the first time I have shared a new song

这是我第一次分享新歌，

since I have owned my voice as an adult woman.

在我作为成年女性 拥有自己声音的权利之后。

(Applause and cheers)

（掌声和欢呼）

So this song is called "Cathedral."

所以这首歌叫做 “大教堂”。

(Piano music)

（钢琴音乐）

(Applause and cheers)

（掌声和欢呼）

Baby, I've been baptized

宝贝，我接受了洗礼

Been bathing in the moonlight

在月光下受洗

I surrender, so take your time

我臣服了，你可以慢慢来

I'm summoning my divine

我在召唤我的神灵

Tried it all to numb the pain

尽一切努力来麻痹痛苦

But nobody ever stayed

但从未有人留下

It could be too much to even take

也许这太难以承受

Look what you find when there's nothing left to lose

看看当一无所有时，你会发现什么

I kept on running,

我不停地跑，

just gasping for breath

气喘吁吁

Nothing to trust in 'cause nothing was left

没有什么可以相信，因为什么也没有留下

I pray when I'm desperate

我在绝望时祈祷

I'm down on my knees

我跪在地上

Oh, my God, I'm the cathedral

哦，天哪，原来我是那座大教堂

Finally coming home

终于回家了

Life was so lethal

生活是如此致命

I'm the savior, I'm the altar,

我是救世主，我是祭坛，

I'm the Holy Ghost

我是圣灵

Pain was my ritual,

痛苦是我的仪式

fear my religion

恐惧是我的宗教

I was the one who needed forgiving, oh

我才是需要宽恕的人

I'm the cathedral

哦，我是大教堂

Let it in, sunlight

让阳光照射进来

It feels good, that's alright

感觉真好，没事的，

Touch my skin, love my pain away

轻触我的肌肤，用爱抚平我的痛苦

And, God, forgive all my mistakes

上帝，请原谅我所有的错误

Maybe redemption lies in the dark

也许，救赎隐藏在黑暗中

My happy ending's through my broken heart

我的幸福结局就在我破碎的心里

Hope is a madman that hides in my mind

希望是藏在我脑海中的疯子

Oh, my God

哦，天哪

I'm the cathedral

我是大教堂

Finally coming home

终于回家了

Life was so lethal

生活是如此致命

I'm the savior, I'm the altar,

我是救世主，我是祭坛，

I'm the Holy Ghost

我是圣灵

Pain was my ritual,

痛苦是我的仪式，

fear my religion

恐惧我的宗教

I was the one who needed forgiving, oh

我才是需要宽恕的人

I'm the cathedral

哦，我是大教堂

Who I once was,

曾经的我是谁，

she seems so far

她似乎如此遥远

I've had to sacrifice her from the start

我当初不得不牺牲她

I'm born again with every scar

每一道伤痕都让我重生

I can't control what's written in the stars

我无力控制书写在星辰上的命运

Been on my knees, begging for God

跪下来，乞求上帝

She's there inside of me,

她在我心深处

she was just lost

只是迷失了方向

Oh, my mind, look what it caused

哦，我的心，看看它造成了什么

Darkness leads into light all along

黑暗一直通向光明

I'm the cathedral

我是大教堂

Finally coming home

终于回家了

Oh, God, it feels good

哦，天哪，感觉真好

I'm the savior, I'm the altar,

我是救世主，我是祭坛

I'm the Holy Ghost

我是圣灵

Every minute is a new beginning

每分钟都是新的开始

I died in hell,

我在地狱中死去

and I'm finally living again

现在终于重获新生

In the cathedral

在大教堂里

I'm the cathedral

我就是大教堂

(Music ends)

（音乐结束）

(Applause and cheers)

（掌声和欢呼）

Thank you so much.

非常感谢你们。